going to be inactive for a little while... (tw: pet loss, death)
yesterday, my family & i had to make the heartbreaking decision to put our dog down and send him over the rainbow bridge. he was suffering badly and had gotten really sick over the past week or so.
it was quite sudden, to be perfectly honest. we knew it was coming over the past few days, but we figured (and hoped) we'd have a few more days with him, at least. however, yesterday, our vet (whom is incredible and so kind) told us that he wasn't going to get better and that it was for the best. sooner rather than later.
to say that i'm heartbroken is a massive understatement. i've dealt with grief before, but this feels different. like i lost a part of me. i know that may sound dramatic, but it's how i feel. he was my baby boy. my everything.
i'll always love him. i will forever miss him. <3
max, my sweet angel, thank you for all the joy & love you gave me these past 14 years. you were the best thing to ever happen to me. i hate that i have to live without you. the only comfort i have is knowing that you're not suffering anymore. i wish we could have saved you. i wish we could have done more. you deserved the world. i just hope that you know how much you were loved by us.
to anybody who has suffered the loss of a pet, i highly empathise with you. it's a gut-wrenching feeling. honestly, it's one of the most painful things i've ever gone through. so, if anyone reads this, by chance, and has been / is going through the same thing, i'm always here to talk and listen.
i'll be back posting to tumblr soon. i just need some time to deal and process this. it's all too much right now.
to anyone who took the time to read this, thank you so much. <3
