How long would you want to labor? 12. Would you want to give birth alone or with someone? 14. What's your ideal birth scenario?
would you want a mirror while pushing? 4. how long would you want to feel the head continue to slip out and back in? 7. do want someone to hold your legs back?
3. How long would you want to labor?
I'm torn between the two extremes: laboring for as long as possible, or having an extremely rapid birth. On one hand, you have the anticipation. Transitioning from thinking the cramps that are taking hold of your belly are simple Braxton Hicks to acknowledging that you're finally going into labor, and that you're in for a long haul. Changing positions. Pacing. Moving from room to room in search of a comfortable place to birth: the shower, hovering over a chair, propped up against a mountain of pillows on the bed, falling to your hands and knees on the floor, desperately seeking something grounded. Your pushing stage feels endless, as if there's truly no point, but you can do nothing but labor on until its finally time to give birth.
And then on the other hand, theres the pure chaos. Rather than a gradual build up, you're struck with blinding pain. Your position doesnt matter; all that matters is getting the baby out. You grunt and scream and strain, bearing down hard around the width of a skull that's battering through you far faster than it should due to the sheer size of it.
12. Would you want to give birth alone or with someone?
There is something so instinctual about going at it alone. Feeling your urges, the pressure, and working with them to birth your child. Tapping into something so natural, so primal. Checking your own dilation. Knowing when you're baby is close. Reaching down to cup your bulging cunt as the baby begins to crown, supporting your stretched out tissues as you bear down.
14. What's your ideal birth scenario?
Essentially, a borderline erotic homebirth. Solely unassisted except for me and my partner. Overdue. Short labor, but an extensive period of transition and pushing. Clit and nipple stimulation when labor stalls after nearly an hour of pushing. Birthing while kneeling on the floor, one arm slung over my partner's shoulder and the other wrapped tightly around the bed post. Their hand cupping the protruding bulge between my thighs, encouraging me to continue to push as I shriek that it's coming, that its close, that oh fuck its right there, its crowning, I'm giving birth. Praise for all my effort: "good, baby" and "thats it, keep going" and "you're doing amazing."
2. Would you want a mirror when pushing?
I'd rather feel than see. Jutting my hips forward as I bring my hands down between my legs, supporting a massive bulge. Fingering myself open to aid the stretch. Holding the lips of my straining pussy open as I bear down.
4. How long would you want to feel the head continue to slip out and back in?
As long as possible. I could fight the back and forth for hours. Just pushing and pushing until I hit the point of pure exhaustion, struggling to shove out the massive head that grinds down through my birth canal. I want to scream that its coming but it wont come out, writhing in pain as a sliver of hair peeks through my lips, only to disappear back inside as the contraction ends.
7. Do want someone to hold your legs back?
Yesssss. Grab behind my knees and push them open and up, giving you the best view of my spread, battered pussy. Hold me in position as I struggle to push.
