MtF Confessions.

User-submitted confessions relating to the life of transgender women. WARNING: This tumblr and all of it's posts can be triggering. Please read at your own risk.

[mtfconfessions]

10806) I'd love to meet and become friends with a trans but unfortunately I live in a small town and as far as I know there's no trans anywhere near here. I wish I was in a bigger area.

[mtfconfessions]

10805) To be honest, not having a sex drive anymore makes me feel a lot better and clear-headed.

[mtfconfessions]

10804) I'm finally accepting myself, I've been suffering for the past 5 years with the question "Who am i?" i couldn't sleep and most of the time i couldn't eat.

and a week ago i finally just said to myself "Be who you feel", I plan on HRT in a year.

[mtfconfessions]

CHRISTMAS IS THIS SUNDAYYYYYYYYYYYY

I have decided that this year I would just like Gamestop gift cards.

You can buy them here!

If you need my email address to send it to, shoot me an ask or a message on my personal :)

[mtfconfessions]

10803) When I see very non-passing trans girls it kind of makes me feel bad because it reminds me that I'm still incredibly masculine and might never pass.

I know it's shitty and horrible to say and all of you are amazing, I just really need to get this off my chest.

[mtfconfessions]

10802) Back when I was a "femboy" I had a boyfriend who fetishized my femininity.

He got off on forcing me to wear dresses and generally putting me into a subservient role. He was a creep/abuser in general and that relationship messed with my ability to relate to my gender. For a while I thought I had fooled myself into thinking I was a trans woman due to how he treated me. Now I've accepted being trans but oddly enough wearing dresses, heels, etc. is almost triggering for me and it makes no sense.

[mtfconfessions]

10801) My dogs keep me from killing myself every day.

Every day, for some time now, I am being crushed by an overwhelming and very painful sadness and my desire to die comes more clearly into focus and ever larger in my view such that I am less able to see anything else. I am at the point of despair. But I will not abandon my doggies.

[mtfconfessions]

10800) i'm scared to come out because my bf is a gay man and i'm afraid he'll leave me.

[mtfconfessions]

10799) I'm aroace but for the longest time I thought I must be a straight dude because I could not keep my eye off cis girls.

Turns out I wasn't attracted to their bodies at all but rather jealous!

[mtfconfessions]

10798) I haven't got a clue if I'm Trans or if dressing feminine is just a comfort thing for me at home...

It's awful, I wake up feeling feminine some days. Others I don't. I don't know how to figure it out :( Feel like I'm in hell not knowing... :(

[mtfconfessions]

10797) I'm supposed to be happy about it, but it feels like I transitioned *too* fast.

In June I went as a guy and in September I was (almost) stealth in my new school. I like to be seen as a girl but I didn't have enough time to get used to it before the real thing happened.

[mtfconfessions]

10796) I'm addicted to sissy culture and men's validation because I'm that desperate to feel feminine. It doesn't actually help.

[mtfconfessions]

Hiya! I've recently created a trans positive blog, to promote and write nsfw (smut)fanfics and original fictions featuring transgender characters, written by trans people (two mods so far). The blog (trans-positive-nsfwfics) works with followers submitting request for pairings/context, and we write. However, no one has asked for anything yet (lol). So would you mind doing a little promo for us please? Thanks! Please come by and request fics if you wanna <3

[mtfconfessions]

10795) I thought I was a straight guy for nearly 2 decades but I never related to other cishet guys.

I really liked media with f/f pairings- I'd be drawn towards them and my heart would flutter whenever I saw two girls kiss. Other guys would get boners over lesbian porn but I always found it awkward and fake and I couldn't see the appeal. I'm just now making some connections with my gender identity but I feel like it's a waste of time because I'll never be a "real" lesbian, just an ally at most.

[mtfconfessions]

10794) I like who I am as a guy, but I feel no connection towards him.

[mtfconfessions]

10793) My first exploration of my gender identity wasn't typical.

I dated guys (and the rare girl) with gender transformation fetishes. It wasn't sexually gratifying to me but I didn't realize it at the time. I just thought this overly restrictive, fetishized way of being a girl was the closest I could get. My partner calling me she/her and by a girl name in a degrading way was the only way anyone would refer to me that way. I wish I knew differently but I can't take it back.

[mtfconfessions]

10792) I thought I had "reclaimed" words like tranny and shemale.

But really I think the truth is that I think so lowly of myself that it's easier to think of myself in terms of slurs than words that reflect any degree of humanity.