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— important message. please read (`*`)
🩶 hello!! em here. i turned a year older! woohoo!! still coming to terms with it... i feel [not a good] weird but... i am also contemplatinf that it is a good turning point for "Change" and as averse to that scary word and what it means,, i feel it is appropriate to start anew and carry that "change" out somewhere else. perhaps embrace some parts of me i never liked about myself or look at myself in the mirror and do a deep, thorough cleanup of what is holding me back from completing what is hopefully the final phase of my healing process.
as i am sure you've noticed, i have sort of taken a hiatus from this account. as some mutuals and close friends know, i am a deeply empathetic person and it is hard for me (as well as unhealthy on my spiritual and emotional state) to cling to people or things that are blocking me my true, ideal, higher self. other aspects outside of tumblr as well have been holding me back or rather clinging to me like a dark shadow: perfectionism, doubt, anxiety, depression, grief, and other dark thoughts i would rather not get into.
and so, to break free from all that and more, i want to start anew somewhere else and tie up this "Healing" chapter in my story with a pretty bow. and to do that, i will be "abandoning" this account; you may see me here on occasion just to keep things tidy and in order. but for the most part, i will be somewhere else on tumblr. (i hold this app near and dear to my heart. i made many a memory here, many a friend - new and old, and it remains to be one of my favorite comfort social media apps if not my number one most used app. i feel free here, comfortable; tumblr is one of my few safe spaces and i appreciate everyone here that i follow and who follows me; i will forever cherish every interaction here.
but as i said, for the sake of my mental and emotional state, i, as em, will become no more. maybe you'll find me somewhere else~ but i ask you to respect my wishes here in this message and not publicly reveal me to friends, mutuals, etc. of your own. i want to leave "em" behind as much as i can (as i know that i cannot completely erase em forever). [ if you have me in your posts taglist and you see this, please remove this account from it.]
thank you if you ever sent me a kind message or a lovely message chain !!!! i still hold them in my inbox and refer to them on my worst days for comfort.
as for my writing, i will continue to write even if those posts will be a little bit different or even drastically from what i used to write. with time and "old" age comes a new mindset and more mature thoughts and wonders and imaginings. with such a milestone of a birthday, i feel my writing may not be suited for my old audience nor will i feel comfortable with my younger audience reading such deep, mature, and more thoughtful innerworkings of my mind.
as for the friends, mutuals, and favorite blogs i still hold close to my heart, thank you for the memories! perhaps you'll see me on the other side? if so, i ask for complete and utter discretion. there is a reason i am not disclosing in this lengthy message my new tumblr home. again, as i said, please respect that and do not go spreasing it and my new moniker around to your own friends and mutuals (unless you and i share a mutual.... but will you know that? perhaps....).
lastly/again, thank you for the fond memories, deep conversations, and caring advice. and of course, our fun, late night talks giggling about our favorite characters and scenarios we made up about them.
— em 🖤
