I'm different now from the daughter you raised, I promised myself I'd never be that way again. I learnt from you exactly what not to do, I was brain washed from my childhood. five years away from you I didn't realise that it did me good, I can't forget all the things you did all the things you said that father daughter love we had that shits dead, you were supposed have my back the only one I'd trust. it really cut me up after all the drugs fucked me up you said it was okay to be this way you said look at me I live care free. but all The pipes and needles the pills and the grog man they fucked you John that I don't think you understand, I thought you were a good dad the best you could be I always looked up to you but now I'm grown up and I know the truth. Your nothin but a dog an abussive fiend but i guess that's how you always were even as a teen. I want my kids to know that I changed for them i won't let what happened to me effect them. I really loved you dad but deep down I knew you never loved me it's such a fucking shame that the drugs have got you hooked you really did take a page from your fucking mothers book.
