single-log bridge till it's dark

hi, i'm mults! she/her. fandom old. * word of honor. wenzhou. (& lld.) * old fandoms never say die: fma (‘03). glee. good omens. great comet. hamilton. hng. hockey. hp. mcr. merlin. nif. omgcp (j/p). sherlock. the eagle. the untamed. vorkosigan. yoi * and other stuff i love ...

[multsicorn]

there is nothing to reignite my feelings for a year-plus old fandom like going through my own old tumblr tag...

caveat: this only works if the fandom is actually old, which is to say, if it is something i haven't had feelings about in quite a while. if it's something that i'm still kinda in, or was in recently, then the feelings have likely worn thin. but if i give it a while to recover... that well will fill back up. cause they're dug deep.

[multsicorn]

somebody just said to me

"disco elysium is, above all things, a game about failure. failure and how we find ways to keep going despite it."

and i just YESSSS that's the thing.

i mean, it's funny, to try and fail the check to grab your tie so you can get dressed. to die from sitting in an uncomfortable chair or falling down as you try to skip out of paying your hotel bill with the money you don't have.

but it's also so fucking *real*, because real life is a challenge. mundane ordinary not-solving-murder-mysteries life. i fail my volition checks... all the time, lol.

'life gets haaard... but we go oooon...'

and the quote that bodies me most in the game is 'human will failed to get out of bed and tie its laces.' but it doesn't have to be tragic, and it doesn't have to be pathetic, (i don't know, what's the difference, maybe it's both?), but, has anyone in it not failed? neither the detectives nor the union nor the company negotiator can avoid a confrontation that no one wants; the commercial district is doomed and the fishing village is nearly deserted. everyone, absolutely everyone, is living in the ruins of a war that happened forty-plus years ago and was never quite rebuilt from.

but there's beauty and the unexpected, dancing and giant insects and YES, but there's also, even outside of that, life. just, i don't know. we can't stop except by dying, (and our protagonist*? Lol) has just failed to die when the game starts, but we haven't given up, either. what the hell good would that do for us.

life gets hard, but we go on.

[kruzidula]

and then they had a big dance party at the end THE END :)

[d-muura-md]

Below, the city trembles with its remaining lights. People are rushing home, running away from home, smoking, sleeping, singing in the shower. Edges of dining tables, hands, aprons flicker through windows before the lights go out.

[soaveintermezzo]

[multsicorn]

wrote fucktion instead of function in my how-do-i-make-this-software-go talking to myself pain right now and god it is such a mood

[multsicorn]

finally unlocked the communism book club in disco elysium after missing it on my first playthrough cause i got it double-scheduled with my encounter with THE PIGS

and when they got to the bit about increasing turnip yields with greater revolutionary fervor

(look i know it's a reference to lysenkoism but)

revolutionary fervor? or resentful energy? how about both?? *face looking out from over fingers pointed at each other* *that turn into finger guns bc lol ofc they do*

[multsicorn]

i aten't dead, but i'm still hiding in my coffin home...

under the mountain... which is to say, on locked on twitter, and in private, on discord. for the forseeable future....

although i feel now more than ever, that i can't forsee how my life in fandom will go, ever, from one day to the next. i might not be back here for months - but truly, one never knows....

[multsicorn]

… i think i’m gonna need to try to take a step back from tumblr (and twitter) for a week or two, at least

(not that any of you could *tell,* from how active i am rn, but, yeah)

[ahxuholics]

Since you know about Scorpion, you must also know that no one can stop the Scorpion King from killing whoever and getting whatever he wants.

[zhouszishu]

Is it so small a thing To have enjoyed the sun, To have lived lightly in the spring, To have loved, to have thought, to have done?

– james longenbach

[multsicorn]

your job is to plant yourself like a tree besides the river of truth, and tell the whole world–

–No, you move.

[multsicorn]

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[xieliancore]

y si mañana nos encuentran enredados, que nos dejen descasar del mundo.

[jatersade]

Just looked at my history page on ao3 and I have 588 pages of history lmao

[jatersade]

alright ladies theydies and gents let’s play a game called reblog this with the number of pages your ao3 history has in the tags so i know whether I need 2 seek help:-)

[blackestglass]

999….. (don’t look at me)

[thedreadvampy]

there are two key questions to gauge what sort of Weird Girl someone was as a preteen.

a) horses, dolphins or dragons?

b) Vikings, Ancient Egyptians or dinosaurs?

tell me in the tags please. if you were allowed to pick your own room decor between 7 and 13 the answer to A should be self evident bc every Weird Girl I knew who was allowed to pick had one of those three themes.

[thedreadvampy]

Based on your answers I am adjusting the Weird Girl Classification System

a) horses, dolphins, or wolves

b) dragons, pirates, or dinosaurs

c) Norse, Ancient Greek, or Ancient Egyptian

to correctly answer this quiz you should be choosing ONE from EACH section. yes we all liked horses AND dolphins AND wolves but you were either a horse girl, a dolphin girl or a wolf girl. look deep in your heart and you will find your answer. or look at the walls of your childhood bedroom.

(also you don't have to be a girl NOW, or ever have been a girl, to be a Weird Girl)

[zhouszishu]

– The leader of Tian Chuang. I am above hundreds and thousands of men and only below one. Yet I live like this, boastful of this power but I can’t even save a single person I want to protect.

ZHANG ZHEHAN as ZHOU ZISHU

WORD OF HONOR 山河令 (2021): EPISODE 01