life lately,
idk if i am already in my midlife crisis phase but i’ve been feeling sort of stuck for quite sometime now. the i-go-to-work-eat-sleep cycle, trying to be productive but won’t last long and the never ending self-criticism and reflection are definitely not helping. i wanted to socialize but everytime i do, i feel so drained afterwards. i’m an introvert but it feels like what i’m feeling right now is way beyond my introversion. i need something to look forward to, to help me keep going but i know it’s only for a brief dopamine boost. i hate that i am so self-aware and sensitive and my habit of just shutting down my thoughts and feelings doesn’t help at all because i’ve been doing it for so long, i don’t know how to communicate my feelings anymore at all. it feels like everything is trapped inside and when the sound echoes, it only bounces back.

















