mello kinnie

they/them, this is a vent blog cw: 149.3 lbs

[monsterisbasicallydinner]

leaving for a bit, giving recovery or whatever a shot

[monsterisbasicallydinner]

guess who purged :(

gonna have a piece of toast with some cream cheese and a fiber one brownie before heading to bed, so my body has something to digest

[monsterisbasicallydinner]

i need to keep this food down to kickstart my metabolism again but i want to purge so bad oh my god

[monsterisbasicallydinner]

*eats a completely normal amount of food for someone in my age group and with my activity level* is this a detrimental amount of calories that will cause me to gain extreme amounts of weight??

[monsterisbasicallydinner]

i told myself no matter how much i eat today i wouldn't purge but....

[prettyloafie]

me when i eated ☹️☹️😢🚫💔😭🤮

me when i DOESNT eated ??? 😻😻😇😂🏩🌸🎀🤼‍♂️👗 slayyyy ing and yassifying 😍

reblog if you RELATES????????

[a-thin-line]

Hope none of your clothes fkn fit for the new year. Hope you have to trek it out to EXPENSIVE boutiques to buy clothes that actually look good and have to pay a dumb amount of money to tailor them in to fit your new, sickly frame.

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last time I made a curse, I lost 5kg in 10 days. here’s another to curse us all again hmm

[monsterisbasicallydinner]

eating more than 500 calories a day should not make me wanna die

[lobotomycas]

*pounds a monster at 9pm* why can't I ever sleep at night

[monsterisbasicallydinner]

gonna try high restricting for a while, gonna try to start today by actually eating something tonight without purging it

[fallenfawn444]

My current existential crisis.

(sorry if someone did this before me lol)

[monsterisbasicallydinner]

i just decided i don't have friends anymore :)

with that being said, does anyone want to be my friend? i promise i'm a really good listener, and i also wanna have a friend that understands what im going through

[monsterisbasicallydinner]

my best friend just stared at me for like 10 seconds and when i asked what was up they just said ".... i didnt wanna say anything but you look so thin-"

:)

[monsterisbasicallydinner]

i dont know why i always do this

i should just go home

[skinni-ghoul-deactivated2021121]

Me not eating until 5pm, wolfing down a meal until it hurts and then immediately purging it all within 15 minutes:

[monsterisbasicallydinner]

someone please tell me it's okay to eat

[monsterisbasicallydinner]

"you need to eat something!"

"i'm not hungry!!!"

"look, eat some of this. just a spoonful."

"fine!"

*pulls out comically small spoon*