i’d love to see natalie scatorccio x fem reader and they’re fwb but have feelings for each other !!! (dunno if you wanted something more specific 💔)
∘₊✧ ────── notes. tysm for ur req!! i'm still kinda getting back into writing so i thought it would be best for me to write some headcanons instead of a full fic. and honestly this is a test run for my theme and format. i'm not there yet... also this ended up a little angstier than i thought, sorry!
cw. mentions of: sex (not explicit), drug use. dealer!nat. slightly toxic nat & reader. kinda angsty?
∘₊✧ nat's definitely had fwb before (especially her junior year in hs) but never one like you. there's just something different to her and she can't yet put her finger on it.
∘₊✧ the first thing would be the way you two hang out even outside of hookups. you're at the mall? nat's carrying your bags. she's dealing outside the school parking lot again? you're waiting in her car.
∘₊✧ people think you're dating but you're both quick to correct them. you're just friends! that sleep together. and share cigarettes. and stare longingly at each other.
∘₊✧ speaking of staring longingly at each other, nat's a D1 yearner. she curses herself for it since it only makes everything worse but she can't help it. when you fall asleep in her bed, all she can do is admire you. not in a creepy way! she just misses you and hates thinking about anything outside of the present. she doesn't want to think about how your perfume will fade from her pillows in a week.
∘₊✧ nat's unreasonably softer around you but only in private. it gives you whiplash. one moment, she's laughing and making you dinner in her trailer, and the other she's pushing past you in school.
∘₊✧ ^ similar to this, she uses pet names like she forgot your name (although she never would, she etched it into her bed frame secretly).
"baby, will you hand me my lighter?"
"you're gonna kill me one of these days, sweetheart."
"can't you stay the night, hon?"
∘₊✧ she absolutely hates when she sees you at parties with other people. yeah, she brought a different girl too but that doesn't mean you can!
∘₊✧ nat ignores you for days after that, scoffing when you try to apologize or defend yourself. when you ask why she's so upset? dead silence. because how is she supposed to answer that? she can't confess. you deserve so much better. and maybe pushing you away is enough for you to see that.
∘₊✧ this pisses you off to no end. you suspect nat's feelings for you aren't as casual as she tries to play it off. so you decide to ignore her instead and find a baseball jock to use to your advantage.
∘₊✧ nat's finishing up practice? you're giggling and walking home with him. and when she tries to call you, you let it ring. you're not doing anything with him but nat doesn't need to know that.
∘₊✧ and nat feels terrible. god, why couldn't she have just told you what she was feeling? then maybe you wouldn't be seeing some asshole that was still in middle school-level math as a senior. she goes from ignoring you to trying to talk to you at every chance.
∘₊✧ she's calling you every night, leaving voicemails. some are angry rants where she curses out that stupid boy, some are just half-asleep mumbles about how she misses you. you never answer but fuck, you want to...
∘₊✧ after a while of this hot-and-cold game you're both playing, she finally manages to stop you in the parking lot. she's leaning on her car door, you're about to walk past when she grabs your waist and tugs you closer.
"you're ignoring me." her voice is quiet, as if she doesn't want others to hear. but she clings harder.
"you've given me lots of reasons to." you hum, pretending you're not melting into her hands. it hurts you to think that she's only pulling you over in the hopes of getting you in the backseat.
∘₊✧ she finally breaks a little that day. not fully, but enough for you to stop seeing that guy. she tells you she misses you and kisses you like she means it. like she's missed more than your body. you're unsure if that's the truth but either way, you're willing to believe it.
∘₊✧ it's a torturous circle with no clear end in sight. she pisses you off, you ignore her, she begs for you back, you run back with no hesitation. you both know it's bad. but each time she begs? she's admitting a little more. she missed you. she likes having you around. she wants to keep seeing you. she wants to go out with you on a real date. she loves you.
∘₊✧ but the longer you two are "together", the more comfortable she feels. maybe you aren't going anywhere? maybe she actually does have a chance.