Walking Human Spirit Diaries

Blue, White, Yellow and Orange

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All i want is your love.

[zandraart]

skyward

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Epic Art

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X in 01 for Humanities

We are re-programmable as human preceptors and beings. We are not bound by material limitations, never. Materials, artificial or not, are parallel representations of egregores or energetical streams. We can shift in time since the universe is not of linearity. Our existence in this human world is conditional and exemplified by the higher natural process of energy. We are always and in patterns shift between worlds of parallel neighboring to each other. The experience of one builds our destiny in the second one, there is paradise and hell in the other world(s), and they are represented by everything in and surrounding those worlds. We will shift from one to the other, and it is very hard for our current selves to imagine the contructa of the worlds to come or, have come onto us. We are very much dependable and creatures of ‘what if’. The sources of this questions date back to the pre-creation of the “current” human race, it was decided that this race will exist in these conditions, for now. This process is very much natural than anything else we define as natural; on a personal note, we should add the words ‘for now’ before the word natural. We are everlasting by essence and nature, we will shift from this to far that, this world will need more to overcome the material constraints we have now, we need to apply the language that is higher in forms of communication. This language speaks of emotion and serenity, glances of feelings are its corner stone. Imagination is the reality there, where it is based on pass memories, present and future alterations and anticipations of other memories and the complete inter-occurrence and dependency of the last two.

We could get along in human fashions, but we could also be our own definition of humanity with each other. What makes us human is the ability to constantly construct and save memories. Animals or plants do not have a close definition of mind or being. As human beings, I call you all to evaluate whatever aspect of the world you live in, anything in your lives from a conversation connection with a fellow human to an animal’s movements around you, I ask you to take them as governing memories of Yourself. Age those memories into history and remember your past and old future. Finally, Leave out in the Echo of our universe, for generations yet unborn to emulate them and live unto your lives even for a moment. Be part of the majestic process we call God. When and if you have to think about fate, think that every person has their instructions, and they alone know those instructions. Every creature and influence then would be meant to be.

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Divine Conversations

A conversation taking place in clouds of gold. The God entity is aspiring to the Human Prophet. The Human prophet questions alot, the God responds in particularity. In the essence of this conversation, time is within and without. Here and now, and new language is formed, it worldly transcends any written language.

The eloquence of this conversation redefines humanity continuously. The Human asks of life and death, God responds “They are primitive incidents and should be regarded with primitive manners.”

When asked of the meaning of primitive, God replies by creating a flower seed in the air and growing it into a full flower, then it shrinks and dies. God then says “Primitive is whatever regards the basic constructs that together imitate Life, they are facts and are made perfect.”

The prophet is of great significance for the Human entity, the prophet is the channel between the human reality and the God entity. The prophet holds great power since the human reality elects them. The prophet is a symbol of human curiosity and innocence.

The prophet asks God of life after death: “Almighty God… How do our souls receive death?”

He is met with an answer that sounds familiar yet is unknown.

“At death, your consciousness exits the filter of your brain, it finds itself in another dimension. Your souls emerge towards a forest that is shaped and colored by your life choices. Your home now is this dimension that is to be judged…. if it is paradise or inferno.”

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Clara’s Diary

Clara hasn't been able to get much sleep lately. For the past two days, she felt as if she was haunted by a dark force. Little does she know of its intentions, she struggles to sleep without fear nor anxiety. She feels watched as if two sizeable eyes aim to stare at her soul as she sleeps.

Shadows of an elderly man flash before her eyes in the middle of her room, at the brink of sleep. She wakes up in the middle of the night to the feeling of two hands laying weight on her bed, it reminds her of the touch of an old boyfriend of hers, as he laid on top of her.

Clara seeks shelter from this creepy entity, she finds asylum and peace in sleep deprivation. It's her only ally.

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Memoirs of a Human Soul #127

Our lives are cyclical by nature, we tend to roll periodically under the same varying conditions over the course of our being. We are classified daily going from our unselected features to our personal preferences and imposed circumstances. It is abundantly clear that we are a categorizing species. Our world is preoccupied with cultures and traditions, rules and laws, social classes and normativity. We reference everything and everyone according to what we we’re told to know, to common knowledge and sense. We define where does this who stand on the basis of mass acceptance and survival instincts; we create fashions and trends in relation to everything around our centers and we implicitly lift and place those who don’t follow them like chess pieces, throwing them out of the game board and believing they are social outcasts, hence they are labelled. We mark our history and judgments on social media and gossip networks, as if the fashionable ones are born judges!

We talk and talk about the things we want to, about who we want to be and the normative world we wish to exist, yet when we zoom out of this scope we tend to fit in back again in an unsatisfactory manner that dwells deep inside and out. We don’t wish to be judged by people negatively in reference to the social trends we created, but we persist on judging others, it’s a never ending cycle. We are, those who contribute to feeding this one, the one we are constantly afraid off yet embrace to our very hearts. It is a dark matter of liquid that melts our innocence away and fill our insides with emptiness and gray hollow lights. It is the cloak we tailored and maintain every day until we fade, away with the lights of our insides. We think we are alone and different, our feelings and favoritism is unique of those around us but we tend to hide them well, we are deceivers of ourselves and others. We need to be heard by others, even if it means to be by one person or two. We need to expose our vision of the world around us. We are psychiatrists to our own being. We need to be there for each other and teach other of our stance in this world and our perspectives. We will fall in love with each other’s language and words. We will make true what seemed dreamy and politically incorrect. We are poets and doctors who can break cycles and generate a linear life. We are chaos and order.

So fond are we of those ones who express “those” in creative matters, those who break the rules and protocols we all follow and those who fight the system from within. So disturbed and annoyed are we of those who don’t give us the social satisfaction we want, so we try to make sense of our ununderstood feeling of rejection by feeling angry and mad about them. Many times we feel sad and disappointed by others, but this implies pre-maturity and a commitment to the fabricated social order of ours.

We adopt these definitions to our urban dictionary. And until we realize why we are feeling in ways we can’t comprehend we can’t escape the emotional depression that creeps on us nor the feeling of being lost in time. We can’t find consciousness and awareness by being blinded and locked up. We might need to be shunned by society and thrown with the outcasts, to have life be the worst possible in many domains, to have an urge for many things yet lacking the resources to achieve them. Then, we would be free to be unhuman, or anti-social, a living hollow shell that roams the earth. We might, finally, be able to change the world around us and achieve self-centralization.

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Him, Himself and He.

Looking at the mirror makes him feel disconnected with that man in the mirror. Feeling connected to nothing, translates from his inner perspective of being dead inside.

His everyday life is ruled by a bitch of a deja-vu.

His relationships are cornered in a sphere of mislead perceptions and repeated feelings of betrayal.

Why does his sensible humanity and compassion stand in the way of his goals?

He gets trapped in a struggle of evil and goodness, a feeling to defy his basic instincts of humanity that dictate to help others and teach them in a world ruled by selfishness and materialism.

He was born too late, he believes he belongs in the 20th century, he thinks he is witnessing the end of the world while in fact, he is living it.

For him, in a world where humans cannot compete with computers and are permanently hooked on technology there is little or no room for traditional human interactions, connections, bonds and sharing. Relationships for him are a mere plate full with deceit and manipulations masqueraded in a sense of truth and honesty, frustration of lies and rebellious emotions. He wonders what happened to people like himself, who they feel no need to deceit and aren’t unwilling but incapable of manipulating others for personal gains, he accepts the world as it is. He is a realist.

He is the center of his own universe yet feels as if he doesn’t belong here and there, what center doesn’t exist in the object of itself? He is air and spirit. He hovers around in this hollow shell of a body knowing that it is not his, it is not him because he is more than that and, unfortunately, he is aware of himself.

He is the alfa and omega, he is part of god and god a part of him. He is curious how these creatures interact with each other knowing that they are not completely true of themselves yet they like to be deceived by each other. He is an observer of the world.

His lack of social knowledge keeps him the dark yet he seems enlightened for others as if he knows something they don’t. Impatient ones ignore him, simply because they have no interest in knowing.

He is at times a sapiosexual, at others straight and gay, both men and women. Every fiber of his being fights this world that rushes to categorize him, he is a rebel. He is both a megalomaniac and a humble servant of God that is humanity.

His views are considered controversial yet familiar by many, he wonders if he knows too much or simply not enough. He is twenty steps behind people or ten ahead of them. He is depressed and aroused, his world is black and white with a tint of grey, his emotions are both buried in grey layers of light or sharp explosive peaks that lead him to the truth. He reads people like a book but he ignores his feelings many times, he is stuck in a loop that pushes him to be one of the masses. He closes onto himself like a sundew, doubting his humanity.

He is born in the wrong generation, he still believes that eternal romantic love exists, his idea of a soulmate or someone that would come and complete his life conquers his heart and mind daily. He is old fashioned, he wishes if he had been born in the 1700 hundreds. He lives in denial of the real world, he is a dreamer and hence a false realist most of times. This pushes him to abandon many goals or projects he sets his eyes on, he simply expects more of the world until he realizes, one day, the true size of himself; It is the day of his true desperation and utter destruction of his dreams, only then he would be one of the masses, only then he would lose his sense of uniqueness and specialty.

He wishes of that one girl to come and colonize him for he will colonize her as well. The fusion of two separate bodies into one sphere of being is what he lives for. The unity of humans all around into one mechanism is what he craves. He redefines socialism.

He is after all, Human.

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We and Us.

We are not only in the material world; The world, material and spiritual existentialist, is in us. We are a pure reflection of our spirits and philosophies and our conducts yet, more importantly, we are a reflection of the power we call God.

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Social Vision

Its not about religions and sects anymore, its about social classes. History does indeed repeats itself, and repeat it will. Most of us strive to survive, to teach our children and ourselves, to pay the bills and taxes, to eat food that lives up to intl. standards. Lebanon doesn't ask much, yet receives none and we believe we can do something about that. Starting by highlighting all our problems, then linking them to identify the main sources, we then revise our resources and establish plans and agendas, finally we move to action yet that action can never be let done without "dealing" with the obstacles that will most definitely stand in our way. The political elites and the wealthy groups may agree on being obstacles since it would undermine their power over the country. The political elites shall remain our last opponents, if not enemies, assuming we (along with the wealthy groups) look upon the regime we will establish in favor. Yet he who believes this is manageable without the disposal of the elites is solemnly mistaken. And they will try to stop us, and they will imprison us, and they shall murder us but little did they know.. We and every one of us, as people and fellow human beings, are much more than bodies and spirits. We are a symbolism of an idea, and ideas do not be murdered. Indeed, ideas feed on misfortunes and get inspired by it. For whatever harm might fall on the short term, ideas will rise victorious after that. History teaches us everything we know and conduct, we evolve owing to it. Then why should we hold back when its lighting the way for us all?

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Gender Identity

active, admirer, adult, ally, animal lover, authoritarian, babe, big brother, bitch, blessed, bondage, cat lover, closet queen, complex, confidant, counselor, creature, cunt, Democrat, deep stealth, demon, different, dog, dog lover, dominant, dreamer, dude, family-closeted, female impersonator, feminist, fightfucker, flirty, free, friend, friendly, gay-friendly, gender liberationist, hippie, human, indifferent, intelligent, liberal, little brother, lover, loving, Mr., male, male impersonator, not sure of others, philosopher, pro-gay, queer liberationist, queer-friendly, quiet, right-brained, romantic, Socialist, sensitive, sex positive, slut, spiritual, survivor, sweet, top, trustworthy, understanding, whore, wolf, XY

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Life religion, future existence

The way everyone talks to people is a reflection of their thoughts and preferences and their gender. We would try to shift the conversation with our ideas, and hope for a positive response as assurance of common values and similarities. We are inclined to accept others in open arms and realize that we are all of the same creation, the day when the dominant majority of human beings is positively open to everyone's self and unique identity, we would not be speaking the tongue language. A tornado-like flow of energy will shatter and fill the skies with yellow,gold and orange lines and curves: Crowns will be instinctively worn and humanity will flourish to a futuristic spiritual Elvish like society. Connections between humans will flourish to overseas. A beacon of light will rule the skies and the earth, and the Humanese will see it.

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View about life and people

We need more diversity and stereotyping. We look for common similarities with unique groups of people, be it sexual preferences or philosophy of life. It is rather hard to find your group and/or your compatible groups in life. Were on the constant search for ourselves, driven by the need to belong to a society and to another person. My group seeks out partnership, we require a reserved power and energy source; our partners will symbolize a beacon that emits and receive our energy and share their insights about our universe. We will definitely get the signs from the universe, we might even cross paths one day yet little do we know... We are very philosophical by instincts and we are compassionate to others since we believe, despite all social trends and fashions, that we all share the same mechanism underneath all of our layers. Few humans shall make it easy for others to perceive that since we believe in  uniqueness. Moments of awareness and hyper-existence would make us open up to the outside world, and those are only realizable when self acceptance and peacefulness dominate our current space and time existence.

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Monsters in my closet

So long have I waited, when seconds go as long as minutes, Not understanding what or who or why would they go out to me, The monsters in my closet care free they remain having a purpose of evil, driven by teamwork and ideology they go after me, One leads the other, And ranks take place between them, One is purple and one is blue, One is blue and the other white, yellow and orange never come out, they observe with open eyes and whisper evil with closed ones, So long have I waited, anticipating their reveal and their unknown purpose, creeping out in the night, staring at me while I sleep and hiding when I look up, yet they rarely run since they know I wont open my eyes. So long I ddnt know I am the monsters in my closet.

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Future Vision

I want to be a life partner to reach that time or phase, when you are looking for more reasons to love the person you're with. You love everything about them and then you are looking for more. You wish to explore them even more knowing that you'll love whatever you discover about them.

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Random Thought

One day I protect my home, the other I’m protecting my enemy's.

-Diaries of a goalkeeper

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World Spiritual View

The world is this immense glass tube where two liquid sorts are being poured in at anytime simultaneously. One of those liquids is evil power, partly representing negative and evil energy. The other is the positive and pure energy flow. Both of those combinations are infinite in quantity, quality and degrees. Their flow in the world is controlled by a certain power which we may compare it to a leviathan(in our current phase of existence) machine, it is our creator whom took many forms and shapes yet coexists shapeless. It is this power that is perceived as the hidden process behind our destined coincidences and behind our intuitions. This power feeds us greed and caring yet gives us an equilibrium formula. That is life itself and the concept of living we know with all its levels and appreciations. It is one's understanding of one's instinct acceptance of matters and aspects. It is what makes us, over time, reach the exact level of size of things, their values as well. It is what keeps a gray floating cloud of fog in your head and it is what clears it away for you to have access to the world that smells fresh that is colorful and easy to understand. It is what makes you reach the level of hyper awareness. The level you rarely get by nature alone and remains the level you acquire when you strive for it. This same level the Mayans built their civilization and predictions with. The same one the pharaohs built and placed their pyramids with. The same level were trying to achieve with technology and wars. I partially lived it in some occasions. This level relates to spirituality rather than religiousness, which are completely different terms. One is the ultimate desired goal of every human while the other is one of the many means to achieve that goal.

Why do people say learn from your ancestors and history? Because it is like body language. At first and for a brief time, a child doesn't know how to lie, And everytime he does so they put their hand on their mouth. It is easy for anyone who is not a child to know. Then he learns to camouflage his hand gestures, this time seeking for the nose or chin etc. At a  certain age, there is barely any conventional sign of lying. We look at out history to learn how to cope with the world in an expert way, so we know how to survive and excel in the falsely balanced world of energy we exist in.

We are energy transmitters and receivers, who appreciate the energy we have and fight for it if we have to. Some of us feel they are giving more than receiving from certain energy hosts while others receive more than they give.  We strive for having more energy and we give when we need it back. We feel superior to someone if we do give them energy in their times of need or when they ask. Some of us feel equal when helping someone in need while others feel superior.

[nazdroth]

When one becomes dogmatic, that person believes his or her doctrine is the only truth and that all other doctrines are heresy. Disputes and conflicts all arise from narrow views. They can extend endlessly, wasting precious time and sometimes even leading to war. Attachment to views is the greatest impediment to the spiritual path. Bound to narrow views, one becomes so entangled that it is no longer possible to let the door of truth open.

Thich Nhat Hanh (via nazdroth)