Eve

TW: 3d content and other sensitive topics Please just block don’t report 23 and somehow still here.

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~Intro Post~

I realize I should probably make one of these. My last account got terminated and after that I took a bit of a break from tumblr but I’m back now. I just want to use this as a way to vent about my 3d and whatever else is bothering me. So please if you don’t want to see any of that just block me. My dms are also open if anyone wants to talk but preferably 18+

Stats:

Height: 5’4

HW: 130 lbs

CW: 102 lbs

GW: 100 lbs

UGW: 95 lbs

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TW: SH

This wasn’t even on purpose but it felt great and I think looks kinda beautiful

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Ugh I wish alcohol didn’t have so many calories, I love getting drunk so much. Anyways at least when I lay down I can still see my rib cage.

TW: B0dii Ch3x

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Ugh I hate how this seems to be the weight I get stuck at. At least I didn’t gain as much as I thought from the past 2 weeks

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Scrolling on Tumblr instead of eating

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I’m not even that short (I’m 5’4) but I hate how low of a weight I have to get to even look remotely sick. Maybe it’s also how I hold my weight but my stomach is still pudgy and I’m technically underweight

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I’m doing a water fast today and I think I want to try and do one once or twice a week. Hopefully I can stick to it

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Last week I binged so much so now I’m trying to heavily restrict. It’s only been 2 days and I’m so delusional that I feel like I already look skinnier

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So many people see me like a fragile little girl when they find out what’s wrong with me and I don’t know if I love it or hate it. I’m 23 years old and it might be kinda pathetic to lean into that but it’s so much easier than trying to be an adult with an actual future

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I don’t feel bad about lying about my 3d. I’d never admit that to anyone who knows me but lately I can’t convince myself that I actually feel bad. I know I’m slowly killing myself and the people who care about me wouldn’t want that but I don’t think I can survive without being a little self destructive

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Before showering today I really looked at myself naked in the mirror and I feel like what I’m doing is finally working. My ribs stick out past my stomach when relaxed and if I take a deep breath I can see my full rib cage. My hip bones are even starting to show more.

I look repulsive and I love it.

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Life is so much better when you don’t have to see people saying “but you still absorb calories if you ch3w and sp1t.” Like sure I absorbed some but it’s obviously nothing close to the amount if you actually ate the food

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Emily from the devil wears Prada was on to something. I just had a piece of cheese after not eating all day and it tasted like heaven

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Sometimes I think I really did stunt and damage my growth during puberty by ⭐️ving myself so young. Like I know not every woman is going to be super curvy but I was 9 and it’s like my body proportions are almost the same as they were then. I’m just a little taller

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TW: W3igh in

Oh my god I’m so happy I dropped the pounds I gained when I binged. And this is after I ate some food

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I’ve always been awful at counting calories so I’ve switched to just having a few bites and calling it a day. I live with my parents still & have to pretend that I finish my food which I luckily can eat in my room. So I just have about a few bites of whatever it is and hope it’s little enough of calories to lose weight

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TW: Gross food imagery

Just my ch3wed and sp1t dinner that I thought was kind of disgustingly beautiful.

It’s filthy disgusting

So ugly, I’m sure

I’m ugly, disgusting

And filthy for sure