@theartofmadeline
Misplaced Lens Cap
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Andulka
Sweet Seals For You, Always
he wasn't even looking at me and he found me
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@moobdoobroob-blog
there are people out there with anxiety, depression, chronic illness, people who are survivors out there in the word doing shit, making content, making cool stuff that people like and resonate with
and im just like sitting here doing nothing??? just endlessly consuming other people’s work?? and i know i have my own issues but still?? Still.
i always feel like i should be doing more to make friends, make more of an effort, put myself out there more. yes you have nerves and social anxiety and who knows how it will go but how else are you going to make a social circle for yourself if you aren’t willing to try, meet new people. spend time with someone you don’t know that well. But, except for the moments of bravery I get every so often, I mostly don’t. I don’t try. I actively avoid other people.
It hits me worst on days I don’t have work (ha i accidentally wrote worth at first, “on days i don’t have worth”). the hours stretch out in front of me and then pass me by quicker than i ever anticipate. I felt it a lot today. So sick of this life, boring and small.
here’s The Thing though, I don’t want to try. I don’t want to hang out with someone who makes me feel alone or misunderstood, and then go home and feel more sad. I don’t want to tell you guys about it over the phone, more and more aware of the distance between us. WHy would I put myself somewhere I feel unsafe and unseen? for the possibility of some future time when I don’t feel that way any longer?Â
It hurts too much, especially when I know that I already have what I’m looking for, it’s just hundreds of miles away
what the fuck
by Hunter Reilly
remember to go back to nature//remember to let yourself reset
okay so i just edited the appearance of this blog and it was fun and nice to lean pretty explicitly into to the whole basic bitch thing. I looovve it (or at least I like it A LOT). It’s bright! There’s pink! And a font that reminds me of Barbie!! All the things that I used to believe I was not allowed to have or even to like, because I was “not that kind of girl”. But I can have them and I do like them.
“actually I can do anything I want”
I also know that I’ll come back to it later and it will feel all wrong. I wish I wasn’t so all over the place. I wish I was good at choosing instead of wanting everything at the same time.  But that’s okay. For now this is good and that’s good enough.
So I’m starting over again...
...and this time I’m not going to try to be cool or try and make “something”. I’m just going to be completely honest and put that out into the world. And even if no one ever sees it (please god do not let anyone ever find this), it will still be honest and out there. And’s that’s different for me. And that’s good.
