™ FALSEHOOD IN WORSHIP / HE IS BEGINNING TO REGRET LEAVING HIS HEART BEHIND. THE NICHE ACHES, INFECTION GROWS. ( he supposes it would eventually happen, this self-doubt was inevitable and now it spreads with a sickening heat. he remains undeniably wild, a savage beast that snaps at hands who feed him - eyes hardening, chills the prey into a bluish mess of shivering ligaments and haunted stare. the hunting game is addicting, makes adrenaline thicken his pulse. he is both god and the devil, a puzzling mixture of nature and nurture - he was an ugly child, perhaps this is why the hideousness follows him into adulthood, into eternity. he doesn’t look at his reflection in mirrors now, avoids them entirely. he thinks if he were to stare too long in one, the image of himself would shift and slip onto a mask of something unidentifiable, yet altogether eerie. a faceless man, a tree trunk with green moss over it, some outstretched arms of a rotting corpse. this, the first stage of paranoia. watch as his limbs become scattered, twitching and jerking about like a robotic doll. he is still so unused to this fleshy vessel, demon inside of him now strangling itself from restlessness. don’t the monsters hate being caught in snares? it is the control, after all, that satisfies them. ) he is thinking of dead bodies again. he could baptize himself once more in the rivers of blood he’s created - dunk his head under the gushing stream and beg himself to be released. let the worms and the maggots eat his final cell that trembles with empathy. he was made to suffer, even his rib cage creaks and shudders with each hurricane - even his warm breath betrays him, hellish in the way he exhales. what do you get when you cross a wolf with a knife? pretty hide strung out to dry? a sharper tooth? cut into his belly and you’ll find villages in there, cities he’s devoured and kept like little trinkets. loneliness comes often, uninvited as it sneaks into his bed. IMAGINE A MAIDEN WALKING IN THE WOODS ONE DAY AND STUMBLING ACROSS A GROWLING COYOTE. HERE ARE THE RIBS IT SHOWS, THE MATTED FUR, THE DEMENTED GROWL. IS IT TRULY HUNGRY OR DOES IT JUST LOOK IT? REMEMBER : SURVIVAL IS ABOUT LYING / PRETEND TO BE THE DOE, LURE IN ALL THOSE NOCTURNAL CREATURES. LET THEM HAVE A TASTE OF AN EASY MEAL. he is similar to some swamp dweller, an alligator that lounges underwater - algae covering him and scales moist and slick. he may look like he’s sleeping, but he is rarely ever unconscious. he observes and he waits, allows the watched to feel his presence - keeps those little hairs on their napes floating with static. he is not a pretty thing, he speaks in old tongue and curls his hands around thin necks. he swishes the blood around his mouth before he swallows, he takes notes of the flavor of syrup - full-bodied, fruity, a light citrus scent. it is an art to know how to kill, even more creative with knowing how to dispose of a body. waste not, want not. ( i’m trying not to think of how your hair looks splayed out on my pillow or how you sound when you say my name. how holy can i sound upon your tongue? let me stay there awhile / it’s been too long since i found home. you’re marble and iron and silk, bathed in rosewater with bergamot oil coating your thighs. i am half-burnt, raw chicken skin, crooked. what could make you love me? you want lazarus, i’m cain ; i could betray anything, even my own lineage. ) HE HAS BEEN LION UNDERNEATH MANY MOONS, LITTLE WITCH / HE KNOWS HOW TO LISTEN CAREFULLY TO BEATING ORGAN. MAKES JOWLS DRIP, SALIVA OVER-PRODUCE. SHE IS NOT A SOURCE OF FOOD, BUT SHE DOES AWAKEN A PRIMAL AROUSAL. there is a lapsed out silence, festers in the space between them - causes a tension to develop, palpably strong with something akin to temptation. he wants to dig into her and find something less stubborn, twist it and pull it out and show her just how much darkness he can embody. there are boxes that should not be opened, men who should not be touched. he is savoring that which he should not - her fingers lithe and curious, eyes bright and watchful as they gaze up at him. the brutality is bright red, blinds vision. it is now only reaction and impulse, movements smoothed out - snake slithering in water. hands reach out, palm sliding along her hipbone to settle at the fleshy base of her bottom. the other is tender, fingers tangle through her hair for a moment before pausing at her nape - he will teach her how to treat the incurable. let her endure all his rage, let her drown into that murkiness that is his suspicions of a kinder lifestyle. veins under eyes darken, boils the blood to the surface - a blackening of cheekbones and human appearance. his voice is raspy now, a single snap of his jaw before he replies quite lazily - syllables drawn out with an accent, yet it is gruffer, less elegant that usual.
❝ perhaps that is my flaw here - allowing you to think i am the one scared . i will not be tamed , must i really kill sixty people to prove my point ? i could - you know . i ‘d start with you . ❞ mouth presses to throat with a purr of his last words, fangs elongating and dragging harshly down to her collarbone. there is no pain he’ll cause her, but he wants that rabbit thump of a heart to quicken, to fear, to churn out the instinct of kill or be killed. it was a mistake, he thinks, tasting her nakedness like this - allowing the scent of her body wash to tickle nostrils, lemonade and buttercream, sweetness with a tarty center. the groan is stifled in the back of his throat, poorly so - sound still utters out and he is aware of a separate side of him, fingers clutch at the back of her head firmly now. he is desperate for her, hates the throbbing in his body and the spike in his temperature. he could puncture her, dip his canines into her and lap up the goodness that blooms inside of her. he knows how to make her melt for him, make those legs wrap around him and tremble - tongue slides once upon her offered up terrain, as if trying to curb his thoughts. next response is teased out, murmured against the fluttering fragility of her throat. tone is less poised, crumbles with the urgency of man weakened, vampire consumed by fury and by obsession. a warning before he bites, but he waits for her command - always. ❝ maybe this is what you want , hm ? love means nothing if there isn’t a little bit of power mixed into it . you know who my family is - what they do . it is always smarter to run , davina . ❞
GIRL AS A VICTIM : TORN APART && SPAT OUT , A MESS OF BLOOD && CHEWED UP FLESH SPLATTERED ACROSS GRAVEYARD DIRT . girl as a ghost : flickering to && fro , insubstantial hands pressed together as prayers of please - please - please ricochet behind her teeth . girl as queen : perched upon throne of bone && wormwood , crown of cedar && bloodbane tangled in her hair . girl as deity : held in his arms && untouchable , face mapped by stars in sky . there has always been something holy about her . she has finally grown into it . what a beautiful / deadly coming of age .
HE DOESN'T MAKE HER FEEL SAFE , PER SAY . knows hurting her is something he is largely incapable of , but there is still the possibility lurking beneath his skin . he is not tamed : no matter how he may hold her so sweetly / curl up at the foot of her bed at night , he is still a vicious , vile thing capable of things she could never imagine . the fact that he loves her is both blessing && curse but davina would never trade it for anything for as much as she is his , he is hers right back . any mark he leaves on her flesh , on her insides , she'll be sure to return the favor .