I haven't talked to alot of people since ive been home, ahh. today has been a day.
I was out in public but i was doing great feeling good i did my laundry today and chilled with a friend at home but besides those times i was stoned or getting that way being with a friend i love the new movements album. Hella Deep, touching and hit close to home. Its 11:41 right now and every thing ive done today i just feel very drained.my family doesn't understand that this constant. Anxiety and ptsd and depression ive became the rock msn again like in full circle "but nothing changes in real Life" im still hurting and im still struggling. My aunt thinks I'm just fine and sprung back to life like. No. I just tried to end my life andIm still I trying to get it back and running. I know bring on benzos is bad but theyve always been my la st fucking Re s o r t. And you don't think i feel shitty about being in them in the first place a and reminding me that people use it as a drug and Shoot it up ecf. Like honestly i know my drugs i know that because you and m my mom sold them my whole life and i started doing them my self. Im using then as a stabilization med among the various other drugs Im on.so fuck the things you say to try and fear mongering off part of my meds that are working for me. My while Damn life has been medicated. Iwas in and out of that same mental hospital for 2 years straight. So don't tell me shit.
