she's a sinner

мarlene мcĸιnnon puddlemore united don't fix what ain't broke.

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sirius.

Sirius watched with amusement as the girl sat at the table beside where he was. He would have loved to hear her go on but her slumped figure and blood-shot eyes pulled him towards another direction. “I’m right here, McKinnon. But are you sure my date. I’m pretty sure I agreed to go with someone who was…less…” He stopped himself. “How are you enjoying yourself, Marlene?”

“BLACK, look at you and that handsome face of yours.” she giggled softly, shaking her head gently as she tried to compose herself, slowly climb down from the high. “who was less what, sirius? lively? fun? guess you’re wrong cause you’re stuck with me.” she shrugged, reaching for her flask. “damn right i am. what about you?”

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“fan-bloody-fucking-tastic ball, wouldn’t you agree?” the disoriented girl slumped onto her seat, bloodshot eyes struggling to focus on the person sat beside her. “say, you wouldn’t happen to have seen my date around would you? black? the hot one?”

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adie.

                          he furrowed his brow,                        slightly hurt by her nonchalant answer. normally adie would scoff and agree,          leaving the conversation with little to no closure as he followed suit.                                                           but he was trying to do better.

“ there is, yeah. ”             he spoke with a matter-of-fact tone,                                 almost as if the answer had been obvious.                   “ but i guess that’s where we differ because                                                                               … it meant a lot to me. ”

                              “ but i get that yer confused.             god knows i’m not the easiest person to understand.                                                i guess what i WANTED to say was  … i don’t consider what we did a mistake.                                           …                   but i also don’t think it should happen again.                                                sort of      i dunno      a necessary ending. ”

he was being genuine, she could tell. in fact, he was being gentle. he was being... an adie she knew existed but had lost sight of. while he was walking towards the light, pushing to be better fear pushed marlene further into the dark and his words only made her want to stop listening. it was OVER.                                                  A NECESSARY ENDING. her hands shook and her palms were ice cold, her expression turning blank as she found herself at an impasse. the only person she’d ever been truly herself with was adie. they’d paint together, talk, get high to the point where she actually thought she could fly by his side. every happy memory, every sense of joy was tied to a memory starring the boy that stood in front of him and it was all ripped from her in two seconds. now the memories could only be view through a stained glass, almost too foggy to really paint an accurate picture. marlene wanted to be sincere tell him she didn’t want things to be over but still she knew they had to be. even she could recognize he could do far better than her. and while he was looking to turn a new page and embark on a venture of self help, she refused to acknowledge her feelings and for the first time in the time she’d known him, marlenemckinnon plastered a fake albeit convincing smile upon her lips, feigning understanding though her heart shattered slowly.  “you’re right. it was... closure. and you know you mean a lot to me finnigan but chapter closed, right? better late than never.” she chuckled lightly though the action felt harder than she’d imagined. veering her gaze out towards the horizon, marlene clenched her fists, unwilling to expose her true feelings. people left and she knew better than to latch on to anyone, hold anyone accountable for the imagined notion of happiness. the impending heartache was all her doing. “thanks for you know... everything.” she managed to whisper with a smile lingering on her lips, tears breaking through her resolve which only made her laugh a bit more. of course she’d be weak even then. “is that what you wanted to tell me? got me nervous for a minute therefinn, thought the world was gonna end or somethin’.”

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adie.

“ so, ”     he repeated,          following suit and shoving his hands into his pockets. 

                                                  adie remained quiet for a while,                           the two walking in tandem as he struggled to find the right words.  he was never good at the whole                translating thoughts to working sentences thing.                                                  “ i’ve been thinkin’ a lot about that night. ”

         “ think we should probably talk about it. ”

marlene nodded, brief flashes of their previous meeting running through her mind as she strode along. “what’s there to say? we had sex. from what i can gather, it was.... casual.” she didn’t mean to  be rude, she hadn’t even meant to sound cold.  she was just used to the nature of conversations like this one and she felt the need to spare herself the heartache. “is there a reason why it’s been on your mind? i don’t mean to be rude or anything i’m just... confused.”

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adie.

her reaction caused him to release the breath                                         he hadn’t realized he was holding.                            despite their shitty history and even shittier life choices,                                                  he always felt comfort in knowing she didn’t hate him. 

                                                                    “ that’s ‘cause their food is shite. ”  he hopped off the table like a boy with unlimited energy,              his feet slamming on the ground as he nonchalantly wiped his hands together.                                             “ i’m thinkin’ we should go outside. take a walk.        s’not too cold.                        … pretty nice actually. ”

“i resent that statement, they have great coffee and donuts.”  marlene nodded slowly, stuffing her hands into her pockets,  something she often did when she feared she’d do something stupid like say reach for adie’s hand on a friendly stroll.  “sounds like a good idea. lead the way?”

“so.”

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kitty.

“ some people can be very persuadable — could be no trouble at all, once you’ve set your mind to it, I guess.  oh, um, no. not really? just didn’t seem my speed …  did you audition? “

“or persuasive. i think i’m pretty persuasive when i want to be. ah, not your cup of tea. we have that in common actually, i’m  not an on stage kind of girl, i’m quite content with helping though. so i just volunteered to help with the on stage setup.”

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FOR: Marlene McKinnon

FROM: A ghost

NOTE: You are the human embodiment of fire - dangerous yet so alluring. 

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caradoc.

          “ … maybe. ”

“ sayin’ it now,                  if i get that teen angel bullshit,                                                      imma baby cupid that role.                                      wearin’ a diaper,         dick fallin’ out the side.             talk about a dropout. ”

“sounds like more of a request to me, should i pass it along? i’m sure we can figure something out. make  it so everyone's not focusing solely on your velvety pipes.”

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kittyabbott:

“ um, well, I’m not in charge of costume design or anything, either.  and I didn’t audition. we’ll just have to keep our fingers crossed. “

“maybe we’ll just have to petition it. i’ll  pull some strings. we’ll see franklongbottom prancing around in tights soon enough, i’ll see too it. any reason why you didn’t audition, seems fun enough.”

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adie.

he knew her well enough to know that she wouldn’t exactly be rushing for the door.                     so as student after student after student walked out,        he shimmied his way through the crowd,                                                   his gaze falling on her as he moved further into the room.                                adie didn’t say anything.   Instead, he hopped up on a nearby table and crossed his legs,                    holding the carnation by the stem as the top covered his mouth. 

he remained silent until she turned around and saw him,                                his lips still hidden as he comically widened his eyes.                      he always went for the humor is serious situations.

“ spent a lotta time on it.                             got real poetic an’ shit.                                                    it’s … pretty fuckin’ profound. ”             he offered her a gentle smile as handed her the carnation,                                                                   waiting calmly for her to read the actual note:                                            I’M AN ASSHOLE.

she was wary. then again, she was wary of everything lately. there was a part of her, quite frankly a predominant part of her, that wanted to cut her losses and ignore the handsome boy though his endearing gesture warmed her heart. however, the tiny piece of her soul that yearned for his affection drew her closer to him, step by tiny step until she was a few inches away from her ex. it was very clear to her that in regards to that particular boy, she’d always give into her soft spot. without giving away her thoughts or really revealing much, the girl gently took the flower from him, giving it a soft whiff before unfolding the note and letting out a soft albeit cheerful sigh of relief.   “what a coincidence, i’m an asshole too. i haven’t seen you at the meetings.”

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@fnnigcn as per usual, marlene was the last person to actually bother getting up from her desk after class. she took her time gathering her things, lingering behind while her classmates bustled off to continue with the rest of their daily activities. she’d been itching to run from the crowds lately, her active mind yearning for time on her own to gather her thoughts, plaster her many feelings onto some sort of medium, a cathartic means to cope with the persistent pain. marlene didn’t notice anyone walking into the room as she finally tucked her wand into the garter she wore on her upper thigh, her gaze cast downwards until she heard a slight shuffle.

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amos.

“i wouldn’t mind it as long as i get danny zuko. half of these blokes didn’t even want to audition.” 

“oh diggory. is someone upset they might not get their fifteen minutes of fame? don’t worry sweets i’m sure conviction is taken into account when inspecting the applicants.”

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caradoc.

               “ summer lovin’, had me a blast. ”                                                   he lifted his finger in the air,   slowly mimicking the rise of a boner. 

           “ but listen, darlin’ … just ‘cause YOU went wild,                                                               doesn’t mean the whole crowd will. ”

marlene whistled as the boy teased on, a soft laugh falling from her lips.  “sweets, haven’t you heard i’ve got a  knack for spotting talent. go on then, it’s selfish not to show everyone what i’ve had the pleasure of enjoying.”

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caradoc.

“ i’d rather let my dick hang than wear any fuckin’ tights,                       i’ll tell ya.          let the boys free.                                                                      let ‘em sing along to the songs. ” 

“oh hun you whip it out and the crowd will go wild. why not give it a go, if anything it’ll make the whole experience worth attending.”