Mummy Gallen

Mother to 3, wife to 1. I'm just normal.

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Mental health

How depression manifest in me.

It’s as sudden as the weather, one day I’m loving life and the next day I feel nothing. That’s the main feeling with depression, it’s not always sadness it’s mainly nothing.

But while I feel nothing I can still function quite normally and still put on a happy show when I need to. This can last for days but then my next symptom is physical exhaustion and I could literally go to bed and sleep until it’s gone. It my life doesn’t allow me this freedom and so I begin surviving ..... doing the minimum and even that feels like wading through treacle.

Here’s the thing, they tell you to talk to friends and family but nobody wants to hear this. As a sufferer myself I don’t even wanna hear it, it’s so depressing! I mean if it happened once it would be fine but because it reoccurs multiple times it’s boring repeating yourself - for talker and listener, so for me I like to keep to myself and ride it out, but this is lonely and being lonely makes you sad. It’s like wanting to be with people but at the same time wanting to be on your own. You literally can’t settle, nothing is right, everything is a ball ache and people are morons.

My list:

The mess and untidiness is everywhere, I can’t get a handle on it. I’m being a lazy housewife.

None of my children are getting enough attention and nurture, how terrible am I that I don’t wanna spend time with them?

My husband may as well be living somewhere else for all the care I’m showing him, why would he stay with me?

I haven’t asked any of my friends how they’re doing, what a selfish bitch I am.

Life is overwhelming, I can’t cope.

And this is what convinces me that perhaps everyone would be better off without me. I’m bringing everyone down. Holding them back. Ruining there lives.

So when I hear someone has committed suicide I understand , I get why but I also see the effects and destruction it has on so many people and so I must have hope.

Hope that this will pass without too much time and the dark cloud will lift.

It’s normal, it’s fine, you’re worth loving, you are loved.

#SportRelief #mentalhealth #MentalHealthAwareness #depression

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Thank you teacher

To Mrs Dimes My family think you're awesome and I'm sure we are not alone. We have had the pleasure of having you twice and both times you made us all feel at ease with this huge step our small children take in their early years. You always remember that it's not only the children having to deal with this process and some parents need a bit of support too and I for one can tell you how much I appreciated that. We would like to take this opportunity to thank you and wish you all the best with your future career and where ever you go you will light it up.

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The most wonderful time of the year.

Tis the season for reflection on the time that has gone by this year and to appreciate what you have. There have been so many people involved in my time this year, some near and some far. Some publicly and some privately. Some have physically been there for me and some have given me their precious time. Some have shown interest in my life and children and laughed with me while I share our everyday goings on. It's been an emotional year for me and I have learnt a lot about myself. I'm an attention seeking show off, but I'm also very sensitive and take my relationships and responsibilities very seriously. I have a ruthlessness to cut out negativity that keeps my moral integrity and I try not to be a hypocrite. I've learnt that some relationships change but that doesn't take away what it was and people can grow apart. It's crucial not to be jealous of things you wouldn't want anyway, so many time we see a table or room full of people, apparently having the best time ever and you're not there, but you have to ask yourself... Would you really wanna be there? More often than not the answer is no. I'm a little bit common and a little bit masculine and a tiny bit tacky and that's ok.  If you're trying your best it's important not to judge yourself cos there are loads of people ready to do that for you. If you're a bottle of beer how can you be compared to a whiskey and coke or a glass of wine, it's all alcohol but different kinds as we are humans. If I could give myself one piece of advise it would be to check yourself before you wreak yourself. Breathe and believe. Breathe through it, believe you can do it.  Merry Christmas and a happy 2016. MummyGallen

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I just had to tell you.

Something amazing happened today. It happened to me once before and I didn't realise how amazing it was at the time until it happened again today. You're probably gonna think I'm lying but I promise it actually happened to me and one day I hope it happens for you. I found the perfect pair of trousers. They're so perfect it got me wondering, how often does this happen?  Like, these trousers, for me, are perfect. Perfect fit and they go perfectly with my perfect shoes. Everything about them is perfect, perfect fit, perfect design, perfect length, I don't have to change a thing but now I'm worried because this did actually happen to me once before and they were also perfect. It was 1998 and I needed some work trousers and shoes. Being young and fabulous I just strolled into what ever shop I wanted and picked up what ever I liked the look of and WITHOUT trying them on I knew they'd fit well, same with my shoes. I loved them so much I would wear them every day and the inevitable happened, they started to fade from all the washing and got a hole in the knee and my beautiful shoes broke and my young fabulous self had not prepared for this. And so the search began....... until today! So what do I do now?? There's only one thing I can do....... I buy 2 of everything. At least! And we can all agree this is most definitely not crazy, ridiculous and over the top but rather logical, practical and forward thinking, if only my younger self had thought of this - the money I could have saved. While I hang my 2 identical pairs of black trousers next to my 4 other pairs of black trousers it could be argued that I already have black trousers but you see the ones I already have have at least one fault and are most definitely NOT anywhere near the same as my perfect new trousers.  So while I ride the buzz of having perfect trousers back in my life that go perfectly with my perfect shoes it has made me appreciate the struggle I can over come. If I can get through this I can get through anything........ #thestruggleisreal #firstworldproblems  Mummygallen

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When mummy meets the teacher

I just had a meeting with my last child’s teacher to discuss any issues or concerns and give her some information. Everybody assumes that because he’s my third that I should be old hat at this, but each of my children are completely different so each time it’s like starting over. As I waited in the reception area I was happily chatting away about the building works, playground layout and any other subject small talk will allow but as soon as I saw the friendly familiar face of Mrs Dimes coming towards me I could feel myself getting anxious and so by the time we had found our incredibly small chairs in one of the corners of the class I burst into tears. She immediately comforted me with a cuddle I desperately needed and while I was trying to compose myself I managed to stutter out the words “I think me and woody have separation issues” and with that we both started laughing. She allowed me to babble on about previous experiences and showed interest in my list of coping strategies I’d come up with to which she replied “perhaps we should see how it goes” and then proceeded to walk me through, step by step, the routine I would do in the mornings to get him into the class.

First she suggested not being too early. Second, take him into the class room and make sure you get a clear path past the ‘classroom door mum’s’ (my words, not hers) Classroom door mum’s are the mum’s who crowd the door therefore stopping anybody in or out without, it would seem, any knowledge of how inconsiderate this actually is. Third, find his peg and hang his bag/coat and then finally send him off to the carpet area to wait for the day to begin. She also advised me to be nothing but honest. Don’t haggle, don’t bribe, don’t lie.

Armed with this information I now feel completely at ease with how to handle the situation but emotionally, if I can’t keep it together at a 15 minutes meeting, which Mrs Dimes extended to 30 minutes without that awkward watch check moment, how can I possibly get through a real school day. Answer is, I just will because I have to. Just like every other moment I don’t want to do. I’m gonna have to be in and out like a special agent, undetected and unseen, not giving either of us a chance to wobble.

So if you see a flash go by you in the playground, please understand, I can’t stop and chat. Well not until I’m out of sight anyway.

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When mummy meets the teacher

I just had a meeting with my last child's teacher to discuss any issues or concerns and give her some information. Everybody assumes that because he's my third that I should be old hat at this, but each of my children are completely different so each time it's like starting over. As I waited in the reception area I was happily chatting away about the building works, playground layout and any other subject small talk will allow but as soon as I saw the friendly familiar face of Mrs Dimes coming towards me I could feel myself getting anxious and so by the time we had found our incredibly small chairs in one of the corners of the class I burst into tears. She immediately comforted me with a cuddle I desperately needed and while I was trying to compose myself I managed to stutter out the words "I think me and woody have separation issues" and with that we both started laughing. She allowed me to babble on about previous experiences and showed interest in my list of coping strategies I'd come up with to which she replied "perhaps we should see how it goes" and then proceeded to walk me through, step by step, the routine I would do in the mornings to get him into the class. First she suggested not being too early. Second, take him into the class room and make sure you get a clear path past the 'classroom door mum's' (my words, not hers) Classroom door mum's are the mum's who crowd the door therefore stopping anybody in or out without, it would seem, any knowledge of how inconsiderate this actually is. Third, find his peg and hang his bag/coat and then finally send him off to the carpet area to wait for the day to begin. She also advised me to be nothing but honest. Don't haggle, don't bribe, don't lie. Armed with this information I now feel completely at ease with how to handle the situation but emotionally, if I can't keep it together at a 15 minutes meeting, which Mrs Dimes extended to 30 minutes without that awkward watch check moment, how can I possibly get through a real school day. Answer is, I just will because I have to. Just like every other moment I don't want to do. I'm gonna have to be in and out like a special agent, undetected and unseen, not giving either of us a chance to wobble. So if you see a flash go by you in the playground, please understand, I can't stop and chat. Well not until I'm out of sight anyway. Mummygallen

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Even Olef is taking precautions #nuthouse #Christmas #olef #crashhat

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#selfie #Christmas #mr&mrs

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#christmasdinnerdone you can achieve anything you need to #mum #skills #considermytrumpetblown

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Christmas cuddly #Christmas #christmasday #family #life

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Listen up people

I know we all know this, but let me reiterate it. Life is relentless, it doesn't stop because you're tired or can't be bothered. It didn't become easier for you because you don't fancy doing life that way today, it happens! Relationships of every nature need time and effort and it it time to figure out who's worth the effort. Make it happen because it's not going to happen for you. You reap what you sow.

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Vlog 1. Christmas Eve eve. 🎄🎅🎁

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HAY! HAAAYYYY!!! This joke never gets old #dadjoke #mumjoke #sayiteverytime

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Everybody is the same but different

I've just found out about vlogging, I've spent about an hour watching a persons vlog, and this is what I've learnt; Most people are normal, they do the things we all do and have insecurities we all have and although they may have a bigger house and go to fancy awards basically they're normal. And sometimes they have nothing to say...... I reckon I could do that if I had the balls 😝 Also I've realised that the people on the telly don't really watch the telly. They're utilising their time ALL the time which is why they're on the telly and we're watching it. They don't watch box sets or soaps or friends repeats or uk gold! They're writing or making plans or networking somehow. Even the ones who use facebook or Instagram are mostly doing it for self promotion, not like normal people who use it to make other jealous of their life. From what I've seen most books are written by people that don't really watch telly either AND they are very much based on their own life or people around them. Now I know we know this and I also know that a lot of books are not, but stay with me - to be able to write a book you need some kind of life. Sitting at home all day cleaning isn't gonna be very interesting is it, so we have to go out and do stuff to put in our book. And if this book turns out to be only our own real life then it's all the better but for me I really wish I had the courage to commit time to write something. Problem is I'm just normal.... Who would be interested in normal? 'Do it for yourself' I hear you cry and I hear that, you're right, but it's all about the confidence, as gok would say, and sometimes that's not my strongest point. Anyway, who would clean the house?! Tomorrow I have to do the christmas food shop and somehow get the kids and dogs out for a walk. 'Good luck with that' you say?? I'm gonna need it 😳 MummyGallen

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Looks who's getting a sofa cuddle #jackrussell @dogsofinstagram #dog #minnie #prettydog

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Christmas can now begin!

So we've finally managed to see Santa! It's never occurred to me before to actually visit ZSL Whipsnade zoo in the winter before but when I saw they had a santas grotto I felt it was time for us to go and I booked us all in to see the good man himself. The journey was surprisingly good and the weather was sunny, dry and a little blustery but even the wind couldn't wobble our spirits as the animals seemed a little more alert than usual! We got up close and personal with many of the larger animals including the White rhino, lions, cheetahs and made perfect timing when we visited the elephants because they we're just getting ready for their walk and they went right past us we could have almost touched them, but not quite - the keepers are very careful and although seem very cool and calm you can tell they are in complete control. We made our way to the grotto, that was beautifully decorated and had real reindeer, who were grazing very closely to the fence, and all the elves and helpers were so friendly that when we actually got face to face with the big man I nearly cried at how brilliant it looked and how perfect the Santa was and he was asking lots of questions to our children and worked the room like a pro! It was truly a magical and absolutely perfect day that has started our Christmas holidays off wonderfully. Now to shut the door and only leave for wonderful family walks around the beautiful English countryside. How sweet life can be if you look in the right directions. MummyGallen