Mae

sorry i havent been online much ••• 199 ••• I write text posts and reblog my mood

[monotonouskit]

Ya girl went and started an actual blog that I went and paid for, complete with domain name and hosting on bluehost... I’m kinda excited for it. It’s just a lifestyle blog with no real posts on it, but I’m still kinda hyped for it.

[cwote]

be patient, good things are coming your way :)

[monotonouskit]

It’s not that I haven’t been on tumblr, it’s just that I’ve been super busy lately. I’ve had to do an entire 2D animation by myself. Then I’m doing backgrounds for a 2D animated class project. Now I have to read a short story and answer the discussion questions. Then I have to write a scene that I half started two days ago.

The writing stuff is due tomorrow. And also tomorrow I’m going to complete my personal 2D animation with sound and post effects, and I’m staying after classes end to work on a (different) class project for extra credit.

Damn, it’s already nearly 11. I’m gonna read and answer the discussion questions tonight, complete my scene tomorrow morning, put my animation on the drive so I can work on it on the school computers, and complete that stuff so the animation will be completely ready for Friday... or I could do it Thursday evening...

Ugh, time management is hard.

Maybe next time I should major in something less stressful like... drawing. Drawing and Painting seems like it’d be so much simpler than Digital Animation. Like the painting would take forever, (maybe longer than animation?¿) but at least I wouldn’t be sitting at a computer for hours on end 🙃

Also, I’ve decided to stop physically counting calories. I still keep track of what I eat (and I have a mental note of those calories) but I’m not writing down the calories anymore.

[monotonouskit]

We love it

Being under 200 pounds is great. And that was my January goal. My February goal is to reach 195 or more. uwu

[monotonouskit]

Can’t wait to have 4 kids and then remove my entire uterus. Can’t fucking wait,,,

[zarathustra-would-be-proud]

[monotonouskit]

Sorry Guy

I’m gonna change my main blog’s focus from weight loss to personal. If you want to follow that still and my desperate attempt to get healthy both physically and mentally, go give @monokitgetsfit a follow.

I’m gonna be trying my best not to fall back into the trap of trying to lose weight as fast as possible and all that.

Have a nice day.

[monotonouskit]

“Was gonna workout today

Felt faint and got sick so my plans kinda changed” I type as I cry in the bathroom.

[monotonouskit]

Might start exercising more

I’ve been feeling really lazy lately 😴

[monotonouskit]

Week of Jan 23, 2020

So I’ve been staying within my calorie deficit all week. But half the time I went up to 1800 net Calories. I never did eat more than 2000 calories in any given day, so I’m guaranteed to lose weight but man, it’s been rough.

Also my sandwiches are always 230 Calories. 2 slices of whole wheat bread, one slice of sharp cheddar, like 4-6 slices of honey smoked turkey (cold cuts) and then 0 cal mustard. Who knew mustard was 0 Cal?

[theemotionmachine]

[monotonouskit]

Roller Coaster Scale

So long as we end lower than we started, we Gucci.

Also 3 more pounds until I’ve lost 20 pounds UwU

(Also my weight loss is less dramatic now since I’m not fasting or restricting as much, but damn, that was good huh?)

[misswannabskinny]

♡ Remember to be patient ! Slow weight loss is still weight loss ! One day you'll get to your gw, just don't be so hard on yourself okay? I know it's hard but you'll get there. ♡

[monotonouskit]

I’ve changed my username

I’ve done it bc I’m basically a child (a fox cub is called a kit) and when I’ve graduated into being the person I want to be, I will change it back. (I’m keeping my tags the same tho lmaoooo)

[monotonouskit]

I’ve been trifling so hard this week

I told y’all I changed my goals around so I wouldn’t want to Yeet myself whenever I missed a goal right? So much so, that I essentially only wanted to lose a pound a week, and put that in MFP as my goal. (So ya know, I want to be around 150 by the time the year is out. Bc while that may not be super skinny, it’s skinnier than I am now and also [i think] reduces my chances of loose skin).

Well anyway MFP told me to eat around 1800 Cals to loose a pound a week. I said fuck that. I’ll try to eat 1500, plus or minus 300. Which is what I’ve been doing this week I guess, emphasis on the plus 300 tho lmao.

Anyway, this week my weight has literally been all over the place from 201.8 up to 204.2 and yeah I’ve been grooving.

Yet here I am,

at 200.8

So like I literally only lost one pound since earlier this week, but like still man.

Hell I don’t even usually check my weight on Saturdays, but I just wanted to be sure I was still 201.8 like I was yesterday (since, as I’ve told you, I’ve been trifling this week).

Feels good, man. Feels good.

[dryyoureyes-startbelieving]

[depression-healthy-carrier]

You don’t get it, it’s not easy for me to explain, but I’m not trying to be lazy, it’s just that I’m so fucking tired, I have no motivation to succeed and I don’t even know why this life is happening to me