bands/ artists: | greta van fleet | arctic monkeys | lana del rey | the weeknd | linkin park | tv girl | elvis presley | the smiths | the nbhd | deftones | slipknot | roar |
movies: | interstellar | elvis | coraline | inception | spirited away | 10 things i hate about you | she’s the man | harry potter and the goblet of fire | scream franchise |
tv shows: | stranger things | criminal minds | greys anatomy | shameless | hxh | erased | twd | big bang theory | you | the society | the last of us | tvd |
MASTERLIST
ONESHOTS: eddie munson x reader
Halloween Party- you and eddie have been best friends since childhood and youve secretly liked him but what happens when the queen of Hawkins High, Chrissy Cunningham, finds interest in the freak?
It Started with a T-Shirt- y/n is new to Hawkins. She finds herself head over heels for the town freak, eddie munson, on her first few days in town.
None of it was real- after witnessing your bestfriends death, you find comfort being with eddie munson. or at least you thought so…
guitar necklace- you & your boyfriend, eddie munson, have been dating for quite a while. he’s the main guitarist/ vocalist for his band, Corroded Coffin. when it’s their biggest concert yet, he surprises you with the best gift ever.
dance with me- eddie asks you to the annual graduation dance.
eddie munson blurbs
e. munson headcannos
your life with e. munson in modern day time
your life with e. munson in modern day time pt. 2
joseph quinn blurbs
your instagram with j. quinn
CHAPTER FICS
peter ballard x fem!reader
⋆. 𐙚 ˚edges of us⋆. 𐙚 ˚ - working at Hawkins Lab means silence, routine, and rules. it also means Peter Ballard: quiet conversations, lingering touches, and a closeness that was never meant to be noticed (21.7k)
part 2, part 3, part 4, part 5, part 6, part 7, part 8, part 9 & part 10
here's a jaafar!imagine inspired by these pictures<3
imagine waking up before the sun has fully stretched across the sky, the house still wrapped in that fragile kind of silence reserved only for early mornings. you pad across the hardwood floor in oversized socks, rubbing the sleep from your eyes, only to pause in the kitchen doorway.
jaafar's already there. the coffee has just finished brewing, filling every corner of the room with that rich, familiar aroma that somehow makes a house feel more like a home. steam curls lazily from two mugs sitting on the counter. one is already waiting for you, made exactly the way you like it without you ever having to ask.
he doesn't hear you at first. he's leaning against the kitchen island with a novel in one hand and your mug in the other, absentmindedly warming it between his palms as he reads another chapter. the morning light spills through the windows behind him, turning the edges of his curls gold, painting soft shadows across his face. every so often, the corner of his mouth lifts into the smallest smile at something on the page.
you don't announce yourself. you simply stand there. watching him exist.
eventually, he looks up. his eyes find yours almost instantly, and his smile changes completely. softer now
"morning, beautiful." he slides your coffee across the counter before you've even reached him.
"it's gonna get cold." you wrap your hands around the warm ceramic mug, taking a sip before humming in approval.
"perfect."
he grins without looking away from his book.
"i know."
after all, loving you has become muscle memory.
guys i can’t do this rn- anyway, here are two imagines inspired by these pictures<3
imagine jaafar always volunteering to hold your camera during every trip, insisting he wanted to "get the good angles," when really he just wanted another excuse to look at you. through the tiny viewfinder, you became art. every laugh caught between breaths, every strand of hair lifted by the wind, every distracted smile while you admired a view instead of the lens; it all belonged in his collection.
you'd wander ahead, completely unaware that he'd intentionally slow his pace just enough to let a few feet grow between you. that way he could admire you in full; the effortless sway of your walk, the sunlight tracing the outline of your body, the way you fit into every city street, every mountain trail, every beach as though the world had been waiting for you. he'd lift the camera to his eye, hiding the smile spreading across his face behind the lens before quietly pressing the shutter.
later that night, when you were curled up beside him in the hotel room asking to see the pictures, he'd pretend to scroll past them casually, skipping over a handful far too quickly. the ones he'd linger over when you weren't looking. the pictures that reminded him of how hopelessly in love he was with you. the ones he'd save in a hidden folder he'd revisit on long filming days or lonely flights, simply because seeing you, even through a tiny screen, made the distance feel a little smaller.
to Jaafar, the pictures were proof that the most beautiful thing he'd ever witnessed was you existing within it. in every frame, your laughter outshined the skyline behind you. every sunset felt dull compared to the warmth you carried with you.
imagine jaafar reaching his hand out before you even have the chance to ask for help. whether it was stepping onto a boat, climbing over a rocky trail, or hopping onto a ledge for the perfect view, his arm was already extended toward you, his lips curling into that familiar smile as if it were the most natural thing in the world.
"come here," he'd murmur, his voice low and patient.
the moment your fingers slipped into his hand, his grip was warm, steady, and impossibly gentle. there was no strain, no hesitation. he'd pull you toward him with effortless strength, like you weighed nothing at all. before your feet had even found solid ground, his other hand would instinctively settle against your waist, firm enough to keep you steady and careful enough to make you feel treasured.
for the briefest second, the distance between you disappeared. tou'd find yourself standing impossibly close, your hands still lingering against his arm, his palm resting at your waist as though he wasn't quite ready to let go. the scent of his cologne mixed with the fresh air around you, and suddenly whatever you were climbing toward became the last thing on your mind.
he'd notice the way your expression softened, the tiny pause where you forgot every coherent thought in your head. a quiet chuckle would escape him before he tilted his head just enough to catch your gaze. then came the look that always unraveled you; that playful little wink paired with those impossibly warm, chocolate-brown eyes that somehow managed to be teasing and tender all at once.
"you okay?" he'd ask, already knowing the answer.
you'd nod a little too quickly, hoping he couldn't tell your heart had just stumbled over itself.
but of course, he absolutely could. the grin tugging at the corner of his mouth gave him away. he'd give your waist one last affectionate squeeze before finally letting go, leaving you wondering how something as simple as helping you up had somehow become your favorite part of the day.
pairings: peter ballard x fem!reader
warnings: 18+ MDNI!!!, power imbalance, manipulation themes, jealous!peter, possesive!peter, suggestive content, slow burn, angst, fluff
chapter summary: the plan was simple: get the device out and run. But some things can't stay buried forever. (wc: 4.1k)
a/n: helloooo beautiful readers!!! it's the final chapter oh my goodnessss!! I absolutely LOVED writing this finale, it's very intense to say the least. this chapter does include graphic violence, bl00d! & injury, death!, body horror, kinda so please read at your own discretion. i had so much fun writing this fic, thank you to all of you for being so patient with me and being so understanding!!! you truly mean the world to me!! i think i might stick to some oneshots in the future, but trust me, i am NOT going anywhere!! again, thank you all so very much for your support and kind words!! i always look forward to reading your comments and about your feelings!! but i hope you all loved under observation, till next time, my dears<3333
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(08:47)
The walkie crackles.
“Ward B. Prepare 001 for transport. Jasiel, accompany. Orderly Hayes, standby.”
Your pulse doesn’t spike. It detonates.
Peter doesn’t look at the door.
He looks at you. He always does.
The device at his collar hums low and uneven, a subtle vibration beneath skin that shouldn’t move like that. It sounds irritated. Alert.
You swallow hard.
“It’s 8:47,” you say, because saying the time makes it real.
“I know.”
Footsteps echo somewhere beyond the corridor bend.
Measured. Approaching. The walkie is still in your hand. You press the button before you can think yourself out of it.
“Surveillance to Dr. Brenner.”
A beat.
Then his voice. Calm. Curious.
“Yes.”
You stare at the device at Peter’s collarbone. It flickers.
You can see it this close now — the faint lift at one edge. The skin around it slightly inflamed. Angry. Like the body has been rejecting it quietly for days.
“Telemetry amplitude is exceeding baseline,” you say evenly. “If transport begins now, you’ll lose the modulation pattern.”
Silence.
You can almost feel him calculating. Peter’s blue eyes never leave your face.
“You are recommending a delay?” Brenner asks.
“I’m recommending data integrity.”
Footsteps closer now.
Peter’s jaw tightens almost imperceptibly.
“You have sixty seconds,” Brenner says.
The walkie goes dead.
You don’t breathe. Sixty seconds. You move for the door panel. Override code. Surveillance clearance. Temporary lockdown. Thank God.
The seal engages with a hydraulic hiss.
The hallway footsteps stop abruptly outside.
A fist hits the door once.
“Open Ward B,” Jasiel calls.
You don’t answer.
Peter steps closer to you.
“What are you doing.”
Not accusation.
Recognition.
Your hands are shaking. You turn toward the utility cabinet mounted beside the sink. You’ve never opened it before.
Inside: gauze. Antiseptic. Emergency suture kit.
And a scalpel.
Smaller than the one you saw in Ward C.
But sharp. You take it and Peter goes very still.
“If you start,” he says quietly, “you finish.”
Your heart is beating so hard you feel sick.
“I saw them do it.”
“You saw trained hands.”
The door rattles again.
“Ward B,” Jasiel warns.
You move toward Peter. You kneel in front of him. You’ve never been this close to the device without touching it.
You can hear it now.
It isn’t just humming. It’s clicking faintly. Adjusting. Micro-calibrations beneath his skin.
“You don’t have to do this, it’s okay.” he says.
“You don’t have to let them,” you whisper back.
His breathing changes.
You see it — that flicker of fear.
Not for himself.
For you.
“You don’t know how deep it is.”
“I know it’s seated,” you say, voice trembling. “Not fused.”
His eyes flash.
“You were watching.”
“Yes.” you say smiling softly.
The door slams again.
“Thirty seconds,” Jasiel calls.
You bring the scalpel up. Your hand won’t stop shaking. Peter reaches out and grips your wrist.
Not hard.
But firm.
“You will see things,” he says quietly. “You won’t forget them.”
Your throat burns.
“Neither will you.”
You press the blade to his skin.
And for one suspended second— nothing happens.
The metal is cold. His skin is warm.
The device hum spikes sharply, like it senses proximity.
Peter inhales sharply through his teeth.
“Too shallow,” he says immediately, voice tight as tears begin to fill his eyes.
Your stomach twists.
You press harder.
The blade parts skin.
It’s not like in the infirmary.
There’s resistance.
A drag.
The first line of red wells up instantly.
Peter’s fingers tighten around your wrist.
A sound escapes him.
Small. Broken.
Your vision blurs for a second but you don’t stop. You widen the incision but, the blood isn’t contained and clinical like 002’s was.
It’s messy.
It runs down his collarbone in thin, bright lines. The device reacts. The hum turns into a high, thin whine.
Like feedback from a microphone too close to the speaker.
Peter gasps.
The lights flicker.
“Focus,” he says, but his voice is strained now. Fractured. “Angle left. It’s seated under the clavicle.”
“How do you know.”
“I felt it when they—”
He cuts himself off with a sharp inhale as you press the blade deeper.
Your hands are slick now.
You can feel something metallic under the cut.
Not attached.
Resting.
The door slams again.
“Open it!” Hayes shouts now.
The walkie crackles.
“Ward B,” Brenner’s voice. Sharper this time.
You press the button with your elbow without looking away.
“Amplitude spike,” you say breathlessly. “Logging.”
Peter makes a low sound in his throat as the blade scrapes metal.
It vibrates under the contact.
The device emits a piercing mechanical whine.
You flinch.
“Don’t stop,” he says immediately, voice shaking. “If you stop now—”
“I’m not stopping.”
Blood is running down your fingers. You adjust your grip. You slide the edge of the blade under the lifted corner.
There.
There it is.
The seam.
You wedge the scalpel beneath it. It resists. Peter’s entire body tenses violently. The ceiling light above you shatters.
Glass rains down around you.
“Peter.”
“I’m trying.”
His voice breaks.
You push harder.
The device shifts.
Just slightly.
And the sound it makes—
It isn’t mechanical anymore.
It’s almost—almost like something alive being pulled from a socket.
The hallway outside erupts with pounding.
Metal bends inward.
They’re trying to force entry.
Your heart is in your throat. You press down harder with the blade and pull up at the same time. Peter chokes on a sound that tears straight through you.
“Look at me,” you say desperately.
He does.
His eyes are blown wide.
There’s pain there now.
Real pain.
Not memory.
Now.
“You’re hurting him,” a voice crackles over the walkie.
You don’t know if it’s Brenner or if you imagined it.
“I know,” you whisper.
The device tears free halfway.
It’s lodged deeper on the opposite side.
Your stomach lurches at the sight of it — slick with blood, wires barely visible where it was anchored.
“Almost,” Peter breathes.
His hands are gripping the floor so hard the tile is cracking beneath his fingers.
The hum is now a violent, unstable shriek.
You yank.
It doesn’t come out.
You reposition the blade.
Your hands are shaking so badly you nearly drop it.
“Steady,” he gasps.
“You’re bleeding.”
“I’ve bled before.”
You push the scalpel deeper along the remaining edge. You feel the last resistance snap.
The device rips free.
It comes out with a wet metallic sound that will live in your head forever.
And then—
Silence.
No hum.
No whine.
No vibration.
Just your breathing.
Peter goes completely still. His eyes roll back slightly.
Your heart stops.
“Peter.”
Nothing.
You drop the scalpel.
You press your hand to his chest.
There’s blood everywhere.
“Peter.” you repeat with more fear in your voice.
For one eternal, horrifying second— You think you killed him. What have I done? Why did I even–
Your thoughts are interrupted.
He inhales.
Not shallow.
Not strained.
Full.
Deep.
Like he’s been underwater for years and just reached air. The lights flicker violently. The floor trembles. The door behind you buckles inward.
And somewhere in the building– an alarm begins to scream.
(08:49)
The silence after the device comes free feels wrong.
It settles over the room like something living, pressing in from the walls, thick and suffocating. The red emergency light continues to pulse overhead, washing the tiled room in slow waves of color that make everything look unreal—the stainless steel counter, the scattered medical instruments, the streaks of blood across Peter’s shoulders.
Your hands are still shaking.
You can’t seem to stop them.
The scalpel slips from your fingers and clatters against the tile floor, the sound far too loud in the suffocating quiet.
For a moment you can only stare at what you’ve done.
The small metal device rests in the floor drain near Peter’s knee, half-slick with blood, the thin wires still twitching faintly as if the thing were alive. It looks smaller now that it’s out of him. Harmless. Pathetic.
You almost laugh at the thought.
Your stomach twists.
Peter is still on his knees.
For a terrible second you wonder if you’ve killed him.
Then he inhales.
The breath tears into his lungs like something violent and unfamiliar, his shoulders jerking upward as his chest expands. The sound of it fills the room, raw and uneven, like someone who has forgotten how breathing works and is now forcing their body to remember.
You move toward him instinctively.
“Peter,” you whisper, your voice unsteady, “I— I don’t know if I did it right.”
Your gaze keeps drifting back to the wound at the base of his neck. Blood continues to trail down his spine in thin lines, collecting at the waistband of the hospital pants he’s wearing.
Your throat tightens.
“I’m sorry,” you say quietly, the words slipping out before you can stop them. “I didn’t know how deep it was supposed to be. I just— I just followed what I saw them do to 002, and I thought—”
The overhead light flickers.
You pause mid-sentence.
It flickers again.
Then the metal tray on the counter beside you begins to rattle.
At first the movement is subtle, a soft vibration against the stainless steel surface, the instruments on top of it chiming faintly together.
You stare at it.
The rattling grows louder.
The tray lifts.
It doesn’t rise slowly.
It tears upward into the air like something invisible has yanked it off the counter.
You suck in a breath.
“Peter…”
He hasn’t moved from his position on the floor, but his head is tilted upward now, his eyes fixed on the tray hovering in the air. There is a strange look on his face—something halfway between disbelief and recognition.
The metal groans.
The tray bends in the middle, folding in on itself as if an enormous hand has begun to crush it.
Your heart begins hammering in your chest.
“Peter,” you say again, more urgently this time. “What’s happening?”
The tray drops suddenly, slamming against the tile with a deafening clang.
The overhead light explodes.
Glass rains down across the room in glittering shards.
You flinch, instinctively raising your arms over your head.
When you look back at him, Peter is staring at his hands.
He turns them slowly, flexing his fingers as though they belong to someone else.
“They didn’t take it,” he says quietly.
You blink.
“What?”
A strange sound escapes him then—something that might have been a laugh in another life. There is no humor in it now. It is thin and bitter and sharp enough to cut.
“They thought this was the source,” he murmurs, his voice distant as his fingers brush briefly against the blood at the back of his neck. “They thought the device was what made it possible.”
The mirror above the sink fractures down the center with a violent crack.
You jump.
Another fracture splits across the tile wall.
The air feels different now.
Charged.
Your skin prickles.
“They didn’t take anything from me,” Peter continues, his voice lowering as understanding settles over his expression. “They buried it. They buried it under years of needles and drugs and tests, and they convinced themselves that meant it was gone.”
Another light overhead bursts with a sharp pop.
You take an involuntary step backward.
“Peter,” you say carefully, your voice trembling despite your effort to steady it. “You’re scaring me.”
His head turns toward you immediately.
The moment his eyes meet yours, the shaking in the room stills.
The broken instruments on the floor stop vibrating. The flickering light steadies. The air feels suddenly quieter, as though whatever storm had begun building around him has pulled itself inward again.
For a moment he simply studies your face.
Something soft flickers across his expression.
“You should be afraid,” he says quietly.
Your chest tightens.
“But not of me.”
Before you can respond, footsteps echo down the hallway outside.
Fast.
Heavy.
Voices overlap beyond the door.
Your heart lurches into your throat.
A walkie crackles through the muffled noise.
“Jasiel, do you copy? Report.”
Peter’s gaze drifts toward the door.
The softness drains from his face.
Something colder settles in its place.
“Oh,” he murmurs.
Your stomach drops.
The door handle rattles violently.
“Jasiel?” a voice calls from the other side. Hayes.
The handle rattles again, harder this time.
“Open the door.”
Peter pushes himself slowly to his feet.
He sways once, the blood loss catching up with him, but he steadies himself against the sink before straightening fully.
You reach toward him instinctively.
“Peter, wait—”
The door unlocks with a sharp click. It swings open before anyone on the other side has time to touch it.
Hayes and Jasiel stand frozen in the doorway. Their expressions shift in an instant.
Confusion.
Then shock.
Jasiel’s eyes drop immediately to the back of Peter’s neck.
The absence of the device.
The blood.
His face goes pale.
“Jesus,” he breathes.
The silence stretches.
Jasiel’s hand begins drifting slowly toward the walkie clipped to his belt.
The device tears free before his fingers reach it.
It flies across the hallway and shatters against the opposite wall.
Hayes jerks backward in alarm, yanking the gun from his holster.
“Don’t move,” he says, though the tremor in his voice makes the command hollow.
Peter looks at the gun.
Metal shrieks.
The weapon crumples inward in Hayes’s grip like it has suddenly forgotten how to exist.
Hayes screams and drops it.
Peter steps forward into the hallway.
“You called me One,” he says quietly, his voice calm in a way that feels far more terrifying than shouting ever could.
Jasiel begins backing away.
“You treated me like an object,” Peter continues.
Hayes turns to run.
His feet leave the ground before he takes two steps.
Your breath catches.
Hayes slams violently into the ceiling.
Bone cracks.
His scream echoes down the corridor.
Then his body drops.
Only to jerk upward again.
Ceiling.
Floor.
Ceiling.
Blood spatters the fluorescent lights.
You stand frozen behind Peter, horror knotting in your chest as you watch something you never imagined unfold in front of you.
Jasiel’s composure shatters.
“You don’t understand,” he stammers, stumbling backward down the hallway.
Peter tilts his head.
Jasiel lifts off the ground.
His limbs jerk violently as though strings have been tied to every bone in his body and someone has begun pulling them in opposite directions.
“You won’t have to talk to her again,” Peter says softly.
He glances back at you when he says it.
The gentleness in his eyes makes what follows feel even worse.
A sharp, sickening snap cuts through the hallway.
Jasiel’s neck twists.
His body drops.
Silence rushes in.
Then the alarms begin screaming.
Red lights flash violently overhead as the facility erupts into chaos.
Peter stands in the middle of the hallway, breathing hard now.
The lights above him flicker.
A security camera tears free from the ceiling and smashes against the floor.
You take a careful step toward him.
“Peter,” you whisper, your voice fragile. “What are you doing?”
He doesn’t look away from the corridor ahead.
“Taking it back.”
Farther down the hallway, locked doors explode open one after another.
Metal bends outward.
Inside the rooms beyond, children begin screaming.
Scientists shout orders.
The entire building dissolves into panic.
Your stomach churns.
“Peter…”
He lifts his hand.
Somewhere deeper in the facility, a wall collapses inward with a thunderous crash.
The ground trembles beneath your feet.
Then, through the chaos—
A calm voice cuts through the alarms.
“Enough.”
The sound freezes you in place.
Peter goes still.
Dr. Brenner steps into view at the far end of the hallway, walking through the flashing red light as though none of the destruction around him is unusual.
His gaze moves across the ruined corridor.
The bodies.
The broken walls.
Then it settles on Peter.
A faint smile touches his mouth.
“I wondered,” he says quietly, “how long it would take.”
Peter’s jaw tightens.
“Hello, One.”
“That isn’t my name.”
Brenner’s eyes drift toward you.
Understanding flickers across his face.
“So,” he murmurs. “You helped him.”
Peter steps forward immediately, placing himself between you and Brenner.
The lights above Brenner explode.
He doesn’t flinch.
“You think she will survive what you are?” Brenner asks calmly.
The hallway begins to shake.
Peter lifts his hand.
Brenner’s feet leave the ground.
“You made this place a cage,” Peter says softly.
Brenner’s body slams violently into the ceiling.
Then the floor.
Then hangs suspended again.
“You made me.”
The entire corridor trembles.
Glass bursts outward from the windows.
You grab Peter’s arm.
“Peter, we have to go.”
For a moment he doesn’t move.
Then he looks at you.
The chaos slows.
Just slightly.
He lowers Brenner.
The man collapses to the floor.
Peter turns toward you.
“Come on.”
You don’t hesitate.
You grab his hand.
And together you run.
Behind you—
Hawkins Lab begins to fall apart.
The trees swallow you the moment you reach them.
Branches scrape across your arms as you run, snagging against the thin fabric of the lab clothes still clinging to your body. Pine needles crunch beneath your shoes, sharp and loud in the otherwise suffocating quiet of the forest. Your lungs burn from the cold air tearing into them, every breath coming harder than the last.
Behind you, Hawkins Lab is still screaming.
Sirens echo across the facility grounds. Red emergency lights flash against the trees in violent pulses. Somewhere inside the building, metal shrieks and concrete collapses with thunderous cracks that reverberate through the woods.
You keep running.
Peter runs beside you, silent.
His hand is locked tightly around yours, fingers warm and steady despite the blood still drying across his skin.
You don’t realize how hard you’re gripping him until your knuckles ache.
Twenty yards into the forest, the ground suddenly shudders beneath your feet.
You stumble, catching yourself against a tree trunk as loose dirt slides under your shoes.
Peter stops beside you immediately.
Another tremor ripples through the earth.
You both freeze.
For a moment neither of you speaks.
The forest around you feels impossibly still compared to the chaos behind you.
You finally turn to look at him.
The first thing you notice is the blood.
His white button-up shirt—once perfectly pressed and sterile like everything else in that building—is soaked through now. Dark stains spread across the fabric from the wound at the base of his neck, the collar torn slightly where the scalpel must have slipped.
Dirt streaks across his sleeves.
Tears in the fabric catch your attention next.
One of the tree branches must have snagged him while you were running. The fabric has ripped along the side seam, exposing a strip of bare skin beneath.
You stare before you can stop yourself.
His torso is lean, defined in a way you’ve never had the chance to notice before. Years inside the lab had hidden everything beneath those same identical uniforms, the same careful distance always maintained between subjects.
Now the truth is right there in front of you.
Your brain struggles to catch up with the image.
Peter notices where you’re looking.
For the first time since the escape began, a faint—almost shy—expression flickers across his face.
“You’re staring,” he murmurs.
Your cheeks heat instantly.
“I’m not—” you start, then stop yourself, realizing you absolutely are.
You drag a hand across your face, exhausted.
“Sorry. I just…” you gesture vaguely toward him, your voice catching slightly. “You look different.”
He glances down at himself.
“I’m covered in blood.”
“That’s not what I meant.”
Your words come out softer than you expect.
For a moment neither of you says anything.
The silence stretches between you, heavy with everything that just happened.
Then your composure cracks.
You step forward and wrap your arms around him.
The hug hits both of you harder than expected.
Peter freezes for half a second, clearly surprised by the contact, but then his arms come around you slowly, carefully, like he’s afraid you might disappear if he moves too fast.
Your face presses against his shoulder.
His shirt smells like antiseptic and iron and pine needles.
You suddenly realize you’re shaking.
“We did it,” you whisper.
The words sound fragile.
Unreal.
Peter exhales slowly, his chin brushing the top of your head.
“Yes,” he murmurs.
His voice sounds different now.
Lighter.
Like something inside him has finally unclenched.
For a moment you simply stand there in the quiet forest, holding onto each other while the lab collapses somewhere behind the trees.
Eventually you pull back just enough to look up at him.
Your brow furrows slightly.
“There’s something I need to ask you.”
Peter studies your expression.
“What is it?”
Your throat tightens.
“They told us Peter wasn’t your real name.”
The question hangs between you.
For a second he says nothing.
Then he looks away.
Not in anger.
In hesitation.
The night wind stirs the trees above you.
“My name,” he says quietly, “is Henry.”
The word settles into the air between you.
Henry.
You repeat it slowly, testing the shape of it.
“Henry.”
A faint smile touches the corner of his mouth.
“I almost forgot what it sounded like.”
Your chest aches.
“What happened to you?” you ask softly.
His gaze drifts toward the ground.
For the first time since you met him, Peter—Henry—looks unsure.
“They found me when I was a child,” he says slowly. “Long before the rest of you.”
Your stomach twists.
“They realized I could do things other people couldn’t.”
His fingers flex slightly at his sides.
“Move things. Hear things. See things inside people that they didn’t want anyone else to see.”
He glances back at you.
“And Dr. Brenner decided that meant I belonged to him.”
Anger flashes briefly across your chest.
Henry notices.
A small, sad smile touches his face.
“I thought the device meant I had lost it,” he admits quietly. “The power.”
Your gaze flickers toward the wound at the back of his neck.
“But it didn’t,” you say.
He shakes his head slowly.
“No.”
For a moment neither of you speaks.
Then you reach out and take his hand again.
“I’m glad,” you say softly.
Henry blinks.
“Glad?”
Your expression steadies.
“Because now you get to choose what you do with it.”
Something vulnerable flickers across his face.
Before he can respond—
The ground shakes again.
Harder this time.
Both of you turn instinctively.
The lab is collapsing.
Concrete walls split apart. Entire sections of the roof cave inward with deafening cracks.
Smoke rises into the sky.
You stare.
“Henry…”
He doesn’t answer.
His attention is locked on the building.
Another violent crack splits the air.
The center of Hawkins Lab caves inward.
But the darkness spilling from the rupture isn’t shadow.
It’s deeper than that.
The air grows suddenly colder.
Wind tears violently through the trees.
“What is that?” you whisper.
Before either of you can move—
Reality tears open above the building.
A jagged rupture splits the night sky like fabric ripping apart. Red lightning explodes outward from the fracture, illuminating a vast, endless darkness on the other side.
Your breath leaves you.
Inside the tear—
There is another world.
Floating debris drifts across an endless red sky.
Black lightning pulses through massive storm clouds.
Something about it feels ancient.
Wrong.
The tear widens.
The sound coming from it is deep and unnatural, vibrating through the ground beneath your feet.
“Henry,” you whisper.
He doesn’t look away.
“I didn’t mean to do that,” he murmurs.
Your heart begins pounding.
“What do you mean you didn’t mean to?”
Another crack of lightning explodes across the sky.
The rupture spreads wider.
The lab below it collapses further.
Your gaze drifts toward Henry’s hands.
They’re shaking.
Small rocks begin lifting slowly from the forest floor around him.
His eyes remain fixed on the tear.
“I can feel it,” he says quietly.
A chill slides down your spine.
“Feel what?”
He finally turns toward you.
The red lightning reflects in his eyes.
“That place.”
The ground trembles again.
The tear pulses violently.
And somewhere inside that endless darkness—
Something moves.
You grab his arm.
“We have to go.”
For a moment he hesitates.
Then he nods.
You grab his hand and pull him deeper into the forest.
Behind you—
The tear in the sky continues to spread.
Red lightning lashes across the night.
The remains of Hawkins Lab disappear into the darkness below it.
And somewhere on the other side—
Something ancient wakes up.
Watching.
Waiting.
And as you run through the forest beside Henry, one terrible realization settles into your chest.
You didn’t just escape Hawkins Lab tonight.
You opened something.
Something the world was never meant to see.
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pairings: peter ballard x fem!reader
warnings: 18+ MDNI!!!, power imbalance, manipulation themes, jealous!peter, possesive!peter, suggestive content, slow burn, angst, fluff
chapter summary: something shifts. not loudly — just enough. the kind of change that makes the air feel thinner and the walls start listening. 0900 is coming, and suddenly “routine” doesn’t mean safe anymore. tw: brenner obv
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part 1, part 2, part 3, part 4, part 5, part 7
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The surveillance room feels different at night.
Less clinical. More predatory.
The lights are dimmed to half-power, casting long shadows between the rows of monitors. The hum of machinery is constant — a low, mechanical heartbeat that never stops, never falters. It makes the room feel alive. Watching.
You aren’t scheduled to be here.
But you badge in anyway.
The door seals behind you with a soft hydraulic sigh, and for a moment you just stand there, letting your eyes adjust to the glow of the screens.
Hallways. Empty recreation rooms. Closed doors.
Then one feed flickers.
Ward C — Infirmary.
002.
You don’t mean to lean forward, but you do.
He’s restrained loosely, not struggling, just breathing too fast. Two orderlies flank the bed. A tray gleams under the surgical lights.
And then you see it.
The scalpel.
Thin. Silver. Precise.
Your stomach tightens.
One of the orderlies speaks — you can’t hear it — but 002 nods weakly. His collar is already red and inflamed. The device there looks slightly lifted on one side, like something that’s shifted out of alignment.
Accident, you think. Training feedback. Power surge. Something that forced their hand.
The scalpel descends.
The cut is clean.
Your breath catches.
There is no screaming.
No thrashing.
Just a sharp inhale from 002 as the blade parts skin with horrifying simplicity.
The device doesn’t look fused into him.
It looks seated.
Placed.
Installed.
The orderly works with practiced hands, easing metal from flesh. There’s blood, yes — but controlled. Contained.
The device lifts free.
And the world does not end.
002 gasps once — a shaky, startled sound — and then he just lies there, eyes glassy, chest rising and falling.
Alive.
Breathing.
Untethered.
The device rests in the tray beside him. Small. Ordinary. Almost unimpressive.
Your pulse pounds in your ears.
Installed means removable.
The thought doesn’t feel rebellious.
It feels obvious.
You stare at the blade.
At the incision.
At the clean, deliberate motion of it all.
Your hand drifts unconsciously to your own collarbone.
You imagine the weight of metal under skin.
You imagine the lift.
The release.
You step back from the console like someone might see the shift in your thoughts.
Because this isn’t sympathy.
It’s possibility.
And possibility is dangerous.
When you reach Peter’s room, he’s already looking at the door.
He always knows when you’re coming.
You step inside slowly.
The air feels charged — like before a storm breaks, when everything goes still in anticipation.
“You were somewhere you weren’t assigned,” he says quietly.
It isn’t accusation.
It’s fact.
“You don’t know that.”
“I do.”
You close the door behind you.
“How.”
“Your breathing changed three corridors ago.”
You hate that he’s right.
You move closer anyway.
“002 had an incident,” you say carefully.
“I felt it.”
Of course he did.
“They removed it,” you add.
That makes him still.
Completely.
For a second the hum of the facility feels louder than your pulse.
“They removed it?” he repeats.
“Yes.”
He studies your face.
“And?”
“He’s alive.”
Silence stretches between you.
Alive.
The word hangs there.
“You didn’t know they could,” he says quietly.
“You did?”
“They installed it.”
You swallow.
Installed means removable.
Your eyes drop to his collar.
The device hums faintly — not steady. Not the constant mechanical rhythm you’re used to.
It flickers.
Soft.
Uneven.
You step closer.
It hums louder.
“You feel different,” you murmur.
He tilts his head.
“Different how.”
“Reactive.”
A pause.
“You’re closer.”
“That shouldn’t matter.”
He doesn’t respond.
Your hand lifts before you can stop it.
His fingers catch your wrist instantly.
Not rough.
Not angry.
Urgent.
“Don’t.”
Your heart stutters.
“Why.”
His eyes darken slightly.
“If you start thinking about it like something that can be removed… you won’t stop.”
The words settle into your chest like a stone.
Because he’s right.
You twist your wrist gently.
“You don’t get to decide what I think about.”
His grip tightens just slightly.
“It complicates you.”
“That’s not an answer.”
He exhales slowly.
“It complicates us.”
The device hums louder between you.
Your pulse races.
You lower your voice.
“Does it hurt?”
He hesitates.
It’s small.
But you see it.
“No.”
You don’t believe him.
“Then why don’t you ever touch it.”
His jaw flexes.
“Because I remember what it felt like when they put it there.”
Your breath catches.
Oh.
Not pain.
Memory.
Your wrist slips from his grasp.
You lift your hand again.
This time, he doesn’t stop you.
Your fingers brush just beneath the device.
His reaction is immediate.
A sharp inhale.
Not loud.
Not dramatic.
But involuntary.
It cracks through the air between you.
Your stomach flips violently.
His eyes close for half a second, like he’s bracing.
The device gives a low mechanical whine.
“It doesn’t hurt,” he says again, voice thinner now.
You press slightly firmer.
Just enough.
He exhales — shaky this time.
A soft, fractured sound he doesn’t manage to swallow.
And something in you ignites.
Not cruelty.
Not dominance.
But the awareness that you can make him react.
That you affect him.
That he isn’t untouchable.
You withdraw your hand slowly.
He opens his eyes.
There’s something new there.
Not anger.
Recognition.
“You like that,” he says quietly.
Heat floods your spine.
“I don’t.”
“You do.”
The device flickers again.
Unstable.
Responsive.
Not to him.
To you.
And that realization shifts something fundamental inside your chest.
You leave him before you can think too much.
The hallway feels narrower.
As if the walls are listening.
You round the corner — and nearly collide with Jasiel.
He’s leaning against the wall, arms crossed, posture casual in a way that feels intentional.
“You’re out late,” he says.
“So are you.”
He studies your face.
“Brenner’s been in Surveillance.”
Your stomach drops.
“For how long.”
“Most of the evening.”
Your pulse spikes.
“He’s reviewing telemetry.”
Your throat goes dry.
“Routine,” you say evenly.
Jasiel’s gaze sharpens.
“Recalibration usually follows an incident.”
“There hasn’t been one.”
“I know.”
That’s the problem.
He steps closer.
Not threatening.
But deliberate.
“You’ve been spending more time with him,” he says.
“Yes.”
“Be careful.”
“Of what.”
His eyes flick briefly toward Peter’s door.
“Influence goes both ways.”
The words linger.
You don’t answer.
Because you don’t know which direction he means.
Brenner does not pace.
He observes.
The surveillance room is dim but precise. Every monitor angled intentionally. Every metric layered over footage in clean data streams.
He rewinds.
Ward B. 001’s room.
He mutes the audio.
He watches body language.
Your proximity.
The way 001’s posture shifts when you enter.
The way the device flickers when your hand lifts.
He freezes the frame.
Zooms in.
Telemetry overlay confirms it.
Modulation amplitude spike: 19%.
He leans back slightly.
Interesting.
He runs a remote sensitivity increase.
In Ward B, the device hums.
Peter’s jaw tightens subtly.
No outward pain response.
But the modulation shifts again.
Not malfunction.
Adaptation.
He pulls up your personnel file.
Proximity logs: elevated.
Behavioral reports: stable.
He replays the moment your fingers touch the device.
The spike is immediate.
Brenner’s eyes narrow.
This is not emotional instability.
It is attachment.
Attachment alters compliance.
Compliance must remain predictable.
He lowers the remote signal.
The device stabilizes.
But variability remains.
“Curious,” he murmurs to himself.
Recalibration at 0900 is no longer maintenance.
It is assessment.
And possibly correction.
Morning arrives too quickly.
You haven’t slept.
The facility feels sharper in daylight. Brighter. Louder. Like everything has edges.
pairings: peter ballard x fem!reader
warnings: 18+ MDNI!!!, power imbalance, manipulation themes, jealous!peter, possesive!peter, suggestive content, slow burn, angst, fluff
chapter summary: you let another man touch your shoulder. peter lets the entire hallway feel what that costs. and for the first time, others see his jealousy.
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The door slams.
The sound echoes down the corridor — sharp, contained, but wrong.
You flinch.
Jasiel exhales slowly beside you. “Is he always—”
“Yes,” you answer quietly.
You don’t look at him.
Your eyes are fixed on the door.
The hallway feels different now. Like something has shifted under the tile. Like a fault line cracked open and sealed again in the span of a breath.
Jasiel rubs the back of his neck, uneasy but trying not to show it. “I didn’t mean anything,” he says. Not defensive. Careful.
“I know.”
You do know.
And that’s the part that makes this worse.
Your shoulder still remembers where his hand was.
But your skin burns where Peter’s gaze landed.
Jasiel studies you for a second longer. “You should go,” he says quietly.
There’s caution in it now. Not fear. Just awareness.
You nod.
But before you can move—
The door opens again.
Not violently.
Not dramatic.
Controlled.
Peter steps back into the hallway.
The hum of the device is audible now, high and sharp and warning. His face is composed, but too composed. The kind of stillness that sits on top of something volcanic.
Jasiel straightens.
He doesn’t back away.
He just shifts, subtly, bracing without meaning to.
Peter’s eyes don’t go to him first.
They go to you.
Then to the space between you and Jasiel.
Then to the exact spot where that hand had rested.
The silence stretches.
“Is there a problem, One?” Jasiel asks.
Not mocking.
Not submissive.
Professional.
The title lands deliberately — a reminder of designation. Of order. Of who the system says Peter is.
And something in Peter goes still.
Not visibly.
Internally.
One.
Not Peter.
Not the name you said against his mouth.
Not the name you breathe when you’re close enough that the device starts screaming.
One.
A number.
A function.
A result.
He feels the device register the spike before he consciously does — a cold, clinical hum at the base of his skull, like the system approving the correction.
Yes.
That’s what you are.
His jaw tightens.
He doesn’t look at Jasiel right away.
Because he’s suddenly aware of you.
Aware that you heard it.
Aware that the word hung in the space between the three of you.
Aware that, to the lab, that’s what he is in front of you.
Designation.
Controlled asset.
Contained threat.
He forces his gaze to lift slowly.
“There might be,” he replies.
Calm.
Too calm.
But underneath that calm is something coiling — not because Jasiel used the title.
Because you were there when he did.
Because the world insists on reducing him in front of you.
Jasiel crosses his arms loosely, not defensive — measured. “Everything’s fine,” he says evenly. “We’ll continue training later.”
Training.
Another institutional word.
Another reminder.
Peter doesn’t miss the way it positions him — scheduled, handled, managed.
The device hums sharper now, reacting to the subtle dominance shift embedded in language. Peter feels it scrape along his nerves.
“You seem comfortable,” Peter says.
Measured.
Jasiel holds the eye contact longer than most would. “It’s my job to be.”
Peter tilts his head slightly.
“And calling me that?” he asks quietly.
Jasiel blinks. “That’s your designation.”
Designation.
The word hits differently than One did.
More clinical.
More final.
For half a second — just half — Peter wonders what you’re thinking.
If you see him differently out here.
If the hallway version of him feels smaller.
If the system wins when it uses the right vocabulary.
The device pulses again — not pain, just pressure — reinforcing compliance.
Stay in your lane.
Stay in your role.
You step forward before the silence curdles.
“Jasiel.”
Your voice cuts clean between them.
Both of them look at you.
“It’s fine,” you say, softer now. “Go. I’ll handle it.”
There’s a beat.
Jasiel studies you — searching for something in your expression. Fear. Coercion. A signal.
He doesn’t find it.
“Are you sure?” he asks quietly.
You nod once. “Yes.”
Then, lower — just for him:
“I’ve got this.”
Peter feels it.
The difference.
You didn’t say I’ll report this.
You didn’t say I’ll calm him down.
You didn’t say I’ll monitor him.
You claimed the space.
Something in that settles him. Not completely. But enough.
He uncrosses his arms slowly. “Alright.”
He looks at Peter one more time. “Later.”
Then he walks away.
The second he’s gone, the hallway changes.
Silence thickens.
Peter exhales slowly.
The second he turns the corner, the hallway changes.
Silence drops heavy.
Peter’s jaw flexes once.
“He calls me One,” he says.
It isn’t anger.
It’s observation.
“He’s an orderly,” you answer. “That’s protocol.”
“He knows my name is Peter.” He begins, “and you told him to go.”
You lift your chin slightly. “I didn’t need him here.”
His eyes darken at that.
“No,” he says quietly. “You didn’t.”
And now the hallway feels too small for what’s building between you.
Peter steps closer.
Not touching.
Not yet.
“You wanted me to see,” he says.
It isn’t loud.
It isn’t angry.
It’s something deeper.
You lift your chin slightly. “Maybe.”
The device spikes.
He absorbs it.
His gaze darkens, not wild — focused.
“You think this is a game?”
Your pulse quickens.
“No.”
“Then what?”
You step closer too.
Matching him.
“If I did want you to see,” you murmur, “what would you do about it?”
There it is.
The edge.
He goes still.
Not reactive.
Measured.
And that is somehow worse.
The hum from the device lowers — recalibrating — confused by the lack of overt aggression.
Peter leans in slowly.
Not enough to touch.
Close enough that your breath shifts with his.
“You don’t test something you don’t want an answer from,” he says softly.
Your stomach tightens.
“And if I do?”
His eyes drop to your mouth.
Then back up.
“Then you come inside.”
It’s not a request.
You both know it.
You don’t look at the cameras.
But you feel them.
You walk.
He follows half a step behind.
Not chasing.
Herding.
The door closes behind you.
This time it’s quiet.
The room feels charged differently now. Not explosive.
Contained.
Peter doesn’t approach immediately.
He stays near the door.
Watching you.
“You think I didn’t notice the way you looked at me?” he says.
Your back presses lightly against the table.
“I wasn’t hiding it.”
“I know.”
He steps forward.
Slow.
Deliberate.
The device hums — cautious but not screaming.
“You wanted me to react.”
You swallow.
“Yes.”
The honesty lands heavy.
He stops inches away.
Doesn’t touch you.
Not yet.
“Why?”
You inhale carefully.
“Because when you look at me like that… I feel chosen.”
That does it.
Something shifts behind his eyes — not rage.
Recognition.
His hand lifts.
Stops just short of your waist.
“You don’t get to pull that out of me casually,” he says.
“I’m not.”
He studies you like he’s recalibrating everything he thought he understood.
“You liked that I was angry.”
“Yes.”
The word is barely there.
“And you like that I don’t lose control.”
“Yes.”
He steps closer.
Your foreheads nearly touch.
Breath shared.
No contact.
Just heat.
“You’re not fragile,” he murmurs.
“No.”
“You’re not something to pass between shifts.”
“No.”
His fingers brush the air near your hip.
Not touching.
Claiming space.
“If you want to provoke me,” he says softly, “you need to understand what that means.”
Your lips part slightly.
“And what does it mean?”
His thumb finally presses lightly against your waist.
Not forceful.
Certain.
“It means I don’t compete.”
The device flickers.
“You choose,” he continues.
“I did.”
His hand slides slightly higher — still controlled — still deliberate.
“And if I accuse you of doing it on purpose?” he asks.
You meet his eyes.
“What if I did?”
The air goes razor-thin.
He doesn’t snap.
Doesn’t surge.
He leans in until his mouth hovers beside your ear.
“You don’t get to weaponize my restraint unless you’re prepared for me to stop restraining.”
Your breath stutters.
Not fear.
Anticipation.
He pulls back just enough to look at you.
“You wanted me to see,” he says again.
“Yes.”
“You wanted me territorial.”
“Yes.”
His other hand braces against the table beside you — caging without touching.
“And you liked it.”
You don’t even try to hide it now.
“Yes.”
The device hums.
Watching.
Calculating.
Peter’s expression shifts.
Not anger.
Decision.
He steps back half an inch.
Forcing you to lean forward if you want him.
Forcing you to close the gap.
You do.
That choice is everything.
His fingers slide under your chin — gentle but unyielding — tilting your face up.
“You don’t belong to him,” he says.
“I know.”
“You don’t belong to Brenner.”
“I know.”
His thumb presses slightly firmer.
“You choose me.”
“Yes.”
A beat.
“And I choose you.”
Not possession.
Not control.
Mutual.
The device spikes — confused by the lack of aggression.
He lowers his forehead to yours.
Finally touching.
Barely.
“You don’t get to doubt that,” he whispers.
Your hands slide into the fabric at his sides.
Grounding.
Keeping.
“And if I want to see how far you’d go?” you murmur.
His jaw tightens.
“For you?” he says quietly.
“All the way.”
The words settle heavy between you.
Not reckless.
Not empty.
A promise building.
And somewhere deep beneath the tension, beneath the dark pull and the possessive edges —
There’s something softer.
He rests his forehead fully against yours now.
Breathing steadies.
Hands no longer hovering.
Holding.
Not claiming.
Keeping.
And you melt into it.
Because the truth isn’t that you want chaos.
It’s that you want to be chosen without being evaluated.
pairings: peter ballard x fem!reader
warnings: 18+ MDNI!!!, power imbalance, manipulation themes, jealous!peter, possesive!peter, suggestive content, slow burn, angst, fluff
chapter summary: staying becomes the most reckless thing you can do. wanting hurts, but neither of you stops. somewhere down the hall, a line is crossed. TW:brenner obv
a/n: helllooo again my beauiful readersss!!!! oh my goodness i am SO SORRY this chapter took basically 3 days to write!!! i'm a college student juggling work and 6 classes and my uni just started last week:((( BUT i will try my hardest to write these chapters ASAPPP!!! i hope you're all enjoying this fic, i love your comments and support, thank you all so much for your patience!!!!! happy reading, my loves<33333
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The lab never really sleeps.
It only quiets–settles into a rhythm that pretends nothing has changed.
Peter notices the difference anyway.
He sits straighter during sessions now. Not tense–alert. His focus is sharper, his corrections cleaner, his patience thinner in places it used to stretch. When technicians speak your name, something tightens at the base of his neck, a subtle recalibration that the device registers immediately.
He pushes through it.
Not recklessly. Never that.
Focused.
Because he doesn’t need to see Jasiel beside you to know what’s happening.
Jasiel speaks to you without instruction.
Jasiel offers you things without permission.
Jasiel assumes proximity.
Patterns form quickly when you’re trained to see them.
Why does he think he’s allowed?
The thought repeats itself calmly, dangerously, each time more certain than the last. Peter doesn’t imagine Jasiel touching you, not yet. He doesn’t need to. It’s enough to know that someone else thinks closeness is theirs to take.
The device hums, a warning, a reminder.
He absorbs it. Channels it.
Control is still his.
You, on the other hand, are failing spectacularly at control.
The next day drags. You sit at your station, eyes on the monitors, fingers hovering uselessly over the console while your body betrays you in small, telling ways, warmth pooling low in your stomach, a faint ache behind your ribs where memory presses too insistently.
It isn’t the kiss itself that keeps replaying.
It’s what came with it.
They’re not allowed to speak to you like that.
I’ve wanted to for a long time.
The words settle deeper every time you think them, threading through you like a secret you’re not supposed to enjoy.
You do anyway.
You like that he noticed.
You like that he intervened without asking.
You like that he wanted to claim without touching–like restraint was part of the promise.
It should scare you.
Instead, it makes you feel chosen in a way you never have been.
Brenner notices everything.
He watches the footage with clinical interest, cross-referencing timestamps with device logs, noting the way Peter’s agitation sharpens instead of dissolving. Jealousy destabilizes—but it also motivates. Focus improves. Compliance tightens. Emotional agitation doesn’t fracture performance.
It enhances it.
Interesting.
So he intervenes, not with reprimand, but adjustment.
Jasiel’s schedule has been moved. Permanently. Nights. Closer to you. More overlap. More exposure.
Not to provoke chaos.
To test limits.
Brenner does not see attachment.
He sees leverage.
The meeting with Brenner happens before you’re ready for it.
His office smells faintly of antiseptic and old paper, the lights too bright, the desk too clean. He doesn’t look up when you enter.
“You’re late,” he says mildly.
“I wasn’t scheduled–”
“You’re always scheduled,” he interrupts, finally lifting his eyes. “That’s the nature of your position.”
Your position. Not you.
He gestures for you to sit, fingers steepled. “Peter’s responsiveness has improved.”
You wait. You’ve learned that silence invites more truth than questions ever do.
“This isn’t about sentiment,” Brenner continues. “Your presence acts as a regulatory variable. A stabilizing one.”
Something inside you tightens.
“I’m not a–” You stop yourself. Correct course. “I’m not equipment.”
Brenner studies you like he always has–measuring, evaluating. “No,” he says. “You’re more efficient than equipment. You adapt.”
Useful. Again.
When you leave his office, your hands are shaking, not from anger, but something quieter. Something older.
You don’t go back to your station right away.
Instead, you stop in an empty corridor, pull a scrap of paper from your pocket, and write quickly, before the feeling can dissolve.
My name is mine.
I am more than what he says I am.
You fold it small. Tuck it away.
Authorization comes through mid-shift, and this time, your chest tightens for a different reason.
Not nerves.
Anticipation.
You don’t hesitate long enough for doubt to take hold. You know what this is now. You know what he is to you. You smooth your palms down your thighs once–steadying yourself–and leave your station without looking back.
The room feels smaller when you step inside. Not because of him, but because you’re more aware of yourself in it now, of the way your pulse responds to his presence, of the way your body remembers where his hands were, where his mouth lingered.
Peter is already standing.
His eyes lift the moment you enter, and something in his posture shifts–subtle, restrained, but unmistakably attentive.
You don’t apologize.
You don’t explain last night.
Instead, you say quietly, “Brenner called me into his office today.”
That gets his full attention.
“He said my presence stabilizes you,” you continue, voice steady even as the words press sharp against old bruises. “That I’m… effective.”
Peter’s jaw tightens.
“He always uses words like that,” you add. “Efficient. Adaptive. Useful.”
Your hands curl into fists at your sides before you can stop them. “I grew up hearing them. I thought that was what care sounded like.”
You meet Peter’s eyes then. Hold them.
“I didn’t realize until recently that I’ve never been chosen,” you say softly. “Only evaluated.”
Silence fills the space between you–heavy, reverent.
Peter steps closer.
Not abruptly. Not hesitantly.
Deliberate.
“You were conditioned,” he says, voice low and steady with something far more dangerous than sympathy. “Just like the rest of us.”
The device reacts immediately.
A sharp spike. A flare of pain that draws a tight breath from his chest.
He doesn’t retreat.
You don’t either.
Your hands rise on instinct, fingers curling around his wrists, grounding him. Your thumbs press into warm skin, anchoring him in the present.
“I know,” you whisper. “I see it now.”
His forehead lowers to yours, breath warm against your mouth. His hands slide up your arms, gripping fabric—not to restrain you, but to remind himself you’re real.
“No one gets to decide your worth anymore,” he says. “Not him.”
Pain pulses through him again–stronger this time. His grip tightens.
You feel it.
You stay.
Your breathing syncs, bodies close but barely touching, the air between you charged and alive. You tilt your head just enough to brush your nose against his.
“I’m not afraid,” you murmur.
Something in Peter breaks open at that.
He kisses you.
Hard enough that it steals the air from your lungs.
There’s nothing gentle about it, no hesitation, no testing. His mouth claims yours like he’s afraid the pain will tear him away if he doesn’t anchor himself fast enough. Like you’re the only thing keeping him here.
The device shrieks.
Not a warning–an alarm.
His body jerks, sharp and involuntary, breath breaking against your lips as electricity rips through him. A low, fractured sound tears out of his chest, raw and unguarded, and for the first time you feel how close he is to losing control.
His hands clamp down on you–firm, possessive, grounding–fingers digging into fabric like he’s afraid the pain will pry you from him. The device pulses again, hotter, crueler, and this time he staggers.
You don’t move away.
You press closer.
Your mouth stays on his, refusing to let the moment fracture, kissing him through the tremor, through the violence of it. His breath shudders into you, desperate, unsteady, like he’s hanging onto you by instinct alone.
“Don’t,” you whisper–not to stop him.
To keep him here.
The device surges–violent, unforgiving.
Peter gasps, forehead dropping to yours, jaw clenched so tight you can feel the tension radiating off him. For a split second, it looks like the system might win, like it might force him back, tear him away, end this whether either of you want it or not.
He growls softly.
And stays.
“I don’t care if it hurts,” he breathes, voice low and wrecked. “I care if you’re taken.”
Your hands slide into his hair, steadying him, grounding him as the device screams its protest. Your bodies barely touch, but the space between you is unbearable–charged, electric, dangerous.
“I’m here,” you murmur against his mouth.
This time, when he kisses you again, it’s slower, but heavier. Controlled in a way that feels intentional. Like he’s choosing you even as the pain claws through him.
“You’re mine,” he says quietly, the words pressed between breaths, between pulses of agony.
“And no one will ever do that to you again.”
Not a threat.
A vow.
The device flares one last time, sharp enough that he finally has to pull back, hands loosening only when the system forces distance between you. He exhales hard, shaking, eyes dark and feral as they lock onto yours.
Letting go costs him.
You can see it.
When you step away, it’s slow. Deliberate. Your skin hums, heart pounding, mouth still tingling with the echo of him. He watches you like the restraint is eating him alive.
You leave steady.
Not frightened.
Not regretful.
Just carrying the weight of the truth you both felt–
That the system tried to stop him.
And failed.
Interesting, you think
Peter stays behind.
The door closes behind you with a soft click.
Not loud.
Not final.
Just enough to tell Peter you’re gone.
For a moment, nothing happens.
Then the device pulses–late, delayed, vindictive.
Peter’s breath stutters. The room tilts, just slightly, like the floor has decided to remind him where he is now that you aren’t. The hum of the monitors sharpens, needles into his skull, and the heat under his skin flares all at once instead of in waves.
He braces a hand against the table.
Misses.
His knee hits first.
The impact jars the breath from his lungs, a rough sound tearing out of him as he drops hard to the floor. Pain detonates up his spine–electric, blinding–and this time there’s no one close enough to ground him through it.
Good.
You don’t need to see this.
He curls forward instinctively, forearm locked tight over the device as if pressure might quiet it, teeth clenched so hard his jaw aches. His vision spots at the edges, black creeping in and out, but he forces himself to stay present.
Stay here.
The pain fades slowly, never fully gone, just receding enough to breathe through.
When it finally loosens its grip, Peter stays where he is, forehead resting briefly against the cool floor. His skin still buzzes everywhere you touched him. Where your hands steadied him. Where your mouth stayed even when the system tried to tear him apart.
You always do this to him.
Not the pain–
The staying.
He exhales, long and shaky, and drags a hand down his face as if he can wipe the feeling of you away. He doesn’t succeed. Your voice slips back in, uninvited, cruelly clear.
I didn’t realize until recently that I’ve never been chosen.
Something in his chest twists–sharp, ugly, furious.
He shifts to push himself upright–
And that’s when he sees it.
Just beside the chair.
Near where you’d been standing when you leaned in close.
Close enough that it must have fallen when you turned away.
A small square of folded paper.
Peter freezes.
His heart gives a single, heavy thud, like his body recognizes it before his mind does. The room seems to pull tight around him, every sound suddenly distant.
He reaches for the edge of the table, hauls himself up slowly, ignoring the way his muscles protest. The device flickers at the movement, but he snarls softly and pushes through it.
No.
Not now.
He steps closer.
The paper is unremarkable. Plain. Folded twice. The edges worn soft, like it’s been opened and closed more times than it should have been.
Something you kept.
Something you didn’t mean to leave behind.
He crouches again–more carefully this time–and picks it up. His fingers linger for a second too long, thumb brushing over the crease like he’s mapping where it’s been carried.
He doesn’t open it yet.
There’s a weight to it that has nothing to do with paper.
Not a secret.
A truth.
Finally, he unfolds it.
The handwriting is small. Careful. Not rushed.
Not dramatic.
Just honest.
It isn’t long.
It doesn’t have to be.
Peter’s breath stutters once as he reads.
Again.
And again.
The device reacts–not violently, not yet–but with a low, warning hum, like it recognizes the shift before he does.
This isn’t fear.
This isn’t pain.
This is clarity.
He straightens slowly, folding the note back exactly the way he found it. His hands are steady now. Too steady. The ache in his head dulls into something cold and focused, like all the heat in him has been redirected somewhere sharp.
Brenner knew.
Brenner always knows.
And he still sent you in.
Still let you carry history and guilt and proximity like tools, like variables, like something to be measured instead of protected.
Peter’s jaw tightens until it aches.
“No one gets to decide your worth anymore,” he had told you.
The words replay, not as comfort, but as a vow.
The door opens before he consciously decides to move.
The hallway is brighter than the room, fluorescent and sterile and wrong. The sound of voices carries easily here, bouncing off white walls that have heard worse things than this.
That’s when he sees you.
You’re standing near the corner, posture relaxed in a way that makes something in his chest twist sharply. Jasiel is there too, leaning casually, hands shoved into his pockets like this is just another shift, just another conversation.
Peter stops short.
He watches.
You’re listening, head tilted slightly, that soft focus you get when you’re being kind without realizing it. Jasiel says something–Peter can’t hear the words–but you respond with a small shake of your head, a quiet smile that doesn’t quite reach your eyes.
Then Jasiel’s hand lifts.
It settles on your shoulder.
Not lingering.
Not inappropriate.
Just… familiar.
The device spikes.
Peter’s vision narrows.
There’s a sharp pull in his chest, possessive and sudden and furious, cutting through the calm he’d just found. His fingers curl at his sides. His body reacts before his mind can catch up, pain flashing hot and electric as the restraint struggles to recalibrate.
He doesn’t care.
All he can see is that hand.
All he can think is mine–not as ownership, but as protection. As certainty. As something instinctual and bone-deep that doesn’t ask permission.
Your head turns then.
Your eyes meet his.
The moment freezes.
You don’t pull away from Jasiel immediately–not because you don’t want to, but because you’re caught off guard by the intensity in Peter’s stare. There’s something different there now. Not just want. Not just connection.
Resolve.
Something dark and unyielding and awake.
Something dark and unyielding and awake.
Peter takes one step forward–
Then stops himself.
His breathing is too loud. Too fast. The device is already protesting, the hum climbing in pitch, warning of consequences he suddenly doesn’t care about.
He turns away.
Not in defeat.
In restraint.
The hallway feels too small to contain what’s building in him, and he knows–knows–that if he stays one second longer, he won’t just snap at Jasiel.
He’ll snap at the entire system that put you here.
pairings: peter ballard x fem!reader
warnings: 18+ MDNI!!!, power imbalance, manipulation themes, jealous!peter, possesive!peter, suggestive content, slow burn, angst, fluff
chapter summary: something tender slips through the cracks of control. it isn’t reckless, just inevitable. and inevitability has consequences.
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The lab never really resets.
It just keeps moving.
Morning bleeds into afternoon, afternoon into night, the same routines cycling through different faces. Clipboards. Footsteps. Doors opening and closing with practiced precision. On the surface, nothing has changed.
But you have.
You haven’t pulled away from Peter–not completely. You still linger near his room longer than required, still let your gaze settle on Camera 12B when you shouldn’t. The difference now is caution. A carefulness layered over something softer, something you don’t quite trust yourself to name.
Peter notices immediately.
He doesn’t ask why you hesitate before entering. He doesn’t comment on the way you keep a little more distance, how your hands fold together instead of resting at your sides. He just… adjusts. Straightens. Slows himself down.
As if he understands that restraint is the only way you’ll stay.
On surveillance, the pattern becomes impossible to ignore.
Peter’s behavior has stabilized further–compliance reports clean, training sessions uninterrupted. On paper, it’s remarkable. Brenner is pleased in that cold, measured way of his. He stands behind you as you monitor the feeds, hands clasped behind his back, eyes sharp with calculation.
“Consistent,” he murmurs. “Controlled. Focused.”
You nod, eyes fixed on the screen.
Peter looks calmer now. Centered. But there’s something else beneath it, a sharpness you hadn’t noticed before. His gaze lifts more often, precise and deliberate, landing directly on the camera when you’re on shift.
You tell yourself it’s a coincidence.
Brenner doesn’t.
“Your influence is proving effective,” he says. “Comparable to corrective stimuli. Perhaps more efficient.”
The words hit harder than you expect.
Corrective stimuli.
You realize then–slow, sinking–that he doesn’t see you as present. Or caring. Or human. You’re regulatory. Another mechanism. Another method of control.
Used the same way Peter is.
Later, during the late-night shift, the lab feels different, not quieter exactly, but softer at the edges. The lights hum at a lower frequency, casting long shadows across the floors. Conversations are muted, footsteps spaced farther apart. It’s the kind of stillness that makes your thoughts louder.
You try to focus on the monitors. You really do.
Camera feeds flicker one after another, but your attention keeps drifting back to the same one. You don’t let yourself linger. You tell yourself you’re being professional. Observant. Careful.
Careful, now.
You replay the last time you saw him without meaning to–the way the moment collapsed so suddenly, the sharp sound of his breath when the device reacted, the look in his eyes when you pulled away. You swallow, fingers curling together in your lap.
I startled him, you think.
I hurt him.
Even if he said it wasn’t your fault, the guilt still sits heavily in your chest.
You’re so wrapped up in your own thoughts that you almost don’t notice someone stopping outside the surveillance room.
“Hey.”
You look up to see Jasiel, holding two paper cups. He lifts one slightly. “Coffee. You were on late shift last night, right? Figured you might need it.”
There’s nothing strange about it. No ulterior motive you can sense. Just quiet kindness, offered without expectation.
You hesitate for a second, then take it. “Thanks.”
“Yeah,” he says with a small smile. “These hours hit different.”
They do. You talk about that for a bit, how time stretches strangely down here, how night makes everything feel heavier. It’s an easy conversation. Almost comforting. And that, more than anything, makes you aware of how tense you’ve been.
When Jasiel eventually moves on, coffee warming your hands, the guilt creeps back in.
Because comfort shouldn’t feel like betrayal, but right now, it does.
So, when Brenner authorizes another short interaction, your stomach flips.
You stand outside the door longer than necessary, hand hovering near the access panel. Your reflection stares back at you in the glass–composed on the surface, nervous underneath.
He’s interested, you tell yourself.
Just… boundaries.
The door unlocks.
Peter looks up immediately.
He notices everything. The way you pause just inside the threshold. The careful distance you keep this time. His posture shifts subtly–not defensive, just… adjusted.
You take a breath. “I’m sorry,” you say before you can overthink it.
His brow furrows slightly. “For what?”
“For last time,” you say quietly. “I pushed it. I startled you. I didn’t think about the device, and I should have.” You swallow. “I didn’t mean to hurt you.”
Peter’s expression softens instantly. He shakes his head. “You didn’t.”
“I did,” you insist gently. “Even if you didn’t mean it.”
He exhales, slow and controlled. “It caught me off guard,” he admits. “I’m usually… better at correcting myself. But being that close to you–I forgot.”
The admission lands heavier than you expect.
You step closer, heart pounding. “I don’t want to be something that makes things worse for you.”
“You’re not,” he says immediately. “You’re the opposite.”
The silence that follows isn’t awkward. It’s full.
You sit beside him–slow, deliberate–giving him time to register the movement. Your knee nearly brushes his. You stop there, resisting the urge to close the distance completely.
“There was an orderly earlier,” you say after a moment. “Jasiel. He brought me coffee.”
Peter stiffens–just barely.
You notice anyway.
“And he kept calling you ‘One,’” you continue, quieter now. “I didn’t correct him. I just… didn’t like it.”
The device responds before Peter can stop it. A sharp pulse. He inhales through his nose, jaw tightening, expression carefully neutral.
You see it.
Your hand lifts, then hesitates midair, memory of last time flashing bright and fast.
Then you place it gently on his thigh.
“Are you okay?” you ask softly.
Peter looks at you then–really looks at you. Something raw flickers in his eyes before he reins it in.
“Yes,” he says. A beat. “You make me okay.”
Your breath catches. Heat blooms across your face, sudden and uncontrollable. Your thumb moves without thinking, brushing lightly against his thigh–slow, soothing.
The tension eases. The pain dulls. Not gone, but manageable.
For a moment, neither of you speaks.
You’re acutely aware of how close you are now. How easily you could close the gap. How easily this could be taken away.
If not now, you think, then never.
You lift your gaze to his. “Is this… allowed?”
Peter nods immediately. No hesitation. No doubt. He’s been holding himself back for too long.
You lean in slowly, giving him time to pull away.
Your breath stutters as you close the distance.
Peter doesn’t move at first, not because he doesn’t want to, but because he’s holding himself perfectly still, like any sudden motion might break whatever fragile permission this moment exists under. His eyes flick to your mouth, then back to your eyes, searching. Asking without words.
You tilt your head slightly. That’s all it takes.
When his lips meet yours, it’s barely a kiss at first–just a careful press, soft and reverent, like he’s memorizing the feeling rather than taking it. You can feel the tension in him immediately, coiled tight beneath his skin, every instinct screaming for more while his body obeys restraint out of sheer will.
His breath is warm against your cheek. Uneven.
You don’t pull away.
That’s when he deepens it–slowly, deliberately–like he’s testing how much you’ll allow. His mouth moves against yours with growing confidence, but never roughly. Never rushed. It’s intimate in the way that makes your chest ache, the kind of kiss that feels chosen rather than stolen.
His hand finally lands on your waist.
Not gripping. Not claiming. Just there–solid, grounding, unmistakably present. His thumb presses lightly into your side, like he needs the physical proof that you’re real, that you’re not going to vanish the moment he lets himself feel this.
You make a soft sound before you can stop yourself.
Peter reacts instantly.
The kiss shifts, not faster, but hungrier. His other hand lifts, hovering near your hip, then hesitates, as if he’s still giving you an out. When you lean into him, closing the last inch of space, he exhales sharply through his nose and pulls you closer.
Still careful. Still controlled.
But there’s no mistaking it now.
This is possession held on a leash.
His thoughts are loud, relentless.
Mine.
She chose this.
She came back.
The world narrows to the way your lips fit against his, the way you respond to him without fear. He kisses you like he’s been waiting, like every stolen glance, every measured conversation has been building toward this single point of contact.
His forehead rests against yours when you finally part, both of you breathing harder now.
“You don’t know what you do to me,” he murmurs, voice low, honest in a way that borders on dangerous.
Your heart hammers. “Then tell me.”
His grip tightens just a fraction. Enough to feel it.
“I notice when anyone looks at you,” he admits. “When they speak to you. When they think they’re allowed to.” His jaw tightens. “They’re not.”
It should scare you.
Instead, it sends a shiver down your spine.
“But you are,” he continues, softer now. “You’re allowed. You chose to be here.”
You lift your hand, brushing your thumb gently along his jaw. “Always.”
Something in him snaps–not violently, just… decisively.
He kisses you again, slower this time, deeper, like he’s sealing the moment into himself. Like he wants this memory branded into his mind for every second he’s forced to go without you.
When he finally pulls back, his eyes are dark, focused entirely on you.
Reluctant. Possessive. Devoted.
And when you step away later–when the door closes and the distance returns–Peter doesn’t feel calm.
He feels claimed.
And the thought settles deep and irreparable:
No one else should get close to you.
Later, Brenner watches the footage alone.
The lab is quieter at this hour, stripped down to its essentials: humming machines, blinking indicators, the faint mechanical rhythm of a place that never truly sleeps. He sits with his hands folded, posture immaculate, eyes fixed on the screen as if it might blink first.
It doesn’t.
He rewinds once. Then again.
Not because he missed anything, but because he wants to be certain.
The moment your hand touches Peter’s thigh, the data scrolls differently.
The frequency spike–previously erratic, hostile–doesn’t disappear. It shouldn’t. But it softens. Stabilizes. The waveform tightens, becomes something closer to controlled pain rather than punishment.
Brenner leans forward.
Interesting.
He overlays the physiological readouts with the visual feed. Heart rate. Cortisol levels. Neural response. All of it aligns too neatly to be coincidence.
When Jasiel’s name is spoken earlier–there it is.
A sharp, violent flare.
Peter’s jaw tightening. The microsecond hitch in his breath. The device reacting as if to a threat that exists only in language.
Brenner’s lips press together, thoughtful.
Names matter, then.
Possession encoded deeper than he anticipated.
And then–your presence again.
Your hesitation. Your choice. Your touch.
The numbers respond the way years of conditioning never managed to achieve.
Brenner doesn’t see a kiss.
He sees a lever being pulled.
A stimulus that overrides pain compliance protocols without diminishing output. A calming agent that doesn’t sedate. A stabilizer that improves performance under stress.
Remarkable.
He pauses the footage just before Peter’s hand settles at your waist.
He does not allow himself to wonder how it feels.
Brenner tells himself affection is not the point.
What matters is this:
Peter does not merely respond to you.
He orients around you.
That is far more dangerous.
And, luckily for Brenner, far more useful.
Brenner makes a note in his file–not about boundaries breached, not about unauthorized intimacy.
Just a single, precise line:
Her proximity results in sustained regulation even under elevated frequency. Emotional exclusivity appears to heighten response.
He exhales slowly, satisfied.
The experiment is no longer unstable.
It’s evolving.
And somewhere down the hall, alone again, Peter sits perfectly still–
thinking of your mouth, your warmth, the way you chose him–
while Brenner smiles, already planning how to tighten the leash.
pairings: peter ballard x fem!reader
warnings: 18+ MDNI!!!, power imbalance, manipulation themes, jealous!peter, possesive!peter, suggestive content, slow burn, angst, fluff
chapter summary: what begins as curiosity turns into something far more deliberate. and once you matter to someone who’s been taught to wait, being noticed is dangerous.
a/n: hellloooo beautiful readers!!! i'm so sorry for this chapter delay, i've been super busy!!! but, this chapter gave me some issues BUT i think it came out goooddd and i cannot wait for you guys to read the next one!!! thank you so much again for your continuous support and sweet comments!! happy reading, my dears<3333
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The lab doesn’t sleep.
It only dims.
Night shift drains the color from everything–fluorescent lights humming lower, hallways stretched longer by silence. The kind of quiet that isn’t peaceful, just watchful. You’ve learned the difference.
You sit behind the monitor of the surveillance room, knees drawn close, the glow of the monitors reflecting faintly off the window. Camera 12B flickers softly in front of you.
Peter is awake.
He sits on the edge of the cot, elbows resting on his knees, head slightly bowed–not restrained, not sedated. Just waiting. He always waits like he knows something will happen eventually. Like patience is a muscle he’s been forced to strengthen.
Behind you, the door opens.
“You’re here late.”
Dr. Brenner’s voice is calm. Mild. Almost fond, if someone didn’t know better.
You don’t turn right away. “You asked me to stay.”
A pause. Footsteps closer. You feel him behind you, hands clasped behind his back, the way he always does when he’s thinking several steps ahead.
“I wanted to review today’s reports,” he says. “Subject One performed… notably well.”
You nod. You already know this.
“He’s more focused,” Brenner continues. “Less volatile. Fewer incidents.”
Then, casually–too casually–
“It appears your presence has a stabilizing effect.”
The words settle heavy in your chest.
“My presence,” you repeat.
“Yes.” A beat. “Useful, wouldn’t you agree?”
Useful.
Not comforting. Not kind. Not human.
Useful.
You finally turn to face him. He’s watching you the way he watches data–evaluating, measuring, adjusting. The man who raised you in corridors and classrooms, who missed birthdays because experiments ran late, who taught you early that affection was conditional and attention was earned.
“You mean,” you say slowly, “that I’m helping him comply.”
Brenner tilts his head. “I mean that you are another variable worth observing.”
Another variable.
You swallow. The familiar ache presses in–old, practiced. You shouldn’t be surprised. Still, something about the way he says it tonight makes it sharper. Colder.
“Then I’ll continue monitoring,” you say, voice steady despite the tightness behind your ribs.
You check the corridor schedule. Minimal staff. Protocol allows brief, supervised interaction.
You stand before you can talk yourself out of it.
On your way down, you nearly collide with an orderly you don’t recognize.
“Sorry,” he says easily, stepping aside. “Late night.”
“Yeah,” you reply, distracted.
He glances at the clipboard in his hand. “You heading to check on One?”
You pause. “Peter.”
The correction slips out before you can stop it.
The orderly nods. “Right. He’s been steady tonight.”
There’s no judgment in his tone. Just information.
You move past him before the conversation can become anything else.
Then, you find yourself standing in the hallway outside 12B. At some point, sitting behind the monitor wasn’t enough anymore.
The door unlocks with a soft click.
Peter looks up immediately.
His eyes find you like they always do–too fast, too precise. There’s a flicker of something there you don’t have a name for yet. Recognition. Relief. Maybe curiosity sharpened into something else.
“Hey,” he says softly.
Your heart stutters. “Hi.”
You stop a few feet away–close enough to speak quietly, far enough to keep it appropriate.
“You don’t usually come down this late,” he says.
“I know… I was just checking in,” you reply, hovering near the door. “It’s late.”
“I’m glad you did,” he says after a moment. “I was hoping.”
The admission feels heavier than it should.
You smile back at him, “How was today?”
Peter exhales slowly, like the question matters. “Training. Again. They pushed the younger ones harder.”
“And you?” you prompt gently, though you already know the answer. You just want to hear it from him.
“I guide them,” he says. “Correct them when they lose control.” His jaw tightens. “Sometimes they’re afraid of me.”
“You don’t like that.”
“No.” A pause. Then, quieter, “I don’t like being what they fear.”
Your chest aches at that. You move closer without fully realizing it, sitting beside him on the edge of the cot. The mattress dips slightly under your weight.
Peter notices. Of course he does.
“You don’t look at me like they do,” he says suddenly.
You glance at him. “How do I look at you?”
“Like I’m… normal,” he says, almost uncertain. “Like you chose to be kind. Not because someone told you to.”
The words catch you off guard. They shouldn’t–but they do.
You hesitate, then admit softly, “Sometimes I think Dr. Brenner only sees me when I’m useful too.”
Peter turns toward you fully now. “You’re his daughter.”
“In theory,” you say, a sad little smile tugging at your lips. “In practice, the lab came first. It always did.”
You glance down, then back up. “My father doesn’t like sentiment,” you say carefully. “He thinks it clouds judgment.”
Peter’s jaw tightens, not in anger, but in something like understanding.
“He doesn’t talk to you like a father,” he says.
It’s not a question.
“No,” you admit. “He’s better at building things than… keeping them.”
Peter’s gaze softens.
“He should have tried harder,” he says quietly.
The words hit harder than you expect. You blink, throat tight, and look away before he can see too much.
“Thank you,” you whisper. “For listening.”
The air between you feels charged, fragile. You place your hand on his thigh without thinking–just a grounding touch, meant to steady yourself as much as him.
Peter’s breath stutters. His gaze drops to your hand, then lifts–slow, intense.
The room feels smaller when you sit beside him.
Not because it actually is, but because Peter becomes acutely aware of where you are in relation to him. The warmth of your body seeps through the thin space between you, subtle but undeniable. His hands rest on his knees, fingers curled like he’s holding himself still on purpose.
“I don’t think anyone’s ever asked me that before,” he says quietly. “What my day feels like.”
You turn slightly toward him. “They should have.”
Your voice isn’t accusatory. Just honest. That makes it worse somehow.
Peter studies your face like it’s something fragile, like if he looks too hard, it might disappear. “If we’re being honest,” he admits, “Most days I’m… tired. Not physically. Just–” He exhales. “Being aware all the time is exhausting.”
You nod. You don’t interrupt. You let the silence tell him it’s safe to keep going.
“When you’re here,” he continues, softer now, “it’s quieter. Inside.”
The words land somewhere deep. You don’t trust yourself to respond right away, so you don’t. Instead, your thumb moves before your mind can stop it—drawing circles on his thigh, a grounding touch meant to say I hear you. I see you
Peter inhales sharply.
It’s not dramatic. It’s not loud. Just enough for you to notice.
You look down at your hand, then back up at him. “I’m sorry–was that–”
“No,” he says immediately. Too quickly. “Don’t.”
Your fingers stay where they are. Neither of you moves.
The air between you thickens, charged with something unnamed but unmistakable. Peter’s gaze drifts from your eyes to your mouth–not intentionally, not like a decision, but like gravity pulling him somewhere he hasn’t let himself go before.
“You don’t look at me like I’m dangerous,” he murmurs.
You swallow. “You’re not.”
His lips part slightly. You can see the moment he realizes how close you are–how close he is. Your knees almost touch. Your breath mingles. Every sound feels amplified: the hum of the lights, the quiet rush of blood in your ears.
Peter leans in–not all the way. Just enough that you feel it. The question in it. The restraint.
Your heart stutters. You don’t pull away.
For a second–just one–it feels like the world narrows down to this space. To the warmth of his leg beneath your hand. To the way his eyes search yours, like he’s asking permission without words.
Your foreheads almost touch.
Almost.
Then pain rips through the moment like broken glass.
Peter gasps, body jerking back as his hand flies to his neck. The device flares cruelly, unforgiving. The closeness shatters instantly.
You stand up so fast the chair scrapes softly against the floor.
“Oh god–I’m so sorry,” you whisper, panic flooding in. “I didn’t think–I shouldn’t have–”
“No,” Peter says through clenched teeth, forcing himself to straighten despite the pain. His eyes find yours, urgent. “It wasn’t you. It’s never you.”
But fear has already taken root in your chest. The intimacy feels dangerous in hindsight–reckless. You step back, guilt heavy and sharp.
“I went too far,” you say, barely above a breath. “I should’ve known better.”
Peter reaches for you on instinct.
The device pulls him back.
He freezes, jaw tight, frustration flickering across his face–not at you, but at the invisible barrier that keeps stealing moments before they can finish becoming something real.
You don’t wait to see more.
You turn and leave before the ache in your chest can spill over into something harder to explain.
The hallway feels colder than before.
What is wrong with me?
I pushed too hard. Too fast.
You replay the moment over and over–too close, too fast, too much. Brenner’s voice echoes in your head: Don’t grow attached.
You barely notice the footsteps approaching until a voice cuts through your guilt.
“Hey–are you okay? Did One try something?”
The voice startles you. You look up to see the orderly from earlier–dark hair, green eyes, concern written plainly across his face.
“I–yeah,” you lie quickly. “Everything’s fine. He didn’t– Peter wasn’t doing anything.”
The orderly exhales in relief. “Okay, good. Sorry–forgot to introduce myself. I’m Jasiel.” He rubs the back of his neck awkwardly. “Different shift tonight.”
You manage a small smile. “Nice to meet you. It’s hard sometimes. Knowing what goes on down here.”
He glances back toward the room. “It’s hard,” he says gently. “Seeing what they go through. Easier if you don’t get attached.”
You laugh softly, hollow. “Yeah. I guess.”
“If you need anything,” he adds, “I’m around.”
“Thanks,” you say quietly.
Behind the door, unseen–
Peter watches.
The device still burns at his throat, a dull, punishing reminder of where he’s meant to stay, but it barely registers. His focus locks onto the way Jasiel stands too close, the way his body angles toward you like he belongs there.
Peter’s jaw tightens.
He memorizes the distance between you. The sound of your voice when you answer him. The fact that you don’t step away.
Something ugly and possessive stirs beneath the calm he’s learned to wear so well–coiling, sharpening, refusing to be ignored.
pairings: peter ballard x fem!reader
warnings: 18+ MDNI!!!, power imbalance, manipulation themes, jealous!peter, possesive!peter, suggestive content, slow burn, angst, fluff
chapter summary: as Dr. Brenner's daughter, you were assigned to surveillance, not attachment. but Peter Ballard responds to your presence in ways the lab can’t quite explain, and some anomalies never make it into the report. control was never meant to feel this personal.
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The surveillance room is always cold.
Not in a way that can be fixed by adjusting the thermostat–no, it’s the kind of cold that seeps in through concrete and steel, through the knowledge of what this place is built to contain. The hum of electricity vibrates through the floor beneath your feet, a constant reminder that nothing here ever truly sleeps.
You sit in your usual chair, knees tucked up, arms folded loosely as rows of monitors stare back at you. Hallways stretch in grayscale. Doors open and close. White coats pass in practiced rhythms. Orderlies escort, pause, redirect.
Everything moves according to design.
You were taught to read patterns before you were taught to read people.
Camera 12B flickers slightly before stabilizing. Lower-level corridor. Recreation wing.
Peter Ballard is there.
He’s seated on the bench with his back straight, hands folded together like he’s afraid to move them. The restraint device at his neck rests heavy and unmistakable, a dull ring of metal that glints under the fluorescent lights whenever he shifts. It never leaves him, not really. Not even when Brenner pretends to offer privileges.
Peter doesn’t look restrained, though.
He looks… composed.
His gaze is lowered, expression calm, almost serene if you don’t know what lives beneath it. And you do know. Better than most. Better than Brenner thinks you should.
Your fingers still against the edge of the desk.
You didn’t mean for this to happen.
At least, not like this.
Peter’s eyes lift–not abruptly, not suspiciously. Just enough. Just precise enough. He looks directly into the camera.
At you.
The corner of his mouth softens.
It’s not a smile. Not here. But his shoulders ease, the tension bleeding out of him in a way so subtle no one else would ever notice.
“He likes you,” Brenner corrects, clinical as ever.
That gets you to look at him.
Brenner’s expression doesn’t change. It never does when he’s stating a fact. There’s no accusation in his tone, no concern, only observation. Assessment.
“You’re a stabilizing factor,” he continues. “An effective one.”
You swallow. “That’s not why I’m here.”
“No,” Brenner agrees. “You’re here because you need to understand what I’ve built.”
What you’ve broken, you think, but you don’t say it.
He leaves without another word.
The door seals shut again, and you’re alone with the screens, and with Peter, who has gone very still.
You didn’t plan to want him.
But you did plan to meet him.
You remember the stairwell vividly–how the concrete smelled faintly of disinfectant, how the fluorescent lights buzzed just slightly out of sync. You’d memorized his schedule days before. Not obsessively. Just enough.
The file folder in your arms felt heavier than it should have.
Peter Ballard. Subject 001.
Power, potential, volatility–words that followed his name like a shadow. Brenner never spoke about him with warmth. Only expectation.
You’d stood at the top of the stairs, heart steady, breath controlled. You weren’t nervous. You don’t get nervous.
You get curious.
The footsteps echoed before you saw him. You stepped forward at the exact right moment.
The collision was gentle, shoulder brushing shoulder, the folder slipping from your grasp. Papers scattered down the steps, white against gray.
“Oh–” Peter said, already moving, already crouching to collect them like it was his fault.
When he looked up and saw you, the fear was immediate.
Not panic. Not violence.
Caution.
Recognition.
Dr. Brenner’s daughter.
“I’m sorry,” he said quickly, hands pausing mid-motion. “I didn’t mean to–”
“It’s okay,” you interrupted softly.
He blinked.
You smiled–not sharp, not testing. Just open.
“That was on me,” you said. “I walk like I’m invincible.”
Something shifted in his face then. Confusion, maybe. Or relief.
“I’m Peter,” he said carefully.
“I know,” you replied, then amended, “I mean–I’ve seen you around.”
A lie, technically. You’d seen him in far more detail than that.
He hesitated. “I should go.”
“You don’t have to,” you said, and the words surprised you both.
The silence stretched–thin, electric.
“Maybe we’ll run into each other again,” you added, light as if it didn’t matter.
Peter studied you like he was waiting for the trap to spring.
“Maybe,” he said.
He left before you could say more.
You watched him disappear down the corridor, pulse finally quickening, not from fear, but from the thrill of knowing something had been set in motion.
Weeks pass without ceremony.
Your shifts overlap more often. His evaluations shorten. The tension in his posture eases in increments so small they’re almost invisible.
But Brenner notices.
He always does.
“Improvement,” he says once, reviewing footage with you. “Interesting.”
You say nothing.
Peter becomes… softer around you.
Not weaker. Never that.
But attentive. His eyes follow you when you enter a room. His voice lowers when he speaks to you, careful and deliberate. He asks how long your shift is. If you’re tired. If you’ll be back tomorrow.
Things he doesn’t ask anyone else.
Then comes the conversation.
It’s late. Too late for coincidence.
He’s being escorted back to his quarters when the orderly pauses to adjust equipment near the door. The corridor empties. The cameras still watch, but the microphone doesn’t catch everything.
You step closer than protocol suggests.
Peter looks at you, eyes searching. “You shouldn’t be here alone.”
“I’m not,” you reply quietly. “They’re watching.”
He glances at the camera. Then back to you.
“I don’t like it,” he says, voice low. Not angry. Not accusing. Just honest.
A warmth settles in your chest. “You don’t get a say.”
“I know,” he replies.
Then, after a beat: “I still don’t like it.”
The orderly shifts. The moment fractures.
But before Peter moves away, his gaze flicks–not to the camera.
To the space beside you. As if he’s already cataloging who belongs there.
Something coils beneath his calm.
Something new.
You step back first.
The door closes.
And as you walk away, unease settles in–not fear, not regret.
Just the knowledge that whatever this is, it’s no longer one-sided.
By the time you make it back to the control room, the chair beneath the monitors is still warm from your absence.
The screens glow softly in the dim light, each camera settling into place with a low mechanical hum. You slide into your seat, fingers brushing the console as Camera 12B stabilizes.
Peter is exactly where he’s meant to be.
Seated. Composed. Hands folded neatly in his lap, gaze lowered in practiced compliance. If anyone else were watching, they’d see nothing out of the ordinary.
Brenner would approve.
You rewind the footage–just a few seconds. Not enough to draw attention. Just enough to satisfy something tight in your chest.
The moment after you leave plays back in grainy black and white.
Peter doesn’t look at the door.
His eyes lift instead, tracking the corridor briefly, pausing at the sound of a voice that isn’t yours. An orderly passing too close. A presence that doesn’t belong in the space you’d occupied only seconds before.
His jaw tightens.
It’s subtle. Controlled. Gone almost as soon as it appears.
Then–slowly–his gaze shifts.
Up.
To the camera.
He holds it there longer than protocol requires.
You don’t log the anomaly.
Some things aren’t mistakes. Some things are adjustments.
The footage continues. The moment dissolves. Peter lowers his eyes once more, calm restored, posture perfect.
But the space beside him remains empty.
And somewhere beneath the hum of the monitors, beneath the careful order of the lab, something new settles into place–quiet, watchful, and unwilling to share.
pairings: peter ballard x fem!reader
warnings: 18+ MDNI!!, depictions of violence, sexual content, abuse (not detailed or from pairings!), angst, jealousy, slow-burn, emotional manipulation, steamy
chapter summary: the hallway becomes a pressure point, everything unsaid finally has nowhere left to go. what’s been carefully contained starts to slip, and the rules that once felt solid begin to bend in quiet, terrifying ways. somewhere between proximity and choice, something changes and the system finally notices.
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The hallway is narrower than you remember.
Or maybe it just feels that way now–compressed by everything you’ve been carrying, by the way the air seems to press in as soon as Peter steps into it behind you. The lab noise dulls the moment the door swings shut, replaced by a quieter hum that feels too intimate, too aware.
This is where it started.
You don’t point that out. You don’t need to. The memory lives in the walls near the storage shelves.
Peter stands a few feet away from you, rigid in a way you’ve never seen before, not his usual control, not his practiced stillness, but something tighter. Strained. Like he’s holding himself together by force alone.
You don’t give him time to recover.
“I’m done,” you say, the words sharp, clipped, carried by weeks of restraint finally snapping. “I’m done pretending this didn’t happen. I’m done with you acting like we were a mistake you corrected.”
“That’s not–” He stops himself, jaw tightening. His breath stutters. “That’s not what this is.”
You laugh, harsh and disbelieving. “Then what is it, Peter? Because from where I’m standing, you went cold the second Blair showed up. So just tell me.”
He frowns, confused. “Tell you what?”
“The truth,” you snap. “Tell me you’re interested in her now. Tell me you moved on. Tell me you needed something… simpler.” Your chest burns as you add, “Save the story. Don’t lie to me.”
His reaction is immediate.
“What?” His voice cracks on the word, sharp with genuine alarm. “No. No–God, no. I would never–how could you think that?”
You fold your arms tighter, defensive. “Then explain it. Because all I see is you choosing distance, choosing her authority, choosing whatever this is over me.”
He shakes his head rapidly, panic flickering across his face. “I didn’t choose her. I didn’t choose any of this.”
“Then why does it feel like you chose against me?” you demand.
The frequency hits him hard.
You see it this time–the way his shoulders tense, the way his hand jerks up to his temple before he can stop it. His breathing goes uneven, shallow, like he’s trying not to drown on dry land.
“Peter,” you say, a warning threaded through the concern. “What’s happening to you?”
“I’m fine,” he lies automatically, then winces, whether from the device or the lie itself, you don’t know. “I just need you to stop pushing for a second.”
“I’ve been stopping for weeks,” you fire back. “You don’t get that luxury anymore.”
That does it.
Something in him gives, not completely, but enough that the fracture shows.
“They recalibrated me,” he says, words rushed, almost tripping over themselves. “After Blair noticed irregular response patterns.”
You stare at him.
“…Are you serious right now?”
“I know how it sounds,” he says quickly, hands flexing at his sides like he doesn’t know where to put them. “I know it sounds like deflection or paranoia or–”
“It sounds like bullshit,” you interrupt. “It sounds like a story you’re telling because you don’t want to admit you pulled away.”
He flinches like you struck him.
“I didn’t pull away because I wanted to,” he says, voice rising despite himself. “I pulled away because I was told my proximity to you was causing interference.”
Your heart stutters.
“Interference with what?” you ask.
He hesitates–a fatal mistake.
Your disbelief surges. “Unbelievable. So now I’m a problem to be managed?”
“No,” he says desperately. “You’re not a problem. You’re–”
He stops.
You laugh again, hollow this time. “You’re doing it again. Dancing around the truth like it’s radioactive.”
“It is,” he whispers.
That lands wrong. Too heavy. Too real.
You shake your head. “You expect me to believe that the lab rewired you because you got close to me? That makes no sense.”
“Yes,” he says immediately. Too fast. Too earnest.
Your chest tightens. “Then say it. Say what they think I am.”
His throat bobs. He swallows hard.
“…A variable.”
The word drops between you like broken glass.
You stare at him, thoughts scrambling. Variable of what? The work? The kids? Your observations? Your presence?
“That doesn’t mean anything,” you say, even as something cold curls in your stomach. “You’re making it sound bigger than it is.”
“It is bigger,” he insists, voice shaking now. “They measure everything. Inputs. Outputs. Cause and effect. And when I was near you, the system behaved differently.”
“What does that even mean? You distanced yourself,” you say bitterly. “For the sake of the system?”
“No,” he says, voice breaking for real now. “For the sake of you.”
You freeze.
“I thought if I made it look like nothing,” he continues, words spilling faster, more frantic, “if I made it clean, procedural, they’d stop watching. That they wouldn’t tighten anything else. That they wouldn’t decide you needed to be… adjusted for.”
Your breath catches painfully.
“Stop,” you say. “Just–stop. This is insane.”
“I know,” he says. “I know. And I hate that I’m saying it this way. I didn’t want you to find out at all.”
“Then why are you telling me now?” you demand.
He looks at you like the answer terrifies him.
“Because you won’t let it go,” he says softly. “And because I can’t keep lying to you by omission.”
Silence stretches.
You feel like the floor has shifted beneath you, reality tilting at an angle your brain refuses to correct.
“Peter,” you say carefully, “if this is some elaborate way of protecting yourself from accountability–”
“I’ll show you,” he blurts.
You blink. “Show me what?”
His hands shake as they move to the hem of his shirt.
Your heart slams violently against your ribs. “What are you doing?”
“I need you to see it,” he says, voice barely holding together. “Because if I don’t, you’ll think I’m lying. And I–” His voice cracks again. “I can’t handle you thinking that.”
He lifts the fabric.
Time fractures.
The tattoo is stark against his pale skin. Dark. Deliberate.
001.
Your brain rejects it instantly.
No.
That’s not–
That’s not possible–
You stare, breath locked in your chest.
The number isn’t just a number.
It’s a designation.
Your thoughts avalanche all at once–the children, their names, the way numbers followed them like shadows. How each one corresponded. How none of them ever chose it.
“Oh my God,” you whisper, knees going weak. “No. No, no, no–”
Peter lets the shirt fall back into place, eyes glued to your face like he’s bracing for revulsion.
“I didn’t choose it,” he says quickly. “I didn’t even know what it meant at first.”
Your mind races, pulling threads together whether you want it to or not.
The first.
The prototype.
“You’re–” Your voice breaks. “You’re one of them.”
“I am,” he says, nodding once. “I always have been.”
Your chest aches with it, sharp and sudden. You think of the kids. The restraints. The way numbers replaced names. The way no one ever asked them what they wanted.
You look back at him–really look.
At the control.
The restraint.
The way closeness always seemed to hurt him.
And then your mind does something cruel.
It starts connecting things.
Not gently. Not neatly. It hits you in fragments, flashes you don’t want.
The fact that he never followed you to the parking lot, not once–not even late, not even when the lab was empty and the night felt too big.
The way he always stopped at the office door. Always.
How he never invited you over. Never lingered in yours. Never crossed that invisible line that would have been so easy to explain away as concern or courtesy.
You’d told yourself he was careful.
Professional.
Now the thought curdles.
Your breath comes shallow. “No,” you whisper, shaking your head. “No, this–this doesn’t make sense.”
He doesn’t interrupt you. Doesn’t correct you. That silence is worse than any answer.
“You’re telling me,” you continue, voice unsteady, “that you’re–what–like them?” The word children sticks painfully in your throat. “That you’re one of Brenner’s subjects?”
“I’m human,” he says quickly, too quickly. “I am. I think, I feel, I–”
“Stop,” you say, a hand lifting between you like you need physical space from the thought. “Just–stop for a second.”
Your gaze drops again, traitorous, pulled back to where the number had been.
001.
Your stomach flips violently.
You don’t touch him right away.
You can’t.
Your eyes are locked on the number like it might rearrange itself if you stare long enough. Like maybe it’ll blur, smear into something meaningless. A coincidence. Ink. A bad joke.
It doesn’t.
It’s there. Clean. Intentional. Old.
“Say it’s fake,” you whisper whilst closing your eyes.
Peter’s breath stutters. “It’s not.”
Your chest tightens painfully. “Say it anyway.”
Silence.
That silence is what breaks you.
You step closer before you realize you’ve moved. The space between you collapses in two quiet strides, and suddenly you’re standing right in front of him, close enough to feel the heat of his body, the tension humming just beneath his skin.
He doesn’t retreat.
That’s new.
Your hand lifts, trembling. You hesitate inches from his wrist, like touching him might shock you. Like you’ll feel something unnatural under your fingers–metal, vibration, static.
You don’t.
Your fingers brush his skin.
Warm.
Human.
You swallow hard and trace the edge of the ink with the pad of your thumb. It’s faintly raised, the way old scars sometimes are. Your touch is feather-light, but Peter inhales sharply like it hurts anyway.
“Oh my God,” you breathe.
The number feels real in a way words never could.
You press your thumb down harder, like you’re testing gravity.
“Did they–” Your voice breaks. You clear your throat, try again. “Did they name you that?”
“No,” he says quickly. “They numbered us first.”
Us.
Your hand stills.
Us.
Your vision blurs suddenly, tears you didn’t authorize welling up hot and fast. You blink them back, furious.
“You were a kid,” you whisper.
He nods once.
Your fingers curl around his wrist now, grip tightening without permission. “How old?”
“Too young to remember not being here.”
The hallway tilts.
You think of the children down the hall–the way they had no name, just numbers, the way their files are thicker than their histories. You think of how carefully Peter has always spoken to them. How gently. Like he knew exactly where the fear lived.
“You remember everything,” you say, realization hitting hard. “Don’t you?”
“Yes.”
Your breath shudders. “Even–”
“Yes.”
That one syllable is devastating.
You let go of his wrist abruptly, like you’ve been burned. You pace two steps away, then turn back, hands flying up to cradle your head.
“No,” you say again, louder now. “No, no, no. This isn’t–this isn’t what I thought this was.”
“I know.”
“I thought you were just–” You laugh, hysterical and sharp. “Careful. Private. Damaged in a way that made sense.”
He flinches. “I am damaged.”
“That’s not what I mean and you know it,” you snap, tears finally spilling over. “I thought this was human damage. I thought this was choice.”
“It is,” he says desperately. “I choose. Every day.”
You whirl on him. “Then why didn’t you ever walk me to my car?”
He freezes.
“Why didn’t you ever stay?” you demand. “Why did you always stop at the door like there was an invisible wall?”
His voice drops to barely audible. “Because Brenner decides the thresholds.”
Your knees feel weak.
“Thresholds,” you echo hollowly.
“If I crossed certain ones,” he continues, words shaking now, “they’d know. The device would register it. Attachment increases output. Output gets flagged.”
“So you just–what?” you choke. “You stayed where they could see you?”
“Yes. I had no other choice but to stay in the lab.”
The realization is merciless.
He wasn’t avoiding intimacy.
He was containing it.
The realization barely has time to settle before something in him fractures further.
“There’s–” he starts, then stops. Tries again. His breath stutters like his body can’t decide what to do with it. “There’s something else.”
You look up sharply. “What?”
His mouth opens. Closes. His hands curl at his sides like fists he doesn’t remember making.
“Peter isn’t–” His voice cracks on the name. He swallows hard, throat bobbing. “That isn’t my name.”
The words land wrong. Not heavy at first, just off. Like a sentence that doesn’t belong to you.
“What?” you say. It comes out too sharp. Defensive. “What do you mean, that’s not your name?”
He looks terrified now. Not of the lab. Not of consequences.
Of you.
“It’s an alias,” he says quickly, like if he explains fast enough you won’t run. “One Brenner assigned. For clearance. For function. For–” He breaks off, breath hitching. “For distance.”
Your pulse starts to roar in your ears.
“No,” you say, shaking your head. “No. Don’t–don’t do that. Don’t lie on top of this.”
“I’m not lying,” he insists, panic bleeding through the control. “I swear I’m not. I just–I didn’t know how to tell you.”
“Then tell me now,” you snap. “Because if this is some story to make this make sense, just say that. I’m giving you another chance to tell me the truth. Say you’re interested in Blair. Say you were bored. Say anything except–” Your voice falters. “--except this.”
He flinches like you struck him.
“I would never,” he says hoarsely. “God, no. Not her. Not anyone. I already told you I would never. There was only–” He stops himself, jaw trembling. “There was only you.”
Your chest tightens painfully. “Then who did I fall for?” you demand. “Because I thought I knew you. I thought I knew your name.”
Silence stretches between you, thick and unbearable.
Then, barely above a whisper, like saying it too loud might make it real:
“Henry.”
Your breath leaves you in a rush.
“What?”
“Henry Creel,” he says, voice breaking completely now. “That was my name. Before.”
Before what.
Before the lab.
Before the number.
Before the device.
Your head spins violently. “Henry,” you repeat, like the word itself is unstable. “So Peter is just–what? A role? A mask?”
“No,” he says desperately. “It’s me. It’s still me. I just–” His hands lift helplessly. “They said names create attachment. That Henry was… unmanageable. Confidential.”
You laugh, sharp and disbelieving, the sound ripping out of you. “So you erased him?”
“They did,” he says. “I just learned how to answer to something else.”
Your thoughts scatter, frantic now. Do I even know you? Did I ever? Every memory tilts, warps–every soft moment suddenly carrying a second shadow.
And then your eyes betray you again.
Back to the number.
001.
Something inside you shatters.
You pull back, pacing, spiraling now. “So what am I supposed to call you?” you demand, voice cracking. “Peter? Henry? Or just–just another variable you weren’t allowed to want?”
“No,” he says, breaking apart. “Never that. You were the only thing that ever felt like mine.”
You stop short.
Turn.
The hallway feels too small to hold the truth sitting between you.
“I don’t know who you are,” you say, devastated. “And I don’t know how I fell for someone I didn’t even know the real name of.”
His face crumples. “I was afraid of that,” he whispers. “I was afraid if I told you, you’d realize I wasn’t real enough to keep.”
You step back.
He doesn’t follow.
Of course he doesn’t.
Because thresholds matter.
Because names matter.
Because suddenly, painfully, everything makes sense–and that’s the part you’re not ready to forgive yet.
“That’s not possible,” you say, more to yourself than to him. “You’re not–you’re older than them. You’re different. You have autonomy. You have clearance. You–”
“I was taught,” he says quietly. “Conditioned. Given structure instead of isolation.”
Your head snaps up. “So you can do things?” you demand. “Like them?”
He hesitates.
That hesitation detonates something in you.
“Oh my God,” you breathe. “You can.”
His voice is low. Careful. “Not the same way.”
“That’s not comforting,” you snap, panic spiking. “What does that mean, Peter? What can you do? What does the device actually–”
“It regulates,” he says. “Suppresses amplification. Corrects emotional spikes. Keeps certain responses within acceptable thresholds.”
You stare at him, horrified.
“Acceptable to who?”
He doesn’t answer.
The silence is confirmation enough.
Your thoughts spiral faster now, relentless. Every clipped goodbye. Every time he pulled back first. Every moment where you’d leaned in and felt him freeze–not with disinterest, but with restraint so intense it felt painful.
You’d thought it was fear.
You hadn’t realized it was training.
Your hand flies back to his wrist without thinking, fingers wrapping around it like an anchor. You don’t look at the number this time. You look at him.
“You let me think you didn’t want more,” you whisper. “You let me think I imagined it.”
“I needed you to,” he says, voice breaking. “Because if you knew, you’d start asking questions. And questions are dangerous.”
You laugh, shaky and disbelieving. “You’re telling me this now and you think that isn’t dangerous?”
“I think you deserve the truth,” he says. “Even if it makes you hate me.”
You shake your head hard. “I don’t hate you. I just–” Your voice cracks. “I don’t know who you are.”
He flinches at that.
“That’s what I was afraid of,” he admits softly.
You look at him again–really look–and this time the familiarity hurts. The steadiness you trusted now feels like something engineered. The control you admired feels imposed.
“And Blair,” you say suddenly. “She knows.”
“Yes.”
“And Brenner.”
“Yes.”
Your hands curl into fists. “So every time I thought something was happening between us–every time I felt seen–you were being monitored.”
“I wasn’t supposed to feel it,” he says. “That was the problem.”
Your chest caves in completely.
“You should’ve told me,” you say, voice wrecked.
“I was afraid you’d look at me like this,” he admits, tears gathering in his eyes, voice cracking on the next word. “Like I’m not–like I’m something you need to escape. Or maybe thought I needed you to escape.”
You shake your head violently. “I don’t even know what I’m supposed to be looking at.”
“I know,” he says. “God, I know.”
You drop your forehead against his arm, breath shuddering out of you. The contact is instinctive, desperate. For a second, neither of you moves.
Then his free hand lifts, stops halfway, fingers twitching like he’s waiting for permission he’s never been given.
He hesitates like he’s about to cross another invisible line.
“There’s something else,” he says quietly.
Your stomach sinks. “Of course there is.”
“This one’s–” He swallows. “This one’s easier to show.”
He turns slightly, just enough to angle his shoulder away from you. You watch his hand lift to the back of his neck, fingers brushing the hairline, pushing it aside.
“There,” he says.
You lean in before you can stop yourself.
It’s small. Smaller than you expected. Nestled just beneath the skin at the base of his skull–a faint outline, pill-shaped, smooth. Almost subtle enough to miss if you didn’t know to look.
Your breath catches. “Is that… inside you?”
“Yes.”
Your voice comes out thin. “Does it hurt?”
“Not usually,” he says. Then, after a beat, more honest: “It aches. Constantly. Like pressure that never fully goes away.”
He presses his finger against it–not hard, just enough to trace the shape.
“I can feel it,” he continues. “Every time.”
Your chest tightens. “What does it do?”
“It regulates,” he says, the word practiced. Clinical. Then it fractures. “Suppresses emotional amplification. Dampens certain neurological responses. If something spikes too fast–fear, anger, attachment–it emits corrective frequencies.”
“Corrective,” you repeat hollowly.
His jaw tightens. “Headaches. Disorientation. Sometimes vertigo. If it’s pushed too far, I lose time.”
You stare at the place where his skin meets the device. “You mean it punishes you.”
“Yes.”
Silence stretches.
Then the questions spill out of you, fast and shaking.
“Then what about before?” you demand. “The looks? The pauses? The way we’d just–” Your throat tightens. “The way we’d see each other?”
He turns back to you slowly. “Those were minor spikes. Within tolerance.”
“And the first time we kissed?” you press. “Right here. In this hallway. By the storage shelves– and what about the stairwell?”
His breath stutters at the memory.
“It registered,” he admits. “But barely. I was… careful. I grounded myself. I guess the device wasn’t regulated all that well at the time.”
Your voice cracks. “So you felt it… everytime?”
“Yes.”
“And it didn’t stop you?”
“No.”
Your heart pounds. “Then what happens when it’s too much?”
He goes still.
“I don’t know,” he says quietly. “It’s never been like this.”
That lands harder than anything else.
You swallow. “Then what about Blair?”
The name snaps something sharp into the air.
“The day I heard you in her office,” you continue, hurt bleeding through your anger. “Laughing. Comfortable. Like none of this mattered.”
His shoulders sag.
“Turns out she was testing the device,” he says.
You freeze. “Testing it how?”
“Boundary stress,” he explains. “Controlled proximity. Emotional provocation. Brenner noticed anomalies after we started sharing coffee breaks. Smiling at the same time. Standing too close for too long. I guess he thought something was wrong with the device and put Blair to work.”
Your stomach churns.
“So he brought her in,” Peter continues. “She was meant to recalibrate me. Reinforce suppression. Make sure the device still responded the way it should.”
Your voice is barely there. “And did it?”
“Yes,” he says. Then, softer: “At first.”
You laugh shakily. “So I wasn’t imagining it. Any of it.”
“No,” he says immediately. “You never were.”
The hallway hums around you, too aware, too quiet.
“So every time you pulled back,” you whisper, “every time you went cold–it wasn’t because you didn’t want me.”
“No,” he says, voice breaking. “It was because wanting you made the system louder.”
You stare at him, at the device, at the number, at the man who learned how to survive by shrinking himself.
And suddenly, devastatingly, it all makes sense.
You don’t say anything.
You just lean in harder.
He breaks.
His hand cups the back of your head, careful but shaking, like he’s terrified of hurting you. His breathing is uneven now, control finally cracking under the weight of it all.
“I didn’t want you to be afraid,” he whispers into your hair. “I didn’t want to be a story you regret knowing.”
You pull back just enough to look at him.
“I am afraid,” you say honestly. “But not of you.”
That’s when he finally cries.
Not loudly. Not dramatically.
Just tears spilling over as he bows his head, forehead pressing against yours, relief and grief tangling so tightly you can’t tell where one ends and the other begins.
The number presses cold against your thumb.
And you don’t let go.
Your thumb stays pressed to the ink, grounding yourself in the cold reality of it — of him — while his breath shudders against your shoulder. The hallway is silent except for the soft hitch of his breathing, the distant hum of the lab bleeding back in.
Then–
A mechanical whir.
Subtle. Controlled.
The camera at the far end of the corridor shifts.
Its lens adjusts with a quiet click, angling downward–narrowing its focus until the rest of the hallway blurs and only the two of you remain in frame.
Peter stiffens immediately.
You feel it, the instinctive freeze, the muscle memory snapping back into place. His hand falters at the back of your head like he’s about to pull away.
You don’t let him.
“It’s okay,” you murmur, even though you don’t know if it is. “I’m here.”
The device at the base of his neck pulses once.
Not sharply.
Not violently.
Just… present
Behind the camera, Blair pauses the feed and freezes mid-note.
“That shouldn’t be possible,” she says.
Her voice is steady. Her hands are not.
She reaches for the monitor controls, fingers moving faster now, pulling up the live telemetry feed layered beside the video. Lines of data scroll. Pulse rate. Neural output. Frequency modulation.
All within range.
No–
well within range.
Blair leans closer to the screen, disbelief sharpening her breath. “I recalibrated the suppression thresholds this morning,” she says. “Extreme parameters. He should be experiencing severe neural backlash right now.”
She taps the display. Hard.
“Headache. Disorientation. Motor disruption at minimum.” Her jaw tightens. “Pain.”
Brenner doesn’t look at her. His eyes stay on the feed.
“And yet?” he prompts calmly.
Blair swallows.
“And yet he isn’t,” she says. “His output is elevated, yes–but it’s stabilizing. Self-correcting.”
She scrolls again. Faster.
“That’s not how the device works,” she mutters. “It doesn’t adapt. It enforces.”
On-screen, Peter bows his head against yours. His shoulders shake.
The device embedded at the base of his neck glows faintly–then dims.
Blair stiffens.
“No,” she says. “No, no, no–”
“What?” Brenner asks.
“It’s not suppressing the response,” she says, voice pitching despite herself. “It’s rerouting it.”
She turns to him now, eyes sharp with something close to fear.
“He should be in excruciating pain,” she says. “He’s not just tolerating the signal–he’s integrating it.”
Brenner finally shifts.
“That’s never happened,” he says.
Blair shakes her head slowly. “It shouldn’t happen.”
Silence stretches.
Then, carefully: “If we remove her,” Brenner says, “the system would correct.”
Blair’s answer is immediate.
“No.”
He looks at her.
She gestures sharply at the data. “You’re assuming she’s the cause. She isn’t. She’s the condition.”
Brenner studies the screen again. The way Peter doesn’t pull away. The way the signal steadies instead of spiking.
“If she’s removed now,” Blair continues, voice low, precise, “we don’t know what state he’ll revert to. The device has adjusted around her presence.”
Her fingers curl against the console.
“Which means if you take her out of the equation,” she says quietly, “you may destabilize something we no longer fully control.”
Brenner’s expression darkens, not with anger.
With interest.
“What do you suggest?” he asks.
Blair watches the feed, eyes unblinking.
“We observe,” she says. “We document. We do not intervene.”
A beat.
“And if this bond escalates?”
Blair exhales slowly.
“Then,” she says, “we may finally learn what he’s capable of without pain to stop him.”
On-screen, the device records a new pattern.
It pauses.
Then flags it.
Blair doesn’t correct it.
In the hallway, Peter exhales slowly, shakily.
“The signal,” he whispers. “It doesn’t stop when I’m with you.”
You tighten your grip on his wrist.
“Good,” you say softly. “Then let them see.”
The camera records the contact.
The device registers the pattern.
The system flags it as an anomaly.
And for once–
No one corrects it.
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