I had a talk with her this weekend. I'm not an intuitive person but I can sense people's attitudes and see behaviors of the people I know well. I am not proud of this but after noticing her exit out her text message list on her phone quickly and seeing recent texts from her ex-lover, I decided to take a look at her phone while she was in the shower. I found out that she sent him pictures showing her new look. And she had told that she had been texting this guy, but to find how he communicates with her...calling her an "absolute beauty" and "babe" ... it kills me. She kept saying that she has no intention of hooking up with him and that the pictures were about that he didn't want her to cut her hair so it was to throw it in his face....really? And she has no problem getting complements from him. On top of that, they were planning to meet up soon. When bringing this up to her, she did something I haven't seen from her...she held her head down. I think that scared me more than anything...as though it was an admission of guilt. This was on Sunday. Tonight, she became unresponsive to my texts. I thought maybe charging her phone. Turns out, she went out for a drink. I jokingly asked, "with Arthur?" ... no response ....then the horrible thoughts of her with him flooded my head...she vaguely responded back after I texted I didn't mean to sound rude. She didn't admit it until I asked who did she go out with. Of course he was there. You know, I was the one that put our relationship at jeopardy. I get that. But I haven't came close to betraying her trust since that last time. Not saying I deserve a medal for that, but I want things to be fair going forward. I love her. I even put myself in the position to be the fool in the end. So I hope this love doesn't end.
