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[monochrometears]

feeling hopeless

It's getting hard lately not to think about doing it; it seems to be the only thing giving me comfort. I have been dissociating a lot, i cant seem to know the person I see in front of the mirror. I look at myself, and it's almost like nothing is real. I go to work, I come home, I lay in bed, I binge eat wtv i can, sleep & repeat. I'm trying though yk, I'm going out with friends & family, actively pursuing hobbies, going to therapy. It's just, I don't want to be here anymore, i dont...idk. idk what i want. i feel guilty, i feel guilty that i want to do it and im so miserable. im so, so fucking miserable. every year. idk im sorry

[monochrometears]

i think ill have the courage soon

[monochrometears]

when will it be my turn to be okay

[monochrometears]

i hate binge eating, i fkin hate it

[monochrometears]

a bathtub and a will to live

[monochrometears]

i feel so behind. i cant even keep up with one class jesus

[dying-cinnamon-girl]

⭐️ving affirmatives

1. i control food, it doesn't control me.

2. i can choose to e@t or restrict whenever i want.

3. wanting food has little to no effect of me. i e@t what i plan.

4. i only ever regret e@ting, never ⭐️ving. don't e@t, don't feel regret.

5. i am in charge. if i don't want to e@t for a day, i will not.

6. i have control over my body. it does nothing without me allowing it.

7. i am never missing out on food opportunities. it will ALWAYS come around again.

8. i will not e@t just because other people are.

9. i like feeling hungry. it makes me feel good. i prefer it over feeling full.

originally posted by opine-informer

[monochrometears]

what would u guys consider this style 2 be called? rocker gf idk

[monochrometears]

i refuse to ever be fat again, i swear id rather throw myself down the stairs than wear a size L ever again

[monochrometears]

some small things i eat when im feeling overly hungry to trick my brain: ⋆˚꩜｡

•3 rice cakes (i prefer the chocolate sm more tasty but reg is fine too) usually goes for about 180 cal but its honestly filling

•gum with diet coke (water is fine too just a low cal drink honestly) it helps me trick myself into thinking i had a meal

•2 boiled eggs, 1 cup of cucumbers and a banana. this is a bit more food but its very filling for days thats im struggling (250 calories or so)

•anything with tajin, tajin is literally my lifesaver to making bland food taste good 😭 like genuinely sometimes i struggle to even eat but TAJIN TAJIN. ice with tajin is pretty good too :3

•watermelon, makes u feel full but dont be scared of water weight u can burn it off with cardio (at least that what i do). its such a filling fruit that has LOWCALORIES and keeps u hydrated.

anywaysss thats just mee just wanted 2 share incase someone was looking for some ideas ⋆˚꩜｡

[monochrometears]

the more i look at myself the more dissociated i feel from myself, i hate everything i see

[fluerm0rissaturn-deactivated202]

guys, im going to take a break off social media for my mental health until the beggining of january…

until then heres 25 foods that reduce hunger and appetite you can add to your diet in 2025:

(some of these foods have low calories, otherd have high protein and others reduce appetite)

1. coffee

2. greek yogurt

3. avocado

4. almonds

5. oatmeal

6. eggs (eat only the whites for less calories)

7. add hot sauce to foods

8. energy drinks

9. chewing gum

10. watermelon

11. cucumber

12. rice cakes

13. apples

14. grapes (frozen)

15. lettuce

16. pickles

17. sugar free drinks

18. broth

19. tuna

20. fat free cottage cheese

21. sugar free jelly

22. seaweed snacks

23. protein bars

24. blueberries

25. hummus

[user919188]

[1nderland]

Anorexia Watchlist

Movies

For The Love of Nancy (1994)

When friendship kills (1996)

The Perfect Body (1997)

Girl Interrupted (1999)

Sharing the Secret (2000)

Huger Point (2004)

Emma Wants to Live (2004)

Maledimiele (2004) about mi@

Thin (2006)

Feed (2007)

Starving in Suburbia (2014)

God Help the Girl (2014)

My Skinny Sister (2015)

Little Miss Perfect (2016)

To the Bone (2017)

Feed (2017)

The Brief Life of Catherine (2019)

Shows

Everything Now

Heartstopper

Pretty Little Liars

Red Band Society

Skins uk

The O.C.

[sk3llyb0nes]

LITTLE MISS PERFECT IS MY FAVOURITE OMG

(I have the link for a free version, scroll down through my posts to find the 4na movies list)

[monochrometears]

my goal bmi is 21 ngl