Hi there! Look I know this is long overdue but I still wanted to thank you for requesting, I hope you are having a great day, wherever you are and I will be getting onto your written ship soon.
Okay, I wanted to start off by saying this was a very complex ship to put together for you. I’m not referring to the ship style since I love doing these ships, it was more the fact that from your playlist alone I was able to paint such a vivid picture of you and Mark. I had considered other members initially but I ultimately couldn’t get over the idea of you and Mark, there would be so much to your relationship. The way the two of you would come together is quite distinct, your personalities would react to each other in an odd way. In any normal circumstance your personalities would clash in a manner that irritates the two of you, but you and Mark have somehow outwitted the universe and have subsequently won a relationship that is more valuable than any Swarovski crystal in existence.
Since this is one of my older requests I have added the playlist you sent me to add context to the ship:
(1) drunk-dazed by enhypen (2) shoot me by day6 (3) favorite by nct 127 (4) dark red by steve lacy (5) show me how by men i trust (6) 예뻤어 you were beautiful by day6 (7) swimming pools by kendrick lamar (8) lost in the fire by the weeknd (9) vacation bible school by ayesha erotica (10) washing machine heart by mitski (11) 0x1 = lovesong by txt (12) sundress by a$ap rocky (13) guy.exe by superfruit (14) streets x vacation bible school by xxkatunsjinsux (15) it’s not living if it’s not with you by the 1975 (16) i wanna be your slave by måneskin (17) lilac by iu (18) sweater weather by the neighbourhood (19) first love / late spring by mitski (20) sleep alone by waterparks (21) i’ve been waiting by lil peep
I honestly loved the moments of my day when I had your playlist on repeat, it was such a charming selection of songs. Though some of them varied in style there was always this sense of forthcoming emotions, each song is an honest insight into the artists, and yes I see Vacation Bible School as an honest insight into Ayesha Erotica because when you look at it it’s actually such a poetic song??? The first thing that comes to mind is a mix of energy and youthfulness that is delicately intertwined with a sense of maturity where you know that you have to grow up in some sense. It reminds me of attending a summer camp, but you sneak away from the others, holding your crushes hand so you can find a clearing and make out. This just screams Mark, his emotions are deep and he often maintains a sense of maturity and attempts to keep his emotions in check. But when he meets you he would feel like an emotional mess, he has gone through so much in his life so holding you in his arms would be a sense of hard hitting relief.
There is longing, excitement, angst and more in your playlist, which if you think about it works well with the theme of what life truly is. Since Mark views you as being such a strong presence in his life he would seem sporadic and would ride the wave of intense emotions he feels early into your relationship, since you bring him so much emotional comfort there is a high likelihood that he would be just so dedicated to you. He feels that everything is just so right and though there is domesticity and deep devotion present your relationship it would always feel fresh and new. You would both feel like adventurers who seek out amazing experiences.
From the outside your relationship gives the impression that it’s just two love sick kids who have to be touching each other in one way or another. That’s actually so far from reality, there is a tinge of angst in your relationship, neither of you mention it to those around you entered each others lives when you both needed the other to put a metaphorical soothing balm over your emotional trauma. In some ways you were both partially sceptical, thinking that your relationship would be somewhat of a let down. This actually strengthened your relationship since you were able to find comfort in each other, Mark really holds onto this. This would cause him to assume the role of the overprotective boyfriend, he would never be able to forgive himself if someone hurt you again.
The moodboard I created was the best way I, as a person with synesthesia, could represent the intricacies of your connection with Mark. Blue and white is definitely a combination that is easy on the eyes but I chose it because white is a very strong colour. It represents connection, strength and severity. It represents the intense love that you share between each other, often times things get steamy in the blink of an eye because Mark brings out a side of you that yearns for excitement and things to be as fast paced as they can possibly be. The blue represents a sense of sentimentality and connection, its like eating a snow cone it’s a sensory experience. Now I sound crazy but this represents your relationship with Mark becoming a new normal where you have accepted that you will want to be with him for what may be the rest of your life. The blue is him wrapping you in a towel and holding you close as soon as you exit the salty ocean. So what I’m getting at is that the blue represents the memories that you associate with intense feelings, like you buying a scented candle because it reminds you of the date you had at the boardwalk.
On the whole your moodboard also indicates sensuality and passion. I normally like to keep it fairly pg in things that aren’t fics or nsfw/kink ships, but it has to be said your relationship has a side to it that is very sexual. Both you and Mark have built up a level of trust where you both see sex as a moment where you could both be very vulnerable with each other. Mark is a glutton for pleasure and would become addicted to the tingles that work their way up his body when you trace his arms lovingly. In the moments where you are making love (that’s what it is just a whole lot of intense love making) he will assert some sense of dominance but will be so considerate and will always be mindful of how you are feeling since all he really wants is for you to feel something that is similar to how he feels when he holds you in his arms. This isn’t to say that your relationship relies on sex but it’s a moment in your lives where you can truly experience an innocent sense of love, even if you are doing something so sexual.
Your relationship with Mark is a clear spring day walking by the beach, it’s cuddling on the couch after a long and exhausting day, it’s laughing because you feel so damn happy. It is love in its purest form, yeah that love would have been built on top of pain that the two of you have experienced it reminds you that you were probably meant to meet in this lifetime and the many more to come. You have completed each other and as far as you are concerned you will be spending your entire lives together.
I will take your pain and put it on my heart
I won’t hesitate, just tell me where to start
I thank the oceans for giving me you
You saved me once and now I’ll save you too
I won’t hesitate for you