Time for a very VERY honest chat.
I have truly been through a lot this year. Whether it was getting out of a very abusive situation with my job and getting a new better one, to dealing with a lot of things irl and online. And I'm not going to play around the bush here and it's not me starting drama, it's honesty.
I have dealt with a lot of people who have pretended that they were my friend or used me until they were over with. I've dealt with actual gifmakers on this website calling me ableist slurs and allowing their friends to do so all the while gaslighting me for defending my friend at the time. I make muses and no one cares, no one answers my starters, and I'm honestly tired. I'm tired of being ignored and my creative energy just being sucked dry. I'll keep faces I want to use and then people get mad at me and then I add more diverse faceclaims and then no one interacts with them. You have to tiptoe around every goddamn person because you don't know who's actually friendly and who's putting together a way to take you down because they don't like that you A/B/C.
I'm tired of it. I have had people who say they want to talk to me and have every reason to talk to me, use my friends to try and get back in with me. I've had people I LOVED and CARED about indirect me for months. And yes, I know who you fucks are. Go tell the groupchat about how much of a dick I am, please.
I am almost thirty, and I don't need the fake ass people in the indie rpc right now, because it's starting to not only affect me mentally, but physically.
Those who know who you are, who have been The Real Ones, know how to contact me. But most of you on this fucking website SUCK. None of you know how to talk to a person without making it a game of 'who can be more popular'.
So for now, i'm closing this blog.
I'm happy on my little canon character, and i've never felt so happy in my goddamn life playing Bl*ad.e. The serotonin i've received has been wonderful. So that's where I'll be.
You're welcome to add me on discord, my discord hasn't changed in a year, it's not that hard. Some people owe me an apology for real. Some people need to get their heads out of their asses. And to my friends, I love you so big and you are my reason for still being online.
xoxo lucky.













