psyched junkie

You are the stars that align the night sky.

[mrswadge]

I now have new close friends which also happens to like the stories pf jonaxx. We are co-admins on a twitter fan account. I love talking to them! It's like I can open up any topic and they would just go with the flow and reply with their hilarious side comments. It's fun, I really like them. Aside from my co-admins, I also managed to be friends with some JSLs. I am talking with Kierra on twitter yesterday evening and I opened up how I have my very own Noah Elizalde. Wow, kapal. He isn't mine. It's just that he is real and have several similarities with Noah Elizalde of "Worthless". He's the guy I'm talking about on my previous blog posts. I just remembered him, again. I'm not totally into him right now and that is good because my I found out that my friend really likes him. I think they like each other but they didn't give it a chance. I don't know how I feel about that. I just don't want to think about him anymore. Good thing was that I don't stalk his facebook profile anymore. Ha! That's an improvement.

[linda-belcher]

when you have the same password for everything, but have to switch it up as required by certain websites and their different password parameters, so you have to figure out if your password is apple1 or Apple1 or apple123 and then you get locked out for too many attempts because the password you were looking for was Apple123

[mrswadge]

You're the last girl I kissed... I have been so loyal and faithful to you...

Pantaleon Hernaez Revamonte IV, Ripped

[mrswadge]

You want war? I'll give you war, Chesca. And I'll make sure I'll win this. I'll win you, again.

Hector Immanuel Montenegro Dela Merced (End This War)

[mrswadge]

Chesca: You're so bossy, Hector. Ang dami nito. Tingin mo magkakasya yan sa tiyan ko?

Hector: Kasya nga diyan yung bata. Yan pa kaya.

[mrswadge]

SUMMER (2016) MOVIE LIST  — Part I

Secretly, Greatly. Three elite North Korean sleeper agents live under cover for so long that they believe their cover stories are their real identities. They are shocked when they are ordered to kill one another or face death at the hands of an elite hit team.

The Loved Ones. After a classmate declines her invitation to the school dance, a teenager kidnaps him and makes him the guest of honor at her own twisted prom.

The Call. A veteran operator for an emergency call-center, Jordan saves lives daily as part of her job, but when a young woman's frantic report of a prowler ends tragically, Jordan is devastated. She decides to pack it in on the front lines and -- instead -- teach others the ropes of the high-pressure job. But when a call from a kidnapped teen comes in, Jordan takes charge as never before and turns the girl into a partner in helping to save her life.

Date and Switch. Two high-school seniors make a pact to help each other lose their virginity before their prom, but their mission takes an unexpected turn when one announces that he's gay.

[mrswadge]

Summer = Stressed. I know that this should be the time where I can relax all day long but since I became an active admin and spazzer (lol as if that applies), my everyday life became more and more complicated. Sure, it was fun because I have more friends but there are also some people who are irritated by me. I cannot say that I’m a really loyal person but when it comes to secrets, I always keep my mouth shut. Others just cannot follow that simple rule of keeping a secret. And when they reveal it, they want the people they’ve told about it to keep it as a secret. Seriously? How can you guys ask that favor if you yourself cannot keep your own promise. Ugh.Ironic. Anyway, I hope that they would just stop hating on each other. Life’s just simple. Don’t be engrossed on your own thoughts.

P.S. The photo isn’t mine. All credits goes to the owner.

[mrswadge]

I dreamt of you again. I don't know why you are always invading my mind. Lol at "invading". But seriously, am I hanged up on you? I know that we never really got into a relationship because it looks like I just got your hopes up for nothing. I'm such an arse for thinking that it is okay since I already explained to you how I want us to remain platonic. Just friends. You... I also hate you. Don't you know that? You have courted all of my friends then all of a sudden you also want to court me? Do you think that it is okay to act like that? We are not some kind of buffet where you can choose whatever you want. And the worst part is that you chose me last. Hahahaha why am I even getting jealous of something so childish? I know the reason why anyway. The least attractive among the pack. Okay, look, I know how much you liked my friend. I even rooted for the both of you. But even if nothing happened between the two of you, it doesn't really look good you being with me. What would others even think of that? You're not the first one to ask me out but you are the first one that I entertained this much. You're so dumb if you didn't notice that I also liked you way back then. I always text and call you. Shit, we even have an endearment. You want a secret relationship but I'm not keen of those. I am so young for Pete's sake! 2nd year high school? All of it was just some stupid crush. And that stupid crush is something that I regret cause now I just can't stop stalking your facebook profile and think about you. We are studying at the same school. Again. I didn't mean to! Actually I just convinced my parents that MCL was a better choice than studying at Manila. I don't want to study at Perpetual, ugh. So yep. I hate you for being happy and moving on like everything was just a phase because it really is. Adios, east sea.

[mrswadge]

Every Beast Needs A Beauty 

Rage Joseff Del Fierro. Regally hot. This is one of the few stories on wattpad that I like and adore. Well, I love all the works of jonaxx. Jonah Mae Pacala, a very humble and beautiful human being. Surprisingly, we have the same birthday. If you want to read a matured romantic story (or so I thought lol) then you should add this one on your reading list. It’s Taglish (Tagalog-English). You will surely fall for Rage.

You can read it here.

[mrswadge]

Agapi mou, you are not mine but my everything is yours since time immemorial. I thank God for keeping you safe and happy. I’ve seen how you changed and that gives me pure joy for I know that you are living everyday like it is your last one. Your heart, that is something that I intend to keep but that would be too selfish of me. I love how you care about everyone and always put your family first. Will there ever come a time that I will become your family and you as mine and only mine? Feeling you standing beside me would make me go loco in an instant. Talking to you was another story. But agapi mou, those are the kind of stories I’d like to tell others in the future. The story of how I fell for you and how you did not notice. The story of how I kept these feelings of mine thinking you wouldn’t be able to convey the same amount of love that I have for you. The story of how I tried to forget but always fail miserably cause just the mere sight of you makes my heart flatter. My heart. The heart that wasn’t mine anymore. Oh believe me, I know how this story of mine would end. Nonetheless, I still love you. I love every bit of you. You are my star. You are the feelings that wouldn’t be forgotten. The words I wrote. One of the things that keeps me going. Cause you, you are my love.

[mrswadge]

VSHAI Christmas Party 2015 // December 20, 2015 

Had fun with my three awesome bestfriends! We watched a movie before the party so we arrived a little late or so we thought. The party started at exactly 4PM because many weren't able to come on time due to the weather and their other appointments. We had fun although there wasn't any game for our age bracket. I was expecting that so I'm a little bit disappointed. We just ordered Jollibee for the food and I helped on distributing it. Our generous neighbor, Boy Loyola, pledged to buy additional chicken for everyone so we were really happy with that. After the party, we just roamed around the subdivision while enjoying the loud music coming from the clubhouse. Oh how we miss our prom night! We decided to sleepover at Marianne's house after buying food at checkpoint. We bought puto bumbong and a bottle of empi. That wasn't even planned! So yup, we decided to drink the night away. Kidding. I just tried it but Gel and Marianne were the ones who really finished it. I think I drank around 10 shots. It is mixed with cranberry juice so I didn't really taste the alcohol except when we decided to drink a small amount of pure empi. The reason why I do not want to drink that much is because I am allergic to alcohol. My whole body starts to itch and there is redness all over my skin. I also had a difficulty to breathe the first and last time I got drunk. We didn't sleep that much. I think we started to really sleep at around 5AM and I am the first one to wake up at 6AM. What even haha. I waited for them to wake up and when I felt like I need to poop and go home, I woke Marianne up and decided to go home. Well, it was really fun. I just forot to mention about the creepy part. Around 4AM in the morning when my phone won't stop saying the word "multo" which means ghost. Ugh! Creepy! The result? The lights were open the whole time and we slept.

[mrswadge]

To the guy who I consider as special, happy happy birthday. You are such an amazing person. If only you knew how much I admire your talents and greatness. Thank you for being so nice to me even though I know you treat all the others the same way. It is just that you are truly a good person so please do not change the way you are right now. It is hard to be away from home so I hope you would stay strong through the coming years. Study hard my dear. You are such an inspiration to all who are also trying their best in anything that they do. I wish you all the good things in life. I also want to see you again and have deep conversations. Let us talk about time paradox, our presidential bet, our perspective when it comes to family planning, our favorite food, and other topics we can think of. Anything. Just you and me talking, that is all I want. Happy birthday🙂

[mrswadge]

The Song triplets are the cutest triplets ever! Daehan, Minguk, and Manse! I've been watching them since two weeks ago and I love them so much already. They are not just cute, they are also smart. Their dad, Song Il Gook, is seriously awesome! He is a super dad (the title of the show says so lol). Their mom is also great. She is a lawyer or as what others said on the comments section, a high court judge. These kids are really close to each other and they do not fight for that long, they make up easily by hugging, kissing, and saying sorry. How cute is that? Daehan is the most responsible and he is quiet. Minguk has fewer hair, the kindest, and definitely the cutest. Manse is the free-spirit person and for me he is the naughtiest of the three. If you haven't watched "The Return of Superman" you better watch it now! There are lots of families featured in it but Song family is my favorite.

[mrswadge]

Just another crush

I've been talking about this "crush" on my other blog and my friends are intrigued by my posts. I just wrote how I enjoy talking to that person and realized that maybe I idolize him. You know how others call it as a crush. SSG is like my sisters and I do not want to lie to them so instead of telling them that another person's name I just said the truth. I said that I could not tell them who it is because they know that person. And the guessing games began! Oh my, they've come up with random names. Well one of them got it right but I still chose not to tell them. Does anyone from SSG happen to know this blog? No? Yeah, that's good. The name of my current crush is Noah. He is not handsome, he is charismatic whenever he plays rhe guitar and sings, he is tall, smart, family-oriented, God fearing, and fun to talk with. He has his flaws but yeah, whatever. I just idolize him and no need for exaggerating things. Did you notice how this blog was mostly about secret crushes? Hahaha that is because my close friends know my other blog. I am usually not like this. Oh and I thought of posting this since I just found a picture of me and Noah while scrolling through my folders. It was a blurred one. I look ugly and so is he hahahaha.

[mrswadge]

Sup

It's been months! Officially a college student! Well, it was stressful. I met lots of people and seriously I do not want to be attached. They will just come and go in my life so I am trying hard to adjust in my situation right now. I am not the first person to feel like this anyway. Back then I have this attitude where I want to have better grades than some of my friends. I just keep it to myself and now that I think about what I've done, I realize how terrible I was. Karma huh? I have a friend right now who is really smart. She can ace all of our subjects. I feel like she is having a secret competition with her friends (if she treats us like one). How did I come up with that conclusion? Hmmm in a way she acts like me when I was in high school. Always asking about the grades of others and show off whenever I know the answer or just really the act of bragging. I do not really know. Maybe I'm just paranoid but most of the time I do not like her attitude. I am kinda nice with people even though I really do not feel like being friends with them. Woah sounds like I am defending myself and putting up a good front. Seriously though, she is annoying but she is also nice sometimes. Enough of that. I feel so bad about myself when I say negative things about others. Sorry.

[mrswadge]

Grammatical error?

I had this urge to write about a recent facebook post that I’ve read. She’s a former schoolmate of mine and she also used to be my older brother’s friend. On her post, she is saying that English is her first language. Oh wow, must’ve been nice. Then she mentioned an incident where this guy said that she has a disorder for correcting a grammatical error on an examination questionnaire. I’m not dumb enough to not know that she is talking about my older brother. I know my kuya, he is not the type of person to tell someone that they have a freaking disorder. My kuya calls her a “Grammar Nazi” and that isn’t a disorder in the first place. It’s actually a habit. I’m pissed off with her attitude because she makes herself look good. Telling others that she used to speak in English fluently but stopped because a jerk told her not to. Look, we’re Filipinos and we are not entitled to speak English fluently. If you are capable of that, fine. But don’t act like you have the right to correct every grammatical error that you see. Approach nicely and if you noticed that they have errors regarding their grammar again, don’t butt in. It’s actually rude for you to do that. Maybe for others, it’s just a way to help but also think of what others would feel if you correct their grammar every time.

[mrswadge]

All of us have our own issues. I’m insecure about a lot of things and my thoughts are overflowing but nothing has been said. Maybe the best way to cope up with the things that we lack is acceptance. Personally, I always think that I cannot do it. I cannot be as successful as other people. Our fates are different and even if others try to encourage me, this thought remains to linger on mind. Well, I’m not a smart person neither an industrious one. See? That’s my problem. There are choices but I stop myself from seeing things in different prospective. Having faith in myself? Easy to say but almost everyone is failing to do so.