No one's innocent in crime town

Ruth (aka Red), 33, she/her, Scotland. Everything fine to reblog unless otherwise stated. I don't reliably tag triggers or spoilers because I forget, so if that's an issue for you, be careful/avoid. Bi, cis, VERY white, sorta disabled, polyamorous, illustrator (art @ongoingart), Quaker, lifelong dork. My first word was 'Zaphod'. According to my dear friend Kofi, "a notable wit and raconteur." Probably NOT an octopus, several cats and a large snake in a human suit, but it's best not to check.

[thedreadvampy]

the gp surgery says no dice on letting me stay even though I'm technically out of their boundary, which is fair enough I guess but feels very personal and mean for 2 reasons:

1) I have discovered that the practise boundary line Literally Touches My House and if I lived over the road there would be 0 issue

2) having just got done having tonsillitis I'm now like 10 days into a really miserable chesty cough situation that I'm starting to think 'oh should I see a doctor about this'. I went to the GP to beg for clemency literally On My Way Home Because My Boss Told Me To Go Off Sick.

and I'm like man it's been 2+ years since I moved (I have been lying for that while time, it's a fair cop) and I'm avoidant about going to the doctor, so most of that has been 4-10 month chunks in there where they don't hear from me at all. why did they have to find it out in my Four Weeks And Counting run of stacked infections???? why can we not all agree to pretend I live 6ft further north-west than I do???? WHY. MEAN TO ME. MY CHEST HURTS SO BAD AND THE NHS IS MEAN TO ME. 🫠

[hyenaswine]

i think people are starting to confuse class analysis with bioessentialism. like... no not all men do this, but Men as a constructed social class do do this. that's still okay to say. that is regular material analysis of the world around us.

[hyenaswine]

this is true, but it is not bioessentialist. both cis & trans men WILL see a mouse & eat it. this is because it is in their best interest to eat mice. they benefit from eating mice. this is essential to their class position, not their biological makeup.

[altonin-deactivated20180325]

if you want to actually start to end homelessness, you need to give homeless people unconditional homes, including when we use them to do drugs or sit around drinking. either housing is unconditional or it isn’t

someone sitting at home alone, an active alcoholic, squandering your charity, drinking all day is better situation than a street homeless alcoholic. someone using drugs in your charity house is better than them doing the same w no shelter

most of you would not like most street homeless people, I definitely don’t and didn’t when I was street homeless. for every one person who uses unconditional shelter to turn themselves around, someone else will do jack shit and very slowly, if ever, work through the issues that made them homeless, will maybe never be able to live independently. still better than street homelessness, still worth doing. ultimately either you believe that shelter should be universal or you don’t

homeless people actually can’t be rehabilitated if you want to end homelessness. we either affirm the right to shelter for the worst drunken, lying, filthy, cheating, self destructive homeless people that exist, genuinely irredeemable wankers, or we concede that shelter is not a right

[funereal-disease]

This post is the distilled essence of everything I believe in.

[identitty-dickruption]

when you look at a psychiatric diagnosis and you see that it has a 3:1 diagnostic rate of women to men, it's more likely to be diagnosed in trans people than cisgender people, and it's most prevalent in hispanic people out of any ethnic group. you really do have to consider who benefits from a label that amounts to "Biologically and Pathologically Hysterical". yknow.

[identitty-dickruption]

it’s not a “stigmatised” disorder. it’s a disorder that was designed to stigmatise, to shame, and to oppress. acting as though the diagnosis is a stigmatised one is missing the part where this diagnosis is in fact meeting the exact purpose it was designed to fulfil

[beyond-a-name]

OP's tags from both the original post and the reblog were too good to hide.

that's really exactly it.

as someone who could very easily qualify for a diagnosis of bpd or cptsd, and even very often resonates with both, everything described in bpd is just a demonization of the same patterns of behaviour described by cptsd. it is just describing you as evil for struggling with being hurt so much, and in doing so, takes the focus away from the person hurting and puts it onto how it inconveniences everyone else.

we really need to be critical of how these labels come to be, because they are deliberately created, and they are created by people with biases. they are so often just a tool of oppression, another extension of a discriminatory machine.

I hope it isn't derailing, but I think this is also really illustrated with Narcissistic Personality Disorder. "narcissist" was a word for an asshole before it was a word for a disorder. rather than describing how someone might struggle to relate to others or be open to true connection, and centering the person who needs to heal, they instead called everyone who struggles with that an irredeemable dick and dressed it up in medical expertise so you wouldn't think to question it. frankly I think it's silly to call for treating "narcissist" like some sacred medical term instead of looking at how fucked up it is that they called a disorder that???

it was ages ago, but there was a post on here talking about just how many "disorders" and diagnoses boil down to "shitty bitch disease". and well, once you see it, you never stop seeing it. anti-social personality disorder? shitty bitch disease. npd, shitty bitch disease. obstinate defiance disorder (come the fuck on) well that's shitty bitch disease. bpd is maybe the most classic example of this. you don't need to listen to her, she has shitty bitch disease. pay no mind to the fact that this label somehow only makes it onto the most marginalized. don't worry about that, because you don't need to listen to those people anyway. they don't have reasons or pain or bad days or feelings or any of that pesky stuff that real people have to explain their actions. no no, we haven't abused them, not at all. haven't you heard? they were broken from the start, and I can prove it. see? they have shitty bitch disease.

[weirdly-specific-but-ok]

yes, India made legal gender change impossible but the doctor down the street who gives me my T shots in a clinic so small that it's just two rooms was excited for me when she said my voice had dropped yes, India made legal gender change impossible but the receptionist who could see that I was a man didn't bat an eyelash when I asked to see the gynecologist and called me sir when he asked how I wanted to pay yes, India made legal gender change impossible but the barber cuts my hair exactly how I want it and never gave me strange looks for being in a men's salon not even back when I didn't pass as one

yes, India made legal gender change impossible but my friends have always gendered me correctly and stick to it even when it confuses other people and my friend's little sibling calls me older brother in Kannada yes, India made legal gender change impossible but my dog learned my new name quicker than the humans and she runs to give me a kiss when she's told to without being confused about who's being referred to

yes, India made legal gender change impossible but I can feel the Adam's apple growing in my throat and my muscles getting stronger, and my smile more real and I'm growing a beard, and I talk more freely

yes, India made legal gender change impossible but I'm here, and I'm alive, and so are you and there are good people, people who care and don't let them make you forget that-- you are not alone.

[thedreadvampy]

trying to decide if I'm well enough to go to meeting and I think the answer is probably not. I am not coughing so much but I feel really headachey and dizzy and congested and I think I need to lie down lots

[thedreadvampy]

I ' M S O B O R E D O F B E I N G I L L

[bookoffixedstars]

Extract from The Art of Coarse Acting (1964) by Michael Green.

source

[mangled-by-disuse]

there are currently 650 people in parliament earning a bare minimum of £98,000 per year at a time when 13 million of their constituents are below the poverty line.

personally I think MP's salaries should all be pegged to the median national wage. give them an active incentive to improve the economy for the working class and not just raise GDP. but as we all know it's fucking impossible to get an MP salary cut through parliament on account of a majority of the people getting a pay cut would have to vote for it.

so what I think should happen is that there should be a voluntary salary sacrifice scheme where MPs can sign up to be paid a set percentage of the median full-time salary. Say we set the base rate at 150% - this would still be a very generous salary! right now it would be around £60,000pa, which is twice as much as I've ever earned in my life!

the excess salary would be returned to the Treasury for general use.

importantly, signing up to this scheme would also mean your name was publicly available as a person who did that, which would mean that come elections, constituents could make an informed decision about who is in the job to make a difference and improve the country, and who's there for a nice fat paycheque.

I have no idea whether anyone would actually take up this scheme, or whether it would change how people vote. But it would be interesting to find out, right?

[thedreadvampy]

Finding it weirdly orientating that there's these enormous yellow turbine rigs being built at Leith docks rn that tower over all surrounding buildings

because in all the 10+ years I've lived in Edinburgh I've always had a very. street level sense of direction. I know what streets join onto which but couldn't tell you what geographic direction they're going.

but now anywhere in Leith or North Edinburgh you can glance up and be like OH. OK. PORT OF LEITH IS OVER THERE. joining the dots on my mental map of the city to an insane degree.

[thedreadvampy]

hey look there's Leith

[thedreadvampy]

Finding it weirdly orientating that there's these enormous yellow turbine rigs being built at Leith docks rn that tower over all surrounding buildings

because in all the 10+ years I've lived in Edinburgh I've always had a very. street level sense of direction. I know what streets join onto which but couldn't tell you what geographic direction they're going.

but now anywhere in Leith or North Edinburgh you can glance up and be like OH. OK. PORT OF LEITH IS OVER THERE. joining the dots on my mental map of the city to an insane degree.

[anonymusbosch]

People often react to the phrase "carbon footprint" with something about how it's coined by the fossil fuel industry to direct blame from producers to consumers, but I think there's still something extremely valuable about looking at emissions per capita -

graph one: total CO2 emissions, NOT per capita, by region. By 2020, China, the US, the EU, India, and Russia are the largest players, with the entire rest of the world barely surpassing China's emissions.

Graph two: The same regions but weighted per capita.

The US is unique in being extremely emissions-intense per capita while also being large and wealthy. This graph doesn't count emissions generated in China to produce goods shipped to America - it counts those under China's emissions.

[anonymusbosch]

It's really hard, I think, for people in the US to have perspective on how wealthy they are on a global scale. Of course no one feels wealthy if they're struggling to make rent or commuting an hour and a half to afford housing - but on a global scale, when over 700 million people live on less than $2 per day, the median American is one of the richest people on the planet.

If you look at the median individual across the OECD, take out their taxes, and adjust for cost of living by using purchasing power parity to the US dollar, the US median individual has $46,000 of disposable income a year. Only Luxembourg surpasses that (within the OECD)! Germany is at around $33k, the UK at around $25k, Japan around $21k, Mexico around $6k, and the two most populous countries in the world come in with China at $4.5k and India at $2.5k!

(I do need to note that this is disposable income and doesn't account for the value of services provided with tax money, so countries with a stronger investment in public infrastructure look worse here relative to the US than their inhabitants experience.)

I need to emphasize that while purchasing power parity isn't a perfect measure, its goal is to allow comparison of how much someone can afford given both cost of living and currency conversion rates.

Someone making federal minimum wage in the US is still able to afford more than twice as much (depending on location within the US) as the median person in Mexico and six times as much as the median person in India. The median person in the US has more than 20 times as much disposable income as the median person in India! When it comes to global warming and the disproportionate impact of the rich on the poor, the issue needs to be viewed in global perspective

[thedreadvampy]

trying to decide if I'm well enough to go to meeting and I think the answer is probably not. I am not coughing so much but I feel really headachey and dizzy and congested and I think I need to lie down lots

[ververejdu]

Finished Tawny Man recently and it absolutely obliterated my brain and i truly can’t stop thinking about it so i draw my visions of doom and despair

[whatcha-thinkin]

The bar is closing and you and your drunk friends are hungry! In your opinion what's the best drunk food?

tacos

pancakes

hot dogs

chicken wings

burgers

pizza

nachos

Philly cheesesteak

ramen

peanut butter & jelly

dude see if there's a [tag] nearby

I would never bring this garbage into the temple that is my body

Remaining time: 1 day 21 hours

[knifefightscene]

Anyone can be discarded by society

[knifefightscene]

People get made fun of for being scared of aging but it comes from the very real fear of being discarded by society that’s why i always say the goal is not to never become old or disabled the future comes for us all the goal is better social policy

[thedreadvampy]

I am not kidding I am in So Much Fucking Pain from this cough my chest is burning I feel dizzy cause I keep coughing too much to get air in. this sucks I hate being ill and the chesty cough syrup I got to try to help has no discernable effect. hate this hate this hate this

[thedreadvampy]

I Hate This Fucking Groupchat IYKYK

[thedreadvampy]

CHRIST