𦹠when steve is on the search with dustin chasing a âsuspicious looking russianâ, he catches sight of you. the girl in the workout class.
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âHenderson. Henderson!â A snap and a yell rings throughout Scoops Ahoy, and Steveâs panick levels are high.
A few minutes before this, Dustin was replaying the Russian code over and over again- the sound drowning out of Steveâs ear and into the other. It was like that all day, with Robin even helping out, making it even more of a big deal. It seemed important, sure, but he couldnât wrap his head around the whole Russian thing.
He was rustling out the booth, one that Dustin was already pacing out of and towards the other shops in the mall. Towards the nearest potted plant on the second floor, he followed Dustin into a crouch that made him feel ridiculous, especially in his uniform.
âThat guy.â Dustin states with his head poking out, pointing his finger, one that Steve smacks away.
Regardless, Steve still followed his eyesight. There was the man holding a bag. Wearing all black with long blonde hair, making him stand out from the colorful crowd that bloomed in Hawkins. Steve scoffed.
âOkay, yeah- heâs douchy looking. Weâre supposed to be working on the code?â
ââŚBe serious. We have to rule out anything suspicious.â
And then suddenly Dustin pulls out a pair of binoculars from god knows where that were too big to even comprehend. This whole situation for Steve was already mind boggling as it- Russians, codes, and now chasing after a guy in the middle of the mall? Scooping ice cream was better than this.
âI am serious! Iâm just.. confused.â
Dustin shot him a look, one that Steve returned back to him.
âThat guy,â he points against and Steve doesnât even bother to shove it away again. âHe has a dangerous looking duffle bag, a weird face, just a weird everything.â
Steve blinks and his eyebrows furrow, âWeâre just following a guy with a⌠duffel bag?â
âA Russian duffle bag!â Dustin huffs loudly.
âJesus man!â Steve yanked the binoculars away from him to get him to shut up and reattempted to look in the area Dustin was.
The higher tone that escaped him earned some heads to turn from the mall, alert but quickly turned away. He huffed and grabbed the binoculars back from Steve, slowly getting up to hide in another spot.
âHey hey hey, Iâm not- weâre not actually following this guy are we?â Steve felt surprised how easily he was following Dustin around, with his whole life. He told himself there was no point in even asking.
It was a ten minute chase throughout the whole mall, desperately trying to catch up to the man, Steveâs cheeks bright pink. If any girl who he used to go to school with saw him, he thinks heâd pass out and never return back. He thought he grew out of that phase of impression, but he was Steve after all. After countless times of reaching for Dustin in an attempt to stop him front running, he stopped.
His chest collided to Dustinâs back before they both quickly hid behind a vending machine. Dustin slowly turned his head up to look at Steve, eyes squinting with a smile lingering.
âYou're out of breath.â
ââŚShut up.â He flicks Dustinâs hair to look ahead to not lose sight. Turns out he was invested in this after all.
Steveâs lips were parted and his whole figure was tense as he followed where the blonde man was going. Inching towards a door and opening it, his eyes followed to the sign. It was a workout class, a really trendy spot in Starcourt. One where only the women went, mostly middle age, which stood out for why that man was there.
âWhat the hell?â Dustinâs voice cracked. He cleared his throat in embarrassment.
Steve didnât say anything as he watched the man zip open his bag. He pulled out a huge boombox and muffled a yell that had all the women squealing and smiling. It was truly an unusual sight.
âThis is bullshit!â Dustin exclaims. Throwing a fit, he slightly kicked the vending machine and went onto his routinly rants.
Normally Steve would listen, maybe agree, but he felt like his heart dropped right then and there. In a good way, he didnât know, but it was an unfamiliar feeling. But his whole neck and face creeped up in red- his body feeling hot.
You.
In an attempt to keep his eyes on the man and whatever he was doing, it just naturally strained to you. The girl with the beautiful hair, perfectly done, with your bright yellow workout clothes that reminded him of the sun by how pretty you looked in it.
The girl in the back of the class who was rolling out a mat. You stood out from all the women. You were young, they werenât.
And your smile. God, your smile. Steve thinks heâs never seen anything like it, the way it reached your eyes and the way it looked so real. He thought it was brighter than his own future.
How come heâs never seen you before? In this small town, with only one big place to hang out? You looked his age, definitely, so has he seen you at school before? He felt stupid for not noticing such a beautiful girl sooner.
He didnât even know the Russian. Well, not anymore, he was normal. But the way you seemed so excited for him to show up just had him so curious. He just wanted to see you closer. Face to face, hear your voice that mustâve been sweeter than your smile.
He didnât even know you. He felt like the earth put him there by fate.
âHellooooo??â Dustin snaps him out of it when he felt a small nudge. âEarth to Steve.â
With a scoff of annoyance that wasnât directed at Steve, he continues, âHeâs not one of them. I mean- how? This is so stupid, how are we ever going to figure this shit out?â
Steve blinks again and nods, forgetting why they were behind a vending machine in the first place. âRight, yeah. Shit that.. that sucks.â
Dustin squints his eyes once more and starts to walk back towards Scoops Ahoy, continuing his rambling plan B on what they needed to do to uncover the code. Steve quickly looked back one last time, being dragged by Dustin, just to see sight of your smile again.
But your back was now turned to the instructor, your arms held up high as you stretched. His heart skipped a beat again and was quickly shut down when he was on his way back to his dreaded job.
He would ask Robin if she knew you. She probably wouldnât, maybe no one did. For now, you were just the girl in yellow with the pretty smile. The girl he wanted.
ââ
From then on, Dustin didnât even bother bugging Steve for assistance on the code. His mind was completely somewhere else, a mix of his job and the lingering memories he had of you, which were limited
Nights passed where he looked through the yearbook of Hawkins High. Nothing. He flipped through every single one around 20 times and he still couldnât find that same face.
He thought back to that day.
Maybe if he waited a little while, he couldâve caught up to you after the class, couldâve gotten your number.
He was wearing that stupid uniform, unfortunately. And with you looking like the prettiest girl heâs ever laid eyes on, maybe he didnât have a chance. He couldn't believe how easily his heart got pulled to you, just by a simple glance from a window.
He was frustrated with a mix of curiosity, which was deadly for him. Work was not enjoyable anymore- mainly because Robin drained out his hearing as she bossed him to serve customers while she decoded with Dustin
His breaks only lasted around 15 minutes. And he spent his glory time walking back to the workout class.
It was the same middle-aged women, but no you. No yellow or bright outfit that caught his eye. He scoffed every single time and walked back to work, forgetting his break.
It was a Saturday and Steve really wasnât in the mood to go to work. His hair wasnât cooperating right, his uniform felt uncomfortable, and he knew the mall would be packed. Especially with Dustin and Robins bickering as he tried to work.
Customers came and went and he smiled every time. Tired, but he still did. He wish he could just go home.
When the counter was clear, he turned curiously just to observe the progress that Dustin and Robin were making- not that much. He leaned foward to say something but a familiar ding! was heard from the counter.
âWelcome to Scoops A-â
He felt his heart drop. He was sure it did.
There you were. In your same yellow outfit that he remembered, talking with a girl as you scanned the flavors with such awe. Your face was a bit flushed and your hair was frizzy. You mustâve just finished your class.
And there he was. With his cheeks completely feeling hot and embarrassed, and his pupils completely dialated by how pretty you were up close. He cleared his throat and immediately snatched the hat off his head, his hair poofing up.
âHey, ladies. Welcome.â He says with a soft but enthusiastic tone and a smile but it only made him sound stupid.
Somehow you caught onto it and you shot him a sympathetic look, but there wasnât anything rude behind it. It was a look that girls gave him when they thought he was cute. It was sweeter than that, though, not anything flirtatious. But you smiled anyway, and thatâs all that mattered. It was a quieter one, a smile that he didnât see in the workout class.
âCan I try a sample?â You ask, batting your eyelashes at him.
God, you truly looked like an angel. You were glowing and it made him rethink every decision of his life.
It completely caught him off guard and his heart stuttered for the 20th time.
âYeah yeah, âcourse.â He grabs a little spoon, trying to ignore how his fingers were slightly shaking.
âWhat flavor were you thinking?â
âUmmmâŚâ
Your eyes scan over all the flavors. It was the cutest thing heâs seen. The way your eyes were wide and sweet, so soft in a way that made him just want to kiss you.
âCould I try the banana one?â
âThatâs my favorite one.â
It wasnât. But the sparkle in your eye was worth a little white lie.
Your finger brushed against his when you handed it to him and he almost passed out. His eyes stayed glued to you the whole time, your reaction, not even looking at your friend who was scanning around.
You stuck with the banana and got it. Your friend got something too and she went to sit at the booth while you payed.
âI get why itâs your favorite.â You say with a kind tone, flipping through your money. His eyes lingered on you.
âThe banana?â
âMhm.â
His lips parted and for once in his life, he didnât know what to say. He just didnât want to be perceived as an idiot- but he was glad you were too focused on the money to see his bright red face.
âWell I uh, I like this one better.â He taps to the butterscotch flavor, âitâs pretty good.â
âOh!â You peek over to see the tub with your eyebrows furrowed. âThat looks tasty.â
The innocence in your voice was almost deadly to Steve.
You slide the money to him, maybe a little more than what it cost as a tip, and grabbed your ice cream cup again. You gave him a shy but genuine smile, shrugging lightly.
âIâll have to come by again to try it.â You suddenly spill out before turning around and quickly skidding away.
He blinked. And saw the way you sat at the booth with your back faced to him, your ears red. Giggles were heard, a mix of yours and your friends, and he tried not to let it boost his ego. It didnât really.
He didnât know your name, barely talked to you, has only seen you up close once. But heâs never felt lighter.
Over the next days that Steve was working, he noticed a pattern. Which was you showing up more after your workout classes, always around 2. Sometimes with a friend, sometimes by yourself. He preferred just you.
It was hard to talk to you since it was only at the counter, but he tried his best whenever it was those days where you sat at a booth.
Robin teased him for acting so weird. Dustin got annoyed bit by bit as Steve slowly stopped involving himself with the code.
You always got the same flavor. Banana.
And he was pretty sure your excuse of wanting to try the butterscotch was wrong, because his heart just had this feeling. The way you lingered a little to long at the register, with a look of longing in your eye that wanted more. Or how you asked him questions. Tilted your head with genuine curiosity as you talked to him.
Heâs never seen you before because you had just moved in that summer. Still living with your parents, still struggling. Just like he was. It was something to relate over, although the topic of parents was quickly lost whenever some flirting was lingering in the air.
âWhy do you take off your hat?â You giggle, leaning over the counter when no customers were there.
âItâs so dumb.â He shakes his head, âyou know, I had a five year old laugh at it.â
âNo.â You laugh.
âYes! And mind you, he was laughing at me, not with me. Which I wasnât.â
You grab the hat that was next to him and go on your tip toes, placing the floppy hat on his hair. It was a little tilted, but he kept it like that.
âDonât let some lameo kid ruin the coolness of a sailor hat.â
Your face was only close to his for a second before the moment was lost.
He smiled, a real one, for the first time. His shoulders visibly tensed and he felt like he was on top of the world. He didnât feel so guarded anymore, so stressed, so bummed. And it was really over simple words.
âIâll keep that in mind.â He chuckles, âbut donât even get me started on the uniform.â
âItâs cute! Adds character.â
His head jumped, ââŚYeah?â
âYeah.â
He chuckled again but it slowly grew quiet when he saw how you looked at him. You were watching him, laughing, eyes crinkled out of pure happiness. And you seemed happy too, with your cheeks blatantly pink.
He watched you a lot also. Robin called him weird again. He still did. On the quiet days at the mall, on the loud ones that were packed with a thousand kids. His attention always landed back on you, because after all, he wanted to have something more with you.
You stayed, sometimes a little longer that normal, just to say bye when you didnât really want to leave. It made his day everytime.
ââ
Itâs been a month already, and the July heat in Hawkins was starting to kick. Which meant more customers, more shifts, and less time with you.
Your classes continued and Scoops Ahoy was officially your spot to go once it was done. Sometimes you wouldnât even order ice cream, you would talk to Steve. Or Robin, who youâve become friends with.
He wanted you to talk to him, though. There was that lingering feeling deep in his heart that wanted you so badly. And not just in Scoops Ahoy. Out in Hawkins, for him to adore in front of everyone or in the quiet moments.
It was a random night when his heart finally had enough.
He was going to ask you out, plain and simple, in his stupid uniform. His mind just flashed to you, you, you- to the smile, eyes, and voice.
He knew what he wanted. He knew you could fill the lonliness in his heart.
ââ
Your class was brutal. You got a new instructor who was far less generous than the last, and he didnât have sympathy when the women around you struggled.
Your steps slumped into Scoops Ahoy with your Walkman dangling from your neck. You were wearing your yellow outfit today, which was your favorite.
And maybe you wore it for Steve. That was still processing to you- the fact that his smile had you completely gone and the fact you may have had a crush on him.
You mustâve had a big frown on your face. You could tell by how Steve looked at you.
His eyebrows were in a sad bunch, his head tilting in a patient way as he went up to your booth.
âYou okay?â He asks in such a delicate voice that it made you want to just breakdown.
âBad class.â You mumble.
He just looked at you because he knew you wanted to say more. You sighed that was unusual for you.
âWe got some shitty new instructor and he was just- he was so rude. And it was really hard, the workout. It felt so⌠pointless.â
âBut you like going there, right? Thatâs not pointless.â
Your eyes meet his and you realize that heâs been looking at you this whole time, with his eyes sad and his pupils dialated. He cheeks were pink. They always were.
âI do.â You mumble. âMâ just.. frustrated. Itâs fine.â
Your voice didnât sound fine. It sounded moody and angry, and you felt a little embarrassed that you let it slip so easily in front of Steve. He noticed it again, like always, with no shame behind it.
ââŚBanana split today? We got that whipped cream you like.â He says softly.
You look at him again like he heard your mind. Because Steve Harrington always knew what you wanted, how you wanted to be talked too, just by your face. He always made your day have a little more purpose, since at home, it was the complete opposite of that. And he was so very patient. It made you felt like you belonged.
It made your cheeks flush like his.
âYeah.â You say quietly with a small smile that was trying to be hopeful again.
He looked at you again and nodded, returning it back with more of a softness to it. Some days were more energetic between you two, with laughs with made your stomach hurt. Some days were like this, where the two of you understood that gentleness was needed.
You fidgeted with your rings the whole time, looking down at your hands as you try to distract yourself. You tried to calm yourself, and not explode over something so frustrating.
It was hard to be a person who got anxious and upset easily. Usually it happened when your parents werenât there, leaving you alone, seeking a warmth youâve never had but always needed. So when there was that day you heard Steve felt the same, you didnât feel so out of place anymore.
You felt someone lingering over the table and you looked up, Steve. Looking down at the plate with his eyes barely blinking and his eyebrows stressed, his body rigid.
Then his eyes locked with yours and he took a deep breath.
âAdded a little something.â He says quietly before placing it down.
You blinked at what it was. Your banana split was there, looking perfect from Steveâs work, always just for you. But in front of it, you could see sticky and brown syrup on the plate.
âDo you want to go out?â
You couldnât even believe it. Steve Harrington, whose eyes always gleamed around you, who took everything you said with the utmost attention, was asking you out.
Through chocolate syrup.
A smile was already creeping on your face and on the process of hurting. You looked up at him and almost melted at his face. So nervous, so patient.
Just there. Like how he was when he talked to you for the first time.
In a shy tone and with your eyes slightly watering, you said, âSteveâŚâ
âYeah?â He croaked out.
You jumped out the booth and hugged him. You heard his breath hitch and felt his eyelashes flutter against your neck, his breath shaking against your skin. It was the best feeling ever. He was so warm and his body enveloped into yours like it was the easiest thing heâs ever done.
âYes.â You giggle while pulling away.
And thatâs the closest youâve been to him. You wanted to stay like that, until it your feet were planted on the ground. You donât think youâve ever seen his eyes look at the way he was now. Awe.
âYes?â He breaths out in relief.
You nod multiple times and you couldnât stop letting out small giggles.
âYou asked me through chocolate syrup.â
âYou like chocolate syrup.â
The funny thing was is that his arms never let you go. They grew even tighter around you, and your arms slid around his neck, there and stable. His hand was rubbing the lower part of your back like heâs done it 100 times, and your head was tilting closer to his like clockwork. Screw work policy.
âI do.â You hum with a shy smile.
âSo yes? Officially?â
You roll your eyes and nod, feeling something like never before. Just hopefullness over this new relationship that was slowly seeping into your life, one that was so new to you.
You stay quiet for a while. âThat... made my day, Steve. Really.â You say. âThank you.â
Thatâs when his thumb brushed over your cheek and you knew you wanted to be touched like that for the rest of your life. Only by Steve, by his soft skin and his soft gaze.
âNo need to thank me.â He says. âBeen wanting to do that for a long time, believe me.â
âAnd you did it in the best way possible.â
âOnly the best for you.â It was so cheesy but it had you melting anyway.
He watched how you smiled, how you giggled- and he took note that he craved to make you react like that all the time. He didnât fully have you yet, but it was a step. And he wasnât going to let go.
âCome by tomorrow after your class and you can hang around till my shifts over.â Steve says with a shy smile that reflected yours. âThen Iâll take us somewhere nice.â
âWhere?â
ââŚNot telling.â
You laugh. âYour evil.â
He would respond, he would lean closer and say something back, but the loud dinging of the bell was being heard. It was a huge family with multiple kids and they shot a glance at him, glaring at the sight of the two of you.
You cupped his cheek in return, rubbing your thumb against the little mole on his cheek. Cute.
âDonât forget about tomorrow.â He says with a small but noticeable pout, since he didnât want to go.
âI wonât.â You say quietly.
âOkay.â He nods, his frown fleeting.
You nudge him softly. âIâll see you tomorrow, sailor.â
He winces in embarrassment. âPlease donât let that stick.â
âToo late.â
He gives you one more final look, one that was so admirable of you, his arms slowly slithering away but tight, before going back behind the counter.
You bit the inside of your cheek as you sat back down at the booth, eating the banana split that he made for you. You didnât even bother messing up the syrup because it made your heart feel tingly.
For now, you sat there. With your eyes glued to Steve, your heart still racing. You caught him glancing at you every single time, even when the customers were talking.
You two smiled when your eyes met his, your gaze straining away when you got too shy. He still looked anyway, regardless if you werenât, he always lingered just to make his heart skip a beat.
You think that going to Scoops Ahoy after your class was the best decision youâve ever made.
pro tip: don't talk bad about yourself in front of sukuna | mdni suggestive
to say sukuna doesn't like when you disrespect yourself would be untrue, because he doesn't even let you get that far. you're his, which means when you talk bad about yourself, you're offending him too.
he'll slap your ass as he passes by you getting a bowl of fruit in the kitchen, in nothing but one of his shirts and an old pair of pj shorts, hair a mess. he lets out a "fuck, don't tempt me right now," his eyes scanning you from head to toe with that familiar heat in them.
your brows furrow in confusion and you literally go to the bathroom to look in the mirror to check that your appearance didn't magically ameliorate from the last time you saw yourself. he follows you and you're almost offended when you look in the mirror. is he playing a prank on you?
"what? i literally look-"
his hand comes to grab your throat gently but firm, a brow raised as he stares down at you and then through the mirror. "you look what?" his gaze is daring you to say something negative.
you can feel that he's not joking. you swallow, "um, good?"
he hums satisfied and pulls you closer, bending down to kiss you, the way his tongue smoothly finds its way into your mouth has heat spreading through your body.
he pulls back and looks you over again appreciatively, smushing your cheeks playfully before walking away. "s'what i thought."
dare i say.. i feel like rules of the crawl steve (or just s5 steve in general!!!) is sooo into cock slapping too.. idk.. đŹđŹđŹ
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holy shit anon. holy shit.
So hereâs the thing: Steveâs appetite in bed has evolved significantly over the years.
He isnât just into sex anymoreâyears of violence and deprivation have turned him into someone different, someone who wants it all: to tease, command, claim, punish, mark, to dominate and be dominated.
Heâll always have that lover-boy missionary softness at his core, thatâll never change. But after all the shit heâs lived through, thereâs a certain... edge that develops. A craving for intensity. For something that hits in his body instead of just his brain. A streak of violence he wouldâve once cringed at, now tingling under his skin, just waiting for someone he trusts enough to unleash it with.
Then he meets you.
And suddenly, this âpretend hateâ dynamic between you two isnât just a kink. Itâs an outlet that lets him access that side of himself without fear. Itâs an unspoken agreement that you can push each other to the edge of discomfort, knowing itâs safe.
Itâs a fire you both stoke, and Steve is obsessed with feeding it.
He thrives on the testing. On pushing just a touch too far, just to see if youâll push back. And when you do... thatâs what flips the switch for him. Raised brows and that sharp, âoh, okay, weâre doing this todayâ smirk that makes your knees weak.
He loves it. He lives for it.
And cock slapping is peak s5 Steve. Itâs that bratty attitude, the inflated ego from his king-steve days, that little bite of cocky ha arrogance he never really lost. Â
Itâs his fingers under your chin, forcing your chin up so he can make eye contact with you while he slaps that thick, heavy weight on your tongue, over and over.
Itâs the humiliation of it that drives him insane. Telling you to "open up,â watching you squirm at all the filthy shit he spits at you. Waiting for that split second you wince when he tightens his fist in your hair. Watching you brat out ten times harder after that, spitting on his cock and fighting against his grip, telling him he can go fuck himself.
And Steve loves messy, borderline disgusting sex. Sticky, wet, slick, the kind that leaves sweat and spit plastered to your hair, dripping down your neck and coating every inch of your skin. He loves when the room reeks of sex afterward. Heâd never admit that outright, but he does.
He loves to spit on your pussy, in your mouth. Loves making out so hard neither of you can breathe properly. Loves being mean with his hands, his words, because he knows it makes you wet faster than anything else. Loves grunting âlook at meâ while his cock rests heavy across your face, knowing you canât because heâs blocking your view. Loves watching you on your knees, desperately squeezing your thighs together, your hands pinned behind your back because youâre not allowed to touch yourself.
He loves it when you manhandle him back, because underneath all his bravado, heâs bruised. Both in ways the world can see and in ways it canât. Bruised by the blows heâs taken, and by all the years he went starved for affection. Even before the violence, he went hungry for touch, for love that was rarely returnedâand that deprivation left marks deeper than any visible scar.
So after years of being beaten, choked, tortured, literally devouredâand the long, lonely stretch before that, of waiting for affection that never cameâheâs learned to crave a kind of love that doesnât flinch away from a little mess. Heâd never admit that out loud either, but he does.
He wants to be loved so hard it leaves bruises, love that grips him fiercely and refuses to let go.
Love so raw, so intense, so all-consuming that it borders on desperation. Rough hands, tight grip, filthy kisses, playful smacks and slapsâhe wants it all.
life was supposed to go forward the way you had always been told.
find someone, fall in love, get married, have kids.
that was the formula - the routine of every day life that you, yourself, had agreed to. it was supposed to be easy and carefree, the type of love that felt natural and yet definite. it was supposed to be certain.
jeon jungkook.
the love of your life. no one, nothing, could compare to him; the one constant in your life since you were no older than five. two years older than you, he had been the object of your infatuations even then, and though you both harboured a crush on one another as you grew up, it was only when you were 14 that you both actually pursued something.
you both came from broken homes, with your parents entangled in the world of drugs and abuse, his absent more times than present. you had each other though, and that was all either of you had ever really needed - that much had been true for years. it didnât take long to fall in love with him, not when he treated you like blooming flowers in the first touch of spring; you were more than just his girl. you were his y/n.
no one blinked when he proposed, everyone half expecting it, and neither of you had wanted to wait to plan a lavish wedding when you were both the only constants in each otherâs lives. and so, with cheap rings, a random dress you had found at the bottom of your wardrobe and his scuffed shoes - you had become husband and wife.
jungkook was the best partner you could have ever asked for. money was tight in the beginning as he threw himself into his job, making sure he had enough to spoil you rotten even if that meant coming home exhausted. it killed you to see him working so hard, but he never complained, not even once. it was done in the pursuit of his sweet wife, and therefore just.
he quickly began climbing the ranks, his intelligence unmatched, his speed and efficiency making him a force to be reckoned with. in a mere seven years, he had managed to go from the lowest ranking worker in the company right to head office, before formally being announced as ceo.
it was unheard of. people like him, people like you, they didnât live like this. it felt like over night your entire life had changed, as the tiny, one bed apartment transformed into a penthouse suite in your cityâs most reputable area, your beaten down car now more lavish than you could ever dream of. your clothes - silks, linens and luxurious patterns. you were a changed woman, all at the hands of your husband.
that was when the cracks had began to form.
the late nights began, jungkook holed up in his office for far longer than anyone else at the company, stacks of paper all around as he tried to crack numbers before the next day could bring its own workload. you didnât mind at first, more so worried over anything else.
you packed late dinners, going up to his office and eating them with him just to keep him company, to ground him which he needed more than you could ever realise. he would sit you on his lap as he worked, all whilst you napped peacefully on his shoulder as though this was perfectly normal.
the first few months, it worked. after that, it could no longer hide the gaping hole that had begun to appear.
missed dinners. missed dates. jungkook showing up at two in the morning despite everyone else going home at five in the afternoon - this wasnât normal. wasnât healthy. the amount of arguments that were being caused due to his workaholic nature was alarming, especially considering neither of you had ever even raised your voices to one another prior to this.
your heart was getting heavier and heavier.
not because you doubted his love for you - that wasnât even a question in your mind, that much was certain. if anything, jungkook loved you too much, entirely and wholly, with every single decision made in his life somehow tracing back to you in one way or another. whether it was purchasing things, buying them with the intent of impressing you, making you happy or smile. every opportunity, every signed contract, every bastard fucking meeting that he could feel so deeply in his bones was done with the intention of giving you a life so soft you would never experience hardship again.
that was where the problem lay.
jungkook didnât know how to love in a way that could nurture your relationship through this, and so, he did the only thing he could. he sacrificed.
slowly, painfully, the realisation that somewhere between the neglect, the late nights and unanswered phone calls, your husband had stopped being your husband at all. he had become a mere ghost in your shared home.
the night you had made your decision was one that felt imprinted in your memory.
it was past midnight, the harsh light of your phone reminding you with each passing moment. the rain was harsh too, with it being the middle of autumn, causing you to curl deeper into the covers on your bed but it did nothing to chase the cold away. dinner had long gone cold downstairs, with your housekeeper giving you a long, sad look before leaving to her own home, patting you on the shoulder in comfort.
your heart hurt so fucking much.
your phone was untouched, with messages sent hours prior despite the lack of response.
âwhere are you?â
âare you coming home tonight?â
âjungkook, you promised.â
âi miss you.â
you felt pathetic. humiliation ran up and down your veins at the thought of having to beg for a morsel of attention from your husband, but what else were you supposed to do? what else could you do? loneliness had a tendency to do that to people.
the sound of the front door finally opening had your eyes looking up, no longer staring into space, thinking. overthinking.
jungkook finally stumbled in, hours and hours late, shoulders tense and black coat half wet due to the rain outside. his phone had died hours ago, and his brain was a jumble of numbers and stakeholders, still muttering under his breath over something one of his colleagues had said. he was exhaustion personified.
âbaby.â he exhaled deeply upon the sight of you still up.
1:47am.
you stared at him, unable to focus on anything in particular as your reddened eyes somehow glinted in the moonlit essence of the room. his heart ached.
âyou missed it again.â you whispered, barely audible.
another dinner sat cold. jungkook had noticed it on his way up, muttering a small fuck under his breath, but seeing you now? something had changed, something was different and the sight scared him to death.
âi know, i..â
âyou said youâd be home for six.â
âi know baby, iâm so sorry, we had an emergency shareholders meeting and it was just..fuck.â
âitâs always an emergency.â you muttered bitterly.
the silence that followed felt suffocating to you both.
he carefully placed his things at the door before approaching you slowly, as though you were a wounded fawn struck by an arrow from his own back - it was his fault. he knew that, he could see it.
âiâm trying.â he whispered softly, as he crouched to meet your eyes.
that was the worst thing of all - of course he was trying. you knew he was, you could see it in every single thing he did but that was the part that made it so much more painful. it was unbearable.
tears burned harshly behind your eyes, lip openly trembling as you stared at the only man to have ever felt your affection, the love of your life. the same man that would set himself on fire just to keep you warm, who had done this all for you - even you knew that but, the pain. you werenât sure when loving him had started to hurt this badly.
âi donât need..i donât want any of this, jungkook.â you corrected as your voice cracked, hands gesturing to the too large room. âdonât care about penthouses or cars, or money..â
âitâs not about that.â
âthen what is it about?â you cried, months and months of neglect finally collapsing all at once. âbecause iâm losing you anyway.â
the devastation that appeared on his face would have floored you on any other occasion, but the horrible feeling that had taken over was consuming you from the inside out. you couldnât rid yourself of your thoughts, the looming decision that had grown and grown and grown, so much so that it felt bigger than you in both mind and body. you couldnât stop the tears even if you wanted to.
âi feel so lonely.â you admitted honestly, a broken sob leaving your lips. âyouâre all i have..all iâve ever had and i feel lonely.â
the words physically wounded him as he felt his own tears begin to form, a horrible realisation fluttering through his body - this wasnât fixable. he could see it now, the utter pain in your eyes, the way your body shook as you cried, and though he was crouched in front of you, arms wrapping around you; it wasnât enough.
âiâll fix this. iâll fix this, fuck. y/n..â he shook, holding you so tightly, his heart beating out of his chest. âgive me time. give me a chance. give me something, give me anything.â
you only cried harder at his words, collapsing entirely as the sobs racked through your body violently. you knew he meant it, knew he meant every single word, and you genuinely believed it too but you were tired.
so, so tired.
you knew that the love between you, no matter how deep, could not survive on patched up apologies and promises no longer.
the separation happened three weeks later.
perhaps that was too cruel of you - you should have given him more time, more chances, another opportunity to prove himself to you so he could actually begin repairing something that had already long collapsed before he had ever realised the damage. staying felt too painful, as though you were prodding delicate skin with a million sharpened blades. for once in your entire existence, you chose yourself.
you hated yourself for it.
you could no longer survive off of the memories of who your husband had once been, the once sweet teenage boy who slept on the streets with you just so youâd feel safe from the grasps of your parents. the man who had ran home to tell you about his promotion, who then sobbed in your arms at the mere prospect of getting to give you the life you deserved. oh, how each and every fibre of your being yearned for him, how it knew him by breath alone and yet it wasnât enough. nothing could possibly hurt more.
packing your things nearly killed him. you remembered it vividly.
jungkook stood silently in the doorway of your shared bedroom, watching numbly, as though his soul had left his entire body as you packed up remnants of a life once shared with him. cardboard boxes were filled with your books, your makeup, your silly trinkets you had acquired together - the sight of you crying as you packed your wedding album so delicately was enough to have him bite back his own sob, shaking his head at the reality of the situation.
he hadnât stopped you. it was the worst part.
jungkook was intimidating to most; hardened by his life experiences and the struggle he had been raised in, his only priority for the past decade being you. you didnât like to go into his work, knowing he was quite literally a different person there - efficient, yes, but also ruthless. and yet, he stood, watching you as though his eyes couldnât comprehend the scene in front of him, tears wiped harshly from his face in fear that it would only upset you more.
even in moments like this, he put you first.
his hands sat caged on either side of him, as you sobbed, and sobbed and sobbed. he wanted nothing more than to pick you up, cradle you, cherish you the way he so desperately wanted but in his love for you came your happiness. he was a man devoted to you, and he couldnât cage you somewhere you no longer felt happy staying - he loved you too much to ever do that.
the divorce proceedings were somehow so much worse.
the media frenzy surrounding jeon jungkook, the elusive ceo who was known for his mysterious persona and dark eyes, was quite literally unbearable. the sudden separation exploded all over the tabloids and the internet, with headlines appearing faster than either of you could keep up with. the hate was too much, to which jungkook stepped in to silence everyone behind the scenes, throwing an insane amount of money at journalists to keep your name out of their filthy mouths. wife or not, you were one half of him and heâd be damned if you were spoken of in anyway that wasnât praiseworthy.
you couldnât even look at him during the hearings.
god, you tried. you wanted to, managing to sneak little glances where you caught him already staring at you, despair all over his face, but you couldnât handle it, tears streaming out of your eyes almost immediately. he knew you loved him. he could see it, clear as day.
he looked sick, as though he hadnât eaten for weeks, the mere sight of you enough to sustain him until the next meeting, where your feet lightly brushed against one another underneath the table in a subconscious way.
he barely spoke, only choosing to actually speak when he was asked a question, but other than that, he spent his time in the meetings staring at you longingly. heâd whisper a soft âdonât cryâ whenever heâd see you tear up, your lip quivering each time you snuck a glance over, despite knowing it was breaking you.
he signed everything over to you immediately. his lawyers had practically choked, eyes wide as he silenced them almost harshly for even suggesting anything otherwise, your own eyebrows pulling together as you tried to reject. you didnât want his money, you didnât want what he had worked so hard for.
the penthouse, the cars, the accounts. every. fucking. thing.
âjungkook..â you had whispered through tears at the table, addressing him for the first time in so long. âi donât want any of this, itâs yours. youâve worked so hard.â
hearing you was enough to provide the energy he had been lacking, the very blood in his bloodstream pumping harder as he shook his head at you, offended.
âi got those things for you. it never belonged to me..was always yours.â he whispered back, causing you to look down with another choked sob.
it was the final hearing that truly cemented the empty hole inside of you.
your hands shook violently, so much so that you were unable to pick up your pen and sign away your marriage, the one thing you needed to do to finally let him go. everyone in the room frowned as they watched you, face flooded with tears as your digits simply refused, as though your body rejected the notion as being entirely unnatural. they all felt pity for you, for both of you - you both were clearly in love, and they couldnât understand the gravity of the situation between you.
jungkook had stood from his side of the table, walking over to you until his hand had softly encapsulated your own, your quiet sobs only growing harsher at the feel of the one person you had been craving for so long. he held it, guiding you to your own, helping you write your name on the dotted line despite every part of his body aching.
ex-husband.
the thought should have killed you.
once it was signed, he held onto your hand, too scared to let go as the documents were taken, your lawyers and his slowly leaving the room, leaving you be. you should have let go, should have pushed him away as he no longer had any tie to you - you werenât married, you werenât together. alas, the thought felt sacrilegious.
instead, he knelt, knees hitting the hardened floor below you as your red eyes met his properly. entirely.
âiâll fix this.â he promised you, voice no longer shaking, as you could hear the depth of his promise to you. âi donât care how long it takes, baby, but youâll come back to me. iâll come back to you better, iâll be worthy. i promise you, y/n.â he whispered.
another sob climbed up your throat, mean and harsh, as your body collapsed against the chair you were sat in, your emotion taking a complete hold over you.
because even then, after everything, you knew his words to be true. you knew home would be waiting.
â
eight months had passed now, and soon came the first touch of summer. the bleak sky had become brighter, clouds hibernating and birds chirping as the world became warmer, accommodating for the transition into what most would describe as a joyous time. unfortunately for you, your body was still recovering from what could only be described as the most traumatic stage of your life thus far.
everything felt unnatural and wrong - you were trying to keep up despite it moving a million miles around you.
even after all this time, your stomach still dropped whenever youâd see anything that referred to him as your ex husband, as though your mind and heart needed a moment to catch up. how could jungkook ever simply become an ex anything to you?
he had existed in your life for so long that removing him felt akin to ripping a vital organ out of your body, all whilst expected to function entirely normally. how could you? you suppose you were failing, really, with the way you moved through life out of necessity instead of want.
the tabloids loved him now more than ever. it was the paradox of tragedy, you assumed, as you knew how badly the world yearned for a broken hearted lover.
the youngest ceo in the countryâs history, a billionaire bachelor - the elusive businessman was on the top of every social hierarchy, whilst people spoke about you in hushed whispers. the only woman to have ever gotten away. who were you? why did you leave? why did he leave you with so much?
he had become so much colder after the divorce, and people picked up on it like rats with forgotten food.
the media had always labelled him as an intimidating man, but now, there was no way of denying it. there was something unsettling about the pictures that were being papped of him, your hungry eyes taking him in top to bottom, nibbling your lip - he looked so different. broad shoulders remained the same, but he seemed bigger, no doubt taking out his pain in the gym. it was the look in his eyes, however, that had your stomach in knots.
he looked dead whilst alive.
jeon jungkook was heartbroken, and the world knew it clear as day.
he had dealt with it the only way he knew how - by burying himself six feet deep into his work, knowing he had nothing to come home to, often times sleeping in his office just so he could ignore the silence of his house.
meanwhile, you had spent the last eight months trying to learn how to exist without him.
the humiliation at first was all you were reminded of, as you realised how deeply you had intertwined into him and vice versa. the silence in your once shared penthouse was so unbearable that you had moved into a tiny two bedroom apartment, using the spare as a storage unit for all of your books. on your nightstand still sat a picture of you both, as you secretly cried over it most nights. you couldnât even sleep unless you wore one of his hoodies, despite his scent having washed off months ago - it was the comfort of knowing you still had a part of your marriage with you.
you missed him in every small, stupid, awful way imaginable.
the feeling of his hand, heavy and strong, on your thigh as he drove you around. the way he would cage you into any surface he could find just to smother you in kisses, or even the way he would whisper into your ear stupid jokes that had you giggling too loudly for the world to hear.
you missed your husband. you missed jungkook.
everyday you battled with the regret of your choice, especially once youâd see the way his under-eyes had sunken with the lack of sleep and yet you couldnât bring yourself to admit it out loud. you couldnât live that way again, not with the neglect - not with your past trauma from your parents.
jungkook knew the gravity of his actions, knew you needed to heal and reason with them before he could come back to you but fuck, it hurt so bad to wait.
sometimes, during your weaker moments, you found yourself searching him into your phone in the dead of night, breathing out an audible sigh of relief at the confirmation he was still openly single. it was pathetic, that much you knew, but it was selfish beyond anything else. so cruel to want the man you left to be alone, simply because he still belonged to you.
you had attempted to rebuild your life slowly, carefully piecing together fragments of yourself that existed before all of this had happened. your days were quieter now, so much lonelier but it was enough to keep your mind from spiralling every second of every waking day.
some habits, however, refused to die.
his contact remained as the only favourited number in your phone, as you spent all of your time rereading old messages, despite it ending in tears. if only you knew he too did the same, with his photo album on his phone his most used app as he stared at you nightly, often falling asleep with your picture shining brightly on his screen.
you still loved him. he loved you even more.
that could never change.
-
the first flowers came on a random tuesday.
you had just experienced one of the worst days youâd had in a while, with a final meeting with one of your clients going to shit after you realised hours of work and designs had somehow corrupted, and then deleted. by the time you had returned home, you were sure the world had seen your teary state, your body heavier than usual.
as you searched your bag for your keys, your eyes peered up, noticing them.
your breath caught.
sitting neatly outside your apartment door. a bouquet, large but elegant - white gardenias. the flowers you had held at not only your wedding, but the ones jungkook would buy you for your anniversary each year.
your flowers.
your chest ached so violently you found yourself gasping for air as your legs gave out below you. you slid down the wall, fingers brushing against the delicate petals as you looked for a note, only to realise there wasnât one. you didnât need to see who they were from, only one person knew you well enough and your heart felt like it had been split into two as you took them in.
it wasnât your anniversary, wasnât any special kind of occasion, and yet here they were. bright, promising, sweet.
your vision blurred with heavy tears as the painful feeling in your body grew, throat tightening with emotion before reaching out and taking a hold of them, breathing the flowers in openly.
the scent alone was enough to destroy you.
he was everywhere, all of the time - even now. especially now.
the flowers had become a norm, a pattern that was only recognisable to you, and completely deniable to any other person looking in. you were smarter than you looked and you knew what was happening, and yet you couldnât bring yourself to call it out.
your favourite restaurant somehow managing to accommodate you always despite the line or packed out reservations list, or the paparazzi that often bullied you for your attention outside of your home mysteriously disappearing. even your car, that you had dented slightly, appeared in perfect condition as you walked down to go to work one morning, your eyebrows furrowed in confusion.
your chest bloomed with realisation.
jungkook.
he never appeared himself, no. never. it was unsettling really, the reminder that he was powerful and could have things done with a flick of his wrist - he was sure to never make you privy to it, so youâd always feel like he was the same boy you had met all those years ago. now? he had every intention of showing you the empire he had built for you and you alone. he lingered around you and your life like a floating ghost, invisible but permanent. you truly couldnât get rid of him even if you tried.
three weeks later is when you felt yourself reaching breaking point.
for the first time in months, you were finally leaving the house to actually do something for fun. your best friend, yejin, whoâs husband yoongi was ironically jungkookâs best friend, had forced you to come out for a drink. nothing intense, merely a nice bar where the drinks were smooth and the company was good, with slow jazz playing in the back.
exhaustion was heavy in your bones but you listened, doing your best to make yourself look nice despite how dead you felt inside. a little skirt that felt too short and a top that perhaps plunged too low - yejin had deemed you utterly perfect.
sat at the bar, you sipped your drink, wincing lightly as she yapped away about something her coworker had said. you appreciated how she refused to bring jungkook up, knowing that she couldnât breach the topic unless you were the one to bring it up yourself. you hated how badly you wanted to, how desperate you were to find out how he was doing.
she filled the air constantly, like she was terrified of what would happen if your mind caught up to the reality of the situation, instead filling it with nonsense to occupy your demanding thoughts.
you let her.
you even found yourself laughing, the feeling and sound so startling that it reduced you to silence for a full minute afterwards as you welcomed the feeling of actual joy for the first time in so long.
you almost didnât notice the shift in your phone, the slight light radiating from beneath as you had turned it onto its screen earlier in the evening. she, however, paused mid sentence, eyes dropping down to let you know someone was ringing.
nothing could have prepared you for the sight of his name on the screen.
the name, âkookieâ with a large, red heart adorned your phone as humiliation rummaged through you at the realisation you had never even bothered to change his name, the concept too painful to come to terms with. however, yejin all but gasped as she turned to you, eyes widened with an almost excitement.
âanswer it.â she encouraged, hand on your back. âiâll watch your drink.â
you werenât sure what to say, as you nodded, staring down at the screen before shakily sliding off of your seat and heading towards the back entrance, where a smokers area sat empty. your hands shook as you cupped the phone to your chest, taking a seat before looking down at it once more.
he was calling you.
jungkook was fucking calling you.
before you could overthink, you swiped, answering it.
the phone felt hot against your ear, a reminder of what was currently happening as your heart began beating harder than it had in months, your hands shaking. for a second, neither of you spoke.
you could hear faint movement on his end, a shuffling of some sorts before he completely stilled, as though he had pushed everything he was doing to a side at the realisation you had actually answered.
âhi.â
god. your eyes squeezed shut tight almost immediately.
there he was - your jungkook. not the ceo extraordinaire that was plastered on every publication you could find, with dead eyes and a sharp expression. no, this was him. jungkook. your jungkook.
the sound alone nearly brought you to tears. you felt so pathetic.
âhi.â you whispered back, voice cracking.
silence settled again, but not awkwardly. you didnât think an awkward silence was capable of existing between you, not when your bodies were so intertwined and so aware of one another. the distance between you was unnatural, neither of your minds able to comprehend an eight month hiatus enough to understand that this phone call alone shouldnât have been happening.
he exhaled slowly, and your shoulders gently relaxed, your eyes closing momentarily as you imagined him. no doubt still at work, in a suit unbuttoned at the shirt, his tie long forgotten. his tattooed hand running through his hair, ruffling it the way you always would.
âyou answered.â he broke you out of your thoughts.
your chest tightened painfully at the sheer disbelief in his tone.
âyou called.â
a faint huff of amusement left him then, causing you to blink back any emotion that was building in your eyes. it eased you.
âyeah.â he breathed out.
another pause.
you felt so suddenly aware of yourself - your hand reached out to smooth down your hair, adjust your top and skirt, despite knowing he couldnât see you. it was subconscious, as though the thought of him alone was enough to undo you, but his voice? hearing it after so long, directed at you, for you. yours. it was enough to have you soothed for months.
before you could spiral in your thoughts, he spoke again.
âwhere are you?â
âout with yejin.â
âmm.â you shivered at his hum. you had no idea he was so undone at the sound of you too. âa bar?â
âyeah.â
âyou drinking?â
you rolled your eyes, tongue poking your cheek at his curiosity. some things truly had never changed.
âwhy?â you asked, and you could almost hear his grin on the other end. âcanât i ask?â
his tone, smooth. familiar. fuck, it did things to you, and you could feel your thighs pressing together just listening to him. secretly, your favourite part of jungkook was how possessive he had always been, and even in moments like this where he hid it under a layer of calmness, you could recognise it instantly.
it reminded you of when heâd ask you whether you had eaten, just before pulling you into his lap, lips attacking the side of your neck hungrily or when heâd tell you to take your medicine, with a slow âbabyâ and kisses planted to your forehead and cheeks.
âone drink.â you revealed, with a nibble to your lip.
you had no idea that he too was a fucking mess.
jungkook was indeed in his office, with his legs spread, suit jacket and tie somewhere, his shirt unbuttoned a little as he too drank. a cup of whiskey in his hand, his hair a mess as he scoured over your instagram for the millionth time just that day. neither of you were ones to post much, especially considering your accounts were private with only a few people, but he stalked you daily in hopes of a glimpse of you. could you blame him? he was utterly, devotedly in love with you.
a measly divorce couldnât stop that.
seeing yejinâs story, with your low cut top, and your big eyes showing a sign of life for the first time in months made his heart bloom. it had his cock straining, again, just looking at you, eyes hungrily looking over every inch of you and your soft smile. god, how he had missed it.
he had given you your time. respected your wishes, allowed you eight months of this but enough was enough. the flowers were just the beginning, marking his space back in your life through a promise he had every intention of upholding. he had told you directly he was going to fix this, and you, his sweet, sweet girl had believed him.
he would never let you down again.
âyou having fun?â
âwhy do you wanna know every single detail?â you asked, tone a little harsher than intended but you couldnât help yourself. this was an ambush on your senses.
he huffed once more, the amusement enough to disarm you.
âbecause i miss you.â
the words left him so easily that the breath in your lungs completely dissipated, leaving you a statued mess. no hesitation, no shame - pure, devastating honesty.
âyou canât say that, jungkook.â you weakly combatted, the intake of breath on his side of the phone at the sound of his name leaving your mouth enough of an answer for you.
âwhy not? i canât miss my wife?â he scoffed lightly at you.
you blubbered for a moment. âi-i am not..iâm not your wife!â
âokay.â he hummed once more.
there was a quiet clink on his end, no doubt picking his drink up and taking a big gulp after abandoning it the second you answered. neither of you spoke for a few more moments, silence now becoming a running theme between you on the call, and yet it was still void of the awkwardness youâd find anywhere else. it was awful how familiar it felt. how comfortable and safe.
your fingers played with the hem of your skirt nervously, unsure if you had been too brash - he was hurting too after all.
âis that top new?â
your breath caught.
â..what?â
jungkook stayed quiet for an extra beat. âyour top. havenât seen that one before.â
heat flooded your cheeks, chest and neck before you could even respond, your lips bitten down as you inhaled shakily.
âhow do you know that?â you were ignoring the way your pulse was hammering against your body, trying to feign an air of nonchalance.
at that, he couldnât help the small grin. âsaw you on yejinâs story.â he murmured, quieter now. âlook so good. love when you wear pink, baby.â
it wasnât even the words he had chosen, but more so the way he was saying them. so calm, so certain, so casual as if he wasnât calling his ex wife baby over a bit of cleavage that was never really meant for his eyes - your blush spreading all over you now.
âjungkook..â you breathed out, shakily.
âwhat?â he asked innocently, and you could really hear the smile in his voice now. âam i wrong?â
you looked down at your top, nibbling away at your lip to hide the small smile that was beginning to form on your own face, something that you hadnât felt in a long, long time. your fingers brushed against your stomach, feeling the fabric before tucking a strand behind your hair.
âitâs new.â you admitted softly, heels shuffling slightly on the ground.
the sound he made in response was enough to ruin you. not a laugh, not quite a sigh - something pleased.
he hummed. âso pretty.â
your eyes squeezed shut, and jungkook could feel it. could see it as though you were right in front of him. you were never one to handle a compliment, always going pink and shyly looking away and god, he loved it so much. loved complimenting you in hopes that you would react just like that, just to see you get all flustered.
the feeling in your stomach..it felt so strange. the same one that had haunted you for the past eight months, an unbearable warmth that filled you from your toes to your head, something you craved so desperately from him and him alone. to be noticed, looked at, admired by jungkook was one thing but to be loved by him? it was joy in itself.
you could feel it.
no one had ever loved you quite like he had done, as though every single thing you were capable of was worthy of applause. it terrified you.
âyou canât do this.â your voice came out so much smaller than either of you had expected, changing the entire feel of the call instantly.
as a result, his own tone softened, as though he was dealing with something porcelain.
âdo what, baby?â
your heart physically ached.
âtalk to me..like nothing happened.â
you felt sick to your stomach, hands gripping your phone and stomach as your eyes shut tight. you wished you hadnât of said anything, not with the way the silence kissed the air in a way that felt anything but familiar - it hurt. painful in every single way.
for the first time since answering the phone, you could see jungkook properly. could hear him breathing sharply as though your words were both a reminder and an understanding that no matter what, things could never go back to what they once were.
the slight twitch in his cheek, the way his fingers would naturally tighten whenever he was overwhelmed with emotion like he didnât know where to put it, where to place it in his overworking mind. he had always loved so deeply, your jungkook; just didnât know where to put it, or how to show it.
when he finally spoke again, his voice was quieter. stripped bare for you, so you could feel him.
âi know what i did.â he admitted softly. âi know i fucked up, and that i failed you as a husband.â
your throat tightened.
outside, rainwater still lingered from earlier, a sickly humidity wrapped into every air particle around you. the scent of lingering cigarette smoke was heavy enough to ground you in that moment as you listened to jungkook speak words neither of you could truly handle hearing, despite how necessary they were. it just hurt so, so badly.
inside the bar, you could hear muffled laughter, people egging one another on for drinks as jazz boomed, your heart easing as you could hear yejinâs voice amongst the crowd, no doubt the life of the party there too.
âthen why are you acting like this?â you pathetically asked, lip jutting out in a teary pout. he could almost hear it on you. âyouâre talking to me like weâre still together.â
âyouâre still mine, y/n.â
your breath hitched violently.
âjungkook-â
âno,â he remained calm, a stark difference between you and him. âyou asked me a question, baby, so let me answer it properly.â
the nickname rolled off of his lips so naturally, instinctively, and you hated how easily your body curled closer, almost desperate to hear it whilst he stood in front of you. you had always been putty in his hands, so easily undone with a few pretty words but youâd held back for the past few months for the sake of your boundaries. hearing him so open, so honest - it was fucking you up all over again.
âi know weâre divorced,â he continued before you could interrupt him again. âi know..youâre not my wife anymore, and i know this is my fault. you left because of me and iâll live with that for the rest of my life.â
his voice cracked by the end of his statement.
âbut i wonât sit here and pretend like the last eight months have suddenly erased the past fifteen years of loving you.â
the words shattered you. your delicate, pathetic heart broke once more at his words at the confirmation of what you needed to hear so, so badly.
years of abandonment issues stemming from your parents and friends who had only ever toyed with you meant you had put your all into jungkook, who had only ever put every inch of himself back in - you were a partnership, a welcome duo that made sense to the both of you. watching him pull back, forget you, neglect and abandon your relationship no matter the reason was enough to trigger you in ways that no one could reason with.
it was an intimate form of violence that though was never intended, hurt more than anything he could have ever done to you.
he knew that. he was openly telling you he recognised his faults, his wrong doings - you knew that too. god, you knew him better than anyone alive, and you knew that by leaving him it was the only way for him to understand and see.
âyouâre making this so much harder, jungkook.â you whispered out through a flood of tears, your mascara and eyeliner smudging immediately under the slaughter of liquid.
âiâm sorry. iâm so, so sorry baby but i need you to hear me, okay? just..i need you to know iâm going to fix this. properly.â he breathed out, desperate now. âiâve been doing things right this time..gave you space, let you breathe, been working on myself and going to therapy. donât sleep at the office anymore, did at the start cause i didnât like coming home but iâm better now.â
therapy?
you knew he held so much trauma with his own parents, his own upbringing, too scared to ever even speak about it if it wasnât with you but to hear he had actually taken the steps to go forwards with something that put him directly out of his comfort zone was insanity to you. especially when his one and only concern had only ever been your own comfort, even at his expense.
his honesty made you burst out into quiet sobs - a noise he swore was harsh enough to kill him. he breathed out, cooing at you lightly as he shook his head despite you unable to see him, so pained.
jungkook recognised your pain immediately.
âyeah,â he muttered. âturns out working yourself to death because youâre afraid of losing everything after youâve had a shitty upbringing actually isnât normal behaviour. who knew?â
despite your heartbroken state, you let out a sincere watery laugh.
the sound hit him like a drug.
he went completely silent after hearing it, replaying it in the forefront of his mind. a greedy, gluttonous side of him climbing out of his very throat as he held it close to his soul, cherishing it - he was a starved man finally being fed.
âthere she is.â he breathed. âfuck..missed hearing your laugh.â
you hated how easily you were able to slip back into him.
âjungkook..â
âi mean it,â his tone deepened slightly - more certain, more intentional. âiâm not calling you tonight to confuse you, y/n. iâm not calling because iâm lonely..â
your fingers tightened around the phone once more. âthen, why?â
âbecause iâm getting you back.â
there was no hesitation in his voice, no wariness nor anything other than sheer determination. he sounded firm and a part of that thrilled you, whilst the other half sat scared of what this meant - you couldnât survive this again, losing him. what if you had changed? what if you werenât who he thought you were anymore?
âhey, stop it.â he shook his head, eyebrows furrowing. âitâs just me, y/n. itâs just me and you, okay?â
âbut what if we canât do it?â you asked through a teary sob, scuffing your heels on the hard ground. âwhat if iâm different and what if itâs too hard? i canât..i wonât survive it..â
silence once more.
âthen, we do it slowly.â he whispered, assured, soothing you. no hesitation whatsoever. âiâm not asking you to trust me overnight, baby. i know i fucked that up already.â
your lip trembled, tears streaming so fast you could hardly keep up.
âbut iâm here now.â
the words settled so deeply inside of you that it almost hurt. that was all you had wanted all along, was it not? a present husband, the same man that loved you without the frills of money and presents - you wanted jungkook. your jungkook.
you swallowed thickly, knowing it had taken so much of him to even say this to you, so confident as he knew you needed a rock at this moment despite also being emotionally devastated.
two whole minutes of silence stretched between you as you caught your breath, your tears still streaming but your sobs subsiding, allowing for sweet hiccups that he thought were the cutest thing he had ever heard. his mind swam, aching, knowing how needy you were after a cry. he wanted to bundle you up and hold you, kiss you until there were no more thoughts left in that pretty little head of yours, right until you were finally asleep and safe in his arms.
âare you still at work?â you asked softly, breaking the silence and pulling him out of his thoughts.
a small pause.
then, almost amused - âtechnically..â
âjungkook! itâs late..â
he laughed quietly under his breath, the sound warm enough to blanket you in it.
âfinished hours ago, iâve just been sat here.â
âdoing what?â
another pause. slightly charged.
âlooking at you.â he murmured.
heat rushed to your face immediately, wiping your under eyes. âwhat?â
âbeen stalking your instagram. yejin posted you like half an hour ago too, so..â his voice dropped lower, smoother. more intimate. âhavenât really thought about doing anything since.â
your thighs pushed together involuntarily at the confession, cheeks hinted even darker.
god.
âjungkook.â you chastised with a little sniffle.
âpink was a bad choice, baby.â he grunted slightly. âyou know that colour drives me fucking insane on you.â
your eyes squeezed shut. there he was.
not the cold, mysterious ceo that had the world intrigued, nor the tall, hefty man that had most people cowering away as he walked past. no, this was your husband - flirty, affectionate and completely and utterly obsessed with you.
âyouâre so ridiculous.â you shook your head through a hiccup, biting back the pathetic small smile that was about to form.
âyeah?â he hummed through a small laugh. âstill answered the phone.â
the smile in his voice only had yours growing larger, a small laugh muffled by the back of your hand.
you could hear him moving around now, keys jingling lightly before the sound of a car door opening had your ears peaking up.
âwait,â your eyebrows raised. âare you leaving?â
âmhm.â
âwhere are you going?â
jungkook grinned. it was your turn to be curious.
âhome.â
your smile dropped slightly. home.. that used to be a word that was synonymous with you. your chest ached all over again.
âcouldnât go back there without hearing your voice first.â he admitted quietly.
silence swallowed you whole. the vulnerability in his voice felt far more dangerous than any of the tears you had shed tonight, your fingers continuing to shake around the phone at the mere sound of it. before you could think of a response, he spoke again.
âthereâs a gala next friday.â
your stomach tightened as you leaned your head against the wall, already understanding the direction of the conversation.
âjungkook..â
âcome with me.â
no hesitation. no uncertainty.
firm, assured, confident. like there had never even been another concept, or thought in his brain - you were the first and only option.
âi donât think thatâs a good idea..â
âprobably not.â
the honesty startled a laugh out of you - a real one. on the other side of the phone, jungkook sat in his car, eyes closed, breathing deeply at the sweet sound like he was memorising it. treasuring it so he could replay it over and over and over later when he laid in your once shared bed alone.
âfuck,â he breathed. âyou have no idea how much iâve missed that.â
your eyes burned once more.
âbaby,â his tone gentled again, using the pet name you loved so much. âjust one night. me and you.â
you wanted to scream, wanted to pull at your hair and jump all at the same time. of course you wanted to say yes, what more could you need? your ex husband so openly telling you he wanted to pursue you with every inch of his body, until he was nothing but yours to mould and shape.
âiâll think about it.â you replied instead, nibbling away at your lip.
the grin in his voice was immediate.
âthatâs my girl.â
â
you couldnât breathe.
both physically and emotionally, you found difficulty in inhaling air as you looked at yourself in the mirror, yejin somewhere in the room finding accessories for you to wear all whilst you blinked rapidly.
the dress, although beautiful, felt too tight.
your hands shook on either side of you as she approached you, holding up a delicate diamond necklace you recognised as an anniversary gift jungkook had gotten you but never quite found the chance to wear. your eyes were unfocused as she clasped it onto your neck, watching the way it fell so softly against soft skin, as though it had been curated for you and you alone.
âyou need to breathe, y/n.â she suddenly murmured behind you, resting her chin on your shoulder as you both stared at you in the mirror.
pale pink satin - not bright in anyway, but a sweet kiss of your favourite colour adorned your body in floor length, tight fitting dress. you were the embodiment of elegance as the fabric draped over your curves, all whilst cinching perfectly at your waist, allowing for a pretty silhouette. not only did you look the part for a charity gala, you had exceeded any expectation anyone would ever have for you thanks to your best friendâs styling.
âdress is tight.â you simply whispered back, hardly recognising yourself.
your makeup matched your dress. glowy and pink with soft blush dusted onto your cheeks, glossy lips puckered and sweet. your hair fell in waves and for the first time in a very long time, you felt utterly beautiful.
the problem, however, was in the circumstance itself.
you were about to see jungkook for the first time since you had officially walked away from your marriage and the thought had kept you up all week. you werenât sure what you were thinking actually saying yes to his invitation, calling him to tell you would come only for him to audibly huff out of joy. he was like a child in a candy shop but you couldnât help but wonder if he harboured the same anxiety.
it was heavy in your stomach as you stared at yourself. pink was your favourite colour, and he loved it on you. did you look pretty enough? all eyes would be on you both tonight, given the nature of your relationship and the almost celebrity like status that had been awarded to the two of you.
all in all, it was his face that had you nibbling your bottom lip in thought. there wasnât a night where you left his name unsearched in your internet browser, desperate to see what he looked like in that current moment but seeing him in purpose was a whole different playing field.
you loved him in suits - a fitting joy that was awarded to you constantly given his occupation. the way his shoulders would fill out the material so nicely, the way his shirt would stretch over his chest and the way darker colours only brought out the darkness in his eyes - it was your personal kryptonite. you werenât sure how you were supposed to think, behave even, once you caught got sight of him.
âhey, y/n, look at me.â yejin pulled you out of your thoughts, soft hands pulling at your jaw. âitâs just jungkook. you know him better than anyone, okay? youâre all good.â
you nodded, though you continued to blink at her rapidly. âsâjust been so long and..i donât know..iâm scared. is that weird?â
she offered a sad smile. âitâs been eight months of healing, babe. that love doesnât just go away and from what you told me, this is a step in the right direction. just gotta let him in.â
before you could respond, the sound of the doorbell blared through the apartment, making you look up to where the door sat on the other side. if you thought your heart had been beating fast before, you were sure you were on the edge of passing out now as yejin mumbled a quick âthatâll be himâ beside you.
oh god. oh god. oh god.
the dress felt too tight around your ribs.
your hands smoothed down the satin again despite having done it what felt like a million times already, fingers tips trembling over expensive fabric as your breathing came out shallow. you hated this - hated the fear of it all when it was jungkook on the other side of the door. your jungkook.
eight months. eight whole months and your body still knew him better than your mind was ready to let on.
ây/n.â yejin practically cooed at you, assuring you with a hand on your back. âbreathe.â
you nodded quickly, though it went in one ear and out the other.
the intercom buzzed again, impatient time.
ironically, it was this that had your shoulders slumping softly, your shortness of breath slowly soothing as you realised the familiarity of the situation. of course jungkook would buzz twice - it was a telltale sign of his own anxiety, something you could recognise from a mile away. knocking twice, calling your name twice, checking the front door before bed twice.
it was just jungkook.
âokay.â you whispered to yourself.
you turned, more determined now you knew he was in the same state as you, as your heels clicked on the floor of your much smaller apartment, the noise loud enough for him to hear from the outside. each step felt heavier the closer you got, but there sat an anticipation in you that had you almost desperate to see him.
your hand finally wrapped around the handle before you opened the door.
and there he was.
god.
for a moment, your brain completely malfunctioned.
jungkook stood in your hallway beneath the almost dingy apartment lighting, one hand wrapped around a large bouquet of flowers you recognised to be the ones he had been gifting you with continuously for the past few weeks, and every anniversary. white gardenias.
your eyes fell onto them immediately with a strangled gasp, all whilst taking him in, your heart beating out of your chest as you felt almost faint at the sight of him.
a black suit.
the material stretched perfectly across his too broad shoulders and narrow waist, expensive to the eye as you could tell it had been tailored to fit him exactly. the contrast between the white shirt underneath was utterly delicious, and memories of pulling open buttons under heated exchanges flooded your eyes.
his hair was styled almost messily which you immediately recognised as his hands having ran through them, no doubt due to his anxiety - you wanted to pull at his locks, wanted to feel them against your fingers.
it was his face, however, that hurt to look at.
he looked healthier than most of the pictures you had seen over the span of the past few months, with warm in his cheeks, a slight dazed look in his eyes. still tired, with purple underneath his eyes indicating his lack of sleep, still carrying traces of heartbreak you knew you had placed there.
god.
jungkook looked every bit of the man you were in love with.
and here he stood, staring at you like he had just seen heaven open up right in front of him.
neither of you could look away from one another, as his eyes dragged over you slowly, inch by inch. your hair, your neckline that dipped lower than he was used to seeing, your manicure, your beautiful face. jungkook couldnât fathom that you had once belonged to him, the pain of the past eight months surfacing as it gripped him by the throat like a vice - he had lost you?
you watched his throat bob.
his eyes met yours, the first time in what felt like a lifetime, and neither of you really knew what to do. how was it that the man you had known most of your life, the one constant, felt like a stranger in that moment? it was like you were discovering him again, an opportunity to relearn him presented to you and you took it with both hands.
he let out a shaking breath, one that had your cheeks flushing as he extended his arm, presenting the large bouquet for you.
âyou look beautiful.â he whispered, voice struggling almost as you continued to watch his adamâs apple almost entranced.
with a shy thank you, you held them close to your chest, breathing in the familiar scent that brought you so much comfort.
your chest had eased now you were finally looking at him, now that he was actually in your space - the worst was over. you almost felt ridiculous for being worried about seeing him when it was just jungkook. eight months couldnât erase that familiarity.
the hallway suddenly felt too small. too warm, too intimate; you felt like you were being caved in by his mere presence and for a moment you wondered if you needed breath at all.
you simply stood there, clutching the flowers delicately to your chest as though they meant something so much more than what anyone else could assume all whilst jungkook looked at you like you were the first beautiful thing he had seen in months.
his eyes couldnât leave your face.
it should have made you uncomfortable, the intensity of his stare, but your body reacted the way it had always done when you were near him. you were inching closer without even realising it, him doing the same until you were looking up, head angled and his downwards, head bent to admire you properly.
âhi.â you whispered again.
the size difference between you had never been more apparent until then, what with all of his strenuous visits to the gym these past few months. he had always towered over you, but it was different now - his already wide chest and broad shoulders engulfed you, his biceps on either side of him enough to have you wanting him in a way that certainly was not becoming of an ex wife.
itâs like he could read your thoughts, with the way he inched closer to you, until your bodies were openly brushing against each other faintly. material on material, fabric kissing fabric. you wished you could feel him on your skin.
the sound of your voice had lulled him gently as he dipped his head down lower so you could properly see him, despite your head back to look at him.
âhi, baby.â
your stomach flipped violently.
there it was again. baby. fuck.
as though the divorce papers were fickle, representing a momentary lapse of judgement instead of a ruling decision. like he still woke up beside you every morning and ruined your cheeks with kisses before falling in between your thighs.
the dazed look on your face didnât go unnoticed.
before you could even respond, yejin appeared behind you with the biggest smile she could possibly muster.
âoh my god,â she squeaked dramatically. âyou both look insane!â
jungkook blinked, momentarily pulled from the emotional spiral you were both taking part in as he straightened slightly, despite still being awfully close to you. your cheeks heated at the sound of her voice, jumping a little in shock, causing you to brush against him faintly.
âhi, yejin.â
âdonât hi yejin me.â she narrowed her eyes dangerously. âif she cries tonight, iâll kill you.â
âyejin!â you flushed red.
jungkook, however, allowed for a soft smile, nodding once. âfair.â
the sheer sincerity of it made the room go quiet, your eyes meeting his once more. you knew though it was a passing comment, he truly meant it - heâd let her kill him if it meant youâd hurt less.
your chest tightened all over again.
yejin seemed to realise it too, her teasing expression softening at the both of you. idiots in love, both too cautious to know what the correct next step was - thank god she loved to meddle.
âokay! youâre both gonna be late so hurry up.â she hummed, turning you and looking over you for any last minute touch ups. âiâll take these. iâll show myself out.â
with a cheeky wink, she all but pushed you backwards towards jungkook where your back gently brushed against his front. she had taken the flowers, shoved your clutch in your hand and shut the door in your face, all after giving you a big grin.
he didnât move from behind you, despite you turning to properly face him. the two of you stared at one another openly, eyebrows pulling together - you could see it happening in real time, the way his body curled at the mere feel of you. to be so close to you, touching you; it was out of a far away dream.
you felt it too - god, you could feel it in your veins. the horrifying wave of unashamed want that filtered through you so naturally, your body knew him. your body recognised your husband.
your man.
his restraint was palpable. you could see it in the way his fingers flexed on either side of him, almost twitching as muscle memory surfaced from deep inside of him. for years touching you had been second nature, with a hand on your waist, fingers lifting your chin, arms around your figure to hold you up for a kiss.
now he looked almost tortured as he realised he no longer knew what he was allowed to do.
the realisation alone softened you.
âwe should go.â you whispered up at him gently, though your voice lacked any real conviction.
jungkook stared at you, offering a small nod almost obediently despite the stark hunger in his eyes.
âyeah.â he cleared his throat. âyeah, okay.â
he stepped back and first; the distance was felt immediately.
you suddenly missed the warmth that radiated off of him, fingers faintly tugging on his suit jacket so gently you werenât even aware you were doing it. what the fuck was wrong with you? one touch and you were already spiralling into him again like the last eight months had never happened.
jungkook noticed. of course he did.
his chest visibly expanded from beneath the expensive material, eyes darkening so suddenly you felt heat up and down your spine. the way he looked at you had emotion swirling in your stomach, so hungry. so devoted.
you slowly released him, blinking rapidly as though youâd only just realised what youâd done.
âsorry.â you whispered instinctively.
jungkookâs eyebrows furrowed together in offence.
âdonât apologise for touching me.â his voice came out firmer than expected, low. far too intimate given the apartment hallway you were in.
the silence that followed felt thick enough to choke on, neither of you making an effort to move despite knowing you were bordering on being late. the tension was so unbearable now that you were both alone, freely staring at one another after so much time apart - no yejin to soften the edges. just fifteen years worth of tension, want and need all accumulated between you.
his eyes flickered downwards as he watched you sway slightly.
âyour heels are insane.â he muttered softly.
you blinked. âhm?â
âyouâre already wobbling.â
offended, your mouth gaped. âi am not wobbling!â
jungkook let out a small huff of amusement, loving how easy it was to rile you up. the sound completely disarmed you, seeing a glimpse of the same jungkook you had been with all of your life.
âyou almost fell walking out of the door.â he teased, with a tilt to his head downwards at you.
âi did not!â you shook your head with a small swat to his chest. he only let out another laugh. âyou literally grabbed onto me.â
âthat..doesnât count, okay?â
âmm.â amusement stretched over his face, as he led you to the staircase, cautious to be slow as he watched you continue to slightly wobble due to the uneven surface of the hallway. âsure.â
before you could even think of a rebuttal, you watched jungkook look down the multiple staircases with a slight frown before turning to you. he suddenly bent at the knees, your eyebrows furrowed in confusion for no longer than two seconds before one arm slid below your knees and the other around your back.
your gasp echoed.
âjungkook!â
he lifted you bridal style effortlessly, as though you weighed truly nothing to him.
your hands immediately flung to the back of his neck, arms wrapping around his shoulders in shock as your body felt more of him than it had done in what felt like eons. jungkookâs hands were so much bigger than yours, and you could feel him everywhere all at once, enough to have you dizzy with a sense of want.
âwhat are you doing?!â you whispered harshly, eyes blown wide as he sorted you on one single arm, checking his phone for the time with the other. it was beyond easy.
jungkook merely looked down at you calmly, entirely unbothered despite the way you could feel his pulse hammering below your fingertips.
âpreventative measures. canât have you slipping down the stairs.â
you stared at him in disbelief. âyou canât just pick me up!â
he scoffed a little, as though your words were going in one ear and out the other. your comfort came first, that much was ingrained in him and even you couldnât stop him when it came to that.
he walked down the stairs as though it was the most natural thing in the world, one hand spread wide against your back, claiming whilst the other was hooked under your thighs, making sure you were as comfortable as possible against him. your dress was draped so beautifully over his arm that anyone who would have caught you in that moment would have remarked, ironically, how bridal you looked.
you couldnât believe how safe he felt.
jungkook noticed the second you relaxed into him. properly.
âmissed carrying you.â he admitted quietly as he descended another step.
your entire body burned. âjungkook.â you breathed weakly, though there was no real warning behind your tone.
âwhat?â he hummed innocently. âsâtrue.â
you remembered almost fondly - it was the one thing you probably missed more than anything else. he would carry you everywhere - from the bed to your bath, to the couch after youâd woken up, through grocery stores just to hear you squeak in embarrassment. one time he had held you for an hour straight, walking you home after a date just because your feet hurt.
and now, here you were again, tucked into his chest as though it was home. you supposed it was.
your heart ached so violently at the memory that looking up at him through your lashes had your brain whizzing too fast for you to keep up with.
âyouâve gotten so much bigger.â you whispered almost shyly before you could stop yourself, already tucked into him too comfortably.
big mistake.
his heart truly nearly fucking stopped. his head snapped down at you almost instantly, eyes darkening so visibly it had you avoiding any contact, instead focusing your gaze on his clothed pecs.
âyeah?â he asked slowly.
your cheeks were flushed dark, realising how that may have sounded.
âjust..got broader.â you clarified through another whisper, wanting nothing more than to hide your face in his neck out of embarrassment.
âbeen working out a lot more.â he murmured down at you, ducking his head a little so that he could meet your eyes, a small smile forming.
you nibbled your lip with a little nod, fingers brushing against the ends of his hair.
jungkook knew you loved the size difference between you, but it truly didnât compare to how fucked it made his mind go. it was the first thing he had noticed when you opened the door again - how despite your heels, you were still so much shorter. it drove him insane, especially now that he was bigger. feeling you curled into his chest like this, all safe and protected, it made him feel wanted. to have you notice it, address it even so shyly; fuck. it ruined him.
by the time he had reached the bottom floor, your cheeks were still heated, dreading the fact he would have to let you go when all you wanted was to curl into him even deeper. to think ten minutes ago you had so much anxiety when now, he was actively conversing with you all whilst carrying you, it felt euphoric.
the driver stood outside of the car, the same man who drove you both to events when you were still together. your eyes widened a little as you watched him open the back door for you both, all whilst you were still leisurely held in his arms.
your embarrassment returned instantly.
âput me down!â you hissed quietly.
jungkook looked at you, unaffected. âwhy?â
âbecause your driver is literally staring at us, jungkook!â
the poor man looked away with a growing smile. he had missed seeing his boss so carefree, knowing that he was only like this when the situation pertained to you.
he smirked faintly. âheâs driven us around for years, baby. pretty sure heâs seen us do a lot worse.â
your mouth fell open, swatting his chest. âjungkook!â
that finally earned you a proper smile, brief but enough to knock the very air out of your lungs, your too large eyes drinking it in almost desperately. he was so handsome it hurt, and it wasnât until now you realised how much you had missed his smile.
carefully, he gently lowered you to the ground, making sure you were comfortable on your feet.
his hands lingered. neither of you moved.
your faces were suddenly so close once more as your hands had slid down from his neck, but remained in contact, fingers digging into his chest faintly to feel him. the city noise faded around you and into the background as he looked down at you with an emotion that could only be classed as longing.
âyou good?â he asked softly.
you nodded too quickly. âmhm.â
liar.
his eyes dropped to your lips once more, eyeing the gloss almost hungrily - would it taste like the strawberry you always applied? sometimes, when he closed his eyes, heâd remember the flavour.
then, like he had to physically pull himself back, he stepped closer to the car and gestured to it slowly.
âafter you.â
you slid into the backseat first, smoothening your dress as it rode up your body, all whilst your pulse hammered harshly.
the interior of the car was sleek, donned in a luxurious black leather whilst it remained dimly lit in the back, with enough enough space to stretch out your legs. the scent of jungkookâs cologne was addicting, and you immediately recognised it to be the one you had bought him on your last anniversary together, your heart fluttering at the thought.
once he climbed in beside you, you realised how intimate the space actually was.
jungkook sat close enough for his thigh to brush against yours, broad shoulders taking up far too much room whilst the driver shut the door quietly behind him.
neither of you acknowledged the contact. it somehow made it worse.
it wasnât until the divider between the front and the back began slowly sliding upwards, offering a layer of privacy that your breath caught audibly.
jungkook noticed - of course he fucking noticed. he couldnât stop staring at you, especially now that he had you trapped here, pushed against him like you belonged with a drive ahead of you. god, the things he wanted to do to you in this dress were sinful at best, but he had to practise restraint, no matter how much it took out of him.
he leaned back, one arm sliding over to the top of your seat, where although he wasnât touching you, you slyly leaned in just to have more of his warmth. it felt so familiar, so nauseatingly natural that anything other would have felt wrong.
he watched as your thighs pressed together.
fuck.
âyou nervous?â he asked in his low voice, jaw ticking.
your eyes slowly shifted, finally meeting his gaze. through a shaky laugh, one without humour, you nodded. âobviously.â
he softened at that, sharpness melting away to reveal the tenderness below.
âitâs just me, y/n.â
you felt so hyperaware of everything. the rain that tapped softly against the tinted windows, and the gentle purr of the car engine beneath you. the feel of jungkookâs thigh soothed you, whilst his heavy gaze unnerved you - a cocktail mix that felt so entirely him.
you could feel his eyes on you before you even looked up. once you did, your breath caught at the intensity of his stare - not polite. certainly not subtle. his gaze moved over you, up and down, like he couldnât help himself, like he heâd been trying to hold back the second you opened up the door to your apartment.
âfuck.â he muttered under his breath.
your cheeks flushed pink, whispering his name.
you watched his eyes flush down your body, eyes stuck on your cleavage and the way the material clung to your hips. âlook at you.â
you instinctively looked down, shy at the attention but you couldnât help but crave it. you knew exactly how obsessive jungkook was when it came to you, knew how deeply infatuated he was with every inch of you but seeing it so closely after so long almost felt soothing. it was a reminder that though everything had changed, somethings stayed the same.
his hand moved before you could think too hard about it, cupping under your chin and tilting your face upwards.
âdonât hide from me.â
your stomach tightened, eyelids hooded.
this thumb brushed against your jaw once, so soft, so unbelieving that you were in his arms despite the fact you technically werenât his anymore. not that he believed that.
âi canât stop looking at you.â he admitted, tone rougher now. âbeen trying since you opened the door, but itâs impossible.â
your thighs pressed together immediately, his gaze dropping to the small action. the reaction was subtle, but there - he noticed everything when it came to you.
you suddenly felt so warm.
âyouâre staring so hard.â you murmured nervously, fingers twisting together in your lap.
âbecause youâre driving me fucking crazy.â
the words came out so plainly your eyes widened.
jungkook exhaled sharply through his nose, head tipping backwards against his seat all whilst you watched with heavy breath. the far gone part of your mind wanted to track his neck, trace his adamâs apple with your fingers all so he could continue looking at you the way he had been.
he looked devastating like this - broad thighs spread in the backseat with your body pressed against him, his arm slung heavy on the head of your seat. the both of you were a mess for one another, sick in the head with infatuation.
you werenât stupid. you knew your effect on him, perhaps not to the full extent, but enough to know that nearly a yearâs distance between you was enough to drive a man like him insane. his hand dragged over his face with a quiet groan before adjusting himself slightly over his suit trousers.
your eyes flickered downwards before you could stop yourself.
jungkook smiled at the sound of your quiet giggle as you put a hand over your mouth to muffle it, looking up to meet his gaze after noticing he was half hard. all you had done was exist.
âyeah,â he murmured, the sound of your laugh blooming in his chest. âthatâs your fault.â
you slapped his thigh gently, although you couldnât hold back on the continuous giggles that were now leaving you as you felt lighter than you had in what felt like years. he too matched you, the intensity lightening up massively as he let out a quiet laugh despite himself.
âwhatâd you expect, hm?â he asked, voice soft. âi havenât seen you in eight months, and now youâre sat next to me looking like this. wearing pink.â
his hand slowly slid over, brushing against your own, fingertips grazing your skin before he intertwined them, gently.
you let him.
the second you curled your hand into his yourself, his expression changed. up until now, it was him losing control, reigning himself in, biting himself down to make sure you were as comfortable as possible but fuck. you were the one touching him now, making sure he could see you intertwine your hands properly, squeezing his hand.
it felt like a confirmation that this was the beginning of a new chapter.
he wanted to scream, to yell on the top of his lungs at the thought of you openly showing him your willingness. his sweet, angel girl; he loved you more than words could describe and he wanted to spend the rest of his life showing you.
âmissed this,â he admitted quietly, eyes on your much smaller hand holding his so intimately. âmissed you touching me.â
your eyes burned suddenly.
jungkook noticed immediately with a frown, expression softening at the edges.
âhey, baby.â his thumb brushed yours. âdonât cry.â
âmânot crying.â you whispered, though your voice wobbled embarrassingly.
he held you close to him as you both remained quiet for the rest of the journey, though the silence felt welcomed after such a rush and mix of emotions. you had gone from anxiety, to confusion, to excitement, to warmth, to a painful reminder of what once was - it was enough to drive you insane. being around him hurt, but being near him was healing.
rain continued to pitter patter outside as your hands remained intertwined, his fingers gently brushing against yours as he sat there trying to fathom how this was real. you were letting him in, and he could see it, could see how much it was taking out of you and heâd be damned if he fucked it up again. to get a second chance was insanity alone, but to have it with you?
the car began slowing down.
through the tinted windows, you could see a flash of white, people trying to get a glimpse of the elusive ceo they were so obsessed with. you gulped as you watched other powerful business people walk in with their dates, models and celebrities lining up to have their picture taken.
you leaned into him almost immediately.
jungkook held onto you tightly, arm sliding over your waist and gently squeezing. âiâm here. stay by me.â
you nodded quickly, dazed. âokay.â
his eyes lingered on your face for a second too long before he muttered under his breath, almost like he couldnât help himself. âyou look so fucking pretty.â
your heart nearly stopped, meeting his gaze as your shoulders slumped, feeling calm through his sweet words.
the car door opened.
chaos.
jungkook stepped out first and the reaction was everything you had expected and somehow so much more. your eyes blinked as you watched the cameras explode violently, reporters shouting his name from all directions as they desperately tried to get a clear shot of him, knowing he could easily make front page news without having to try.
your heart stopped for a moment.
his back faced everyone else as he turned to you, taking a hold of your hands once more and gently helping you out of the car, smoothening your dress.
the second they saw you? everything multiplied by ten.
genuine screaming was heard from somewhere behind the barricades as you slowly stepped out, your own hand finding jungkookâs for a sense of comfort which he readily gave you, pulling you in a little closer than necessary. the noise was erupting, your vision blinded momentarily by the insane flashes, reports actually tripping over one another to take pictures of you in particular.
this wasnât normal.
jeon jungkook never brought women anywhere. never entertained rumours, never dated publicly, never stood beside any other woman that hadnât been you. even then, you had been painfully private, making sure to attend closed events with rare appearances, often opting to support in the shadows as opposed to centre stage as he was forced to.
but now? this was the loudest statement you could have possibly made and it slowly dawned on you both the nature of the decision.
you were telling the world you were ready to start again.
his entire demeanour had changed out here.
you were overwhelmed to say the least, but it was his arms around you that kept you grounded as you clung to him, your smaller frame tucked so delicately within his own that some found themselves putting their cameras down just so they could observe you both.
you were the epitome of love and neither of you even knew it.
ceo jungkook - all cold eyes, sharp jaw, that terrifying calmness. yet every few seconds he ducked his head down, whispering something in your ear that would have you smiling almost shyly back up at him, easing your mind away from the hundreds of people who wanted nothing more than to get a picture of you.
âjungkook over here!â
âis that your ex-wife?â
âare you two back together?!â
ây/n!â
you flinched slightly as the voices got louder the closer you walked down the carpet towards the venue, but it seemed jungkookâs presence only felt bigger.
âdonât look at them.â he whispered down into your ear, words tucked for you and you alone. âlook at me.â
stupidly enough, you obeyed almost instantly. his eyes softened at the way you listened so sweetly.
âgood girl.â he muttered absentmindedly before guiding you to the entrance and away from the prying eyes outside.
the words hit you far harder than they should have. good girl.
oh you were so fucked.
â
the venue was utterly breathtaking.
golden lighting spilled across towering ceilings whilst soft music played from a live orchestra at one side of the ballroom, so elegant youâre indeed whether you were even appropriately dressed. people stared at you openly, all whilst you and your flushed cheeks looked away, purposefully keeping your gaze vague and avoiding eye contact with most. glasses clinked together as powerful figures mingled amongst themselves, professional cameras still set up inside.
and yet, none of it compared to the way people reacted to jungkook.
conversations paused when he walked by, people straightening up. executives who had once terrified you now looked nervous approaching him and it reminded you exactly who he was outside of your relationship.
jeon jungkook was a terrifyingly cold, business man. he was untouchable and unfeeling, everything that made a powerful man powerful and then there was you. his one weakness.
his hand remained firm against the small of your back possessively, claiming you as his own in front of anyone who could see. you loved when he was like this, all brooding and dark as though anyone even had a chance to steal him from you - silly man. even now, with months of distance between you and a divorce, you were all his.
âbreathe, baby.â he reminded with a quiet hum in your ear.
âi am breathing.â your cheeks warmed.
âbarely.â
you shot him a look, though it was void of any real annoyance as he guided you further into the room. you couldnât help but admire him openly, all whilst he scanned the room, not realising how deep you were falling into your own thoughts. he really had gotten so much bigger, with his chest so wide you couldnât help but wonder what it would feel like under your hands. his shoulders too.
you had spent the entire drive trying not to stare at him. you had failed. miserably.
âdrink?â
he pulled you out of your thoughts with a little gasp, realising you had been openly checking him out much to his pleasure. you found yourself nodding, nibbling away at your lip. âyes please.â
the words came out too fast, awarding you with a small laugh as he turned towards the bar.
your eyes followed him automatically.
that was another problem entirely. you see, no matter where jungkook stood, attention naturally followed. men greeted him immediately, keen to get into his good books whilst women openly stared, hoping to garner his fancy and yet he was completely and entirely uninterested. his gaze flickered back to you every few moments, as though he still couldnât believe you were right there, just for him. just because he had asked you to come.
your chest squeezed painfully at the thought.
he returned only a few moments later with two champagne glasses, handing you yours to which you took with a nervous smile.
âthank you.â
your fingers brushed his purposefully. small, barely noticeable.
oh, but how jungkook had noticed. he noticed everything when it came to you and judging from the way his throat bobbed, taking a large sip of his drink, you knew that your poor ex husband was certainly not able to handle your charm.
the champagne helped much quicker than you were expecting it to.
after the first glass, the tension in your shoulders completely eased but it was the second that had you transforming. your overthinking thoughts ceased to exist, as the warmth in your blood brought out a shade of pink in your face that jungkook couldnât look away from. standing close to him suddenly felt less terrifying and so much more thrilling.
a dangerous combination - especially when jungkook was looking at you with so much hunger.
a buzz had settled deep into your bloodstream, your brain slightly away with the fairies as you continued to sip, looking up at him. your other hand darted out, fingers trailing over his stomach openly, over to where the buttons of his suit sat. what was an absentminded action to you, tipsy, was enough to have jungkook almost shaking.
you were braver when you had alcohol in you, that much had been true your entire relationship, but even this felt quite insane. he watched as your fingers trailed up and down, sliding up to where his chest was only to drop lower and lower. it wasnât until your fingertips were brushing the top of his suit trousers that he grabbed your hand.
you pouted at him, head tilted. âwhy?â
your whine had his shoulders rolling.
âbecause,â he said slowly, voice rough beneath the sound of the orchestra. âyouâre getting handsy.â
your lips patted in faux innocence. âam not.â
jungkook stared at you half in disbelief and other half amusement, still holding your hand that he now pressed to his chest firmly. your fingers had nearly slipped below his waistband, a thought that had him nearly taking you home then and there but he knew it was because the alcohol was making you brave - his tipsy girl. his palm engulfed yours, feeling your fingers wriggle underneath to continue your plans with a slight whine but he was both firm and possessive, not letting you go.
you pressed your thighs together again.
this was the champagne.
he knew it, knew it to be a dangerous mix - the alcohol and your naturally clingy personality once you got comfortable, all combined with the eight months apart meant you were now simply doing whatever your heart wanted with little care to your mind.
your cheeks warmed as you watched him stare down at you, gaze heavier than anything all evening. it seemed the longer you were both in each otherâs presence, despite how long youâd spent apart, the more bold you were getting - but could you be blamed? he might have been your ex husband but he still belonged to you, and you knew you were still entirely his, a fucked up fact that meant you were both drawn to each other in ways that meant you could never move on.
multiple months of healing all gone to shit in a single night, with a few drinks. who were you both kidding - moving on wasnât an option. even you could see that now.
your fingers flexed under his hold, people secretly watching you both interact with bated breath. they couldnât believe this was the same jungkook they were afraid of, made to mush at the hands of the pretty woman in front of him. he was but a man afterall.
rather than pulling away, your fingers simply curled around the fabric of his suit jacket, fingers touching his shirt purposefully to elicit another reaction out of him. he had reduced you to putty in the drive over and perhaps it was the alcohol in your system, but you wanted him to feel the same.
jungkook was quiet. too quiet.
jaw slightly slack as he took you in, you touching him like his body belonged to you and you alone. he relished in the fact you knew it just as well as he did.
he had missed this so much. just the feel of you, no matter how innocent you pretended to be, skin on skin. it felt like a promise.
and now, you were standing here, head tilted to stare up at him properly whilst looking through pretty lashes that batted at him subconsciously.
it was driving him insane.
âyouâre staring again.â you hummed at him. his eyebrows narrowed. âbecause you keep touching me.â
you tried to bite down the smile that began to form on your lips as your fingers continued to flex, soon finding his heartbeat to confirm your suspicious. oh, he was a mess underneath your hand.
âyou donât seem to mind.â
his jaw flexed. you heard him curse under his breath, calling you a fucking minx which only had you giggling just as quietly. it was a powerful thing to have a man as influential as jungkook so weak in the knees for you, and you couldnât deny the affect it was having on your mind. he snaked a heavy arm around your waist, pulling you flush against him in a way that was absolutely not becoming of the environment you were in.
âkeep this shit up and iâll take you home.â he promised quietly, leaning down to whisper into your ear.
unfortunately for him, you had no intention of stopping. especially when you had just begun.
âpromise?â you whispered back, eyes wide with a faux innocence you knew he wanted to ruin.
his jaw clenched again, blood half boiling at how cheeky you were being and cock hardening by how badly he wanted to ruin you. had this been any other circumstance, youâd already be in the bathroom with your dress to your chest, being pounded into by the only man who knew exactly how to ruin you until you were well bred.
but alas - this night was about proving himself to you, and no matter how hard you made him, he knew he had to do this right.
and so, instead, he pinched you at your waist slightly, pulling an airless squeak out of you before he brushed his lips against your ear.
âbehave.â
the word should have been warning enough, but instead, warmth fluttered through you, rushing through your stomach so violently you pressed against him further. jungkook nearly hissed, watching how reactive you were for him, with your hooded eyes and slack jaw.
fuck.
his hands were all over you, with little care to who was watching and you knew tomorrow youâd be mortified when you remembered how brazen you had both been, but it was hard not to feel addicted when you were both feeling the same way. you giggled lightly, hiding your face in his chest momentarily before meeting his gaze.
âyouâre very confident for someone i divorced.â you playfully hummed.
at that, he couldnât help the smile that formed on his face. âdidnât stop you from getting your pretty hands all over me.â
the alcohol was well into your system as you found yourself giggling once more, fully hiding yourself in his chest to which he wrapped his arms around you properly, the two of you whispering and laughing together as though it was the most natural thing in the world. jungkookâs colleagues, rivals and admirers all watched you both in genuine curiosity at the way you were so well suited. two people, quietly infatuated with one another - it was toothache inducing.
the conversation between you both remained playful, with his thumb tracing your bottom lip at one point muttering something about how badly he wanted to know how your lip gloss tasted. an hour in and you were both practically trying to one up each other with how far you could take it, leaving you both laughing whilst trying to stay quiet.
this is what you had missed. joy. comfort. being around him in a way that didnât feel like you were fighting to prove something. it had been so long since youâd felt this carefree that you realised pretty quickly that you couldnât let him ago again. it was a horrible thought at first, realising that the past few months may have been for naught but perhaps absence did make the heart fonder.
soon enough, you had been there close enough two hours and jungkook had done the rounds once you settled in, less tipsy but still buzzed. you met his new business partners, clients you hadnât seen in a while, a mixture of familiar faces and people you had only ever heard about. neither of you commented on the fact he introduced you intimately, with a heavy arm around your waist.
it genuinely felt like no time had past with the way you both felt so comfortable, the dynamics between you natural considering he had been the one constant in your life for the past fifteen years. you sipped on your glass of water as you listened to his conversation half mindedly, watching him discuss a new company contract with one of his shareholders.
it wasnât until you heard a voice echo throughout the ballroom announcing the beginning of the charity auction that the conversation came to an end. jungkook immediately took a hold of your hand, planting a cheeky kiss to your knuckles with a slight smirk, before leading you towards the front of the room where the different things on auction sat to be admired over.
âcâmon.â
you followed him easily, hands intertwined whilst you walked side by side, champagne now a dull buzz in your body. people moved around you respectfully, all whilst their eyes lingered on you much longer than needed. could you blame them? you were the infamous woman that had managed to lock down the one man that seemed disinterested in everything, so much so that you had him laughing and flushing pink every time you so much as looked at him. the divorced couple that looked anything but divorced.
oh, they were staring indeed, with hushed whispers and even quieter questions.
your attention drifted lazily over the displayed pieces, politely but nothing quite caught your interest, your eyebrows pulling up at some of the art pieces named. it wasnât until you reached the very end that you found yourself stopped in your tracks.
jungkook noticed, he too coming to a stop to glance over at you only for his gaze to follow yours. he immediately understood.
beneath warm lighting sat a painting, inconspicuous to most considering it was much smaller than the grand pieces to the left, but it had your eyelashes fluttering
white gardenias.
your breath left you quietly.
it wasnât just flowers - it was an oil painting, textured with strokes of green, ivory and creams whilst petals cascaded over one another so delicately your heart ached. the background dat moodier, darker compared to the softness of the flower leaving you in a state of utter awe for a few moments, all whilst holding the hand of your ex-husband who watched you with bated breath.
it was beautiful.
you stepped closer unconsciously, hardly aware of yourself.
jungkook didnât think heâd ever seen you look at something with this much wonder, in all of the years he had known you. it did something to him, to watch you genuinely in awe at something he could so easily give you - it made him realise he needed provide it for you just to see that look again and again and again and again and again.
he felt this throat tighten, a harsh lump forming the longer he watched you admire it. the way your glossy lips parted, eyes widened and fingers tracing the air in front of it - donned in the same diamond necklace he had gotten you years prior. the same necklace heâd bought you after you murmured something about diamonds resembling stars late one night as you curled into him in your shared bed.
and here you were, wearing it, all whilst your hand curled inside his as though you had never been more at peace. that did something to him. something he couldnât quite describe.
your fingers moved to brush over the small description plaque underneath, reading the inspiration for the piece with a small, choked huff - devotion. enduring, eternal love through trial and tribulation through each season of life.
your own throat tightened then. of course.
âgardenias are difficult flowers..they die so easily if you donât take care of them.â you found yourself whispering; straightening your back and avoiding his gaze to bite back any tears that wanted to appear.
his chest tightened violently.
all he could think about was the little apartment you had both shared when you were younger, when he barely had any money to get you by each month. the one with the poor lighting and the janky sink - you used to sit by the window each morning whilst he got ready for work, whispering sweet things down at them because you believed it would help them grow.
he remembered every single detail.
âyou kept yours alive for months.â he whispered back, the hand that was clasped in yours now intertwining your fingers, as though he could project his memories back to you.
you blinked back at him, eyes glassy, surprised slightly. you hadnât expected him to remember something so small and insignificant.
how could jungkook could ever forget a single thing about you?
a small smile pulled at your lips. âi used to get upset whenever theyâd lose petals.â
âyou cried once.â he corrected.
you rolled your eyes. âshut up!â
he only shrugged, lips twitching. âhad to console you all night.â
âi thought i killed it!â
his quiet laugh nearly knocked the air from your lungs, all whilst he pulled you back into him, breathing in the scent from your hair before taking you to your shared table, where the auction was about to begin. your fingers remained curled around his own, all whilst he helped you sit down, fixing your dress for you.
he physically couldnât pull away from you, couldnât stop touching you even as you began conversing to the woman beside you, who jungkook recognised as one of his shareholders. his thigh was pressed against yours, all whilst his hand sat heavy in your lap, both of your hands playing with his fingers absentmindedly.
the different items came on stage as you watched people bid, raising their panels whilst some shouted out their numbers for more exclusive pieces. you couldnât help your giggles, leaning over to whisper in jungkookâs ear whenever youâd see more excited people, all for him to lean into you with an equal smile. the two of you were being silly, and it felt fun for once.
by the time the gardenia painting finally appeared, your posture straightened as you tapped on his hand with a wiggle of your eyebrows. jungkook watched you with a lazy grin, eyes flicking over your face.
cute.
the bidding started much lower than you expected, causing you to frown. âthatâs it?â
he nearly laughed, seeing your passion for your flowers. âartâs subjective, baby.â
âyeah, well everyone is wrong..so.â
fuck. he loved you so much.
you watched as someone raised their paddle, and then another, and another. a bidding war began as your head bounced between people, watching in utter curiosity though a part of you wondered what it would be like to bid yourself. ironically for you, you were completely unaware of the man beside you staring at your profile like he wanted to devote the rest of his life to you.
âtwo million.â
your eyebrows raised.
âtwo and a half!â someone else shouted, causing you to play with his fingers a little faster almost out of excitement.
âhope someone who actually appreciates it gets it.â you leaned over to whisper into his ear, lips brushing against his cheek in the process.
his jaw ticked.
game on.
just as someone shouted out, claiming three million, jungkook ran a hand through his hair before raising his panel, dark eyes trained on the auctioneer.
âfive million.â
your head snapped sideways so fast you nearly gave yourself whiplash, all whilst jungkook sat completely calm, hand raised lazily as though this was easy. like he hadnât just dropped five million as though it was nothing.
âjungkook!â you whispered, eyes wide. he merely hummed back at you, hand still intertwined with yours. âhm?â
âwhat are you doing?!â
âgetting you your painting.â
you stared at him in disbelief.
across the room, multiple people were openly whispering now, glancing between you because everyone could recognise what was exactly happening. this wasnât ego - this was love.
obsessive, and terrifying love.
another bidder raised their paddle almost nervously, calling out a measly âfive and a halfâ after a moment of hesitation.
âseven million.â
an audible murmur fluttered through the room just as you grabbed onto his arm with a large gasp, eyes widening as though he was batshit insane. âjungkook, stop!â
he finally looked at you, small smile playing on his lips at the sight of you so shocked. it was so cute the way you were practically toppling over your seat, a reminder that despite being with him, you had never really dabbled in his wealth whatsoever despite it all belonging to you.
a large shout of âsoldâ was heard by all, but you couldnât bring yourself to look away from him. his eyes admired you, from your lips to your eyes, your shaking hands that were both clinging to his thigh, your cleavage that had dipped even further than earlier. fuck. you were the epitome of everything he had ever wanted.
âyou wanted it.â he whispered to you, as though that was all he needed, as though it was enough of a reason to spend seven million in one night with a flick of his wrist.
your eyes near enough watered at his words, knowing that nothing had ever described jungkook better.
â
things between you and jungkook had settled into something dangerous.
not enough to call yourselves fixed, or enough to place a label onto whatever fragile thing had formed between you, but enough that your days seemed lighter. having him back in your life meant you were happy again, and actually excited - finally feeling whole in ways that no one else quite understood.
he called more often now.
what started off as phone calls sometimes briefly between meetings, something about using your voice to destress before important gatherings. they quickly turned to late night facetimes where both of you laid in bed, half naked, chatting until either of you would fall asleep. some nights they turned into something darker, dirtier, with a slip of your night dress to show him more all whilst heâd grunt and hiss at the sight, whispering all of the things he wanted to do to you.
it was beginning to feel domestic, familiar even. so terrifyingly easy.
you realised pretty quickly that somewhere along the way, between late night conversations and soft laughs exchanged, you had began falling deeply in love again.
hard.
he had been away on business ever since the gala a few weeks ago, with him currently stationed in hong kong over some important stakeholder meetings. you knew he was incredibly stressed over it, given the frequency of his calls - always at odd times during the day and night, sometimes with the intention of just looking at your face as though it was the only motivator he needed.
the time difference was more irritating than you had expected, and yet he still managed to find a way to accommodate to your schedule as opposed to his.
your favourite so far had been a simple picture of the skyline view from his hotel, taken at three am with a caption of âwish you were here.â
you hated how much those four words affected you.
pathetic, really. how even now, youâd kick your feet in excitement over any message sent from your ex husband.
it had become routine now, to expect messages from him with each waking moment, calls when the workload was heavier. perhaps that was exactly why the silence that afternoon felt so particularly loud.
you were curled into your couch, opting to work from home as you were in his jumper and a pair of flimsy shorts. you hummed quietly as you balanced your laptop on your thighs, all whilst a random entertainment news channel played in the back to offer some noise in your otherwise quiet apartment.
your ears perked up once you heard jungkookâs name somewhere in the background.
your attention barely lifted at first, no doubt another gossip sesh on how attractive he was which often made you giggle, but this felt different.
âceo jeon jungkook spotted in hong kong alongside mystery woman-â
your stomach dropped.
the laptop slipped from your thighs and onto the couch cushion, all whilst your head snapped towards the television, reaching for the remote to turn it up. the image splashed across the screen, all whilst you sat there, smaller than anything, watching.
jungkook.
beside him, an undeniably beautiful woman.
she was tall, elegant, dressed sharply in a suit practically created for her whilst cameras flashed at them harshly, exiting a building together. the headline underneath made your chest cave in further.
âglobal heartthrob ceo finally moving on after the divorce?â
you stared. and stared, and stared, and stared, and stared, and stared until your knees had slowly slid to the ground, your back touching the couch whilst the entertainment show droned on and on about the details of your relationship with jungkook, about how smitten you had both seen at the gala, how they were the first to break this exclusive news.
your brain knew better. you knew jungkook like the back of your hand and logically, you fucking knew better. jungkook was so many things, but he had always placed you and your emotions first, your priorities, your necessities, your life - your wants and needs transcended everything else. you had never asked for it to be this way, it was just the way he was.
even during your separation, he had never looked at a woman twice. you knew that.
but logic had never been able to defeat insecurity.
all you could think, all you could see, based off of a single image was how she fit beside him. how effortless it looked, how beautiful she was, how successful. so poised and polished - she was everything a woman who stood beside jungkook ought to have been and it was killing you in real time.
the worst thing of all was the realisation that he didnât belong to you.
all of this emotion, this horrible feeling inside your chest and soul - you were the one to divorce him. you had been the one that demanded it end back then, no matter how much he had begged you to see reason, believing that it was the correct step forward for the both of you. he had every right to move onto someone else, had every right to actually step forward towards something new.
and yet the thought of him belonging to someone else felt the closest to grief you had ever felt in your life.
your phone rang violently loud beside you, droning out the words of the presenter and making you jump slightly.
jungkook.
your eyes burned instantly.
the phone continued to ring and ring across the sofa cushion as you stared at his contact picture, a photo taken on your anniversary a few years ago that you could never bring yourself to change. your chest rose unevenly as another harsh wave of emotion hit you.
you couldnât do this.
not after you had spent the past few months trying not to think about him, only for him to come back into your life.
the call rang out.
then another came. and another. and another.
your phone was blowing up with a mixture of calls and messages, each vibration making your heart ache so much worse as the topic changed on the tv, talking about some other celebrity gossip all whilst you felt your entire life collapse before your very eyes.
with shaking hands and teary orbs, you turned your phone off.
you burst into tears.
the rest of the day was spent being utterly miserable. you had never felt so pathetic in all of your life, with pain running up and down your veins in a way that genuinely left you almost debilitated. the last time you were this heartbroken, you were a fresh divorcee.
the curtains remained shut despite the afternoon sun outside, your apartment dim besides the soft flicker of the television that continued playing mindlessly in the background. at some point, you had dragged yourself towards your bed with tears still streaming down your face, his oversized jumper now heavy on your frame.
you hated this version of yourself.
hated how deeply this had affected you despite knowing better. you knew him better than this, had enough trust in him and yet you couldnât barter with what was directly in front of you - months after rebuilding a sense of confidence all for it to shatter over one measly, gossip channel.
you closed your eyes, images of the beautiful woman stood beside him flooding your mind causing you to open them up again with a quiet whimper. so composed and effortless. untouched by the devastation eating you alive.
by morning, your chest was in genuine pain.
you looked awful too.
your eyes were swollen, red with the continuous tears all night whilst your skin felt sunken and dull, the early morning sun hitting your skin from glimpses through your blinds. you forced yourself out of your bed and into your shower, trying to rid the plaguing thoughts out of your body. you failed, spending the majority of it quietly crying.
by the time you were in the living room again, your nose was just as pink as your eyes, hands shaky and body adorned in an old t-shirt you had secretly stolen from his wardrobe back when you were packing to leave. you curled weakly into the couch, blanket curled onto your legs as you begged your body to rid the horrible stomach ache that had now found home inside you.
your phone remained switched off, somewhere under the blanket, still left there from yesterday. you reached for the remote.
you just wanted mindless noise.
instead, the television flickered to life and you found your breath catching harshly for the umpteenth time within 24 hours.
breaking news banners on every channel you came across.
jeon jungkook.
a whimper pulled up out of your throat at the sight of his images everywhere, your fingers tightening around the blanket before you turned the volume up.
âthe ceo has officially filed legal proceedings against multiple media outlets this morning following yesterdayâs false dating allegations-â
your heartbeat began thundering. you sat up immediately.
another clip appeared instantly, reporters practically tripping over one another in front of jungkookâs main company building, cameras flashing in hopes of getting a picture of anyone who could answer for anything.
âthe statement released by jeon jungkookâs legal team less than half an hour ago reads as follows-â
the screen shifted, and suddenly, there it was. cold white text against a black background that had your breathing stopping completely.
âthe allegations regarding ceo jeon jungkook are entirely false. the individual photographed was present for a scheduled business meeting attended by multiple executives and investors. legal action will be taken against all parties responsible for the deliberate spread of false information and invasion of privacy.â
your throat tightened harshly.
your eyebrows furrowed as you watched the presenter stop, looking at the camera momentarily, before her voice completely softened.
âas for the final portion of the statement, many online are expressing surprise regarding the unusually personal nature of his response as he personally commented-â
more text appeared.
you scanned it once. twice.
over and over and over until a harsh sob was ripped from your lips.
âi have never entertained nor pursued any romantic involvement with anyone.
there has only ever been one woman.â
a broken sound tore from your throat as your hand flew to your mouth, fresh tears spilling from eyes so fast that you couldnât see the tv. your heart felt like it had been picked up from the ground, cradled and cherished after being pierced over and over all night, attacked without any reprise.
you couldnât believe what you were reading.
jungkook, your jungkook? so private and reserved, not willing to give one inch of himself to anyone other than you and yet here he was, making himself as clear as possible. he was telling everyone with ears that you were his but more importantly, he belonged to you and you alone.
he despised media attention, it truly was the one thing he hated more than anything and the both of you would often laugh at rumours and random things stated in the tabloids because they were all bullshit.
and yet he has made a statement publicly.
for you.
your chest cracked at the thought as you covered your face with both hands, sobbing harder and harder.
before you could wallow further, a loud banging erupted from the front door.
the sound tore so violently through the apartment, you jumped - startled on the couch whilst your heart leapt to your throat. the slight fear had your tears stopping immediately, allowing for enough of a shock to regulate your mind for a few moments.
another knock came before you could even process it. louder, and louder, and louder.
âbaby!â
your breath hitched painfully.
jungkook?
his voice sounded wrecked. not the calm, controlled man the world knew, nor the eerie ceo who often stood emotionless in front of the cameras whilst deals worth billions sat heavy on his shoulders. this was your jungkook - the one who loved you much too hard, half unravelled whenever the conversation pertained to you.
âopen the door.â he shouted again, along another collective banging. his voice cracked slightly. âplease..â
you stared into space for just a moment, your mind unable to comprehend what was happening before your legs carried you to the door, through the hallway. you slipped on your blanket slightly, already shaking body weaker than usual given the past twenty four hours, all whilst hot, heavy tears burned in your eyes once more.
another knock.
âbaby, câmon..â
the second your shaking hands unlocked the door, it swung open hard enough to hit the wall behind it, as though jungkook couldnât believe you had actually heard him.
he looked utterly destroyed.
he stood, still in a suit that now sat disheveled on his frame, black tie loosened around his throat, white shirt wrinkled as though he had been in it for hours. his usually pushed back hair was messy, pulled at and tugged through large hands any time he had realised the depths of emotion you were no doubt feeling looking at the news - if the shoe was on the other foot, and jungkook had seen news of you and another man; he wouldâve happily burnt the world to a crisp.
the second he saw you, his entire face fell apart, anger long dissipating.
âfuck.â he whispered, heaving out a breath.
his oversized shirt sat on your body, engulfing your smaller frame, swallowing you whole in a way that had his breath taken away. it was your eyes that broke him, however, as they looked so swollen, no doubt from crying so hard, your cheeks still damp and lips still quivering enough that he watched you bite down on them.
you watched his throat bob harshly, watched his eyes flicker over yourself frantically like he was trying to assess how badly you had been hurting without him here to comfort you. the thought terrified him.
that was all it took for a sob to rip out of your chest so painfully your knees almost buckled. your hands flew up to your face.
immediately, his arms shot out, cradling you almost harshly to him with one large arm completely covering you whilst his large hand pressed against the back of your head, holding you close to him as though this was the only remedy for a situation like this. his sweet girl. his sweet, sweet girl.
âi called you for nineteen fucking hours.â he said, eyes darting down at you desperately.
you couldnât stop crying. âi know.â
âyour phone was off.â his voice broke slightly, as though the situation had hurt him beyond words. âthat scared me, y/n.â he admitted, chest heaving a little.
your crying only worsened immediately because of course it scared him - jeon jungkook, a man whoâs entire identity was you and you alone. the prospect of losing you for the second time would surely be enough to kill him, and yet answering his calls felt like the last thing you could bring yourself to do.
âi tried not to think like that,â you choked out through hiccups. âi know you wouldnât, logically i know but just kept seeing the pictures of you beside her and..â
your chest was heaving.
âstop talking about her.â
the words came out sharp, almost harsh.
his hand slipped to cup your face, holding your jaw in place whilst his arm slipped down, cupping your body to him so you could rest, his own strength supporting you up. his eyes were wild.
âdonât,â he repeated quieter, chest rising and falling. âdonât..stand here and..fuck, donât compare yourself to someone else for even a second over some shitty tabloid.â
you couldnât stop crying. it was as though that was all you could do.
âjungkook..â
âno.â he cut in immediately, voice cracking at the edges. âyou donât get it.â
he stood before you, a cocktail mix of utter despair and devotion, all whilst anger and fear simmered on the surface, every emotion open on his face to the point he almost felt unrecognisable. you knew he loved you, could see it painted on his features for the world to see but you werenât sure when his feelings for you had become his very destruction. it scared you.
his hand shook around your face.
âyou think i flew half a day because of a fucking dating rumour?â his eyes glazed over. âi donât give a fuck about the tabloids, baby, you know that. i was scared because i know what this would do to you. i know your brain.â
your breath hitched.
âi know you.â he repeated, hands continuing to shake against you. âknow how your mind gets. i know youâd sit here and cry over this shit when you know i would never touch another woman.â
another harsh sob clawed up your throat, and jungkook heaved at the sight as though it was the worst sound he had ever heard.
âlook at me.â he pleaded suddenly.
his hands dropping from your body as he suddenly dropped to his knees - a man of his stature rendered completely broken by the woman he loved. the amount of people who looked up to him, feared him; the amount of people he dictated on a daily basis and yet here he was, on his knees for you. only you.
âthere has never been anyone else.â his voice cracked completely. ânot before you, not after you. not after this, no matter what happens, you hear me? itâs you, and itâs always going to be just you.â
your own knees were begging to give out, as you leaned against him, only for him to rest his face against your stomach, breathing you in like a man desperate for your understanding. he wanted you to see, needed you to comprehend the situation at hand. there was no him without you, the concept didnât exist.
âyouâre the only woman iâve ever loved and there is nothing after you, y/n, because youâre my wife. divorce or not, i donât give a fuck, i belong to you forever whether you want me or not and i wonât..i canât have you thinking otherwise.â
your entire body gave in at the admission as you collapsed into him with another heart breaking sob, jungkook holding you like a man terrified he had said too much and truly not enough. for the first time since the divorce, neither of you tried to pretend this wasnât exactly what it was.
â
the rest of the evening softened after that.
somewhere between the tears and the endless kisses planted to your cheeks, nose, head, hands and stomach came an ease to the panic that had long settled into your bones for the past few months. he refused to let you go, grunting almost childishly whenever youâd move out of his arms to do anything until you found yourself snuggled back into his arms, as though the thought of distance after such a clear cut declaration of love physically pained him.
he looked exhausted now that the adrenaline of the situation had worn off, his under eyes sunken from the exhaustion that had now settled deep into his body. to think he had flown all the way across the world simply because of the thought of you crying all alone over a situation that was so completely false upset him - it made you want to sob all over again.
how could you have ever let him go? how could you proceed forward without him, without him so deeply intertwined in your life once more?
eventually you found an old pair of black shorts mixed in with your clothes from when you had packed your things all those months ago. jungkook had stared at them for a few moments after his shower, towel low on his hips as water droplets slipped down his chest. it had his heart pounding faster than anything yet.
âyou kept these?â he murmured down at you, watching the way your eyes flickered up from his physique, small gasp leaving your lips at being caught. âoh! um..mustâve slipped them in by accident.â
he didnât comment on the fact you were wearing his t-shirt either, despite it hardening his cock.
still, he pulled them on as you settled into bed, your hair still scented from your earlier shower too. you, in his too big top, whilst he grabbed you immediately, shirtless and hands still desperate to hold you in a way he had held back on for so long.
you hummed as your body pressed against his, his figure snaking around your body as a heavy arm curled under your ass as a means to prop you up higher in his arms, causing you to giggle into his neck. your arms wrapped around him too, humming a little under your breath as he breathed in your scent openly.
you both laid there in silence for a long while, breathing. healing.
the room was dark now, with the city lights from afar shining through the slips of your blinds, illuminating slivers of his bare chest beside where your hands sat. you could feel his heartbeat, the way it calmed your already heightened senses as though your body recognised it was finally home.
âmissed this.â you whispered into his ear, only snuggling closer to him.
jungkookâs grip, once on your waist, slid down to your ass once more. this time, his palm sat on your ass cheek, fingers digging into your skin whilst breathing you in.
âdonât say shit like that to me when iâm hard.â he grunted, a small smile forming across your lips. you hadnât even done anything, not that you needed to to get jungkook bothered.
when you pulled him from your neck, his eyes were already glazed over, both of you taking a second to simply stare at one another in the exact way you had wanted for so long. his mouth parted, as his hooded eyes took you in, holding you closer, tighter.
within seconds, his lips touched yours.
slowly, at first, as though he was trying to relearn you after years of you being his. he savoured every moment of your lips against his, especially once you started to kiss him back, both of you uncertain in the beginning but once your hands began to find home in his hair, it was then that jungkookâs touch began to grow in confidence.
he kissed like a man starved, one hand buried in your hair too whilst the other continued to grip your ass possessively, as though physically feeling you was enough to have his mind go into overdrive. every small sound you made went straight to his cock as he swallowed your little sighs and whimpers, only pushing him to kiss you deeper and deeper and deeper.
he was growing desperate, pushing you down against the bed, half hovering over you as he rested on one arm, hand cupping at your thighs, your stomach, your knee. anything he could get his hands on all whilst his tongue explored your mouth as though he had every right.
perhaps he did because despite everything, the divorce and distance, the heartbreak - he still reacted to you like you were the only thing capable of fucking him up.
his lips eventually drifted from your mouth, pressing against your chin, your jaw and finally your neck. oh, this sweet, pretty little neck, he had dreams of marking it up and down every other night and the fact he had you in his arms now, in a bed far too small for the things he so desperately wanted to do to you was everything and more.
jungkook moved, properly hovering over you now just as you moaned into his mouth, legs wrapping around his waist, pushing your top down your thighs and revealing your lace panties you had conveniently put on. just in case, of course.
he pulled away, a string of saliva connecting both of your mouths as you watched it break apart the further he pulled his head back. just staring at you hurt, with the way your cheeks had flushed and your hair was spread all across the pillow, and your thighs. fuck. the sight of what was between them had him openly groaning down at you.
âneed you to tell me to stop baby, or i wonât be able to hold back.â he hissed down at you, feeling your legs tighten around him before he could finish his sentence.
your hands moved to the waistband of his shorts, eyes never leaving his as you tugged on it just slightly. jungkook, whoâs two hands were on either side of your head, blinked down at you half in awe and other agony, the prospect of you teasing him in a moment like this his literal worst nightmare. you always knew how to make him impatient, said it was the best version of him.
he watched with bated breath as you grabbed one of his arms until his hand was in your own, slowly pushing it under your top to rest on your stomach. it felt heavy on your frame, large palm heating your already hot skin before you pulled him down, other arm wrapping around his neck.
âwanna feel you here, kookie.â you whispered into his ear.
jungkook nearly took you then and there.
his jaw flexed, a heavy leaving his lips as he chased your lips, planting another kiss. âyeah? want kookie deep inside?â
âmhm.â you hummed against him, placing your hand over his on your stomach.
âbut havenât taken me for so long, baby. might be too much.â
you closed your eyes at that - the way he cooed down at you despite telling you how easily he could ruin you, break you. it all felt like too much and yet the empty ache inside of you reminded you it wasnât enough, causing you to merely nod.
âi donât care. want it.â
the pout on your lips. fuck. jungkook thanked the gods he was a better man, more patient, especially knowing you were doing this on purpose.
âalways used to struggle to take me, hm? fucked you open every night and youâd still cry.â
jungkook reached forward, lips on your neck once more but this time, his hips began chasing yours, grinding down almost harshly, causing you to feel every inch, every vein against the flimsy material you called panties. it was heavenly
your hands grabbed him by his biceps, smaller hands unable to wrap around the circumference of his skin. how could you forget your nights of passion? he would spend hours between your legs, so mean, orgasm after orgasm and he still wouldnât feel satisfied, an insatiable man to his core. even on nights youâd argue, it would somehow end in you fucking which meant the last eight months had been utter hell.
your poor fingers couldnât reach far enough and nothing brought you to an orgasm unless you thought of him, imagining it was own digits instead of your own.
silly you - if only you realised how similar you and jungkook were. he couldnât get off unless he was on your instagram, staring at your pretty eyes and lips as he tugged on his cock with all of his energy, round after round after round only to be constantly dissatisfied. having you below him, so ready to be his again? it fucked with his head.
âyou'll make it fit.â you whispered.
within mere moments, neither of you could wait. his shorts, alongside the large tshirt that originally belonged to him were on the floor, leaving you in your lacy panties alone. his boxers strained against his hardened length which oozed precum at the mere sight of you, hips bucking a little as you watched him groan out loud at the wet patch forming against the flimsy material.
âmy pretty pussy.â he whispered, just as he parted your legs. his fingers pushed your panties to the side, almost hissing from how damp they were, knowing you must have been needy for a while. âmissed her. youâve been holding out on me, baby.â
your eyelashes fluttered up at him at the first touch of his fingers running up and down your slit. you let out an airy moan, barely audible, your body immediately easing back into the covers now that you could finally feel him on you.
he suckled on your neck whilst he circled your clit, knowing your body better than anyone. you were both so in tune with each otherâs wants and needs that an eight month break between you both meant nothing when he bit against the sweet spot on your neck all whilst applying more pressure.
you squeaked, nails digging into his biceps at the harshness of his fingers.
âfuck, youâre so needy.â he grunted, pulling away from your neck after leaving a hefty purple bruise. ânot been touching your pussy the way it needs.â
âdoesnât feel..â you moaned louder. âdoesnât feel good if you donât do it.â
his eyes almost rolled back at that. âyeah? need kookie to be the one to touch you?â
âmhm.â
at that, he pulled his hand away only resulting in a loud whine from you. so cruel, to have been given a taste, only to have it pulled away from you.
your positions, however, suddenly changed as jungkook realised the space on the bed was much smaller compared to the bed you had once shared. he rested his back on your wooden bed frame before grabbing you properly, resting you in his lap against his too hard cock, spreading your legs wide.
your back was against his chest, all whilst he caged you in, his fingers returning to your cunt immediately.
this new position had you so much more exposed, as he pushed your thighs apart, index finger circling your hole before slowly pushing inside. your eyebrows furrowed, watching him with a shake to your breath as he took his time, knowing a single one of his was the equivalent of two or three of your own - a though that had him wanting to fuck into you already.
the loud moan that left your lips once he fully inserted it was enough to have him kissing at your temple, cooing.
âlike that?â
âfeels big.â you whispered back with a shake, feeling him pump in and out.
at that, jungkook thought he was ready to fucking cum. even your pussy was as sweet as you were - too big? one finger and you were already fucked out, but he knew he had to stretch you to accommodate him, a thought that brought a nasty little smirk on his face.
âgotta fuck you open, baby. always so tight.â he continued to coo at you, all as you looked up at him, his finger being joined with another.
soon enough, he was roughly fingering you, all whilst you both maintained eye contact, often breaking it just to share a kiss as though neither of you could get closer to the other. the feeling of him inside you, just like you had become used to for so many years after months apart was the definition of pleasure, your eyes hooded with each pump.
âfeels sâgood.â you slurred slightly, chest heaving.
he watched your breasts, your bed squeaking with each passing movement and he fucking loved it. loved having your eyes on him, loved having your tits bounced everytime heâd fuck you open a little harder, your sweet moans filling the space.
you could feel how hard he was, but everytime you tried to turn to pleasure him too, heâd merely hold you tighter, as though your orgasm was the only objective on his mind. he wanted to eat you out, fuck - the thought had him all but growling at you but he knew heâd never last, promising himself heâd save that for later tonight.
âwish you knew how many times iâve dreamt about this.â he grunted down at you, as he watched your thighs try to close from the onslaught of pleasure, only for him to widen them immediately. âiâm constantly fisting my cock thinking about you. at work, at home, in the fucking car.â
âwhat do you think about?â you pressed desperately, needing to hear it.
jungkook bared his teeth at you slightly, all whilst his pace quickened. âthink about breeding you, pumping you full of cum till youâre begging me to stop. every morning, every night until youâre pregnant with our baby. youâd like that, hm?â
you could have sobbed. like was an understatement, your legs widening with each passing word as you nodded almost desperately at him, looking up and above where his head tilted down to watch you.
your eyes then fluttered shut at the image of him touching himself, almost shuddering out of relief at the thought of him so infatuated that he had to cum just to get you off of his mind. especially at work - the whole reason of your divorce being his dedication to his occupation and now knowing you had your affect on him there too? it was euphoric.
âthink about you all the time.â you whimpered back at him, pout so cute he wanted to scream. âtried..fuck..tried to touch myself after the gala..but wasnât enough.â
he watched as you shook your head up at him, one of your hands on his wrist as the same hand pumped faster inside of you at the admission. he cursed under his breath, letting out a deep exhale.
âshouldâve told me. fuck, y/n. wouldâve ruined you then, baby, you know that right?â he nuzzled into your cheek. âwouldâve let you use me as much as you want.â
it was your turn to whimper under your breath, as your eyes shut tight at the familiar feeling in your stomach starting to creep up. it was shocking, how slowly it managed to creep on you, and yet you could feel every inch of its intensity, the first in a long time where you know youâd feel satisfied.
jungkook could feel you clenching, your too tight hole sucking him in desperately as a bid to have him go meaner on you, to which he was more than happy to oblige with. he grabbed your chin with his other hand, forcing your head back so youâd open your eyes again. he wanted to watch.
âeyes on me, pretty girl.â
you werenât sure if it was the sweet way he cooed at you, or the brutal pace he was now forcing you to take but your orgasm hit you like a freight train. you let out a loud squeak as electricity fluttered through from your head to your toes, your hips rising whilst he continued to finger you through your high, hissing at how sexy you looked maintaining eye contact.
his pace didnât lessen, devoted to longing out every hit of pleasure for as long as possible, your legs shaking as you pawed at his wrist, but he refused to stop. your body began falling into overstimulation, whining loudly as your weakened hands grabbed onto his, feeling him finally slow whilst he remained two fingers deep, pushed inside of you all the way to his knuckles.
he curled them one last time, causing a shaky breath to leave you before slowly removing them inch by inch.
the emptiness inside of you was horrible, a reminder of what else you wanted and how badly. your big eyes met his, only to watch him take his fingers press them against your pouted lips until they parted, your tongue wrapping around. you tasted yourself, a sweet sigh leaving his lips at the sight of you sucking so eagerly, his cock jolting harshly in his boxers.
âstill donât think you can take me right now.â he whispered down at you, other hand moved so it was openly cupping your pussy as a whole, palm brushing against your hypersensitive clit.
you jolted which each passing touch, breathing shaky before you took his fingers out of your mouth, saliva coating them where your slick once was.
âdonât care, kookie. i want it anyway.â you grumbled slightly, and he swore he had never loved you more.
it was your turn to move as you pulled away from his grasp, giggling a little to yourself at the look on his face once you put space between you, only to turn around, so you were laying on your stomach. he remained in his position, legs on either side of you allowing you to press your hand against his massive bulge.
oh, how youâd missed his cock.
you were as impatient as ever as you pulled his boxers down enough so that his fat cock could finally spring free, watching the way it tilted upwards at first, but its weight forced it down lower and lower until it was resting almost gently on your face.
he wanted to take a picture. wanted to make it his screen saver, your contact picture in his phone - he wanted it in his fucking wallet. his girl, eyes all hooded after being bratty for his cock? you were a minx and you didnât even know it.
âdonât have a condom.â he found himself whispering at you, just as you began to pump him.
you tilted your head at him, hand unable to wrap around his length as you slowly teased his slit, fingers brushing against it just to him shudder. you watched his face, watched his very composure crumble before your very eyes all whilst he muttered something about a condom? your mind was barely working, still sensitive from the way he had made you cum and the horniness still in your stomach.
âwhy would i want you to wear a condom?â you whispered up at him, as though it was a little secret between you.
you watched his eyes darken in real time, narrowing down at you as both of his large hands grabbed the back of your head. you giggled, resting your cheek on his thigh whilst you continued to pump his cock, focusing on the tip just the way he liked it. the heaviness in your hand was what you missed the most, causing you to leave a little kiss to it on the mushroom tip, your fluttering eyes only driving him more and more insane.
he wouldnât last like this. not with you staring up at him like that.
and so, he pulled your hair. you whimpered, pussy clenching as he pulled you up by your locks, your large eyes completely taken over by how rough he was being with you, no doubt being fuelled by the heightened emotions of the past two days. this was your favourite jungkook, secretly of course.
within seconds, you were on your back once more, all whilst he grabbed your hips and yanked you close to him. he dropped down to give you a kiss on your lips, savouring the taste and feel of you before beginning to rub his cock up and down your tight hole.
âmy girl.â he whispered against your mouth. âno going back after this.â
your eyes clenched shut at the feeling of him teasing you, pushing the tip against your hole only to pull back the second it began inserting, rubbing it up and down and over your clit once more. he was a tease through and through, but you were too needy to see reason.
âdonât wanna go back, want it all.â you simply whimpered back.
your words were enough to finally have him pushing inside of you.
first, the tip. your face contorted to the familiar feel of his cock slowly inserting inside of you, your breath catching slightly at the sheer size of him - you struggled to take him even when your sex life was incredibly active, so you knew now that you hadnât been touched for eight months, this was going to be hard.
you watched his face harden, all whilst your eyes slipped downwards to see him pushing further in, inch by inch, until your fingernails were puncturing the skin of his outer arms. he watched your face instead, willing himself not to cum at the way your jaw grew slack, big eyes only widening further at the too large cock settling in inside of you.
it was too much, too big, too at once. you couldnât think, could barely see and yet you couldnât pull yourself away from watching him bottom out even if you wanted to, a slight bulge evident where he sat deep inside of you. his large hand took a hold of yours and kissed it before pressing it against the bulge, only to rest his own right on top. applying pressure, he hissed at the way you let out a loud whimper, your cute thighs trembling around him.
âfeel that?â he whispered down at you, nuzzling your nose to force you to look at him. âthats where i fucking belong. this pussy stretches so good for me every time.â
your lip was already trembling, a sight that had his cock throbbing deep inside of you as you clenched down on him hard. his cry baby - he loved seeing you teary during sex.
you were still adjusting as he began to move, causing you to squeal, but jungkook couldnât wait anymore, not when heâd been dealt with blue balls for close to a year. you were the only option, pledging to live a life of fucking celibacy if youâd have chosen to never let him inbetween your legs again though the thought killed him inside. live a life without a taste of your sweet pussy? heâd sooner die.
âjungkook!â you slapped the tops of his biceps, as he continued his thrusting inside of you, nipping at your jaw, feeling his smirk against your skin.
the feeling of him thrusting in and out of you was intense, something you had been craving for so long now and yet now it was happening, you wanted more, and more and more and more and more. he loved this shy game youâd always play, always pretending like you couldnât take it despite the fact your legs were widening further and you were moaning like a bitch in heat - it turned him on beyond words to know underneath the sweet persona, you were the filthiest slut he had ever known.
his pace was deep, mean but slow and it wasnât enough, purposefully done to tease you for as long as he could, to ensure youâd stay needy. it was clearly working with the way your moans, whines and gasps filled the air only to be followed with a long drawl of his name, face scrunched up so cute he wanted to fucking scream.
âcâmon, baby, youâre so good to me.â he cooed, continuing his slow thrusts. âjust gotta ask if you want something.â
your eyes scrunched shut, whimpering at his words knowing he wanted you in ways that you had reminisced on for months, the feeling of him kissing the gummy part of your cunt something you had missed so much.
âwant it properly, kookie.â you begged him, though you couldnât meet his gaze, eyes flickering down to his neck as he continued his pace. âyeah? tell kookie how you want it.â
your fingers clung to his shoulders as he came down, arms now pressed on either side of your head as he nuzzled your nose with his own, actions too sweet given the sinful position he had you in.
your breathing was ragged, the feel of him inside you too much for your poor little mind to handle without breaking and yet it wasnât nearly enough. you craved something harsher, meaner, more jungkook. neither of you had ever been ones for soft sex, always preferring it as needy as possible which only heightened considering the fact you were both so utterly obsessive when it came to the other.
you whined loudly as his actions came to a stop completely, now grinding against you whilst still being inside.
âjust want you to fuck me properly.â you whimpered, lip quivering so much faster, hips lifting to meet his as a means to relieve yourself.
god. you were killing him.
âgood girl.â
jungkook planted a single kiss to your lips, oddly sweet before pulling back, planting two more to your forehead and nose. you were ready to whine once more until you felt his hips pull back, only to thrust into you harshly.
you squealed as jungkook began his pace exactly how you craved it, exactly how you used to picture with your own fingers in your cunt, desperately trying and failing to replicate the feel. hard. fast. mean. rough.
your neighbours would no doubt complain tomorrow with the way your bed frame began pounding into the wall, his head pressed against yours as his thrusts began kissing your cervix. your legs shook around him, much to his enjoyment, all whilst he forced you to maintain eye contact, wanting so badly to see the affect he was having on you after he had been deprived of you for so long.
âfuck..there she is. thatâs my girl.â he hissed down at you, not holding back, the sound of skin slapping against skin heavy in the room. âyou donât know how badly i missed you.â
âm-missed..ugh! missed you..too..â you managed to string together, salted tears now escaping your eyes as they streamed on either side of the pillow.
âpretty girl like you needs to be fucked mean. no good to be nice to you, huh?â he growled down at you, only causing your lip to quiver that much faster as you nodded. âcanât think unless itâs me bullying your pussy into an orgasm.â
your nods were paired with soft sobs as he pounded, ruining your soppy core just like you had wanted. you had dreamt of this, dreamt of him, genuinely believing youâd never reach this state of pleasure ever again in your life and yet here he was, coaxing it out of you to remind you that heâd never leave you again.
his thrusts were sloppier than usual, no doubt due to the extensive length between your last fuck but it only had you moaning and crying louder. the thought of the usually composed jeon jungkook a whining mess for you and you alone had you clamping down hard on his cock.
âcanât believe i let you leave me.â he grunted hard at the feel of you getting so tight, gritting his teeth as he pounded you further. ânever again. you fucking hear me, y/n? youâre my wife forever.â
âpromise?â you sobbed back, arms now wrapping around his neck as you tried to bring him impossibly closer, as though you could in any capacity.
he nipped at your bottom lip, moaning into your mouth at the way you all but begged him to make it a reality.
âgonna take you to the courthouse tomorrow, get you a nice dress and we do..fuck..we do this again, understand?â he closed his eyes the more you whined and whined. âgonna let me put that ring back on your fucking finger, baby?â
you nodded wildly, just as you felt your orgasm build up in your stomach again, whining loudly up at him in a way he recognised immediately. fuck, he had missed this so much - his angel girl, all needy, begging for it even though she could barely take it. he could feel his own coming on fast, causing him to pull his hand down and rub at your clit, hissing at the feeling of you clamping down on his cock harshly.
âcâmon baby. want you to cum on your husbandâs cock, hm? gonna get you nice and round like you deserve.â his thrusts only got meaner. âmove you back in. fuck this pussy every single day, just like you need.â
your high rushed through you at the exact point his did, your legs wrapping around his waist as a means to keep him inside. you could feel it all through your body, the way it seized up and bucked into him all whilst he continued his thrusts, fucking you through both of your orgasms.
your vision started growing dark, the intensity of it overwhelming as he rode out your highs whilst whispering soft i love youâs in your ear, cradling you to his chest, holding you closer than youâd ever felt him before.
everything after that completely blurred together.
you remembered jungkook taking care of you, tenderness laced into his very being as he held you like you were akin to a porcelain doll - sweet, so soft, so delicate. somewhere between the damp kisses pressed to your skin underneath the bubbling bath he had drawn for you both, to the continuous declarations of love muttered down at you; you realised that this was inevitable. he was inevitable.
there didnât exist a reality where you both could live without one another - you knew that now.
even after the heartbreak, the divorce, the loneliness and the debilitating grief, you still found yourself exactly where you belonged. your cheek pressed against his chest, his heartbeat soothing you into a dreamlike state which paled in comparison to the reality that was now yours. his love had you wrapped so tightly you knew youâd never live without it again.
you were finally home.
â
this beast of a fic is finally done yay!!! i hope you guys love ex husband jungkook just as much as i do!
tried to make him less yandere in this one and more pathetic yearner lol but i may have slipped here and there đ
iâd love to hear your thoughts on this - love hearing you guys after a fic drops so iâm excited to see what you all think!!!!
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summary: you should already know that movie night with your roommate jungkook always ends up turning into something more
pairing: roomate!Jungkook Ă reader
tags: roomate!jungkook, friends with benefits au
wc: ~ 1.8k
warnings: pwp, cockwarming, unprotected sex, multiple rounds, tit play.. free use? if you squint?
notes: this was requested! as always, English is not my first language! so excuse any mistakes
âWanna watch something?â you ask, standing in the kitchen with a half-finished drink in your hand.
âYeah. Pick whatever," your roommate Jungkook says from the living room.Â
He's already on the couch, with his legs spread open and one arm thrown over the backrest. And in classic Jungkook fashion, heâs not wearing any shirt. His chiselled chest is on full display for the enjoyment of your eyes.
You walk over with the cup still in your hand. âAre you sitting in the middle?â
He nods. âAnd youâre sitting hereâ he says, patting his lap.
You raise a brow. âOn your dick?â
âYep.â he states, not even blinking. âKeep me warm while we watch the movie.â
You roll your eyes but youâre already setting your drink down on the coffee table and getting close to him. âSo needy.â
âFor you, pretty? Alwaysâ he laughs, tugging his sweatpants down just enough to free his half-hard cock. âAlso, is that my shirt?â He grabs his cock and strokes it, but his eyes never leave you.
âItâs comfyâ you excuse yourself.
âMmmh.â He strokes himself lazily. âIt looks better on you either way. Off with the shorts tho.â
You shimmy your shorts down and step out of them, taking your panties with them, naked now under the oversized tee. The fabric barely covers your ass.
âThatâs better,â he mutters.
You turn around with your back facing him, and climb into his lap.â Wait. Let me prep you.â
Jungkookâs fingers slide between your legs, stroking your clit with slow, practiced circles. You bite your lip, already arching into his touch.
âYouâre wet,â he mutters, pushing two fingers into you without warning. You gasp, grabbing his wrist as he fucks you open.
âAlmost there,â he says. âThen Iâm putting my cock in this tight pussy.â
Your head falls back on his shoulder. He pumps his fingers faster, thumb flicking your clit until your hips jerk. His fingers work you fast, getting you wet and ready.
âGood?â he asks against your ear.
You nod quickly. âYeah. Good.â
He pulls his hand back. You reach for his cock, lining him up against your pussy. âFuck,â he mutters when he bottoms up.
You hum, reaching for the remote and pressing play. The screen lights up, some Avenger movie you have watched like a million times before, and you settle into him.
Jungkookâs hands go under your shirt and grab your tits, and you barely flinch because you know how much he loves your breasts. His thumbs brush against your nipples and you clench around his cock.
âMmh, that feels good,â you mumble, head tilting back slightly, still looking at the screen.
âYeah?â he answers softly, pinching your nipple. âMmmh. Watch, Tony Stark is going to catch that guy playing Galaga â he says, looking at the screen.
He keeps playing with your nipples. You stay quiet, and let him keep going. You try to pay attention to the movie, you really do, but when you feel his hips slowly move against yours you know what comes next. âI thought we were watching the movie,â you say, not even trying to sound annoyed.
He laughs under his breath, still toying with your nipple. âWe were,â he says, giving your tits another squeeze. âBut then your tits got in the way. You expect me to focus with these in my hands?â He presses his hips up a little harder, making you gasp.
âYou can pause it. Weâll finish it later.â He adds, peppering kisses over your shoulder.
You grab the remote and hit pause, and go back to lean against his chest again.. Your (his) shirt is now pushed up and bunched under your arms.
âFuckâŚâ he mutters close to your ear,âYour pussy feels so good.â
You press your back harder to his chest and let him fuck up into you while you sink down. âMmm yeah⌠donât stop.â You whisper.
âTrust me, pretty, stopping is not in my plans,â he says. You donât see his face, but can almost hear the smile on his face. He gives you a deep thrust.
His right hand leaves your tit and goes south. You feel his fingers against your clit, caressing it with light pressure at first, but soon he starts rubbing harder.
âShit,â you whimper, hips twitching. âJust like that, fuck!â
He keeps with his rhythm. His thick cock drags inside you, hitting that stop that makes you feel so good. Mixed with his hand rubbing your clit, you know your climax is near.
âFeels good?â he says, a little out of breath now.
âI got you, prettyâ he says, kissing the side of your neck. âJust let go.â
His finger gets rougher against your clit and his cock keeps slamming hard your insides until you cannot hold it anymore. You cum with your mouth half open, and your eyes shut between cries of pleasure. He doesnât stop right away, letting you clench around him.
âGood girl,â he whispers after a second.
Youâre still pulsing around him, your thighs twitching. He remains quiet for a moment, but then he shifts under you, and his hips pull back just a bit, and then he slams against you again, harder and faster this time. His cock, sleek with your juices, slides in and out easily.
âShit,â he breathes out. âDo you feel that? How are you squeezing me?â
âMhm. Keep going.â And you can bet he does.
He groans behind you, and his forehead drops to your shoulder. Putting one arm around your waist he holds you in place. His other hand is still on your tit, but heâs not playing with your nipples anymore, too focused on his own pleasure.
âFuck⌠where?â he asks, you feel the neediness in his voice. âTell me.â
You swallow, still fucked-out. âInside.â
âYeah?â
âMhm. Fill me up.â And that is what he needed to send him over the edge.
âFuck,â he groans. âFuck! Pretty, Iâm gonna cum.â
Thrusting one last time, he spills into you, painting your walls white and his cock buried all the way inside. His head drops against your shoulder and lets out a laugh. His arm stays around your waist and neither of you move.
After a few quiet seconds, he blinks at the screen. âso⌠we are watching or what?â
You hum, half-gone. âPlay it.â
He grabs the remote, cock still inside you, cum still dripping warm between your thighs.
His hands are back to your tits, his fingers brushing your nipples. âmmm these tits..I love them. Ditch the shirt,â he says, tugging at the fabric bunched around your ribs. âWhatâs the point if itâs already up here?â
His hand slides under it again. âJust wanna feel you properly.â
You sigh, amused, but lift your arms anyway. He helps you pull the shirt off.. âThere we go,â he says, both hands going right back to your chest, like he never left. âMuch better. Fuck. Pretty, youâre so fucking soft,â he mutters, almost to himself. âI swear to God I could stay like this all day.â
You lean back into him with a little hum, skin to skin now. His cock stays inside you, and you feel it twitching every so often. You shift a little, trying to get more comfortable. Your thighs are sticky, but you donât really care.
He hums behind you, mouth at your neck. âYou good?â
You nod, eyes on the screen. âYep.â
Twenty minutes pass, maybe more. Youâre zoned out, barely following the movie when you feel it. A light twitch, followed by another, and you know that his cock is starting to get hard again inside you.Â
You glance back over your shoulder, smirking. âSeriously?â
He doesnât even look at you. Shrugging, his eyes never leave the screen âMmmh. Itâs because of Black Widow. Sheâs hot.â You roll your eyes, but your hips already start moving.
You feel him swelling, thickening more with every soft little shift of your hips. Your pussyâs still slick. His hand slides down to your waist again and starts rocking up his hips.
Jungkookâs cock drags out slowly, slides back in even slower but this time hitting a different spot inside you. You cannot control the moans.
âThat good?â
You nod, eyes still on the screen. âFuck. Yes. Donât stop.â
He thrust up again, making you moan even louder. Fucking into you with slow but hard thrusts, the movie still going in the background. Moaning softly, you tilt your head back, and his mouth finds your neck. His warm lips place a few kisses on your skin.Â
âMmm⌠Go a bit harder.â Not saying anything, Jungkook shifts under you and grips your waist a bit tighter, thrusting again. You exhale and your hips rock back against his. âFuckâŚâ you mumble, barely loud enough to hear over the movie.
His cock presses deep, fills you all the way up, and then pulls out just enough to do it again, hitting that sweet spot.
âShit. Donât stop, donât stop! â
He groans behind you, teeth grazing your neck again. âYeah? Right there?â
You nod fast. âFuck, yes. Feels so good.â
You clamp down around him so tight he swears. âFuck⌠youâre so fucking tight. Shit.â
âCan I - fuckâŚâ he starts, âCan I cum inside again?â
Not being able to speak, you just let a soft moan out, nodding.
âFuck, fuck, fuck, Iâm gonna fill you. Fuck!â And he does, warmth spreading between your legs all over again. His arms wrap tight around your waist while both of you reach your climax.
You just melt into him, letting him fill you. For a moment both of you stay quiet, just your heavy breathings can be heard. His cum is dripping out of you again, making your thighs sticky, but honestly you couldn't care less.Â
Jungkook lets out a laugh âGod. Weâre disgusting.â
You grin, eyes barely open. âYeah. Whatever.â
A few seconds pass. The movieâs still playing in the background, long past the point where either of you left off. You glance at the screen, squinting. âWe missed, like, twenty minutes.â
He groans, grabs the remote from where itâs wedged between the couch cushions, and starts skipping back. âUgh. Worth it.â
âYouâre leaking all over me,â he mutters when his cum leaks onto his thighs.
âYour fault,â you murmur, head tilted against his. âYouâre the one that couldnât help himself.â
âHelp me clean up?â
 âLetâs stay like this a bit longer.â
You snort. âYou just donât wanna pull out.â
âExactly,â he grins, shameless. âIt feels too good like this.â
You roll your eyes, but you donât argue. His cock is still buried inside you, softening slowly. You feel his cum warm between your thighs, his hands cupping your tits again, his chest against your back, and thereâs something weirdly comforting about it.
âBesides,â he adds, kissing your shoulder and giving your tits a soft squeeze, âif we wait a little⌠It'll probably be hard again.â
You huff out a laugh, leaning back into him, knowing a round 3 is just around the corner.
the first time jungkook made you squirt was magical
âi-is this working? oh wow.â
jungkookâs eyes widened the size of saucers, the look of shock on his face slowly twisting into a fucked out smile. âyouâre doing it, babe.â
you . . . poor you.
while your boyfriend babbled, and fingered his way into a power trip, you just laid like a wilted flower against his cushiony pecs with parted lips and teary eyes. if it werenât for his hand being wrapped around your throat to keep you grounded, you donât know where your head would be at right now.
âno, no! keep your legs spread please,â his lips pressed to the side of your head in a sweet kiss. âi wanna see more . . wanna make it touch the mirror.â
those filthy words finally pulled a response out of you, âstopppppp.â
ânoooo,â he teased, rubbing the rough pads of his fingers over that soft, spongy spot that had your thighs shaking.
squelch! squelch! squelch!
that was the only noise that could be heard throughout your small, very pink room. you wanted to tell him to stop, and give your poor cunt a moments rest before the night continued, but he had that look on his face.
that look that said âeither iâm finishing what iâm starting or fall to my knees and die!â
suddenly, his middle and ring fingers slipped from the warm, tight confines of your pussy. they made a v-shape, and ran along the expanse of your soaked folds before stopping right at your clit. it was puffier than usual from the neglect, just waiting to be toyed with by your boyfriendsâ skilled, tatted fingers.
he used his palm to push the skin above it up, exposing the pink button to the cool air. âmaybe you just need a little stimulation right here,â he muttered in your ear, and then let out an even lower curse in korean when he saw your eyes roll back, showing him nothing but the pretty whites of them.
his fingers rolled over your clit with precision in tight, little circles, but he made sure not to go too fast. fast was nice, but too fast and hard made things boarder line not enjoyable for youâespecially when you were sensitive like this. so, he stuck to a steady pace that got gradually quicker the closer you got to your impending orgasm.
âoh . . o-oh god, iâmâkookâ!â your hand wrapped around jungkookâs wrist. not the wrist that was finger fucking you into mush, but the one that was still wrapped securely around your throat. âi-i feel really funny, likeâlike i really gottaââ
âjust do jagiya.â
and then he was forcing your legs open even wider with his own, his fingers now strumming against your swollen button like you were one of his electric guitars. all that practicing nâ hard work made his fingers perfect for touching on you. they were a bit rough, but his touches and his nature were always so gentle . . the perfect combination.
there were a few loud, lewd wet noises, and then it happened. the first stream of cum was small, but the more jungkook rubbed, the more powerful it got.
his fingers didnât slow, nor did they get faster. he kept that same. exact. pace.
he didnât know where to look! there was the view of your gushing pussy, pushing out more cum than your cute lil self knew what to with, and then there was your face. that pretty, teary look you get when your head is in the clouds from being brought to climax too many times.
he wanted to kiss you, and maybe moan some praise into your mouth, but fuck . . he just couldnât look away from your cunt.
there was a squeeze around your neck, and you nearly screamed, your naked body slumping completely into jungkooks chest. âno . . no more, babe. p-please, pleaseâiââ
your words were silenced by a finger, well, two fingers, pushing past your drooly lips, and resting heavy on your tongue.
âshhhh, shhhh. i got you, prettyâjust suck.â
and thatâs what you did for the past, like, ten minutes. while jungkook nosed at your neck and shoulder, sweet praises slipping past his lips, you were on the verge of unconsciousness with his fingers still sitting on your tongue.
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suguru is already ruining you, balls deep and perfectly hitting your sweet spot relentlessly. always able to tell just what will drive you insane, what will have your walls trembling and eyes rolling. he reads you like a book, which is why he's being evil and singing you sinful praises.
"you feel so good, pretty," he hums low, leaning down so he can speak right into your ear, "those little sounds you're letting out are letting me know you feel the same."
you bite your lip to hold back those exact noises he's talking about. whinging at him to, "stop." your words ring hollow to even your ears though. fingers gripping him tight, legs wrapped around his slim waist to keep him trapped inside you.
"i'm just trying to tell you how hot you are," a laugh passes his lips, amused. "you're all twitchy and worked up, i love it."
your cunt drips around him, soaking him in even more slick the more he talks, "sugu, stopâ hngâ stop talking."
he ignores your words, "shhh, listen." his big palm covers your mouth so you'll be quiet and focus in on the wet squelching of him fucking your pussy. "god, you're so wet. creaming all over me," letting out a wistful sigh, like he dreams about this.
his hand stays on your mouth, "can you feel the way you're pulsing around me?â" sentence cut off by a drawn out groan, and then picking back up like he didn't just almost fall apart, "i can, i can and it feels fucking divine."
suguru can feel the way your skin flushes and heats up under his touch, so obvious to him how much you're enjoying his taunting despite your whining. spine tingling from how much he enjoys this, how good it feels.
your eyes meet his and you break, waterline brimming with unshed tears. the pleasure is overwhelming you, as well as his humiliating praise that you enjoy far too much. not able to tell him to shut up and not really wanting to anymore anyways. your lips press a soft kiss to his palm and he coos at you.
"you're so pretty," he removes his hand and flattens himself to you completely, head tucking into your neck, "my pretty baby. my pretty, pathetic, baby."
his pelvis grinds against your clit, his cock throbbing inside your walls as he keeps pressing kisses to your skin, along with his murmured words. your stomach flips from the stimulation, cumming on him, soaking his dick in fresh, honeyed slick.
"ah, there we go," he sighs. head tilting down so he can glimpse how his shaft looks as he pulls out, dripping obscenely from your orgasm. "messy little thing." and he doesn't sound the least bit disappointed about it.
"you're so evil," you pout, trying to ignore your lingering need. his cock still hard and half-way inside your shaking pussy.
"you love it," suguru stuffs you full once more, his chest rumbling with a moan, "i know just how horny it makes you."
Steveâs afraid to hurt you. You just have to ease him into you it.
contents: steve harrington x reader; reader with a vagina and breasts; newly established relationship; boyfriend!steve; just the tip trope!!!; mentions of painful intercourse; reader is referred to as a good girl once!; hung!steve <3; sorta size queen reader <3
minors, do not interact!!
authorâs note: short n sweet lil thing for u⌠hope you enjoy <3
âCan I be honest?â you murmur against Steveâs lips.
Heâs half dressed under you, and youâre nearly nude on top of him. The bed dips under your knees as you sit prettily on his lap, your underwear turning translucent with each kiss you exchange.
Steveâs fingers adjust on your plush hips. Heâs on Cloud Nine, hardly even listening. âHm?â
You laugh a little, pulling back just a smidge. Steveâs eyes are unfocused as he opens them slowly to look at you.
âYouâre much more patient than I thought youâd be.â
He grins lazily. âYeah?â
âYeah. Think youâre a little too patient, maybe.â
He blinks, eyes still cloudy, love-struck and drunk on you. âWhatâs that supposed to mean?â
You sigh, then lean in again. âNothing,â you whisper, catching his lips in yours.
Steve doesnât push it, though he makes a mental note for later. Heâs a little too worked up to think clearly right now, anyway. You grind down on his pelvis, swallowing a moan that he canât hold back. Youâre patient with him as he redirects you to his thigh, and you placate him by riding it for a while.
Steveâs so kind, pressing kisses along the column of your neck. âTake what you need, honey.â
You pause. âYou mean it?â
His tongue darts out to taste the salt on your skin. âMhm.â
Gently, slowly, you pull his cock out of his underwear. Itâs a shock that he even lets you.
Hereâs the thing: Steve knows youâre going to break in two whenever he finally gets himself inside of you, and heâs simply not in the game of doing so. In fact, heâs always sort of diverting your attention to any part of him that isnât his dick.
Youâve become intimately familiar with his hands, his fingers, his lips, his tongue. And heâs returned the favor â explored you all over with precision, not a spot left untouched, not a trick unlearned. He studies you, commits you to memory. He murmurs that heâs taking his time with you, that heâs in no rush.
You canât really say the same. Youâve been with him, officially, for just over two months. Heâs given you at least forty orgasms, and heâs let you give him zero in return.
Personally, you donât think itâs very fair.
Steveâs whimpering as you stroke him, biting his lip and doing everything in his power to not bust just from a fucking hand job. Itâs the first time heâs let you give him any attention, and itâs pushing him into hyper-gear. His whole body feels aflame, each tendon straining against the pleasure that every fiber of his being wants. Heâs lost in you, his eyes drifting shut as you take care of him.
You manage to knock Steve out of his stupor by suddenly swiping the tip of him through your petal-soft folds. He gasps, his hands gripping your hips tightly. You both moan, ragged and rough, and it takes all of Steveâs self restraint to redirect your hips again. He opens his mouth to scold you, but you beat him to it.
âJesus Christ, Steve, please?â
Your tone makes his cock pulse in your hand. Sweat beads at his hairline, his cheeks pink as he tries to steady his breath.
âUh-uh,â he says. Calm. Measured. âBaby, you know I ââ
âThe tip, then,â you plead. âJust the tip, Steve, I swear. I know I can take it. Need it so bad.â
Your hand strokes him again and he moans, teeth piercing his lip.
âI ââ
You press your lips against the shell of his ear and lower your voice just a tad.
âSteve, I can be so good for you if youâd just let me.â
His mouth falls open. His fingers flex against your hips. âBut â you are so good for me.â
âWell, let me be good-er.â
He rolls his eyes, exhaling a laugh through his nose. âGot you that worked up, huh?â
You hum, kissing down his jaw. âImagine how stupid Iâll go when you finally fuck me.â
Now it clicks.
âIs that what you meant when you said Iâm too patient?â
You return to pumping him slowly, and he swallows hard.
âMhm. Your worst quality.â
Steve forces himself to get serious. He tilts your chin up with the bridge of his nose, making you look at him, while one of his big hands covers yours to stop your movements.
âI donât want to hurt you.â
Youâre so serious. âItâs going to hurt. And thatâs okay.â
He frowns and cups your jaw, shaking his head a little. âNo, itâs not.â
He sees that youâre getting shy, looking away from him. It takes you a moment to find your words.
âI want to be shaped by you. I want you to make it a perfect fit.â
Somehow, itâs all at once the most blasphemous and romantic thing Steveâs ever heard.
Heâs stunned by it, in fact.
âIâm sorry,â you start, but Steve cuts you off.
âThe â the tip? Only?â
You smile. It endears him. âI can settle for that. I just â I want you.â
Steve shivers. Youâve positively rewired his brain chemistry with a singular phrase.
You can hardly take two fingers while he preps you for it over the next twenty minutes. Praising you, always so kind and gentle with you as he works you through it.
âTaking it so good, angel⌠thatâs my girl, yeah?â
He eventually fishes a condom out of his nightstand. You boost his ego, watching with wide, blown pupils as he rolls it on.
âItâs pretty,â you mumble.
âPretty?â
You move to straddle him again, the head of him knocking into your clit. You jolt, and Steveâs cock kicks.
âYes, Steve. Youâre very pretty.â
He nuzzles his nose against yours and presses another gentle kiss to your lips. âYouâre prettier.â
âStop stalling.â
He runs his hands up your thighs and settles them on your hips again. He takes a deep breath.
âRelax for me, baby.â
By the time Steveâs popped inside of you, youâre both sweating, moaning, gripping onto each other tightly as you pant into each otherâs mouths. Your hot, wet cunt strangles the tip of him, begs him to go in deeper.
âFeels so good.â His voice cracks from the exertion of keeping his hips still. âYouâre so gâ goddamn beautiful.â
You clench around him even tighter. He lets out a strangled yelp, burying his head into the apex of your neck and shoulder. He busies himself with sucking a hickey into your skin, savoring the taste of you and trying to stave off the overwhelming need to shove every last inch of himself inside of you.
And then â cruelly â you sink down further.
Steveâs eyes and head roll back immediately. His thighs shake, a needy, desperate sound finding his way past his kiss bitten lips.
âHoney â honey ââ
âCanât stop myself,â you whimper, rocking gently, managing another half-inch. âYou feel so good, Steve.â
His eyes rake down your chest, doing a double-take at your tits before setting his eyes lower. The evidence of your struggle is clear, and Steve hates what the sight does to him. Youâre so stretched out around him. He knows it hurts, yet youâre a mess between the legs, even soaking the part of him thatâs not inside of you with honey-sweet arousal.
âHoly shit,â he mumbles.
You take advantage of his gaze to lean back in his lap, giving him a better view. Slowly, almost meanly, you fuck yourself on his tip.
Steve doesnât know where to look. Your thighs and stomach quiver with each movement. Thereâs a wet sucking noise each time he pops out and pops back in. Your eyes roll, your back arching, tits sitting prettily at eye level.
âGorgeous,â he moans breathlessly. One hand snakes between your legs, pressing his thumb to your clit, trying to soothe the pain. âLook so fuckinâ good like this ââ
âI know,â you moan, pussy tightening from the praise. The ghost of a smile sits at the corner of your lips, all smug.
âDonât get cute,â he groans, his hands moving to grip your ass. âStill just the tip, babe.â
You lean forward, pressing your dewy forehead against his. âHelp me take the rest, then.â
Just the thought makes his cock throb, and you wince at it. Still, though, you keep moving, gently taking as much as you can â hardly over an inch â and pulling needy noises out of Steve.
âFâ fuck â n-next time,â he pants, strangled moans interrupting him. âNext time, I promise ââ
Your hand moves downward, gently wrapping around the rest of his shaft. Steve cries out, his body shaking, his hips accidentally jutting upwards.
âShit!â you breathe, your movements stammering.
Steveâs heart shatters.
âHey, hey, hey,â he coos, lifting you off of him. He tenderly cups your pussy with his hand, the warmth soothing it. âIâm so sorry, honey. Letâs stop, yeah?â
You shake your head adamantly, huffing at him.
âSteve Harrington,â you pant, settling yourself over his cock again, âI am making you come tonight, and so help me God, it better be from my pussy.â
His eyes widen and his cock kicks again as you slowly sit down on him. He simply nods, too turned on to speak and even a little breathless. You have him so whipped for you.
âYouâre perfect,â he strains.
You kiss the tip of his nose. âLetâs make sure of it.â
︾ ೠmdni. older-bf!nanami who takes care of you
older-bf!nanami who always wakes up before you. he makes sure your coffee is exactly how you like it and leaves a small note on the counter every morningâeven if heâs running late for workâalways ending with âhave a good day, darling.â
older-bf!nanami who is incredibly protective. he walks on the outside of the sidewalk, keeps a hand on your lower back in crowded places, and stares down anyone who looks at you for too long.
older-bf!nanami who gets especially possessive protective when younger men look at you weirdly. he doesnât make a scene, but his stare turns ice-cold as he watches them. heâll pull you closer by the waist and give them a look that says âtouch her and youâre deadâ without saying a single word.
older-bf!nanami who knows exactly how to make you loose your mind in bed. years of experience have made him incredibly skilled. he knows how to angle his hips to hit that perfect spot, when to go slow and deep, and when to fuck you hard and senseless. he reads your body like a book and he doesnât make a secret out of it.
older-bf!nanami who loves leaving hickeys on your neck and thighs where only he can see them. heâll grip your jaw and make you look at him while heâs buried deep inside you, murmuring, âtell me who you belong to,â then gently kiss every mark he left the next morning.
older-bf!nanami who fucks with patience, like he doesnât rush. he always takes his time stretching you open with his fingers first, watching your face the entire time. âbreathe, darling,â heâll say calmly, even as heâs pressing his thick cock into you inch by inch.
older-bf!nanami who sometimes fucks you with too much patience. he edges you for what feels like hours, bringing you right to the edge only to slow down or stop completely until your whimpers fill the room. heâll keep his thick cock buried deep inside you, barely moving, while he kisses your neck and whispers, ânot yet, darling.â
older-bf!nanami who loves the way you whine and beg. heâll hold your hips down so you canât chase your own pleasure, looking at you with that calm face while you tremble and plead. âshh⌠be good for me,â he murmurs, pressing a soft kiss to your forehead even as he denies you again. âiâll let you cum when i think youâve earned it.â
older-bf!nanami who has gotten noticeably more veiny with age. his hands, forearms, and especially his cock are heavily veined. when heâs fully hard, the thick veins running along his length are so visible, and you can feel every single one dragging against your walls when he slowly pushes inside you.
older-bf!nanami whose dick is thick, heavy, and slightly curved upward. even when heâs soft, itâs impressive. when heâs hard, itâs almost intimidatingâfat head, those veins, and always leaking for you. he loves how you struggle to take all of him, enjoying the way your pussy stretches around his girth.
older-bf!nanami who is constantly teased by satoru about your age gap. gojo never misses an opportunity to poke at him. but nanami has grown completely used to the teasing. he doesnât get visibly annoyed anymore. instead, he just sighs, adjusts his glasses, and replies something like, âat least my girlfriend doesnât run away when i speak, gojo.â
older-bf!nanami who tolerates the jokes but draws the line when they go too far. if anyone ever implies youâre âjust a phaseâ or âwith him for the money,â nanamiâs expression turns icy cold in an instant that makes everyone shut up immediately.
older-bf!nanami who sometimes gets mistaken for your father in public. waiters, store clerks, or strangers often say things like âitâs so nice to see a daughter spending time with her dadâ or âyour daughter is beautiful, sir.â he stays perfectly polite on the outside, offering only a small smile, but you can feel the way his hand tightens on your waist.
older-bf!nanami who acts unfazed in the moment, simply correcting them calmly with âsheâs my girlfriend, actually.â but the moment youâre alone, especially in the car or back home, he feels stupidly lucky, almost greedy, that someone as young and beautiful as you is his. and it always leaves him with a sudden urge to claim you right away.
older-bf!nanami who often ends up fucking you in the car shortly after. the second youâre both inside, doors barely closed, heâs already pulling you into his lap or pushing your seat back. his hands are impatient as he tugs your clothes aside, breathing rough against your neck while he pushes inside.
older-bf!nanami who gets especially talkative during these quick, needy car fucks. between deep thrusts heâll whisper things like âlet them think iâm too old for you⌠as long as you keep moaning for this old manâs cock.â he loves making you cum fast and hard, one hand covering your mouth so people walking by wonât hear you.
older-bf!nanami who, after cumming deep inside you, stays buried in you for a while, gently stroking your hair and kissing your temple. heâll softly say, âi donât care what anyone thinks⌠youâre the best thing thatâs ever happened to me.â
older-bf!nanami who has started getting a few silver strands in his hair. you sometimes find them when youâre playing with his hair, especially at his temples. he used to be a little self-conscious about it, but now whenever you touch the grey hairs he smiles.
older-bf!nanami who especially loves when you kiss the grey hairs at his temple or run your fingers through them while heâs inside you. it makes something possessive and soft twist in his chest at the same time. heâll press you deeper into the mattress and whisper, âthese grey hairs are because of years of waiting for someone like you.â
older-bf!nanami who secretly worries that heâs too old for you. sometimes when he sees you laughing with people your age, a fear settles in his chest. he never says it directly, but he makes up for it by being even more attentiveâspoiling you more, fucking you harder, reminding you with every touch that no one else could ever take care of you the way he does.
hi! neeeeeeeed a smutty guilty as sin drabble telling the story of the weekend after they finally got together (aka the two of them christening every surface of their apartment... after her bed: his bed, shower, against the wall, hallway floor, kitchen counter, kitchen table, window, the whole works đ¤¤) love your writing btw!
𣲠guilty as sin drabbles
"Steve! That was my favourite muâoh, fuck, fuck!"
Your scolding of your boyfriend smashing your favourite mug was cut off as he slammed his heavy cock back inside of your dripping cunt from behind.
"What was that, baby? What were you saying?" Steve grunted as his fingers dug into the flesh on your hips. He leant over your body so you were fully bent over the kitchen countertop as he pulled his cock nearly all the way out before slamming back home again. You let out a wanton moan, his name falling from your lips as your hands scramble for purchase and only finding the chopping board.
"What's wrong, baby?" Steve coos gently, a stark comparison to the way his thick cock was thrusting into your needy hole like it was the last thing he would ever do. "Use your words. C'mon, baby, you can do it."
You try, you really do but the thick head of his cock had just kissed your cervix and all words had suddenly failed.
"Fuuuuck," you moan out, fingers scraping the edge of the chopping board as the power behind Steve's thrusts made his balls slap against your ass, made you arch your back a little more, made the lewd sounds of your soaked cunt echo throughout the kitchen. "Fuck, Steve. Don't stop. Please, don't stop."
You and Steve had officially been together for maybe six days. In those six days, you had pretty much had sex in almost every square inch of the apartment. Both your respective beds, on the floor, against your apartment door, on the pink couch, in the shower, the hallway and Steve even had you bent over the washing machine this earlier this morning. Your pussy was sore and you should probably be beginning to be sick of it. But honestly? You couldn't get enough. Because sex with Steve Harrington was nothing short of life changing.
Steve let out a guttural groan, feeling the way your walls pulsed around himâwarm, wet, sucking him back in like you never wanted him to leave.
"Shit, you're so fucking hot," Steve tells you breathlessly as one of his large hands ghosts over the skin of your inner thigh before he finds you aching clit with ease. "Fuckin' made f'me, takin' my cock so fucking well, baby."
Your reaction was instant. You let out a loud, needy noise somewhere between a whimper and a moanâone that you would have been embarrassed about had Steve's cock not been slamming into you at a punishing pace. The chopping board slides off the countertop to join your smashed mug on the floor as your pussy flutters around him.
"Steve, I'm gonnaâ"
You can't even get the words out, your body consumed by an overwhelming pleasure that shook your entire body. Your orgasm rips through youâfrom head to toe, every nerve on fire.
Steve follows right after you, your sobbing pussy soaking his cock as he spills inside of you, holding you close through every last pulse of his release.
"Fuck," Steve murmurs against the skin of your shoulder as he presses soft kisses there. "You make me fuckin' crazy. Can't get enough of you. I'm not even tired yet."
You laugh, your body still humming beneath your skin, your legs still feeling as though they were made of jelly and a mix of your releases beginning to drip down your thigh but there wasn't a part of you that wanted to stop.
"Back at you, Harrington," you turn your head so you could look at him over your shoulder. His cheeks are flushed a pretty pink, lips wet and swollen and eyes on you like you were the only thing that mattered. "You want to make dinner orâ"
"âwe can order in," Steve interrupts, his cock already hardening inside of you once again. "Not done with you yet, roomie."
dry humping drunk needy desperate steve UGGGHH⌠he gets SO pathetic about it⌠maybe you keep edging him, grinding on him while he whimpers how good it feels and then pausing just before he falls over the edge <3 and his whines grow louder, and his grip on your waist tightens, and his toes curl, and he whimpers please please please against your lips but you just never give him any pity :( no matter how hard he begs :( and heâs such a good boy for you that he lets you ruin him and his favorite pair of jeans đŤśđť
synopsis: When your boyfriend Soobin struggles to satisfy you in the bedroom, you both agree to see the cityâs most sought-after sex therapist: Jeon Jungkook. Charming, confident, and dangerously skilled with his hands, Jungkook doesnât just offer adviceâ he shows you exactly how itâs supposed to feel. What starts as clinical demonstrations quickly turns into something far more intense, with Soobin watching helplessly from the corner as Jungkook takes his time teaching your body pleasures your boyfriend never could.
warnings: smut mdni, masturbation, use of a vibrator, cuckholding, fingering, oral (f.rec.), unprotected sex, missionary, lotus, doggystyle, biting, ass eating (because @merakoo asked for it), ass slapping, hair pulling, rough sex, lots and lots of dirty talk, creampie, squirting, this is filthy as fuck, soobin x reader.
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The room was quiet except for the slow, uneven sound of your breathing slowly returning to normal. You lay on your back beside Soobin, both of you staring up at the ceiling where the same faint crack in the paint had been mocking you for months now. The sheets beneath you felt sticky and warm, but the warmth wasnât the satisfying kind that usually came after really good sex. It was just⌠fine. Everything lately had been fine. His hand had been gentle on your hips, his kisses soft against your neck, and when he finally came, he let out that familiar quiet groan before collapsing beside you. But you hadnât. Not even close.
In the beginning of your relationship, the sex had been good enough to leave you content. It wasnât mind-blowing or adventurous, but it was warm and loving and enough to make you curl into him afterward with a sleepy smile. Over the last couple of years though, things had slowly changed. The spark had dimmed into something mechanical, almost routine. You found yourself lying there more often than not, faking soft little moans so he wouldnât feel bad, while the ache between your legs only grew more frustrated. Sometimes you wondered if he noticed how often you slipped away afterward. Tonight, you knew he did. You could feel it in the way his body had tensed just slightly when he pulled out, the unspoken awareness hanging heavy between you.
Soobin shifted beside you, the mattress dipping as he rolled over. His arm draped loosely across your waist for a moment before he leaned in and pressed a tender kiss to the top of your head, his lips lingering there like an apology he didnât quite know how to voice. âGoodnight, baby,â he whispered, voice already thick and sleepy. You swallowed the lump in your throat and forced yourself to sound normal.
âGoodnight,â you replied softly, turning your head just enough to brush your nose against his shoulder.
You waited in the dark, listening carefully as his breathing gradually slowed and deepened. Minutes stretched out, each one feeling longer than the last. When you were finally sure he was fully asleep, you slipped out from under his arm with practiced care, trying not to disturb the mattress too much. The cool air of the room hit your bare legs as you stood, and you padded quietly to the bedside drawer. Your fingers closed around the smooth, familiar shape of your vibrator, the one youâd come to rely on more than you wanted to admit. The weight of it in your palm felt almost comforting now.
You tiptoed into the bathroom and closed the door behind you with a soft click, locking it out of habit even though Soobin was dead to the world. The small nightlight cast a gentle golden glow across the tiles as you leaned back against the sink counter. Heart still racing from the unresolved tension in your body, you hiked up the oversized t-shirt youâd thrown on and parted your thighs. The moment the buzzing toy pressed against your swollen, neglected clit, a shaky exhale escaped your lips. This was never fine. This was intense, almost desperateâ the sharp pleasure you craved but could no longer get from the man sleeping in the next room.
Your free hand gripped the edge of the counter as you worked the vibrator in slow, teasing circles, then faster, chasing the release that had been denied to you earlier. Your mind wandered while your hips jerked against your hand, thoughts drifting dangerously toward the crumpled business card youâd tucked away in your purse weeks ago. Jeon Jungkook. Licensed Sex Therapist. Specialist in couplesâ intimacy issues. Youâd stared at that card so many times, equal parts ashamed and curious. The glowing reviews online had mentioned how thorough he was⌠how hands-on.
Your thighs trembled as the pressure finally built to its peak. You bit down hard on your lip to stay quiet, eyes squeezing shut while the orgasm crashed over you in strong, pulsing waves. For a few blissful seconds, everything else disappearedâ the frustration, the guilt, the growing distance between you and Soobin. Only the sharp pleasure remained. But as the high faded and you caught your breath under the dim nightlight, the reality settled back in. This couldnât keep going on like this. Something had to change.
The next day dawned gray and quiet, the kind of overcast morning that made the apartment feel smaller than it was. You woke up before Soobin, his arm still loosely draped over your waist from the night before. For a long moment you just lay there, staring at the faint crack in the ceiling that had become an unwilling witness to so many disappointing nights. Your body still carried the faint ache of unresolved need, even after last nightâs secret session in the bathroom. The memory of the vibratorâs buzz and the sharp, guilty pleasure it brought made your thighs press together under the sheets.
All day the business card burned a hole in your pocket.
You went through the motionsâ making coffee, answering emails, attending meetings, but your mind kept circling back to it. Should I say something? What if he gets defensive? What if he thinks Iâm unhappy with him as a person and not just⌠this? The card felt heavy, its edges sharp against your fingertips every time you brushed your hand over your pocket. At lunch you pulled it out in the bathroom stall just to stare at the elegant black text again: Jeon Jungkook, Licensed Sex Therapist. Specialist in Couplesâ Intimacy & Desire. Your stomach twisted with nerves and something else, something hotter and more dangerous.
By the time evening came, the anxiety had twisted into a constant, low hum beneath your skin. You cooked dinner in silence while Soobin set the table, the two of you moving around each other with the familiar, gentle choreography of a couple who had been together for years. Pasta with creamy tomato sauce, garlic bread, a simple salad, comfort food on a night that felt anything but comfortable. The apartment smelled warm and safe, yet your heart wouldnât stop racing.
Halfway through the meal, you couldnât take it anymore.
Your fork paused above your half-eaten plate, twirling a strand of pasta that you no longer had any appetite for. Soobin was talking softly about his day, something about a deadline at work, but the words barely registered. Your fingers trembled as they slipped into your pocket and pulled out the slightly creased business card. Without a word, you slid it across the wooden table until it rested beside his glass of water.
Soobinâs voice trailed off. He looked down at the card, fork hovering in mid-air for a second before he slowly set it down. The quiet clink of metal against the plate sounded impossibly loud. You held your breath, chest tight, watching his face as he picked up the card with long, elegant fingers. His eyes scanned the text once, then again, more carefully. The silence stretched, thick and heavy, broken only by the distant hum of the refrigerator and the ticking of the clock on the wall.
You waited for confusion. For hurt. For anger, maybe. Instead, Soobin let out a long, slow sigh.
It wasnât the frustrated kind youâd feared. It was⌠relief. Deep, exhausted relief. His shoulders sagged as he placed the card back on the table, turning it over once between his fingers before looking up at you. His eyes were soft, a little sad, but strangely calm.
âYouâve been thinking about this for a while, havenât you?â he asked quietly.
You swallowed hard, nodding. Your voice came out smaller than you wanted. âYes. I⌠I know things havenât been great. Between us. In bed. I know youâve felt it too.â
Soobin leaned back in his chair, running a hand through his hair. He stared at the card for another long moment, then looked at you againâ really looked at you. There was no defensiveness in his gaze, only a quiet acknowledgment that made your throat tighten.
âI have,â he admitted, voice low. âIâve felt it for months. Every time I touch you and you donât⌠every time you make those little sounds like youâre trying to spare my feelings.â He gave a small, self-deprecating smile that broke your heart a little. âI didnât know how to bring it up. I didnât want you to think I donât want you anymore, because I do. So fucking much. I just⌠I donât know how to fix it.â
The honesty in his words made your eyes sting. You reached across the table and took his hand, squeezing it gently. For the first time in a long time, it felt like you were really seeing each other again. âI donât want to keep pretending everythingâs fine when itâs not,â you whispered. âI think⌠maybe we need help. Real help. From someone who knows what theyâre doing.â
Soobin glanced back down at Jungkookâs name on the card. His thumb brushed over the printed letters almost absentmindedly. After a long pause, he nodded. âOkay,â he said softly. âIf youâre sure you want to do this⌠then Iâm in. Weâll do it together.â
You let out a shaky breath you didnât realize youâd been holding, a strange mix of nerves and excitement fluttering in your stomach. The decision was made. The appointment would be made.
The waiting room of Jeon Jungkookâs private practice was quieter than you expected. Soft ambient music played low in the background, something instrumental and soothing that did little to calm the rapid beating of your heart. You sat on a sleek gray couch beside Soobin, your hand resting loosely in his lap while his thumb brushed slow, absentminded circles over your knuckles. The air smelled faintly of sandalwood and clean linen. Floor-to-ceiling windows let in natural light, but the tension in your chest made everything feel slightly unreal.
You had been nervous all morning. The drive here had been mostly silent, both of you lost in your own thoughts, but now that you were actually here, sitting in this elegant, minimalist office, the nerves had twisted into something sharper. A low, thrilling hum of excitement sat right beneath the anxiety. Your thighs pressed together under your sundress as you replayed the glowing reviews in your head. Thorough. Transformative. Life-changing.
Ten minutes felt like an eternity.
Every time you heard footsteps in the hallway, your breath would catch, only for the sound to fade again. Soobin squeezed your hand gently, offering a small, reassuring smile, but you could see the same mixture of uncertainty and hope in his eyes. He looked handsome today in his button-up shirt, but even that familiar sight couldnât stop the restless energy buzzing under your skin.
Finally, the door opened.
Jeon Jungkook stepped inside, and for a moment the world seemed to tilt.
He was stunning. Easily one of the most beautiful men you had ever seen. Tall and broad-shouldered, he moved with a quiet, confident grace that immediately filled the room. His black hair was slightly tousled, falling over his forehead in a way that looked effortlessly perfect. Sharp jawline, full lips, and dark, piercing eyes framed by long lashes. He wore a fitted black button-down with the sleeves rolled up to his forearms, revealing tattoos that disappeared beneath the fabric, and tailored slacks that accentuated his powerful thighs. The subtle scent of his cologne, something woody and expensive, reached you as he closed the door behind him.
You couldnât stop staring.
Jungkook didnât speak right away. He crossed the room and settled into the large leather chair across from you, clipboard in hand. For several long minutes he simply read over his notes, his expression calm and focused. The silence was heavy. You found yourself tracing the line of his neck, the way his fingers held the pen with quiet strength, the faint flex of muscle in his forearm as he turned a page. Heat crept up your neck. Soobin shifted beside you, but you couldnât tear your gaze away from the man in front of you.
After what felt like forever, Jungkook finally looked up.
His eyes met yours first, then shifted to Soobin. A small, professional smile curved his lips, warm, but with something unreadable flickering behind it. âHello,â he said, voice smooth and low, like velvet dragged over stone. âIâm Jeon Jungkook. Thank you for waiting. Iâve reviewed the intake forms you filled out online.â He set the clipboard on his lap and leaned back slightly, giving you both his full attention. âSo⌠why donât you tell me what brought you here today?â
You swallowed hard, mouth suddenly dry. Soobin gave your hand another squeeze, silently encouraging you to start. Your voice came out softer than intended as you began to speak.
You told him everything. How the sex had been good in the beginning, warm, loving, safe. How over the past couple of years it had slowly become routine and unsatisfying. You described lying beneath Soobin, faking soft moans while your body remained tense and frustrated. The mechanical rhythm, the lack of real spark, the growing ache that no amount of âfineâ could satisfy. You mentioned slipping away to the bathroom at night with your vibrator, chasing the intense pleasure your boyfriend could no longer give you. Your cheeks burned as you spoke, but Jungkookâs gaze never wavered. He listened with complete focus, occasionally nodding or jotting something down on his clipboard.
Soobin chimed in quietly, his voice laced with vulnerability. He admitted feeling the distance growing between you two. How he could sense you werenât fully there with him anymore, how guilty it made him feel, how much he still wanted you but didnât know how to reach you the way he used to. He spoke about the pressure of wanting to please you and constantly falling short.
Jungkook listened intently the entire time.
His dark eyes flicked between the two of you, absorbing every word. Every so often he would write something down in neat, precise strokes, his pen moving across the paper with a soft scratch that somehow felt intimate in the quiet room. He didnât interrupt. He didnât offer empty reassurances. He simply absorbed it all, head slightly tilted, expression thoughtful and impossibly focused. You found yourself wondering what exactly he was writing. What he was thinking. Whether he could already picture exactly how to fix what was broken between you.
When you both finally fell silent, the room felt heavier than before. Your heart was racing, thighs warm, a traitorous pulse beating between your legs as you watched Jungkook tap his pen against the clipboard once, twice, before setting it down.
âI appreciate how open youâve both been so far,â he began, eyes flicking between you and Soobin. âBut to truly help, I need to understand the specifics. The details matter. How often do you have sex currently? How long do your sessions usually last, from start to finish? And most importantly⌠what does it actually look like when youâre together?â
You felt heat bloom across your chest and climb up your neck. Soobinâs hand tightened slightly around yours, his palm growing warmer. Jungkook waited patiently, giving you both space, but his dark eyes were sharp, missing nothing. When neither of you spoke immediately, he continued gently, guiding the conversation. âLetâs start with positions,â he said, tone professional yet undeniably intimate. âWhat positions do you usually use? Do you switch often? How does foreplay factor inâ duration, techniques? And how long does penetration usually last before one or both of you finishes?â
The questions landed heavily in the quiet room. You swallowed, mouth dry, your sundress suddenly feeling too thin against your skin. Jungkookâs gaze settled on you expectantly, patient but commanding. There was something about the way he looked at youâ focused, knowing, like he could already see the frustration coiled tight in your body, that made your pulse throb between your legs.
You took a shaky breath and forced the words out, voice barely above a whisper at first. âWe⌠we mostly just do missionary,â you admitted, cheeks burning. âItâs what feels most natural for us, I guess. Comfortable. Soobin on top, me on my back. Sometimes Iâll ride him, cowgirl, but not very often. And when I do⌠thereâs not much vigor to it. I get tired quickly, or it just doesnât feel⌠right.â
Jungkook nodded slowly, writing something down in those neat strokes. The scratch of his pen seemed louder than it should have been. He didnât look surprised or judgmental. Instead, his expression remained thoughtfully neutral, though you swore you caught the faintest flicker of something darker, interest, perhaps, behind his eyes.
âAnd how long does it usually last?â he asked, voice smooth. âFrom the moment clothes come off to when itâs over. Be honest.â
Soobin cleared his throat, shifting uncomfortably beside you. His ears had turned pink. âMaybe⌠ten to fifteen minutes?â he offered quietly. âSometimes less. I try to hold out, butâŚâ
You squeezed his hand, both ashamed and relieved to finally say it aloud. âItâs not that itâs bad,â you added quickly, though the words felt hollow even to you. âItâs just⌠short. And always the same. Missionary with him above me, moving steadily until he finishes. I rarely do on my own during it. When I ride him, I try to move, but it feels awkward. Like I donât know how to make it feel good for either of us anymore. Thereâs no real⌠intensity. No roughness. No experimentation.â
Jungkook listened with complete focus. His full lips pressed together in thought as he processed your words. He uncrossed his legs and leaned forward again, elbows on his knees, closing some of the distance between you. The scent of his cologne wrapped around you, warm, masculine, expensive. âNo oral?â he asked calmly. âNo doggy style? No standing positions, no restraints, no toys during sex together? You mentioned using a vibrator alone at night, does Soobin ever use it on you? Or watch you use it?â
Each question felt like a layer being peeled back. You squirmed in your seat, painfully aware of the growing wetness between your thighs. The way Jungkook spoke, so direct, so clinical, yet dripping with unspoken promise, made your mind race with images you knew you shouldnât be having in this moment. Him. Those tattooed arms. That confident grip. Showing you exactly what youâd been missing.
Soobin shook his head slowly. âWeâve tried oral a few times, but⌠it doesnât last long. And no, weâve never really done any of the other stuff. It just never felt necessary before. Or maybe we didnât know how.â
You nodded in agreement, biting your lip. âItâs always been vanilla. Safe. But now it feels too safe. Too⌠predictable. I love him. I do. But I lie there wondering if this is just how itâs going to be forever.â
Jungkookâs eyes lingered on you a moment longer than necessary before he wrote a few more lines. The silence that followed was thick with tension. He finally set the pen down and looked at you both, his expression composed but carrying an undeniable edge of authority. âI understand,â he said, voice dropping slightly. âYouâre stuck in a very narrow script. Missionary and occasional cowgirl with minimal energy or variation, that explains a lot about the frustration youâre both feeling. Your bodies have adapted to routine. Comfort has replaced desire.â
Jungkook set his clipboard aside completely now, the soft thud of it hitting the side table sounding final. He leaned forward, resting his elbows on his knees, and fixed both of you with a steady, intense gaze. The professional mask was still there, but something sharper and more commanding lingered just beneath it.
âIâve heard enough to see the pattern clearly,â he said, voice low and smooth. âWords and explanations can only go so far. At this point, the most effective way for me to help is through demonstration. Iâd like to show Soobin exactly how to touch you, how to build real desire, and how to awaken the parts of your body that have been neglected.â
He let the words settle in the heavy silence of the room before turning his full attention to you. âI wonât do anything without your explicit consent,â Jungkook continued, his dark eyes locking onto yours. âThis would involve me touching you directly while Soobin watches. Iâll start slow. Iâll show him how to kiss you, how to touch you, how to read your bodyâs responses. If at any point you want to stop, you say the word and everything ends immediately.â
Your heart hammered wildly in your chest. Heat flooded your face, your neck, and lower. You could feel Soobinâs hand tense in yours, his breathing shallow beside you. For a long moment, the only sound was the soft ambient music and the rush of blood in your ears.
Jungkook waited patiently, giving you time. His gaze never waveredâ calm, confident, and impossibly magnetic. You swallowed hard, throat dry. Nervous energy twisted in your stomach, but underneath it, something hotter and more dangerous stirred. A deep, aching curiosity. Excitement. âYes,â you whispered, voice barely audible at first. Then stronger, âYes⌠I want that.â
Jungkookâs lips curved into a small, approving smile. He glanced at Soobin. âAnd you? Are you comfortable with me demonstrating on your girlfriend while you observe?â
Soobin hesitated for only a second, then gave a slow nod, his cheeks flushed. âIf she wants it⌠then yes.â Jungkook stood up smoothly, moving with that quiet, predatory grace. He crossed the short distance between his chair and the wide, plush chaise lounge where you and Soobin were seated. He extended his hand to you.
âCome here,â he said softly. âLie back and get comfortable.â
Your legs felt unsteady as you stood. Soobin released your hand, and you moved to the chaise, heart pounding so hard you were sure they could both hear it. You lay back against the soft cushions, your sundress riding up slightly against your thighs. Jungkook sat on the edge beside you, the heat of his body immediately noticeable. He was so close now. The scent of his cologne, the faint warmth radiating from his broad frame, the way his button-up shirt stretched across his chest, it was overwhelming.
He looked down at you, eyes dark and focused. âRelax for me,â he murmured. âWeâre going to start very slow.â Jungkook leaned in, one hand gently brushing your hair away from your neck. His breath ghosted over your skin first, sending shivers racing down your spine. Then his lips pressed softly just below your ear. The kiss was feather-light at first, warm, deliberate. He took his time, kissing down the sensitive column of your neck with slow, lingering presses of his mouth. Each one felt intentional, like he was learning the map of your reactions.
A shaky exhale left your lips. Your eyes fluttered half-closed as he kissed lower, finding the spot where your neck met your shoulder and sucking gently. The wet heat of his tongue traced a small circle there, and your back arched instinctively. One of his hands slid up your side, slow and confident, until his large palm cupped your breast through the thin fabric of your dress. He squeezed gently, thumb brushing over your nipple in slow, teasing strokes until it hardened under his touch.
âSee how she responds when you take your time?â Jungkook said quietly, speaking to Soobin without pulling his mouth away from your neck. His voice had dropped even lower. âDonât rush straight to the obvious places. Build it. Make her feel wanted.â
He kneaded your breast with just the right amount of pressure, rolling your nipple between his fingers over your dress, while his mouth continued its slow exploration of your neck and collarbones. Soft, open-mouthed kisses. The occasional gentle scrape of teeth that made your thighs press together. Your breathing had already grown uneven, small sounds escaping you that you didnât even try to hold back.
Jungkookâs free hand rested on your waist, holding you in place as he shifted slightly closer. The weight and warmth of him beside you made your head spin. Every touch was precise, controlled, and devastatingly effective. You could already feel yourself getting wet, arousal pooling between your legs far faster than it ever did with Soobin.
Soobin sat quietly in the chair nearby, eyes wide and fixed on every movement. His hands were clenched tightly in his lap, breathing audible. Jungkook pulled back just enough to look at your face, his thumb still lazily circling your nipple. His eyes were dark, pupils blown wide. âHow does that feel?â he asked you, voice husky. âBe honest.â
You could barely form words. Your neck tingled where his mouth had been, your breast warm and heavy under his hand. âIt feels⌠really good,â you breathed, cheeks burning.
A satisfied smile tugged at Jungkookâs lips. âGood,â he murmured, leaning back down. âThen letâs continue.â Jungkookâs hands moved with deliberate confidence as he sat up slightly on the edge of the chaise. His dark eyes never left your face, reading every flicker of nervousness and arousal that crossed it. âLetâs remove this,â he murmured, voice low and reassuring. âI want you to feel everything without barriers.â
His fingers found the hem of your sundress, slowly sliding it upward. The fabric whispered against your skin as he lifted it inch by inch, exposing your thighs, then your hips, then the soft curve of your stomach. You raised your arms obediently, heart hammering against your ribs. With one smooth, practiced motion, Jungkook pulled the dress up and over your head, leaving your hair slightly tousled. He set the garment aside neatly on a nearby chair, his gaze roaming over your body now clad only in your bra and matching underwear.
The cool air of the room kissed your newly exposed skin, making you shiver. You felt incredibly vulnerable under their combined staresâ Soobinâs wide-eyed and tense from his seat, and Jungkookâs dark, hungry, yet still controlled. Jungkook hummed softly in approval, his large hands returning to your body immediately.
He leaned down again, lips finding your neck once more. This time his kisses were deeper, more possessive, sucking gently at your pulse point while one hand cupped your breast through the thin lace of your bra. His thumb brushed over your nipple in slow, teasing circles, coaxing it to a stiff peak. He kneaded the soft flesh with just the right pressure, firm enough to make you arch into his touch, but never rushed.
âWatch how Iâm touching her,â Jungkook said quietly to Soobin, his mouth still hovering against your heated skin. âDonât just grab. Mold her breast in your palm like this⌠feel its weight. Use your thumb to tease her nipple until itâs sensitive. Her body is already responding, see how her breathing changed? Thatâs what you want.â
You let out a shaky whimper as he emphasized his words by pinching your nipple lightly through the fabric, rolling it between his fingers. Pleasure shot straight down between your legs. Jungkook continued kissing down your collarbone, occasionally glancing toward Soobin to explain, his voice smooth and instructional even as his hands worked magic on your body.
After several long, indulgent minutes of kissing and caressing your breasts, Jungkookâs hand began to travel lower. His palm smoothed down your stomach, fingers tracing the waistband of your underwear. He looked up at you, eyes intense. âStill okay?â he asked softly.
You nodded quickly, biting your lip. âYesâŚâ
With your permission, his hand slipped beneath the fabric of your panties. The first touch of his fingers against your bare, heated skin made you gasp. You were already slick with arousal, embarrassingly wet from everything heâd done so far. Jungkookâs middle and ring fingers found your swollen clit and began rubbing slow, lazy circles over it.
âFuck⌠sheâs soaked,â he murmured, almost to himself, though loud enough for Soobin to hear. His fingers moved with expert precision, not too fast, not too light, applying perfect pressure as he circled your clit again and again. âThis is key, Soobin. Donât rush to penetrate her. Spend time here. Learn exactly how she likes to be touched. Feel how her hips are already trying to follow my hand?â
Your thighs trembled. Soft, needy sounds spilled from your lips as Jungkook continued the torturously slow rubbing. Heat coiled tighter and tighter in your lower belly. Every circle of his fingers sent sparks of pleasure racing through you. He kept his mouth on your neck and chest the entire time, kissing and gently biting while his hand worked between your legs.
After several drawn-out minutes of this, Jungkook shifted slightly. He used two fingers to pull your soaked panties to the side, fully exposing you. Without warning, he slowly pushed one thick finger inside you, then a second, stretching you open with delicious care. A broken moan escaped your throat. Your back arched off the chaise as his fingers sank deeper, curling slightly to find that sensitive spot inside you. Jungkook groaned softly in approval at how tightly you clenched around him.
âSee that?â he said to Soobin, voice huskier now. âSheâs gripping my fingers so tightly. This is what happens when you take the time to arouse her properly. Slide in slowly⌠curl them like this⌠and listen to the sounds she makes.â He began thrusting his fingers in and out in long, deep strokes, his thumb returning to rub circles over your clit at the same time. The dual sensation was overwhelming. Your hips rolled against his hand instinctively, chasing the building pleasure while Soobin watched every single movement with flushed cheeks and parted lips.
Jungkookâs eyes flicked back to your face, watching you intently as he fingered you with steady, devastating skill. âYouâre doing so well,â he praised softly, pumping his fingers deeper. âLet me hear you.â
Jungkookâs fingers moved with growing intensity, thrusting deeper and faster into your soaked pussy. The wet, obscene sounds of his thick fingers pumping in and out filled the room, mixing with your increasingly loud moans. You couldnât hold back anymore. Your head fell back against the chaise as shameless whimpers and cries spilled from your lips. âAhâ fuck⌠Jungkookââ you moaned loudly, your voice breaking on his name. Your fingers dug desperately into his muscular arm, gripping the hard bicep through his shirt as if it were the only thing keeping you grounded. Your hips bucked up to meet every thrust, chasing the overwhelming pleasure he was giving you so effortlessly. âOh my god⌠it feels so goodââ
âThatâs it,â Jungkook praised, his voice low and rough. âLet it out. Donât hold back for me.â His fingers curled perfectly against that sensitive spot inside you with every stroke, faster now, more relentless. The wet squelching sounds grew louder as your arousal coated his hand and dripped down between your thighs.
Your moans turned into desperate, breathy cries. Your thighs trembled violently around his wrist as the pleasure built higher and higher, far beyond anything youâd felt in months.
Jungkook suddenly slowed his fingers, keeping them buried deep inside you, and shifted his position. He moved onto his knees on the chaise, spreading your legs wider with his free hand. He looked over at Soobin, eyes dark with lust but still carrying that instructional tone. âIâm going to eat her out while I keep fingering her,â he told Soobin calmly. âThis combination is extremely effective. Watch how I use my tongue.â
You whimpered at his words alone, already anticipating what was coming. Jungkook hooked his fingers under the waistband of your soaked panties and pulled them down your legs, tossing them aside. Completely exposed now, you shivered under his gaze.
He leaned down between your spread thighs, face inches from your dripping pussy. Without warning, he spat directly onto your swollen hole, the warm saliva landing right at your entrance. You gasped sharply at the filthy sensation. Jungkook used two fingers to spread the spit around, mixing it with your own wetness, before pushing his fingers back inside you.
Then his tongue was on you. A loud, broken moan tore from your throat as his warm, wet tongue licked a long, slow stripe up your pussy before focusing on your clit. He sucked the sensitive bud into his mouth while his fingers continued thrusting in and out of you, faster than before. Then he did exactly what heâd described, he fucked the spit into your hole with his tongue, pushing it inside you alongside his fingers in messy, obscene strokes.
You were on cloud nine.
âFuckâ! Jungkookâ oh my fucking godââ you cried out, voice loud and unrestrained. Your back arched sharply off the chaise as intense pleasure crashed through your body. Your hands flew to his head, fingers threading through his soft dark hair, gripping tightly as his tongue fucked into you deeper. The wet sounds of his mouth devouring your pussy mixed with the filthy squelch of his fingers pumping relentlessly inside you.
Jungkook groaned against your cunt, the vibration sending shocks of pleasure through you. He alternated between fucking you with his tongue and sucking hard on your clit, all while his fingers curled and stroked that perfect spot without mercy. âSoobin,â Jungkook said, pulling back just enough to speak, his lips shiny with your juices. âCome closer. Sit right next to her. She needs you here.â
Soobin moved quickly, his face flushed dark red. He sat on the edge of the chaise beside you, eyes wide as he watched Jungkook devour you. You reached out blindly, grabbing Soobinâs hand and squeezing it hard as another loud moan ripped from your throat.
âBabyâ ahhâ it feels so good,â you whimpered to Soobin, voice shaking. Your body thrashed under Jungkookâs skilled mouth and fingers, hips grinding desperately against his face. You gripped Soobinâs hand like a lifeline while your other hand stayed tangled in Jungkookâs hair, pulling him harder against your pussy.
Jungkook doubled down, tongue fucking into you even deeper, spitting on your cunt again before diving back in with messy, hungry strokes. His fingers never stopped their brutal pace, curling and thrusting until your moans turned into near-screams of pleasure.
You were lost in it, whimpering, moaning, and shaking uncontrollably as the man between your legs showed you exactly what your body had been missing, while you held your boyfriendâs hand through every devastating wave of pleasure.
The pleasure built to an unbearable peak as Jungkookâs tongue fucked relentlessly into your dripping hole and his fingers curled against that perfect spot inside you. Your moans turned into desperate, broken cries, growing louder and more frantic with every filthy stroke of his skilled mouth. You gripped Soobinâs hand so tightly your knuckles turned white, your other hand fisting Jungkookâs dark hair as your hips bucked wildly against his face.
Suddenly, the coil inside you snapped.
You came hard on his tongue with a loud, shuddering scream. âJungkookâ! Fuck, Iâm cummingâ!â Your entire body convulsed violently, thighs clamping around his head as powerful waves of pleasure crashed through you. Your pussy clenched and fluttered around his fingers and tongue, gushing wetly against his mouth while he continued licking and sucking through every pulse of your orgasm. You thrashed on the chaise, moaning shamelessly, eyes squeezed shut as the intense release left you trembling and breathless. Soobinâs hand stayed firmly in yours the entire time, grounding you even as you fell apart under another manâs mouth.
Jungkook worked you through every last aftershock, licking you slowly and gently until your body finally sagged against the cushions, panting and dazed. Only then did he pull back, his lips and chin glistening with your cum. He looked devastatingly handsome like that, flushed, eyes dark with lust, and breathing heavily.
He wiped his mouth with the back of his hand and looked between you and Soobin, voice low and husky but still controlled. âAre you both willing to continue?â he asked. âIâd like to move into demonstrating positions. The difference between what youâve been doing and what she actually needs.â
You didnât even hesitate. Still floating on the high of your orgasm, arousal already stirring again, you nodded eagerly. âYes,â you breathed, almost desperately. âPlease⌠I want more.â
Soobin swallowed hard, visibly affected by what heâd just witnessed, but he nodded as well. âIf she wants it⌠yes.â
A satisfied, almost predatory smile tugged at Jungkookâs lips. âGood,â he murmured. âIâm going to fuck her raw. Skin to skin. No condom. She needs to feel the full effect, the heat, the friction, everything. Then Iâll show you, Soobin, exactly how to make missionary feel incredible for her instead of just⌠adequate.â
Jungkook reached behind your back with skilled fingers and unclasped your bra. He slid the straps down your shoulders slowly, savoring the moment as he pulled the lace away and dropped it aside. Your breasts spilled free, nipples already hard and aching. He groaned softly at the sight before leaning down and capturing one nipple in his mouth.
He sucked on it hungrily, tongue swirling around the sensitive peak while his large hand kneaded the soft flesh of your other breast. He switched sides, giving the same devoted attention to the other nipple, sucking harder, grazing his teeth gently, then soothing with his tongue. The wet sounds of his mouth on your breasts filled the room as you moaned and arched into him, your body responding instantly.
After several long, indulgent minutes of worshipping your chest, Jungkook finally positioned himself between your spread thighs, after kicking his pants and boxers off. He gripped his thick, hard cock in one hand, stroking it slowly as he looked down at your flushed, dripping pussy. âWatch carefully,â he told Soobin, voice rough. âThis is how you claim her.â
He rubbed the swollen head of his cock up and down your slick folds, coating himself in your wetness, before pressing against your entrance. With a low groan, Jungkook pushed forward and slid into you in one long, deep thrust, burying himself to the hilt inside your tight, fluttering heat.
You cried out loudly at the stretch, your back arching sharply. He was big, thicker and longer than Soobin, and the raw, bare feeling of him inside you was overwhelming. âFuck⌠so tight,â Jungkook growled, holding still for a moment to let you adjust. Then he pulled back almost all the way before slamming back in, setting a rough, brutal pace immediately.
The sound of skin slapping against skin echoed through the room as he fucked you hard and deep. Each powerful thrust rocked your entire body, your breasts bouncing with the force of it. Jungkookâs hands gripped your hips tightly, holding you in place as he drove into you again and again, the wet, filthy sounds of your pussy taking his cock filling the air. âThatâs it,â he groaned, eyes locked on your face. âTake my cock. Feel how deep I am?â
Your moans were loud and unrestrained, turning into near-screams every time he bottomed out inside you. The brutal pace left you shaking, gripping the cushions beneath you as wave after wave of intense pleasure rolled through your body.
Jungkookâs grip on your hips tightened, his fingers digging into your soft flesh with possessive strength. He used your body like a personal toy, pulling you down onto his thick cock with every brutal thrust. Instead of just fucking into you, he yanked your hips forward to meet him, slamming you onto his length over and over again in a relentless rhythm. The wet, filthy sound of your soaked pussy being filled echoed loudly in the room with every powerful motion. Each time he dragged you back down, his cock buried itself impossibly deep, the head kissing your cervix and sending sparks of overwhelming pleasure shooting through your entire body.
âFuckâ!â you cried out, voice hoarse and broken. Your head tossed back against the chaise, mouth falling open in a constant stream of moans and whimpers.
Jungkook glanced over at Soobin, breathing heavily but still in control. âSoobin,â he growled, never slowing the way he was manhandling you onto his cock. âPlay with her clit. Rub it while I fuck her. She needs the extra stimulation.â
Soobin hesitated only for a second before leaning closer. His hand trembled slightly as he reached between your bodies and found your swollen, sensitive clit. He began rubbing slow circles over it, just like heâd watched Jungkook do earlier. The added sensation was immediate and devastating.
Your moans instantly grew louder, turning into desperate, shameless cries. âOh my godâ! Itâs so good⌠so fucking goodâ Jungkook, your cock is so bigâ I canâtâ ahh!â The words spilled out of you in a messy, nonsensical stream.
Jungkook groaned in satisfaction at your words, his pace growing even more punishing. He kept yanking your hips down onto him with raw strength, using your body exactly how he wanted. The wet slap of skin against skin was constant now, your arousal dripping down his balls and soaking the chaise beneath you. Every brutal thrust made your breasts bounce heavily, your entire body jolting with the force of him claiming you.
Soobinâs fingers kept rubbing your clit, faster now, his eyes wide and dark as he watched you fall apart. âYou look so beautiful like this,â he whispered, voice thick with a mix of emotions. âAll fucked out⌠youâre glowing. So fucking pretty when youâre moaning like that.â
His words only pushed you higher. You squeezed Soobinâs hand tighter with your free one while your other hand clutched desperately at Jungkookâs forearm, nails digging into his tattooed skin. âYour dick is so big, it feels too good, I canât thinkâ please donât stopâ!â you babbled loudly, words slurring together between broken moans and gasps. Tears of overwhelming pleasure pricked at the corners of your eyes as he continued to wreck you.
Jungkook smirked, dark eyes gleaming with lust and satisfaction. He adjusted his angle slightly and started pounding into you even harder, pulling you onto his cock with every snap of his hips. The new position made him hit that perfect spot inside you with devastating accuracy on every thrust. Sweat glistened on his forehead and neck, his shirt now clinging to his muscular chest from exertion.
âThatâs right,â he growled, voice rough and low. âFeel how deep I am? This is what your pussy needed. Not soft, polite sex. It needed to be ruined like this.â
He kept using your body ruthlessly, yanking you down onto him, grinding deep, then pulling back only to slam you onto his length again. Soobin never stopped rubbing tight, slick circles on your clit, his eyes flicking between your face and the sight of Jungkookâs thick cock disappearing inside you repeatedly.
The pleasure was blinding. Your moans echoed shamelessly through the room as another orgasm began rapidly building, even stronger than the first. Jungkook was fucking you better than you had ever been fucked in your life. The brutal pace of Jungkookâs cock slamming into you, combined with Soobinâs fingers rubbing relentless circles on your swollen clit, pushed you straight over the edge again.
Your second orgasm hit you like a freight train.
âJungkookâ! Iâm cummingâ fuck. â you screamed, your voice cracking as your entire body seized up. Your pussy clenched violently around his thick cock, fluttering and gushing as powerful waves of pleasure ripped through you. Your back arched sharply off the chaise, thighs shaking uncontrollably while Jungkook kept fucking you through it, dragging out every last pulse of your release. Soobinâs hand never stopped, prolonging the overwhelming sensation until you were sobbing with pleasure, tears slipping down your cheeks.
You were still twitching and gasping, trying to catch your breath, when Jungkook suddenly pulled out of you with a wet sound. Before you could even whimper at the loss, he grabbed you by the waist and lifted you effortlessly, as if you weighed nothing.
He turned and sat down on the chaise, pulling you with him so you straddled his lap facing him. He guided you down onto his cock again in one smooth motion, burying himself back inside your sensitive, fluttering pussy. This new position pressed your bodies flush together, chest to chest, your knees bent on either side of his hips.
âThis is called the lotus position,â Jungkook explained to Soobin, voice deep and slightly breathless as he held you firmly on his cock. âItâs intimate. Sheâs completely wrapped around me, which lets me hit every sensitive spot inside her. The closeness increases stimulation on her clit and lets her control the depth and rhythm while I guide her. It feels incredible for her because sheâs full and every movement grinds right against her g-spot.â
You barely had time to process his words before your body took over. Still trembling from your last orgasm, you started moving on him, slow at first, then faster, rolling and bouncing on his thick length with desperate need. The new angle made him feel even deeper, pressing against places you didnât even know existed.
âAhh! Jungkook!â you sobbed, pleasure bordering on too much. Your hands gripped his broad shoulders tightly, nails digging into his shirt as you rode him. Your head tipped back, mouth open in a constant stream of broken moans and cries. âItâs so deep⌠so fucking deep, oh my god.â
Tears continued slipping down your flushed cheeks as you moved faster, chasing the overwhelming pleasure. Your breasts bounced heavily with every roll of your hips, pussy swallowing his cock again and again with wet, obscene sounds.
Jungkook groaned deeply, his hands sliding down to grip your ass. He kneaded the soft, plump flesh roughly, spreading your cheeks as he helped guide you up and down on his cock. Thenâ smack, his palm came down hard on your right cheek, the sharp sound echoing through the room. You cried out at the sting, clenching tighter around him. âFuck, thatâs it,â he growled, slapping your ass again, harder this time. âRide me just like that. Use my cock.â
He buried his face between your bouncing tits, sucking one nipple into his hot mouth while his hands continued kneading and spanking your ass in rhythm with your movements. He groaned against your skin, tongue swirling and teeth grazing as he devoured you.
You were lost in itâ sobbing, moaning, and babbling nonsense while you rode him with everything you had.Your head stayed tipped back, eyes half-lidded and glassy with overwhelming pleasure as you held onto his shoulders for dear life. Soobin watched everything in stunned silence from just inches away, eyes dark and fixed on the way your body moved on Jungkookâs cock and how his hands owned your ass.
Jungkook pulled his mouth from your nipple just long enough to look up at your pleasure-drunk face, voice rough with lust. âThatâs my good girl⌠Keep fucking yourself on me. Let him see how pretty you look when youâre falling apart.â
You were completely lost in the overwhelming pleasure, rolling your hips desperately on Jungkookâs thick cock in this position. Your voice had grown hoarse from moaning, but his name still fell from your lips like a prayer. âJungkook⌠Jungkookâ fuck, Jungkookââ you whimpered repeatedly, your head tipped back and eyes glazed over.
Jungkook pulled his face from your breasts, lips shiny, and looked up at you with dark, lust-filled eyes. His hands squeezed your ass firmly as he held you down on his cock, grinding up into you slowly. âWhat is it, pretty girl?â he asked, voice low and teasing, a smirk playing on his lips. âWhat do you need? Tell me. Use your words.â
You sobbed softly, still moving on him, drunk on the feeling of being so full. âI want it from behind,â you begged, voice shaky and desperate. âPlease⌠I want you to fuck me from behind.â
Jungkook let out a deep, amused chuckle that vibrated through his chest. âGreedy girl,â he murmured affectionately. Without warning, he lifted you off his cock, making you whine at the sudden emptiness. He easily maneuvered your body, turning you around on the chaise.
He guided you into position with strong, confident hands. âSoobin, sit down right here,â he instructed. Soobin obeyed, sitting on the chaise with his back against the cushions. Jungkook then pushed you forward until your face hovered just above Soobinâs lap, your elbows resting on either side of his knees. Your back was arched deeply, ass up and presented perfectly for Jungkook behind you.
You looked up at Soobin through your lashes, flushed and breathing hard, your cheek nearly brushing against the bulge in his pants.
Instead of immediately sliding his cock into you, Jungkook knelt behind you. He spread your ass cheeks wide with both hands, exposing you completely. He leaned in and sank his teeth gently into the soft flesh of your right ass cheek, biting and sucking hard enough to make you gasp sharply.
âIâm going to eat her ass now,â Jungkook explained to Soobin, voice calm but dripping with lust. âMost men skip this, but it feels incredible for her. It relaxes her and makes her even wetter. Watch.â Before you could fully prepare yourself, Jungkook buried his face between your cheeks.
A loud, broken cry tore from your throat the moment his warm, wet tongue licked a slow, filthy stripe over your tight hole. âOh my god!â you screamed, your whole body jerking forward. He licked you again, slower this time, swirling the tip of his tongue around your rim before pressing it inside you.
You were crying out uncontrollably now, the pleasure intense and strangely intimate. Your hands scrambled desperately for purchase, grabbing onto Soobinâs thighs and squeezing hard as Jungkook devoured your ass with filthy enthusiasm. He groaned against your skin, the vibrations making your eyes roll back.
His tongue pushed deeper, fucking into your tight hole with wet, obscene sounds while one of his hands reached underneath to rub firm circles on your clit. He alternated between long, broad licks and pointed thrusts of his tongue, eating you like a man starved. Every stroke sent jolts of sharp, dirty pleasure racing up your spine. âFuckâ Jungkook, it feels so fucking good!â you sobbed, pushing back against his face instinctively. Tears of overwhelming sensation rolled down your cheeks as you panted against Soobinâs thigh, looking up at him with glassy, fucked-out eyes.
Jungkook pulled back just enough to speak, his breath hot against your wet skin. âHear how loud she gets when I eat her ass? This is what sheâs been missing.â Then he dove right back in, licking and sucking even more eagerly, his face pressed fully between your cheeks as he worked you open with his skilled tongue.
Your moans and cries filled the entire room, shameless and loud, while your hands gripped Soobinâs thighs like a lifeline, trembling as Jungkook continued. Jungkook didnât rush. He kept his face buried between your spread cheeks, devouring you with slow, filthy dedication. His tongue swirled and probed at your tight rim, licking long stripes from your dripping pussy up to your asshole before pushing inside again. Every time his tongue fucked into your ass, a fresh wave of overwhelming pleasure crashed through you, making your back arch deeper and your fingers dig harder into Soobinâs thighs.
Your hips pushed back against his face instinctively, chasing more of that dirty, intense sensation. He groaned deeply against your skin, the vibration traveling straight through you as he continued with even more enthusiasm. He spread your cheeks wider with both hands, fully exposing you, and spat directly onto your hole before diving back in, licking and sucking like he couldnât get enough.
Minutes stretched out in a haze of pleasure. Jungkook took his time, alternating between broad, sloppy licks and sharp, pointed thrusts of his tongue deep inside you. One of his hands stayed between your legs, rubbing slow, firm circles on your swollen clit while the other kneaded and slapped your ass cheek occasionally, the sharp smacks making you jolt and moan louder. You were a mess, sobbing, whimpering, and shaking as he continued rimming you relentlessly, pushing you closer and closer to the edge again without ever letting you tip over.
Only when your legs were trembling uncontrollably and your cries had turned into constant, desperate begging did Jungkook finally pull back. He wiped his mouth with the back of his hand and rose onto his knees behind you, his voice rough with lust as he spoke to Soobin. âNow Iâm going to fuck her from behind. Hard. This position lets me go deeper and gives me full control.â
You barely had time to catch your breath before you felt the thick, blunt head of Jungkookâs cock pressing against your soaked entrance. In one powerful thrust, he buried himself to the hilt inside your pussy, stretching you open around his thick length.
A loud, broken scream tore from your throat. "Fuck yes!" He didnât give you any time to adjust. He immediately set a brutal, punishing pace, slamming into you hard and deep. The sound of his hips slapping against your ass echoed loudly through the room with every thrust. He gripped your hips tightly, yanking you back onto his cock over and over again, using your body exactly how he wanted.
âFuckâ so tight,â he growled, voice low and strained.
Every brutal snap of his hips drove his cock impossibly deep, the head kissing your cervix with every stroke. Your elbows trembled as you tried to hold yourself up, face buried against Soobinâs thigh while your moans and cries grew louder and more broken. Jungkook reached forward and grabbed a fistful of your hair, pulling your head back slightly so your back arched even more for him.
âYou like that?â he groaned, pounding into you mercilessly. âYou like being fucked like a little toy from behind?â
âYes! Yes, fuckâ Jungkook!â you sobbed, tears of overwhelming pleasure streaming down your face. The angle was devastating. Every thrust ground against that perfect spot inside you, making your legs shake violently. Your pussy clenched tightly around his cock, soaking him with every rough stroke as he continued to rail you without mercy.
Jungkookâs pace was relentless, hard, fast, and animalistic. The wet, filthy sound of your arousal squelching around his cock mixed with the sharp slap of skin on skin. He kept one hand fisted in your hair and the other gripping your hip hard enough to leave marks, pulling you back onto him with every thrust like he was trying to bury himself even deeper.
Jungkook continued pounding into you with deep, powerful strokes, his hips snapping against your ass with a loud, rhythmic slap. Your moans were constant and broken, your body jolting forward with every brutal thrust while your face stayed pressed against Soobinâs thigh. Jungkookâs grip on your hips was iron-tight, fingers digging into your skin as he used you relentlessly.
He slowed his thrusts just enough to speak, his voice rough and commanding, yet still instructional. âSoobin,â he said, breathing heavily. âGrab her hips. Both hands. I want you to help move her back and forth on my cock. Feel how she takes me. Learn the rhythm she needs.â
Soobin hesitated for a moment, eyes wide as he watched Jungkookâs thick cock disappear inside you again and again. His cheeks were flushed dark red, but after a few seconds, he leaned forward and placed his hands on your hips, right beside Jungkookâs.
âThatâs it,â Jungkook encouraged, still buried deep inside you. âPull her back onto me when I thrust forward. Help her fuck herself on my cock. She loves it deep like this.â
Soobinâs hands tightened on your hips. At first his grip was gentle, almost uncertain, but as Jungkook started moving again, Soobin began pulling you back onto Jungkookâs cock in time with his thrusts. The added force made Jungkookâs cock slam even deeper inside you.
A loud, broken cry ripped from your throat. âOh my god!â you sobbed, eyes squeezing shut as the new sensation overwhelmed you. Soobinâs familiar hands pulling you back combined with Jungkookâs massive cock stretching and ruining you created an intensity youâd never felt before. Every time Soobin yanked your hips back, Jungkookâs thick length drove into you harder, filling you completely.
Jungkook groaned in approval. âGood. Harder, Soobin. She can take it. Look how her pussy is gripping me every time you pull her back.â
Soobinâs grip grew firmer, more confident. He started pulling your hips back with more strength, helping impale you on Jungkookâs cock over and over again. The wet, filthy sounds grew even louder â the obscene squelching of your soaked pussy mixed with the sharp slap of skin whenever your ass met Jungkookâs hips.
You were falling apart between them.
âFuckâ fuckâ itâs so deep!â you cried out, voice muffled against Soobinâs thigh. Your hands clutched desperately at Soobinâs legs, nails digging into his pants as your body was rocked between the two men. âJungkookâs cock is so big⌠Soobin, baby, heâs so deep inside meâ I canâtâ
Jungkook kept a steady, brutal pace while Soobin pulled you back onto him with every thrust. The dual control over your body made you feel completely used, a toy being shared between them. Jungkookâs cock kissed your cervix with every forceful pull, stretching your walls perfectly around his thickness. âThatâs it,â Jungkook growled, one hand moving up to grip the back of your neck while Soobin continued manipulating your hips. âFeel how sheâs dripping down my cock? Sheâs fucking loving this. Pull her harder, Soobin. Make her take every inch.â
Soobin obeyed, his fingers pressing deeper into your soft hips as he yanked you back more forcefully. The new intensity made your eyes roll back, loud, shameless moans spilling from your lips as Jungkook fucked you raw and Soobin helped drive you onto him again and again. You were trembling violently, tears of overwhelming pleasure streaming down your face, caught in the devastating rhythm the two of them created together.
The combined rhythm was absolutely devastating. Jungkookâs thick cock slamming into you while Soobin pulled your hips back with increasing confidence created a merciless, perfect storm of pleasure. Your moans had turned into constant, broken sobs as your body was rocked between them.
Jungkookâs breathing grew harsher, his thrusts becoming more erratic and deeper. âFuckâ Iâm close,â he growled, gripping your hip tighter while Soobin continued helping pull you back onto his cock. âGonna fill this pretty pussy up.â
You could only whimper in response, your mind hazy with overwhelming pleasure. Jungkookâs pace turned punishing, slamming into you with short, brutal strokes as he chased his release. With a deep, guttural groan, Jungkook buried himself to the hilt inside you and came hard. You felt every powerful pulse as he emptied himself deep inside your pussy, thick ropes of hot cum flooding your walls. He kept grinding into you, pushing his load even deeper while growling your name under his breath.
The feeling of Jungkook cumming so deep inside you triggered your own orgasm instantly. Jungkookâs grip on your neck tightened as he pounded into you even harder. âThatâs it, pretty girl. Cum on my cock. Let go.â
The pressure built impossibly high, tighter and hotter, until it finally snapped. You came harder than you ever had in your life. A loud, guttural scream tore from your throat as your entire body seized up. Your pussy clenched violently around Jungkookâs cock, and then you were squirting, hard. Clear, hot liquid gushed out around his thick cock with every thrust, soaking his hips, dripping down your thighs. You shook uncontrollably, sobbing and moaning as wave after wave of intense pleasure crashed through you. Jungkook didnât stop, fucking you through your orgasm and prolonging it until your vision went white and your legs gave out completely.
âFuck, look at her,â Jungkook groaned, voice rough with satisfaction. âSheâs squirting everywhere. Good girl⌠such a messy, beautiful girl.â
Your body finally went limp, trembling with aftershocks as Jungkook slowed his thrusts and eventually stilled deep inside you. He stayed buried in your pulsing heat for a long moment, letting you feel every inch of him while you tried to catch your breath. Soobinâs hands gently rubbed your hips, soothing the marks heâd left behind.
Jungkook eventually pulled out slowly, a rush of your combined juices dripping from your ruined pussy. He helped you collapse gently onto the chaise, turning you onto your back so you could breathe easier. Your chest heaved, body covered in a light sheen of sweat, cheeks flushed, and eyes glassy with exhaustion and satisfaction.
Jungkook sat back on his heels, breathing heavily but looking pleased. He glanced at Soobin, then down at your spent body. âThat,â he said calmly, âis what she needs. Not just gentle, loving sex. She needs to be fucked properly, deeply, roughly, and without hesitation. She needs variety. She needs to be used and worshipped at the same time.â He looked at you softly. âHow do you feel?â
You could barely speak, still floating. âIncredibleâŚâ you whispered hoarsely. âIâve never⌠felt anything like that.â
Jungkook smiled, then turned back to Soobin. âYou did well today. Helping move her like that was a great start. Weâll work on building your confidence and skill. This was only the first session.â
He helped you sit up eventually, handing you a soft towel and a bottle of water from a nearby table. While you recovered, he spoke to both of you about aftercare, communication, and homework, things for Soobin to practice at home before the next appointment.
As you slowly got dressed, your legs still shaky, you couldnât stop stealing glances at Jungkook. The memory of how he had completely ruined you while Soobin watched was burned into your mind. Soobin was quiet, but he stayed close to you, gently rubbing your back and pressing a kiss to your temple. There was a new tension in the air, something shifted between all three of you.
Before you left, Jungkook leaned against his desk, arms crossed, looking unfairly composed and handsome. âBook your next session soon,â he said with a small, knowing smirk. âWe still have a lot to work on⌠and I think you both know now how much she needs it.â
You left the office leaning on Soobinâs arm, body sore in the most delicious way, your mind already replaying everything that had happened⌠and wondering how much further Jungkook would take you next time.
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