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REMUS !
Remusâ cheeks were tinged the lightest shade of pink and he was grateful now for the dim lighting in the room. Defensively, he reached for his mug, draining its contents to cover his face. âI donât think so,â He murmured, already replaying Maryâs sweet words again in his head. If he couldâve made them tangible, something to hold on to, he mightâve carried them with him on darker days. âI know so.â
He looked at Mary and shook his head, thinking of her unintended ironies. It would give too much of himself away to tell her that heâd silenced anyone dumb enough to say those things. If there were boys idiotic enough to talk about their exploitsâto wonder aloud what Mary might feel like, then Remus supposed they deserved to have their tongues numbedâŠat least for a few hours.
He tugged tightly on the ends of his hair and fiddled with a piece of chocolate, wrapping and unwrapping it until it melted against his fingers. He finally drew it to his lips and sighed. âNo one is saying anything,â He said softly, looking at Mary. Embolded maybe in his exhaustion, he leaned forward, pressing a quick kiss to her cheek. âTry not to worry.â
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his cheeks looked adorable as they turned somewhat rosy, it was something she never saw and the idea that she was the reason for it caused a rush of excitement and pride. he suited his face like that, it was rather charming. âi think so, in fact, i know so.â mary was very certain about that, especially when she thought about it from her point of view. shaking her head, the brunette smiled softly at him. âwell, i know better. if i were the girl, iâd be over the moon that you were even giving me that sort of attention or thought of me like that. any girl will be.âÂ
she realised how much that might give away and quickly shot him a smile before picking up a piece of cake. the house elves were lovely and every time one passed the muggleborn would beam at them, letting them know how much she appreciated them in one simple glance. her question had her curious, slightly scared at how long remus was taking to answer. it was starting to feel like the rumours hadnât stopped, that maybe they had gotten worse since the attack. had they gotten worse? was she more involved in the rumour mill than ever before? maybe sheâd have to get used to it.
gazing at him through her eyelashes, she hoped for the best, prayed for it. mary wanted her name not to be uttered in the way it was last year ever again. that was what she was needing, for her name not to be spoken by those that werenât close to her but after the attack before summer, she knew it would still be fresh news. it wouldnât help that she already felt bruises forming under her clothes and she knew there would be more to come throughout the year. her cheeks flushed as he kissed her cheek, eyes widening as she looked at him with a smile tugging on her lips. ânothing? good. i didnât need anything.â
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REMUS !
Sirius had never struck Remus as the sort of person to use anyone. Even after being unofficially adopted by the Potters, he always promised to pay back everything theyâd given him. Even days after the full moon, when heâd pillaged the drawers of their dormmates for heavy stacks of chocolate, heâd returned every piece after the next Hogsmeade trip. But thenâŠtheir other classmates never saw anything like that, did they?
Remus could hear the curiousity blooming in Maryâs tone. Some mix of frustration and excitement blossomed in his chest. He loved that she showed any interest at all in his romantic lifeâin any part of himâbut then, it was a small school. Likely, this was just another way to fill timeâsomething to gossip about. The werewolf let out a low chuckle and shook his head. âIâve fancied just one girl at this school.â He murmured, lowering his gaze. âSo er, if I was going to âgo for it,â it certainly seems like Iâve missed my chance.â
The idea of the other boys talking about MaryâŠaboutâŠhow good she wasâŠrepulsed him in a way that felt almost inhuman. His blood boiled. Remus chewed on his bottom lip, fighting carefully to find the right words. âI donâtâŠ,â He shook his head, dipping into the stash of sweets buried in his robes. âI canâtâŠ,â He tugged at the edges of the wrapper and sighed. âItâs no oneâs sodding business, is it?â He said finally, cursing himself for getting upset, even now.
Originally posted by lcarenpage
there was a lot mary never knew about people, no one really knew anything about anyone unless they were explicitly told. there was a lot people would never know about mary, things she would never dare speak into the world in fear of what might happen. these were secrets people all had, things that sirius and remus would be all too familiar with, the secrets no one would ever know except those close and of course, the boys would have something like this. they had each other to share things with without fear of judgement.Â
the muggleborn hoped she wasnât sounding too desperate to know, wanting to find everything out. there was a part of her that wanted to know about him and girls, know where she stood but there was another part that was far too scared of what he might say. this was one of those things. if heâs only ever fancied one girl, mary may as well step back because there was no chance that sheâd be able to change his mind, not with her history. keeping a smile on her face, she made sure she would look supportive but that didnât stop her heart from hurting and her stomach from falling. âunless sheâs with someone, rem, you should go for it. no girl could ever say no to you and if they were, theyâd be stupid because to have a guy like you wanting them makes them the luckiest girl on the planet. i mean, youâre smart, handsome, sweet, and caring. you have a lot going for you, you shouldnât think otherwise.âÂ
people knew too much about what mary had gotten up to in her sixth year. they knew too much about her, what she was truly like when everything else slipped away except one person. girls hated her for it and guys wanted to have some of it. of course, there were times when sheâd called out the wrong name when orgasming, times were she just stopped half way because she was bored. there were plenty of stories to listen to but most just spoke about how she let them get away with anything and she enjoyed it. it was half true, being high and scared certainly let her inhibitions leave her. âhopefully they donât get brought up this year. you havenât heard anyone saying anything yet, have you? i mean, no oneâs talking about me and some guy or some guy wanting to sleep with me? people arenât talking about me like that? i mean, not after what mulciber did?â
REMUS !
âLet him be,â Remus murmured, digging his nail under the paper. Sirius could do what he liked, might as well. The boy had enough rejection from his familyâŠit almost made sense to seek out every source of comfort. âWe canât fault anyone for experimenting, can we?â He shot her a wink, finishing off his beer. Thatâs what last year had been, hadnt it? Curiousity?
He shook his head, barely registering the thought of another girl. His senses where so rapt with Mary, had been for years, that there was hardly any room to start with. âSheâs not what I want,â He said softly, tracing the lines of one of his scars. He seemed to find the kitchen cabinets suddenly captivating, unable to meet her eyes.
âIâm being insensitive,â He sighed in frustration, giving her hand a small squeeze before letting go. It dawned on him, suddebly, that she supposed he must also be afterâŠwhatever happened when Mary and anyone elseâs footprints grew too close together on the map. âTheyâre all idiots if thatâs all theyâre after.â
Originally posted by allenparker
swallowing harshly at the wink, she was torn between being upset by the experiment comment and finding it incredibly hot that he had just winked at her. mary was very torn on how to response, even worse now her cheeks had flushed in response to his action. âno, we canât but we should if theyâre trying to gain attention off another. itâs never a good mix that.â the muggleborn knew that from experience. it became too messy, too complicated if you got into a pattern while trying to get the affections off of someone else, she had tried it with remus but it never worked.Â
âknowing what you want is always a good start to going after it.â her words were kind, hopefully encouraging and comforting. ânot that you have to go after it but iâm sure that you canât lose something you never had so i guess going after it would be good.â her words rushed out, trying to explain what she meant without sounding pushy, sounding nosey. the witch never wanted to oversteps bounds or upset the male. mary was all about keeping things good between them.Â
âno, no one knows how to handle it. i made a lot of mistakes last year and i have to pay the prices.â that was honestly how she viewed it. the witch would have to deal with guys treating her as nothing more than an object after the issues she caused for herself, the reputation she obtained. âiâm sure by the stories we both know itâs not all that bad for them, iâve heard they find me quite good. although, iâd rather not give more boys any stories to tell about me.â
REMUS !
âYouâre probably the only girl in the castle,â He murmured. If the giggles when the lads walked through the streets of Hogsmeade werenât for Padfoot, they were certainly for Prongs. He tugged at the lable of the brown bottle in his hand, a smile tugging at the edges of his lips. âTell her to go for it. He hasnât stopped whining about her since fifth year.â
Remus took a long swig, letting the liquid settle on his lips. Meadowes had always felt like a friend, even as they experimented after curfew. As much as he wouldâve liked, Mary never strayed too far from his mind. âThatâs flattering,â He said softly, pulling at the sleeves of his sweater. Realizing belatedly that the shirt belonged to Prongs, he burrowed deeper into the fabric. âBut I donât think weâll beâŠ.,â He chewed on his lip with obvious consideration. âA âweâ again.â
The energy seemed to shift at once. Remus turned toward his companion with wide eyes, realizing his error and he squeezed his eyes shut. âThatâs not what IâŠ,â His hand traced a pattern along the back of hers and he sighed. âI meant that⊠Youâve got to have a line of blokes trying to get your attention.â He leaned down, catching her eye. Leave to him to muck it up within an hour. âIâm sorry, Mare.â
Originally posted by lowselfworth
âthatâs because i know who sirius is and i know that he wouldnât be someone made for a relationship with me. i canât even think about him like that, itâs quite gross actually.â a laugh left her lips at the confession, smiling timidly at remus in hopes that she wouldnât offend him, after all, he and sirius were best friends and here she was slagging him off. âyou think i havenât tried? all us girls have tried, itâd help if he didnât have a new girl every other week.âÂ
things were different this year, mary already knew that. in which way, she was still trying to figure out. for herself, she knew it meant a bit more fear, scared to show the scars that littered her skin and completely terrified of the dark. mary would have to live in doubt and fear from now on because she was different but maybe they were too. âitâs honesty, rem.â the witch needed him to believe that. âiâm sorry. you would have been perfect together. maybe the future will work out for you if itâs what you want.â she was going to be supportive, show that she would stand by him no matter what.
âitâs what everyone means, donât deny it.â her words were still bitter, still hurt as she shot him a tight smile. it had been one year of flings, one year of trying to cope with hiding what mulicber was doing and it would forever haunt her now. no one would view her any differently. âi donât have blokes lined up to get to know me. they know the stories, like you do iâm sure, thatâs what theyâre interested in. they want what i no longer give.â honesty rang around them, deep brown eyes filled with truth that she knew he couldnât not believe her. âdonât be sorry, rem.â
REMUS !
Remus wrinkled his nose with obvious distaste. Sharing a dorm with Sirius had given him enough eyefuls over the years, but the idea of him with Mary seemed to spark a stomachache. He raised and lowered one shoulder, then, thinking of her earlier interest, he turned toward her. âDo youâŠI meanâŠis SiriusâŠ?â
At her comments, he shook his head with a dry laugh. Heâd seen Meadowes wrapped around one of her housemates often enough to know that the door between them had closed. Still, he couldnât help a certain amount of boyish curiousity sneak through. âDid she?â He was positively beaminh. âI guess you both must see something Iâm missing then.â
The grin only seemed to grow hearing the Longbottom had slunk back off to the greenhouses or wherever else. Heâd managed to be polite enough to stomach the Mary chatter in their shared dorm, but something had always twisted inside at the image of the two of them together. âNo Longbottom? Whoâs next on your list then, Lovegood?â
Originally posted by couragecobain
a light laugh left her pink lips at her look, eyes bright with playfulness but her nose scrunched at his question. her and sirius sounded terrible together, the boy reminded her too much of a brother. of nothing more than someone she could playfully flirt with and nothing more would ever come of it. âno, sirius is nothing of interest to me, at least, not like that. i think marlene has a thing for him, iâm scoping it out for her.â that was true, there was a feel that her roommate fancied the other gryffindor.Â
the dry laugh he gave had her pouting, unimpressed with the response. there was no way for him to feel like that, not with the amount of girls mary had to listen to talk about him in ways sheâd much rather never hear of. âyes, she did.â his smile did nothing to reassure her that something could spark between them, thinking that maybe he did want something with dorcas, something more than he wanted with mary anyhow. âi just see you how you are. you shouldnât hide you know.â
his ever growing grin confused the brunette, her head tilting as she watched him with wondering eyes. her mind couldnât quite grasp what he was thinking this time. his curiosity about frank confused her greatly but sheâd answer his questions but the smile slipped off her face and a mask of defensive appeared at the question, at what she felt was an accusation. âno, there wonât be anyone else. i donât have a list, remus. i can barely hold myself together, no point trying to keep a relationship when people have such standards of me anyway.â her words were bitter, upset thatâs how he viewed her.
REMUS !
âIf you called him a sweetheart, heâd crawl right into your lap,â Remus shook his head fondly, thinking of an after Quidditch party where his mate had done just that. Sirius had the frustrating and uncanny ability to turn everything into an opportunity.
âIt was⊠Something,â He murmured. Most of that night had been spent wondering how heâd ended up in a room full of pure bloods. They had kissed, Remusâ real first, and continued on in abandoned classrooms, behind tapestries, and in the astronomy towerâŠlong enough for him to get cold feet and push the Ravenclaw away. âItâs nice of you to say that. I suspect James has been filling your head with all sorts of b-s.â
It pained him to hear Mary defend her actionsâto defend taking abuse from Mulciber. Especially when heâd so recently shared the hospital wing with two first years that the Slytherin had been toying with. The werewolf kept his mouth shut and whispered something to a nearby house elf, who flushed to the tips of her giant ears. Scurrying off, she returned with a bottle of butterbeer, which Remus took happily, sliding a chocolate into the elfâs small hand. âWhat about you?â He said, taking a sip. He spoke too quickly, trying and failing to cover his interest. âStill with Longbottom?â
Originally posted by andrewgarfieldsource
âthen iâll have to call him a sweetheart just to see that.â mary would love to see sirius do such a thing. it always amused her when he was silly. âhowever, i ight have to push him off if heâs too heavy.â it was a joke, the sort of jokes she done around sirius himself and she hoped remus would realise that it was her being playful, not meaning it.Â
swallowing at his words, she nodded her head. âdorcas spoke about it for a while. you should ask her on another date, iâm sure sheâd happily say yes to you.â dark brown eyes looked at him softly, hoping to hear him say that he wouldnât do such a thing, that he didnât want to go on another date with the ravenclaw. âno, actually. itâs me that fills his head with that. iâm the one who believes that.â she certainly did see him that way.Â
her actions were ones that the gryffindor would stand by, would say made her a better person, kinder. there was nothing like taking pain for other people and she was always going to take the pain to stop others having to. especially when it came to young children, she could never stand the idea of children being hurt. watching as remus got a butterbear from the elf, the petite girl just laughed lightly, a smile on her lips that was filled with love. he was something that she had been enamoured by her entire life. his question stumped her, eyebrows pulling together in confusion. âlongbottom? no, longbottom and i were never a thing. we kissed a couple of times but thatâs as far as it went. longbottom is sweet and a flirt but i want a bit more than a good flirt with a boy.â
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REMUS !
It really did bother him, when their classmates assumed anything about his mates. Assumed they were exclusively pranksters or troublemakers. Especially considering how many of their stunts were to cover his lycanthropy. âHeâd love it if you forgot that about him. I think he loves the image.â
Remus let out a quiet chuckle, grinning around a biscuit he snagged from a plate nearby. âYou remember when Meadowes brought me to one of Sluggyâs parties?â He asked, raising a brow. âI think that was my first and only date.â
At her response, Remus shook his head almost skeptically. It sounded as though Mary pitied the Slytherin. Her affection sickened him. âI canât talk about this anymore.â
Originally posted by mrsgarfieldxo
she never wanted to cause any bother for the boys, never wanted to upset them by judging them, by forgetting that it was all a front. people always put on fronts and they were no different. mary knew they were more than people saw but sometimes, the small brunette could be just as blind as everyone else. âiâll him keep the image but iâll never forget, i might use it as leverage one day.â that was a joke, her voice letting remus know.Â
the witch wasnât eating much, she didnât have much of a stomach for food these days. âi remember. didnât you enjoy it? i mean, surely you must have had some interest to go in the first place.â her voice was filled with curiosity, dark brown eyes looking at him kindly. âyou should date more. any girl in this school would be more than lucky to have such an honour, trust me.âÂ
ârem, thatâs not what i meant.â her words rushed out quickly, hoping to make him understand. âfighting him makes things worse and right now, if his attention is on me, he wonât hurt anyone else. i cannot stomach the idea of him starting to go after younger students, the little first years who cannot control what their blood is or their parents. iâd rather take it for all them, i want them to enjoy being here, to be experiencing a world of magic that muggleborns never knew existed. i wonât let that be taken from them. if heâs attacking me, they might just be safe.âÂ
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REMUS !
Remus shrugged. Everyone in the castle seemed to have some perception of each of the Marauders. Even himâwhat was he? The quiet, shy one? The one who couldnât seem to wrangle his friends in, despite the prefect badge on his chest. âHe cares more than he lets on.â
Her voice drew him back, his gaze lingering on the Puffs nearby. His light eyes fell on Maryâs lips and any words heâd had before seemed to lose all meaning. Then, as if realizing how close heâd allowed himself to be, he drew back, shaking his head. âI guess youâre right about me.â He murmured.
âI canâtâŠalways be there, you know? Remus cautioned, steadying his gaze. "Didnât you tell me once you wanted to be an Auror?â
Originally posted by haidaspicciare
sometimes, mary let herself forget who each boy was, who james had told them who they were. not that she needed it for remus but still, sometimes she forgot that she knew them. after all, facades were quite the thing these days, especially for quite a few of the gryffindor hose. âi always forget that about him.â the witch confessed, the apology in her voice.Â
the brunette couldnât wait for an answer, she wanted one so desperately, to see inside remusâ head more than she normally could. a hand moved the curls behind her ear, bright doe eyes staring with intensity. mary wanted an answer, needed an answer to her question. âam i? you should know if i am. are you hiding how much of a ladyâs man you actually are?â her smile was wide, playful as she looked at him.Â
âremus, you donât always have to be there. you donât have to be there at all if you donât want to.â she didnât want him feeling obligated, didnât want to put any responsibility on him. âonce but then i realised that sometimes, people donât have any choice in their actions or what they get to be, who they get to be. i wonât hurt people who donât have a choice.â