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[gegengestalt]

Welcome to my blog

It seems like I already have too many important posts to pin, so I had to make this post! Oh well!

My Dostoyevsky art tag is #dostoart.

I have an art tag for art that the Dostoyevsky community makes that is #dostoblr art.

Art requests and tips:

I have a Ko-fi and paypal./me to take tips for art requests.

They basically work like commissions! I have more info and my links in this post here.

Redbubble store:

My Redbubble shop is open!

I'm going to start putting illustrations (and some funny stuff) up as prints! I'm in need of a little extra money and I've been asked about

Masterpost to the fully MSPaint- illustrated The Brothers Karamazov:

THE ENTIRETY OF THE BROTHERS KARAMAZOV IN MSPAINT: Masterpost

One day in mid- July of 2022 I decided on a whim to illustrate the entirety of The Brothers Karamazov, every single chapter, using only MSPa

Other socials:

Twitter: @/gegengestalt

IG: @/gegengestalt

Bluesky: @/gegengestalt, very new, I'm reuploading my work

Ao3: gegengestalt (previously SygdommenTilDoden) I post fics every once in a while

Twitter priv: @/g3g3ng3stalt only for mutuals that I really vibe with

Twitter alt: @/onionlover1866, +18 side account.

I also post NSFW in an alternative Tumblr blog. Ask me for the url via DMs or off- anon. Please, only do so if you're an adult and do not publicize the url.

[literallyreallifeborat]

Hell is a teenage chud.

#chud blogging #diary of a chud #chudhood #chud interrupted #this is a chudblog #lana del chud #thus is what makes us chuds

[gegengestalt]

Ivan and Katya are alike in that sense, I just can't picture them being happy and satisfied ever in their lives

[russian-blob]

One of my favourite less-popular (maybe?) TBK characters is Katerina Ivanovna. Not only because of the ship (tho in some way it is because of the ship), but also because she's deeply flawed, but after all her heart is set out for good, and somehow I really relate to her (which I suppose says a lot on my part).

She wants so badly to be 'good' and to do the morally 'right' thing (i.e. sticking with Mitya) and yet always seems to mess up. She has normal intentions but carry them out very misguidedly (the scene with Grushenka). At the same time she can also be very kind-hearted (giving that money to Captain Snegiryov), though that can be attributed to her want for martyrdom, but only in part I think. She actively offers to make amends and help Mitya escape after the whole court drama, and also withheld from questioning him about all that money he lost.

And she sacrificed so much of her own reputation by 1) making it look as though she came up with the idea to prostitute herself for the money during the trial instead of making Mitya look bad 2) and then proceeding to defend Ivan which would inevitably cause gossip and 3) keeping Ivan at her house so that he can recover, which supposedly should be considered very improper at the time. There's also the small detail that she paid for Ilyusha's funeral. Of course, a lot of all these good deeds could be attributed to personal reasons and her pride and whatnot, but I refuse to believe that it's the sole reason!

And then there's this quote:

“Love is gone, Mitya!” Katya began again, “but what is gone is painfully dear to me. Know that, for all eternity. But now, for one minute, let it be as it might have been,” she prattled with a twisted smile, again looking joyfully into his eyes. “You now love another, I love another, but still I shall love you eternally, and you me, did you know that? Love me, do you hear, love me all your life!” she exclaimed with some sort of almost threatening tremor in her voice.

And I'm sure she tormented herself so much after the trial ordeal. Like she probably thinks she's the worse person in the world after that, and probably cried for too long, and

In short, I love my deeply flawed, constantly messing up, but also very kind girl. Just a proud young society lady who so desperately wants to do everything right.

[caramelphleg]

Idk here's a myshkin doodle

[gegengestalt]

This is how people who want Alyosha and Pavel to interact so badly must feel, I'm over here imagining an entire timeline

[gegengestalt]

Continued the AU in which the Miusovs never came to pick Mitya up so he ended up growing up with Pasha.

The more I think about their clashing personalities, the messier the hypothetical relationship gets (specially considering that Pasha is a serf and Mitya is not). A lot of things perceived by Mitya as just roughhousing and fun would kinda feel like being bullied to Pasha. I randomly thought of Mitya trying to force Pasha to learn how to swim in the river on the summer of 1852.

[russian-blob]

[holidays-begin-at-sundown]

is the brothers karamazov fandom divided equally over ivan and alyosha. or is there a small subset of people who have dmitri or pavel as their main favoritest blorbo and will defend them to whoever will listen

[fyodolai-deactivated20230127]

hi

[squeaksterr]

reblog game tell me a girl character youre obsessed with (men you headcanon as women are not allowed)

[grindrbooks]

[gegengestalt]

Am I jobless enough to make a compilation of how each of the brothers is referred to by other characters...?

[i-love-my-blorbo-polls]

is your blorbo a soldier a poet or a king?

Is your blorbo a soldier, poet, or king?

Soldier

Poet

King

Voting ended onMay 25

[gegengestalt]

“"I exist". In thousands of agonies— I exist. I'm tormented on the rack— but I exist! Though I sit alone on a pillar— I exist! I see a beautiful fat woman, and if I don't see the beautiful fat woman, I know she's there. And there's a whole life in that, in knowing that the beautiful fat woman is there.” —Fyodor Dostoyevsky, The Brothers Karamazov

[butchraskolnikov]

if i was Smerdyakov i would have killed everyone tbh

[gegengestalt]

Raskolnikovvvvvvvvvvv

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