Okay, so this has been in my mind for a while and I decided to post... Here it goes.
Under Read More ‘cause this is really fucking long, so yeah.
Deep breaths ‘cause this is gonna be a long trip, guys. If you’re here just ‘cause you’ve been tagged, and don’t feel like reading it all, you can always skip to your username :) ctrl+f and write your username should do the trick.
First thing’s first, I have in mind that the last time I have been online here was in February. Long time, uh? I don’t even know how to start, but well, maybe a little bit on this blog?
I mean, my very first post here was on May 08, 2013. Which means I’ve been around for quite a while now. Seen many partners come and go. I came, disappeared, so many times, I can’t actually count, but I never had a RP blog last this longer.
This blog has been my house since 2013, and I can’t begin to tell you guys how much I’ve loved every single minute I’ve spent with each and everyone of you. Every message, every plot... Everything. I had ups and downs but, yeah, this has been my heaven. To be honest I never really been good with Canon characters, but Dean Ambrose has got some thing that made me... I don’t know how to explain, but I connected with his character? So this is why I made my second Canon character. My first ever indie RP blog. When it all began I swear I was the most unpopular kid here, got zero plots and my only RP partner was my best friend from many years.
With the time I got more and more partners, followers... Friends, actually. Yeah, you all meant that much to me, and to my characters also. I really don’t have words to thank you all for putting up with my shitty writing, and dork muses. To each and everyone who had the patience to wait for my replies — let’s face it, I always took a while to reply. And are still here after all this time.
But every good thing comes to an end, right? Hell, no, this is not an end. This is like, a hiatus. Yes, a hiatus. For how long? This, I cannot say.
Over time, the joy of having an indie blog ended up vanishing; it stopped being something fun for me, and I ended up coming here to reply as if it was some kind of work. How did this happen? I’m not sure, honestly. But it happened. This is nobody’s fault, I guess, but stuff like this happen. Sorta like when you love a band, but you grow tired of it after a while, y’know?
Look, I don’t plan on deleting this blog, ‘cause this has too many memories for me. It was a happy time, but I’m not sure if I’m coming here to roleplay again. Or to anything. I probably won’t be replying messages, and probably won’t be coming here for anything other than reading old posts. I do have another blog, if you ever want to talk to me. It’s actually an 1x1 rp blog, so yeah. I’m not gonna RP as Dean, to be honest, but if you have any other idea, I might take it — I have been really busy, and unable to write, so yeah, I don’t want to be an asshole, but I’ve had to select what I know I’ll write, and what I won’t. The blog is sturmxundxdrang, so feel free to message me there if you still want to talk to me.
I also wanna thank some people here for roleplaying with me, and putting up with my lazy ass, but before anything, to all of you, really, I apologize for leaving and everything, I didn’t mean to do this, but after thinking for a long time about the subject, I came to the decision that I should post this instead of keep lying to myself that I’ll come back whenever. This is not fair to any of you. I went through all of my messages, and found as many links as I could to those who have changed urls. Oh, and some of you might not remember me, but I do, so yeah.
First, to my first ever partner in this account, and someone I really love and miss, my dearly divaschampionoftomorrow. Look, I have no words, honestly. I just can thank you for giving me the chance to RP, putting up with my disappearances and everything. I’ll always remember Saraya, Jon and Michael. I still had plans for them to get married, and if I ever come back here, babe, we’re getting that done. I’ll really miss you <3
Okay, so, maskedxmentor, you might not remember me but we had a para, right when I started this blog, and it lasted for a while, but I guess... I’m not sure, but I guess one of us dropped it? Lol things like that happen I guess. I’m sorry, I just wanted to put you here in case you remember me and all. I mean, thanks a lot for putting up with my Dean muse <3
frozentwins oh my God I still remember our first plot, actually! Like, I know I always took a lot to reply, but it’s because Jon’s an asshole and I usually tend to be... Nervous? With smut, lmfao. But here, thanks a lot for still being interested in rping with me after all <3 it really means a lot, honestly. I really love you and your muse <3
ambroseviolence where do I begin, friend? I mean, we started this little plot thing between our muses back when you had your Ambrose blog, and then you deleted and I wasn’t sure what to do? lol like, you really mean a lot to me and even tho you have disappeared for a long time, I really miss you. I wish we could’ve have played more of our little family thing, or gotten to know each other better, but things turned out this way, so yeah... I still miss you <3
It’s been 11 months since thesedamnvoices got into the hiatus, and I’m not even sure you’re gonna see this, but I just want to give you a special thank you for rping with me and plotting with my baby Dani <3 you don’t know how much it meant to me, because, honestly, you were the first mun to show interest in building a relationship with my OC back when I made her, and it made me really happy. I miss you <3
hellsfallenstars OMG OMG OMG I miss so much our little soulmates plot <33 I mean, it was the cutest, to be honest, and I loved Jon/AJ so much, and then we plotted for Paige/Dani, and you made me the happiest partner ever, actually. I’m so sorry we didn’t carry on with the wedding thing, but it was perfect <3 I’ll miss Jon/AJ forever, to be honest <3
Guess who’s got a special place in my heart too? Yes! @xmisfitprincess (ugh tumblr won’t let me put your user there) but omg do I even have to say how much I love you and Sere? Like, honestly, we had this family thing between Dani/Jon and Sere and it was one of the most perfect things ever. I just... Oh God I miss you so much, and I will forever. Thanks so much for existing <3
swampxchildren HEY YOU! YOU GET A PLACE HERE TOO ‘CAUSE ABBY WAS AND FOREVER WILL BE JON’S PRECIOUS LITTLE THING THAT HE WANTS TO PROTECT FOREVER, OKAY? Just... Oh, God, Abby and Jon started out and at first I didn’t know where it’d go but then... Then I just loved it more than I probably should. Love you, okay? <3
Also, there’s this little girl who took Jon attention and drove him insane so many times that I can’t count... Yes, I’m looking at you @cinnamongiirl (tumblr won’t let me tag you here ugh). Like, we planned a lot but unfortunately my lazy ass disappeared before anything, and I’m so sorry, ok? I loved Jon and Buggy and also the little hate thing between her and Dani. Also miss you a lot <3
There’s someone also important that probably doesn’t know/remember me, but we rped here and there, and you actually tagged me in this challenge and I was actually really happy because, omg, you knew I exist! Lol, you get what I’m saying. I’ve followed you for quite a while, to be honest, and I LOVE your muse. You’re like the best around here, and if I had plots in mind, I’d absolutely love to plot with you in my 1x1 account. So, jamaisgrandi, thanks for making part of this blog <3
Vou colocar em português mesmo pq né UAEHUAHUE, SO thesonsandtheheirs, você com certeza deve me mandar msg no meu 1x1 pq precisamos de plots AND eu acabei de abrir um RP e adoraria que você fosse jogar comigo <3 honestly, eu nunca pensei que ia achar algum BR aqui e eu fiquei muito feliz <3 queria ter continuado a nossa ship naquele RPG, por que eles eram tão fofinhos, então honestly, se você quiser continuar ela no 1x1, I’m up to that. ILY ok? <3
BBY, therattlesnakedaughter-devon. Look, I just wanna thank you for everything <3 every plot, every message, EVERYTHING. Devon is so important to both of my muses, and you are to me. I mean, I know that sometimes I took years to reply, but it’s just because I’m a lazy ass sometimes. I absolutely love you and your muse, honestly <3 and I’ll miss you A LOT <3
emlyntamasi omg bby I know we’ve plotted a lot and I disappeared between we started and I’m sosososos sorry ;-; like, you’ve followed me since the very beginning of this blog, and you’re so sweet and so is Em, and... Oh my God, I’ll miss you so much, ok? Like, honestly, I really love you and wish I had actually been a decent partner and replied to everything, so I’m so sorry ;-; I’ll miss you bby <3
Okay, so, to tittymasterjon, I have to apologize a lot, because we planned on having the cousin thing to be permanent and I ended up disappearing and ugh I hate myself so much for this, actually :/ I really suck, I know, so I’m so sorry, really, and I really wanted to RP with you, but unfortunately, my muses disappeared as well and... ;-; anyways, if you feel like it, you can message me at my 1x1 (sturmxundxdrang) and we can plot something? Like, really, that’d be awesome. Thanks so much for actually accepting my OC, it meant a lot <3
eccentriccincinnatiscrapper omg tbh I’ll miss you sososo much! I mean, you were the Dean to my Dani for quite a while and I really loved the relationship this two had and that was so freaking cute and omg açsçaksçalk you’re a sweetheart and I’ll honestly miss you a lot, girl <3
There are also xsaviorofmisbehavior and wretchedfallenangel. I mean, I guess we plotted but things ended up getting messy and I never got back? :/ like, I’m really sorry and I love you two for actually plotting with me, it meant a lot <3 and if I ever come back, and you still want to, I’m sure I’d want to continue the plots <3 I’m sorry I put you two together here, it’s that it’s the same case, so yeah. lol but I love you two <3
I wasn’t actually gonna put devilsfavoritediva here because you’re my precious babe and you have like my phone number and you knew about the other blog since the very beginning and you’re like... I don’t know man, you’re just so precious and I love you so much, to be honest, so, yeah. I wasn’t supposed to say a lot ‘cause this was more to the people I left here but lol I ended up doing this ‘cause ily bby <3
Also, wyatts-circus-girl... Geeeeeeeeeeeeee our ship was so precious, and I decided to put you in the end ‘cause, yeah, I also have talked to you outside of here, and, I mean, you’re so precious and I love you so much, I mean... Omg our muses were so close and we had so many things plotted for them, and I just can’t tbh. Ilu so much, girl, and you know you can message me whenever you need <3
So, if you already read why you’re tagged here, again, I wanna say that you guys can message me at my 1x1 blog, and ask for imessenger, or kik (even tho I rarely am online lol) or whatever you wanna ask. I’ll be online for the rest of the night and I’ll come back to check here for the next two days, maybe.
There were a thousand of other muns that I wished to put here but they deleted and/or changed urls and I can’t really find them, so, yeah. But I’ll miss each one of you who RPed with me <3 honestly. This is not a goodbye, I guess, I can always change my mind and come back, ‘cause I’m that crazy? lol I see you guys around. But as Don’t Cry plays, I say my goodbye for now. Thanks for everything, peace.
- L