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occasionally you'll think about a goats song, one that you really love, and then go "oh, i should look at some quotes about this song on the wiki." sometimes you shouldn't do that
omg the last place i saw you alive is about saw it even says it in the title. the last place i. saw. you alive. sorry if this is incomprehensible it's midnight and i'm in saw 2004 mode
okay okay so first, the obvious one: the last place i saw you alive. being alive is kind of a big deal in the saw universe, it's the whole reason that jigsaw ever puts anyone in his traps, and i'm thinking of this from the perspective of lawrence, thinking about adam... the last place lawrence saw adam alive was in the saw trap. important part of the movie.
the second thing is a lil silly but like. Gordon avenue. lawrence gordon. of course tmg is known for having ultra specific lyrics, and this is what got me thinking of this in the first place. it's probably a coincidence because i'm not doing like a serious "what is this song about" just connecting the dots to make it a saw song. however. jd probably(??) has seen saw.
"I walk the narrow path these days
I can't see going back to my old ways
Call to mind sometimes that bloody, stinking mess
Us worms turn into butterflies, I guess"
a big theme in the saw movie (i have seen. the first one.) is transformation, moving on, growing as a person. that's what jigsaw is trying to encourage, people not going back to their old ways via giving them loads and loads of trauma usually in the form of messes that are both stinking and bloody. Worms turning into butterflies... it's not totally possible or scientifically accurate but it seems to be happening anyway. Key word "seems".
then the third verse: it was special, it was deadly. it was ours and then it wasn't. these are vague and could describe almost any scenario if you're creative enough, but it doesn't take that much of a stretch to apply them to the bathroom trap lawrence and adam were in. it was special. it was deadly (for adam and the orderly guy). it was his and adam's... then it wasn't.
finally a lot of the song seems focused on denial. i love this part... the narrator feels like he's clenching his teeth and forcing himself to smile the entire time, because goddamn it's not a big deal you're not here anymore! why would it be a big deal? what's wrong? grief? no, not really. not anymore. lawrence definitely feels like the kind of guy to go. no. no that didn't happen to me and adam wasn't important, we didn't bond. we shared nothing. i'm not sad i didn't go back. i don't regret it. it's just the way the traffic flowed, you know? couldn't get back. oh well. he left some. some photos behind. some camera equipment. you know. some memories. he left some of his memories with me and i have memories of him laying there and talking, or standing. and the image burned into my retinas of him taking a drag. but you know. it's fine. it's how the math works, i passed algebra 2. i know about subtraction.
okay reread this and still mostly feel like the pepe silva meme However "I know about subtraction" goes. jesus christ. sometimes midnight fandom eassy writer dorian spits fucking fire
if we're saw posting on mountain goat main, i'd like to talk about my ideas on lawrence, adam, and marduk t-shirt men's room incident.
some spoilers for saw, obviously. i'd recommend you watch the movies with little spoilers going in, if you want to watch them at all, that is. i'm going to reference some things from later movies, but nothing incredibly spoilery. also, this will be long
recently i've been thinking a lot about the saw movies (thank you first line + my friend who i've been watching the movies with recently)
you don't have to think about amanda here, but i love her so much and really. she does fit into this scenario that happens after the first movie (in my head)
in particular, mtsmri REALLY reminds me of this first movie, but specifically the aftermath with lawrence and everything that he saw (ha) and went through when he was in the bathroom from adam.
right off the bat, we're introduced to the narrator being in a public bathroom of sorts, with a girl who is sweaty enough to look legitimately wet. he's drawn to this girl, he wants to know (at least a little bit) what happened to her.
here, i like to imagine that they're at the jigsaw survivours group
i know, from watching other movies, of the implication that lawrence has seen amanda after both their run-ins with jigsaw. they are aware of each other. i have a scene in my mind of lawrence running into amanda one day, in a scene a lot like this (dr gordon has become divorced lol) and him instantly being reminded of adam. from the drowned look to the taste in clothes.
adam who was a lot like amanda in a lot of ways. they had similar attitudes when it came to life, similar music tastes, interests, life situations, everything. in fact, there's even a deleted scene where he meets her in saw iii. while i don't know that adam would've talked about this, i think it could be a fun little detail if he had. just another thing to reinforce the idea that they are two sides of a single coin to lawrence
there's a lot of things to unpack in these lyrics, but hear me out:
lawrence doesn't have much of a reason to care about amanda other than having a shared experience. but again, he knows her. he recognizes her, she reminds him of adam.
specifically adam in his last moments if this scenario is what we're going with. unable to cling onto anything than the idea that lawrence is going to come back with help and the guilt that lawrence feels after from not being able to do that. he's so wrapped up in his recent past experience that he can't help but think of adam here, even if he can't see her face properly. even if it's wrong, in some way, to do so.
but again, he doesn't really know amanda. it would be kind of weird to stop her, or even talk to her here. what would she think, or say, from what she knows about his trap? in his mind, for a moment or two, she's no one other than a man he met who, in part, forever changed his life.
these last two bits are both direction to amanda (there's a lot of media attention that's given to people who survive traps) and himself. try not to let anyone notice you and bring back those traumas, try not to let anyone know that you are the person who went through those traumas. but more importantly, he's trying his best to forget.
here is really upp to interpretation.
does lawrence wish that amanda was adam? does he feel guilty about that?
does he trick himself into thinking that maybe, somehow, adam is still somewhat connected to him? that he's alive and well as he can be? or perhaps that he's now a ghost connected to lawrence's psyche as a way of coping?
does he hope that that's what he, himself can be?
there's no resolution to this, i just love them a lot. alright. see you soon when i post another lyric in (checks watch) three months
What tMG lyric is stuck in your head right now? mine is “I went mining for gold, I struck pure. fresh. zinc. god, god will give him blood. to drink. hey hey hey” from Standard Bitter Love Song #8
& btw I'm doing this for revenge. I'm doing this to try and stay true. I'm doing this for the ones they left to twist in the wind and I'm doing this for you. If you even care.
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