philosophical in like a fun chill way

@morningveil

veil, 26, gauche creature, catholic

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i will kiss any of you on the mouth if you can contribute to this is any capacity and then i will never beg again. i am putting in the effort to turn things around permanently, and the upcoming move + getting daycare is going to be a major help, but there is a clock ticking to Have The Money Or Lose Your Most Important Shit Forever so if you have any wealthy and sympathetic cousins, this is a good link to send them.

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with tongue

i will kiss any of you on the mouth if you can contribute to this is any capacity and then i will never beg again. i am putting in the effort to turn things around permanently, and the upcoming move + getting daycare is going to be a major help, but there is a clock ticking to Have The Money Or Lose Your Most Important Shit Forever so if you have any wealthy and sympathetic cousins, this is a good link to send them.

Hey y'all, You were likely directed to this link to donate to a situation the d… A M needs your support for Help Me Move My Equipmen

with tongue

i will send nudes ok thank u love u

i will kiss any of you on the mouth if you can contribute to this is any capacity and then i will never beg again. i am putting in the effort to turn things around permanently, and the upcoming move + getting daycare is going to be a major help, but there is a clock ticking to Have The Money Or Lose Your Most Important Shit Forever so if you have any wealthy and sympathetic cousins, this is a good link to send them.

Hey y'all, You were likely directed to this link to donate to a situation the d… A M needs your support for Help Me Move My Equipmen

with tongue

i will kiss any of you on the mouth if you can contribute to this is any capacity and then i will never beg again. i am putting in the effort to turn things around permanently, and the upcoming move + getting daycare is going to be a major help, but there is a clock ticking to Have The Money Or Lose Your Most Important Shit Forever so if you have any wealthy and sympathetic cousins, this is a good link to send them.

Hey y'all, You were likely directed to this link to donate to a situation the d… A M needs your support for Help Me Move My Equipmen

#sorry for being annoying about this #i'm really out here trying #love you bye

anybody else ever fuck up easy tasks so bad you start wondering if you can apply for disability for being stupid

#since apparently i can't do shit #either i need to take a nap or my life is doomed and i am incapable of succeeding at anything in a day

actually if everybody just wants to have a party and pray for me (and my intentions) for twenty-four hours straight starting right now that would be fantastic. just sort of endless rosary prayers would be incredible i think. maybe we offer up a whole mass.

day 9384037402 of not having vyvanse, somebody body double with me on discord

you know what actually does anybody just have $80,000 buried in the yard that they don't plan on spending in the next year and can i borrow it

what's up. i have it surprisingly high on my to-do list to flesh out a letter to post here that is about being a mother and a sex worker and a dv & trafficking survivor and chronically ill and catholic and irish and hispanic as a u.s. citizen. moreso about how all of those things have impacted the What I Need and the What I Do To Obtain It and man i hate panhandling but that and soliciting sex keep being the last options when i've already tried to do everything myself and it keeps not working because that's not how any of this works.

so i have the framework for a letter explaining what exactly it is i do for work (real ethical work which i would prefer be my only income rather than "shady gig work") and how i plan to crawl the fuck out of these circumstances i'm in but i will flesh those out when i'm not actively trying to find basic needs.

tldr i live at the whim of a system which thrives on using circumstances such as my own as a trap to keep people who have no support network stuck, and to keep their lives a mess with no ways out, so the best i can do is resort to the first instinct we all have when we're born which is to Cry For Help

anyway "in between" housing and really desperately need to save some of my belongings- most of them are getting tossed and that's just fine i'll cope- but Some are very specific to my Line Of Work which purposefully also lines up with How To Save My Toddler. here's a screenshot and a link and a reluctant whore showing up to ask you to share it once again. really trying my best to stfu about this stuff soon is that none of you ever hear anything about it again besides "thank you."

this is a several year long battle for my right to sit in a poorly insulated apartment and work a soul-draining hr job and have all of my children under one roof and drive them to baseball practice or whatever and Be Quiet and Mind My Business and Not Bother Anybody and Not Have Majorly Traumatic Multi Year Disruptions Ever Again.

Hey y'all, You were likely directed to this link to donate to a situation the d… A M needs your support for Help Me Move My Equipmen

unrelated but i already wore oversized clothing but now for health-related reasons i am getting smaller and the only clothes that fit me anymore make me look like i am being swallowed whole. i look like a child playing dress up in my mom's wardrobe. i look stupid. just thought you should know.

i know i pop in occasionally with bad news and that's kinda all i have done for like a year, but i want anybody who cares to know that i'm really really trying and that for the past few months in particular i've been in turbo mode trying and i really feel like- thanks to some significant support- i'm getting so close to a Wrap It Up And Make Everything Manageably Okay point and but i'm not quite there yet but fuckkkkkkk if you've been annoyed by how horrific and needy my life has been for the past, like, two years... pls just know that i'm really trying so so obsessively hard to Wrap Things Up and pay all the support i've ever received both back and forward. this has been a stream of consciousness. anyway. prayers would be nice.

a really cool thing to do when you have already severe social anxiety is do two hours of voice work in your apartment where you scream at the top of your lungs about how you're gonna kill somebody. especially good when you scream the same line about killing somebody like twenty times in a row. feels really good to know that that's your neighbors whole perception of you and it does not make the anxiety extremely extremely worse at all.

if anybody wants to just go ahead and kill me, i'm taking volunteers

legally you have to tell me if you all secretly hate me otherwise it's entrapment

that last reblog was on the wrong post but honestly it comes from the same genre of despair

need something to stick. prayers would be appreciated.

hi i'm your algorithm that has invaded your privacy in order to give you customized ads i noticed you have a lot of misophonia related content and i just wanted to throw in an ad that cold opens with obnoxiously exaggerated audio clips of the worst sound to ever be made i hope you like it love u

a really cool thing to do when you have already severe social anxiety is do two hours of voice work in your apartment where you scream at the top of your lungs about how you're gonna kill somebody. especially good when you scream the same line about killing somebody like twenty times in a row. feels really good to know that that's your neighbors whole perception of you and it does not make the anxiety extremely extremely worse at all.

if anybody wants to just go ahead and kill me, i'm taking volunteers

legally you have to tell me if you all secretly hate me otherwise it's entrapment

hey does anybody think i'm normal

are you guys mad at me

hey does anybody think i'm normal

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