I may or may not scrap this account and start a new since the new year and all, if youd like to follow me to the next one please send me a measage! Iff youd like to read into why im scrapping itll be under the cut, thanks for following me in the first place!
This is like my public trama dump but im going to try to keep things short and sweet
I used to love this account and makings things for people but unfortunately my depression and anxiety have gotten worse and worse. I rarely talk or create anything anymore and if i do its very private. Ive grown scared of talking to people both online and irl, honestly any social interaction feels like im falling off a cliff and aiming for a tiny pool that i miss horribly every time, and all it seems i have the energy for is keeping my shop on etsy somewhat alive and running. Ive been stuck in this cycle of isolation and self hatred for i dont know how long and im tired of it. Id like a fresh start though. I feel like this blog is attached to an old part of myself that doesnt reflect on who i am anymore, and everytime i come here it drags up an old feeling that i dont want to comfort anymore. I want to change this but i cant change without letting you my followers know. I know some people here follow me for my art, my shop, or commissions, and i dont want to leave anyone in the dark, but i cannot stay here.
I do want to say that if you continue to follow me to my next account (when i make it) or if your in my discord server (hiii) im trying my best to fight this mental battle. Ive had depression and anxiety since i was little and now im 22 and its doubled in severity. Im doing my best and i hope to make new friends from long time followers. I miss being apart of fandom spaces and creative community < 3 thanks for reading
