Mun of the Tainted Hearts

A place to get to know the mun and for her to rant. 21+ possibly NSFW.

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[munofthetaintedhearts]

So

I hate myself. I know I shouldn't but I do. You know what I can. That is my right. People can say what they want but it doesn't change the fact that I hate myself.

Do you know how much of a relief it is to know it is okto hate myself. It sounds bad but really if you love yourself then you dont need to change but hating yourself you want to change so you can love yourself.

[munofthetaintedhearts]

Yup

Cause it is all my fault. Why am I around... there is no reason.

Oh wait its cause I'm the emotional punching bag.

[munofthetaintedhearts]

2 part morning rant

Part 1:

So my soon-to-be-ex wonders why I'm mad let me see if you want figure it out with the following hints.

A) I get up to help get the kids ready and ask for him to make them breakfast. What's he do spends 5 mins making him coffee and stands there drinking it dictating the kids.

B) Something goes missing and pines it straight on the oldest (yes he does take things but not always. Because of that the middle likes framing him) and as I am dealing with it he goes over me. I try telling him wait it might not be him he doesn't listen.

C) Asks me for money then complains because didn't I get get money it so why can't he fill his tank up with my money. Mind you I had 120 set aside for a trip and all of it went to his gas in a week.

D) Tells me he doesn't want to fight yet two seconds later goes back to complaining saying if I got paid he doesn't see why he can't fill his tank.

Part 2:

So I got my old job back for 1: to help out around the house. 2: have a little extra spending money. 3: (the ultimate main reason) Because he demanded I go back to work because he can't pay for his stuff on his own (not his exact words but you ask anyone know knows the situation they will tell you that is why.)

Since I've gotten the job he has quite one job which he had a job in line after but then he got fired from that job because he was using social media which reflected bad on his job. During that month of him not working I had to provide for him and pay his bills. Well he ended up putting us in debt. Mind you he already had somehow spent all his part of rent and I had been putting myself in debt to cover him.

Since he has gotten his new job (he calls his dream job) that pays him 12 an hr after denying a 13 an hr job you would think this would be better. Wrong! He has put us so behind that by the time he gets paid there is no money left. Then I have to spend what I have saved to make up for what he hasn't. Like it doesn't feel as though he even gets paid at all.

Do to all this I find myself so stressed out I'm physically ill. Idk what to do. I feel like I am failing. All I want to do is be able to provide for my children but it's like I can't even do that...

[munofthetaintedhearts]

Hello

I am the mun for @mybloodyrosered .I created this to free up the blog from my rants and RL bullshit. It is also a way for those who care to know can find out how I am doing physically and mentally. I will post kinda a "where-I-am-in-life" thing later today. It will (and all future ones) will be tagged with that.

Thank you to those who are willing to follow this shit show and sorry in advance.