Murdered In Santa Carla

Hey I am Cassidy Summers. I am 52 years old. I obsess over The Lost Boys. I stay in character when role-playing the boys. The boys don't date you. They eat you. So don't be asking the boys for sex or to date. You can ask them anything but that. I do gifs, preferences, imagines, personal references, Ships, and many other things, I'll be posting a lot of stories and stuff. So yeah. Feel free to send in questions in my ask box and I'll try my best to answer all of them. Let me know what you want and I'll get write to work. I have to start a list of titles of things that I'll be doing. Oh, and one more thing. DO NOT, I repeat, DO NOT ask the boys to date you, marry you or have sex with you. If they want to have sex with you, then you'll end up being their meal after sex. I also have some opinions on two of the characters. I'll post links to the info in my new blog on blogger. I'll have to send links to my fanfictions on either Fan-Fiction.net or Wattpad. I'll be on all day except Mondays through Wednesday from 8:30 to 10:30. I have GED class. WARNING: Age 18+ if your younger than that well, just be careful. This blog can contain some sexual behaviors in it. *wink*

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[murderedinsantacarla]

Guys. Follow my second blog. @markedbythelostboys

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Marko! What's your favorite songs and bands? I wanna listen to them!

“I have quite a few but queen is the main one. And u can’t choose a favourite song that’s just evil making me choose.” Marko answered

[murderedinsantacarla]

*giggles* “Is your hair naturally curly or is it a perm? *sits on his lap making Paul jealous*

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“It’s naturally curly…” Marko answered automatically rejecting what you were doing and stood up.

[murderedinsantacarla]

*pouts and yawns* “Sleep deprived!!” I moaned falling over. “Haven’t slept in three days!”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul looked over jealous and annoyed as he walked to your shared room to sleep.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I went outside of the cave spinning around. I yawned again. I stopped when I saw Michael staring at me along with Sam and Alan. I tried to run but a stake was held at my back.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul and the boys came outside and basically butchered the hunters leaving the other two to run off

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Yeah! And stay away!!” I yelled walking over to a rock and sitting on looking down at my hands. I had a lot on my mind. I sighed. “I’m going for a swim.” I said and ran for the water now in my blue bikini.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul scoffed. “Yeah sure just flirt with my best bud then go for a swim. I totally get it your not into me any more.” He walked back into the cave knowing you’d heard.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I wasnt flirting!!! I was being cute!!“I yelled now in tears. I turned and got dressed and ran to my old apartment. Going inside and hiding in the bathroom with the lights off. I cried softly.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul knew he’d hurt you but, trying to be cute and make him jealous with his best friend had done more than tick him off.

He got on his bike and had followed you before knocking on the bathroom door. “Baby I didn’t mean it. I was just pissed off at Marko de even answering your question and letting you get that close to him. Please lemme in darling, we can cuddle if you’d like.” He begged at the door.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I didn’t answer. I was too busy cutting my wrists deeply as sobs escaped my lips. “No leave me alone!” I sobbed.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul ripped the door of its hinges and took the blade away. “This is the last thing I wanted to see! My fiancée hurting because of me. Look I know I’m a fuck up. I always have been and probably always will be, but please just say you still love me please I’ll do anything.” He sobbed as he spoke signifying he’d actually let you in and see the real him. The misfortuned boy who had real emotions and love harder than ever

[murderedinsantacarla]

I grabbed his face with my bleeding arms. “No! Its my fault. I only wanted to see you jealous because its kinda hot. I didn’t mean for you to blow up at me. Its my fault.” Tears streamed down my soft face.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul pulled you into him as he stood up and began cleaning your arms.

“I shouldn’t have said anything! I fucked up like always. I didn’t like it but I shouldn’t have said anything but pulled you to me. I love you. Way too much to let you walk out of my life.” He whispered as he’d finally broken seeing the love of his life run away from him so many times made him know he was a monster and didn’t deserve love at all. He shook the thought from his head.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I heard his thoughts. “I don’t care how many times you hurt me, i always love you and nothing can ever change that. You’re mine. No one else’s. I don’t wanna see you with anyone else. It would kill me.” Looks away still holding his face.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Baby girl I’ll always be yours, I’d never do that to you if never see anyone else in the same way as I view you my love. Now please let’s not hurt each other yeah?” He replied lowering his lips to yours as his arms found their way to your waist pulling you closer

[murderedinsantacarla]

I nodded. “Alright.” I was still kinda shaky as I kissed him back.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul pulled away and nuzzling his head into your neck

[murderedinsantacarla]

I smiled a bit relaxing. “Let me go get changed. But I think I’m going to stay here for a while just til things settle.” I kissed his cheek then went to my walk in closet

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul looked started but agreed. “Do you want me to stay with you??”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I just want some time to myself you know? I love you I do I just need to space myself away from everyone at the moment.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul swore he felt a pang of hurt but knew that if you needed space he’d give it to you.

“I know you love me and I reapers your choice, however if you do need me you know I’ll be at the boardwalk annoying Max Love.” He spoke before kissing you the last time and walking to your apartment door. “I love you darling.”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I love you too babe.” I smiled a bit before turning and finding a rock oufit to wear.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I felt !y phone buzz. I picked it up and clicked the image. I looked down at the image them at Paul then back at the picture.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“What’s wrong baby?”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“You kissed Star.” I hissed shoving the phone at him.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Whoa whoa that is not me. The person has curly hair! It’s Marko. How could it possibly be me when I’ve been with you?!”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Because it has your face, your clothes, wavy hair?”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Babe that was ages ago. Before you came into my life it was just a stupid kiss I swear.”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I’ll be back.” I left the room and went into another room.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Babe you have believe me please! It didn’t mean anything to me- she doesn’t mean anything to me!” He begged

[murderedinsantacarla]

I threw a rock at the window. “Not according to star.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Oh please she’s probably fucking Michael as we speak! She doesn’t mean anything to me at all alright! Only you matter to me your the only one I care for and I’m not going to let some stupid witch get I the way of that!” Paul spoke.

“Star fancied me years ago. We kissed yeah but nothing else happened. It was years ago babe seriously!”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I’m going to bed.” I muttered walking past him. “Star and I have been friends for awhile.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“She’s just using you. She’s trying to make you think we’re the bad guys. And yes in some aspects we are but at least we admit it! They’re trying to kill us again don’t you see! Star doesn’t have any friends she’s even admitted it that she ain’t capable of having any!” Paul muttered angrily. “All i want is for us to be happy and people keep fucking that up!”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I can’t trust anyone anymore.” I muttered angrily.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

That one hit Paul like a tin of bricks. “Whatever. I’ve explained and stressed my side of the story and you haven’t even tried to listen.” Paul mutter walking away whispering something along the lines of: ‘I wish you’d just listen and understand for once instead of jumping to conclusions.’

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I heard that!!” I yelled.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“You were meant to why’d you think I said it, and you said you wanted space we’ll have it! I’m leaving so you get that time happy?!” He yelled back. ‘David I’m gunna kill Starr!’ ‘Why?’ ‘She’s trying ruin my life.’ ‘Fair enough go for it.’

The boys knew you’d heard it.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I went to the bathroom and slammed the door shut and turned on the shower. I got in took a shower and got out. I put on white skinny jeans with a black studded belt. A white crop top and a black mesh shirt. My belly button showed which was pierced. I had on spiked bracelets. My wavy hair put into a ponytail. My make up dark, and my knee length studded combat boots with chains. I walked out of the house and took the boardwalk.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul was pissed, the boys could tell, but in hat money when you arrived t was like the ending of the grease movie. Only Paul’s jaw dropped. Starr Reyes wrapping herself round him only to be pushed off. He minded you. ‘See what i mean I’ve only been out of your sight an hour and she’s all over me when your the one I want. Not her!’

[murderedinsantacarla]

Star huffed. “Fine. I’ll find Michael.” With that, she left. I walked over to a table with booze. I flashed the guy to get some free booze. I smirked and took the Jack and walked off drinking it.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul followed you.

“So now that we’re on a break you go flashing guys?! You saw what happened and you saw how I reacted and yet you choose to act like I don’t exist?! Find me when you grow up! I actually fucking love you but I really really don’t see the point in fighting anymore! You win! Whatever your game was and is! I’m not arguing anymore. I’ll see you around kid.” Paul had finally broke, you’d won the game. The game of winning his heart. You’d done it but you happened to have broken it. And he didn’t know what to do. He followed you like a lost puppy smitten with the very thought of you. He still felt that way, but maybe you where right maybe you two needed some time apart. He walked back over to the bikes and rode home he didn’t feed that night at all.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I couldn’t feel my heart anymore after he said that. I wasn’t playing games. I only wanted a free beer. I went to my apartment grabbed my stuff, left a note on my counter and left. I hopped on my bike and left town. Tears streamed my face. I loved him. UT he just didn’t see it. I drove for three hours and stopped to fill up with gas.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul went to find you to apologise for what he had said, only to find the note. His heart missed a beat, it didn’t matter that his heart would never beat again he just wanted you back so he followed your scent and waited at your bike.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I pulled my money out and paid the lady the money and headed out. I still had on my hot outfit. I stopped dead in my tracks seeing Paul.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul looked up. “Babe…. I’m so sorry I swear, I just don’t know what going on anymore! All I seem to want is to be with you please don’t leave…” He begged

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Why? All you do is hurt me. Say mean things then apologize for them.” I said grouchily.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“I’ve never been in love before so I’m scared! And I’m sorry. I just want to know what it feels like to feel love. And with you I feel like I can be myself. And I’m trying so hard to not fuck shit up but that’s all I seem capable of…” Paul tried reasoning knowing that you’d probably never forgive him and take off on your bike never for him to see you again…

‘I’m such a fuck up its untrue…’ He mentally groaned.

“If you seriously want me gone and want to be able to do everything you’ve ever dreamed of. Tell me now and I’ll go. This is your choice not anyone else’s it’ll hurt don’t get me wrong but I’ll get over it as long as your happy. Because that’s all I want for you. I want you to have the best in life and I’m probably not that. In fact I know I’m not that. But anyway back to the point it’s your choice.” He spoke. Solemnly and sombrely. But he knew it was best for you to go… Like you said all he did was hurt you and he didn’t want that for you.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I couldn’t look at him. “Your right. Maybe we should. Anyways, I have to go. I’m going to see my dying sister.” I wanted to cry so bad. I stood there before everything went black and I passed out.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul caught you before reaching for a flask he always carries with him. He but it to your lips before letting the blood slide down your throat. It woke you up and as Paul helped you stand he hugged you for the last time.

“Keep the ring as memory of the guys and I. See you around, wish your sister well from us yeah??” Paul’s voice cracked and broke as tears filled his eyes he kissed your forehead before walking back to his bike. He turned and looked for the last time. He waved at you before driving back to Santa Carla

[murderedinsantacarla]

“No!” I said but he was already out of sight. I started to cry. I got on my bike. Wanting to drive to my sister but I needed Paul the most. I stayed at a hotel for a few weeks. I went back to Santa Carla to find that Paul had moved on like he said. I hid in my apartment crying. I had all the lights off.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul hadn’t moved on the girl you had spotted him with was flirting but he couldn’t do the same. He saw you and he saw you run back to your bike so he followed you.

“I thought you said you’d be going to see your sister?” He spoke as tears welled in his eyes yet again seeing you like that. He so wanted to kiss you and take everything that had hurt you away but you were no longer his and he had to face that.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I didn’t wanna go. She died anyways.” When I spoke, my voice filled with sadness.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“I’m sorry.” Paul suddenly said as he brought you into a hug.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I buried my face into his neck. “I miss you. So much.” I sobbed

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul kissed your forehead whispering “I miss you too.” He ran his fingers through your hair.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I want you back but your with that girl.“ Tears streamed my face.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul chuckled. “She was flirting but I couldn’t bring myself to do it. I’m still single. And you can have me back if that’s what you really want.” He spoke quietly wiping he tears away from your eyes.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I don’t want you. I need you. You helped me through everything. You were there when no one else was.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul sighed happily.

“What about we take it slow and don’t rush anything? That way nobody gets hurt and that we make sure this is what we all want yeah?” Paul offered

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Yeah. Where are the boys anyways? ”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Probably back at the cave taunting some newbie to town again.” Paul chuckled

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Oh. Well let me get changed and we can go to the boardwalk.” *goes to my closet and grabs a black shirt tight dress and a pair of leather boots and changes into them. I came out in the black shirt dress and boots.*

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul’s mouth dropped open.

“Either you’re testing my ability to not jump you and go at it like a rabbit with you or you want me to show you off.” He woke jokingly as he wrapped an arm around you pulling you closer to him.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Whatever you want to do. I’m all your.” I ran my hand over his chest and along his neck.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul suddenly pressed his lips to yours as he kissed you roughly

[murderedinsantacarla]

I kissed back just as rough.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul’s arms wrapped around your waist and pulled you closer moaning as he did so.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I buried my face into his neck moaning.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul tilted his neck slightly. “Mmh. I thought you wanted to go the boardwalk or aren’t you bothered right now??” Paul moaned out.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I rather do this first.” Moaned wet through my panties.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul smiled lightly picking you up and laying you down on the bed

[murderedinsantacarla]

I looked up at him smiling.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul smiled slightly before reattaching your lips roughly

[murderedinsantacarla]

I kissed him back roughly pulling off his shirt

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul pulled away smirking before teaching his lips to your neck

[murderedinsantacarla]

I moaned a little.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul continued to pleasure you in whatever you had wanted that night.

[murderedinsantacarla]

After a few hours, I had fallen asleep. Unaware that the cancer was spreading. I didn’t tell Paul that I had cancer. I woke up and half of my hair had fallen out.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul had woken up and seen your hair falling out. It was like Marko all over again. “Why haven’t you told me this…” Paul whispered calling for the guys who quickly arrived. Marko brought over a flask of fluid. “Drink this it will help.” Marko spoke.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I couldn’t. I couldn’t put you through this.” Tears ran. I took the drink and drunk some. “What’s the point?”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“The drink had something in it that kills the cell causing the cancer and prevents you ever getting cancer again…” Marko spoke before leaving you and Paul alone to talk.

“I could’ve helped. That’s why I could’ve helped you sooner.” He spoke

[murderedinsantacarla]

“It’ll take forever for my hair to grow back. I look hideous.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul laughed. “Actually it’s grown back and you don’t look hideous you look beautiful.”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Thanks.” I smiled.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“No need to thank me love.” He spoke

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Let’s go to the boardwalk.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul grabbed your hand and walked with you to the boardwalk

[murderedinsantacarla]

I saw the boys sitting by the fire next to a railing. I saw Marko but quickly stopped. “Um, I’m going to ride some rides.” I said a little fast figeting with my feet and hands.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul stopped you. “No your not. We have some things we have to tell you alright?”

[murderedinsantacarla]

I nodded looking away. “Okay.” Walks to the other boys with Paul.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“The cancer you had, was the one Marko had when Paul met him.” David spoke.

“Yeah, and I see how awkward it’s made you but I don’t wanna see my best friend with his mate..” Marko spoke smiling and pulling you into a hug.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I know. It’s not that awkward. My sister died with the same thing. I have to go. I need to go meet up with a friend of mine.” I pulled away from Paul. “I’ll be safe. I’ll be back in a few hours.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“You know how to get a hold of us don’t you? Just mind link us if anything goes wrong.” Paul spoke as the others nodded

[murderedinsantacarla]

I nodded. I walked off heading for the rides to meet up with a gang of guys and girls. We walked off laughing.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul looked at you smiling only slightly. “It’s Christmas Eve guys what are we gunna do?”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“We could feed. Then get gifts.” Marko suggested. my friends and I were out by the beach. I smiled at them. We started getting drunk. We got drunk. I was so drunk I didn’t realize I was kissing one of my friends.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul saw everything unfold and shook his head. ‘What the fuck..’ You heard Paul speak to the others through is thoughts

[murderedinsantacarla]

Unaware that my drink had been spiked, I was drunk and hullcinating. I tripped over a rock and one guy caught me. “Easy cupcake. Don’t wanna ruin that pretty body of yours.” The Guy I had made out with said.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul had seen what had gone on and walked up to the guys socked him one in the jaw and picked you up and took you home with the guys.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I giggled and laughed slurring my words drunk off my ass.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul shook his head… Then put you in the corner of the cave

[murderedinsantacarla]

After hours of non stop talking, I finally passed out.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul made laddie keep an eye on you which ended in laddie falling asleep a so he watched over you for a while

[murderedinsantacarla]

When I woke up the an hour later, my head was pounding like a mofo. I groaned rolling over onto my side to sit up. “The fuck happened?” I mumbled

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Oh nothing other than having your drink spiked, kissing some dude your friends with them passing out drunk.” Paul noted passing you an Advil and some water.

[murderedinsantacarla]

*takes it and swallows it* “That kiss didn’t mean anything Paul. He’s just a friend is all. No need to be fucking jealous.” I mumbled.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“I’m not I saw it all unfold and helped you when I thought you’d probably had enough. The only way to make me jealous is taking my weed and not letting me have any, going to see a band I like live and not asking me to come with you, oh and being provocative toward someone who isn’t me.” Paul chuckled

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Don’t be a damn dick head.” I hissed with clenched fists. “I needed time with friends and I didn’t take your weed. I had my own.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“I’m not saying anything like that, all I’m saying is if you do those things I’ll be jealous. I never said don’t hang with your friends or your stash situation….” Paul muttered looking down clearly disheartened before standing up and walking away from you into a corner as he hugged a pillow close.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I walked out of the cave needing air going to the beach. I got out my shorts and tank top and had my music playing. I sat in my bikini in the water. I put the music down and dove into the water swimming far out.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul watched you leave then excused himself to go for a ride, he didn’t follow you. He went to the old lighthouse. He watched peacefully at how the ocean moved.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I stood on the freezing water for a little bit looking up at the moo light. A tear escaped my eyes but I wiped them away.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul sensed your upsetting but didn’t move. All he tried doing was making a joke out of what happened. He was trying not be seriously upset by the events. But he felt he wasn’t good enough for you. He thought about leaving town for a while to get a break. But he clearly didn’t have the guts to leave so as he looked down towards the water he caught you gaze he weakly smiled, a broken smile for a broken heart. He walked back to his bike going towards the cave.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I looked away again going back underwater wanting to stay there forever. I shivered from the cold. I sat on the sand next to a fire I built. I held the towel around me. I had eyes closed.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Dwayne sensed you had a fight with Paul so he went to get you as Paul had lost it he was screaming and crying. He picked you up and carried you back to the cave

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Put me down dammit!!! Let me freeze to death!!” I yelled tears running down my face.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Look. Your immortal. And your mate is going crazy right now. Whatever happened we don’t care. Just help him please. He’s like my younger brother. Don’t let him do this to himself he’s blaming himself for everything.” Dwayne pleaded

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Dwayne. I need to tell you something don’t tell Paul not yet anyways. I’m…pregnant I don’t know how it’s possible but I felt a kick a few days ago.” I said hoping Paul wouldn’t hear.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul had already heard and had run to his private room to cry about how he was a monster……

“Congratulations now go tell Paul that yeah? He calmed down as soon as he sensed you.” Dwayne hugged you before pushing you off toward the room where Paul’s sobs could be heard

[murderedinsantacarla]

I walked into Paul’s room pulling him close. I grabbed his hand putting it on my belly. “Paul.” I said softly as I felt another kick.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul whimpered. “y-yes?” He looked up still scared of hurting you

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Do you feel it?” I asked smiling softly looking at him.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Y-yeah I do” Paul smiled lightly

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I’m sorry. For everything. Nothings your fault. I promise. We love you.” I smiled kissing his cheek.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul whimpered pulling you closer. “Lilly’s old enough to be Dwaynes mate now…” He whispered kissing your lips lightly

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Yes I know she is.” I kissed his lips back.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Just at that moment Dwayne and Lilly’s laughs rang out. Paul pulled away and smiled. “Maybe we should get some rest babe”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“No. I don’t need sleep. I already slept. You need sleep. I’ve put you through hell late. Now sleep love.” I ordered smiling and rubbing his head.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Please don’t leave me thought please??” He whispered pulling you closer but not too tightly.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I won’t I’ll be here when you wake up.” I smiled.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Thank you baby.” He whispered.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I smiled watching him sleep. I laid there looking around his room. He had a lot of rock posters and music cds piled everywhere.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

After a few hours Paul began waking up

[murderedinsantacarla]

I had my head laid near his neck sleeping.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul smiled and wrapped his arms around your waist.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I slept soundly. Nightmares got worse as n I slept. I twitched a few times. I turned on my side.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul woke you up shaking you

[murderedinsantacarla]

I opened my eyes. “Hmm?”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Are you okay babe?” He whispered.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I nodded. “Yeah. I’m okay.” *sits up* “are you okay?”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“A little bit yeah, thank you for putting up with me.” He whispered into your hair

[murderedinsantacarla]

“That’s why I’m here.“I smildd then frowned suddenly yelping in pain clutching my belly.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Baby are you okay???” Paul asked before minding Max. ‘Max get here now!’ ‘Why?!’ ‘My mate is in pain so don’t you dare ever ask that question again got it old man?!’ Paul growled.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I cried out again laying on my back. I cried out words that didn’t make sense. My skin started glowing.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Max hurriedly ran to you and gave you a vile of blood. It didn’t stop the glowing but you began making sense again. Max knew you where in labour.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I cried out again louder. Blood coming out some. I cried unclear words.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul began worrying further. “Max…” “Paul just calm down” Then the sounds of a baby’s cry enters the room as you pass out and Max gives you more blood

[murderedinsantacarla]

The little boy cried. I was out cold sweating like a pig. His blood wasn’t enough for me.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul made a cut in his hand before making you swallow his blood as you began regaining consciousness

[murderedinsantacarla]

I opened my eyes still weak as hell. I went to move my body and yelped loudly getting still again. My body was glowing again. I began throwing up blood.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Max injected a syrum into your blood preventing any more throwing up. The glowing had every one on edge

[murderedinsantacarla]

I started to relax but the glowing didn’t stop. My eyes were closed. I was really still.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Max began telling Paul to kiss you as hard as he could.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I felt his lips against mine but the glowing just got brighter. I suddenly bolted up staring at a white light only Max and I could see.

[murderedinsantacarla]

Back in 1987, after The Lost Boys hit theaters, I remember going out to Los Angeles to a meet and greet to meet the actors. I met Brooke, Alex, Kiefer, Billy, and Corey. It was so fun to hang with them. My daughter was 5 at the time and she got to meet them as well. They were really nice and made her laugh and stuff. She enjoyed it as much as I did. I did have pictures but they got burned up in a house fire we had in 2008. I was really bummed out. But hearing of Brooke's passing had devestated me and my daughter. May his soul rest in peace with God. Brooke and I share the same birthday. But we were born a year apart. He was born a year before me.

[marklinn-baker]

reblog this and tag the first movie you remember seeing in a theater/cinema

[murderedinsantacarla]

I remember meeting Kiefer, Brooke, Billy, and Alex at a meet and greet in Los Angeles. It was really fun thing. I'll never forget my memories of them. I'm 51 now. Oh and Brooke and I share the same. Birthday but different year as well.

[sunrise9memories]

Slash vs. Axl

[murderedinsantacarla]

Can someone explain how to make GIFs? I wanna make some lost boy GIFs.

[lostboypocalypse]

Requesting the highest of fives!

[murderedinsantacarla]

Paul was sitting on the fountain listening to the rock box as Hotel California by the Eagles played. He lit up a joint as the cool night air blew through the cave. He was acompanied by Marko and Dwayne while David was out enjoying the night. Dwayne was reading his book that was written by Stephen King. Marko was busy playing with his pigeons. Star had took Laddie to the boardwalk to ride some rides. Paul laughed to himself as he smoked his fourth joint. By that time, he was high off his ass. //credit to the owner. He/she did some good work on this. I'm not taking this don't worry I'm just using it for my head starter.

[berniesanderssaggyleftnut-deact]

this is the most wholesome vine ive seen

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

The force is strong with these two @officalronnieradke

[lostinsantacarla]

A cool, crisp winter night when David can take some time out alone is his favorite. Soaring over the treetops under a clear sky and bright stars, using his preternatural wings to lift him higher.  The colder the better as he takes it all in and watches over his territory, while reflecting on the nights events as he lets the blood from his last victim keep his chilled skin warm.  

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Marko! What's your favorite songs and bands? I wanna listen to them!

“I have quite a few but queen is the main one. And u can’t choose a favourite song that’s just evil making me choose.” Marko answered

[murderedinsantacarla]

*giggles* “Is your hair naturally curly or is it a perm? *sits on his lap making Paul jealous*

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“It’s naturally curly…” Marko answered automatically rejecting what you were doing and stood up.

[murderedinsantacarla]

*pouts and yawns* “Sleep deprived!!” I moaned falling over. “Haven’t slept in three days!”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul looked over jealous and annoyed as he walked to your shared room to sleep.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I went outside of the cave spinning around. I yawned again. I stopped when I saw Michael staring at me along with Sam and Alan. I tried to run but a stake was held at my back.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul and the boys came outside and basically butchered the hunters leaving the other two to run off

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Yeah! And stay away!!” I yelled walking over to a rock and sitting on looking down at my hands. I had a lot on my mind. I sighed. “I’m going for a swim.” I said and ran for the water now in my blue bikini.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul scoffed. “Yeah sure just flirt with my best bud then go for a swim. I totally get it your not into me any more.” He walked back into the cave knowing you’d heard.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I wasnt flirting!!! I was being cute!!“I yelled now in tears. I turned and got dressed and ran to my old apartment. Going inside and hiding in the bathroom with the lights off. I cried softly.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul knew he’d hurt you but, trying to be cute and make him jealous with his best friend had done more than tick him off.

He got on his bike and had followed you before knocking on the bathroom door. “Baby I didn’t mean it. I was just pissed off at Marko de even answering your question and letting you get that close to him. Please lemme in darling, we can cuddle if you’d like.” He begged at the door.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I didn’t answer. I was too busy cutting my wrists deeply as sobs escaped my lips. “No leave me alone!” I sobbed.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul ripped the door of its hinges and took the blade away. “This is the last thing I wanted to see! My fiancée hurting because of me. Look I know I’m a fuck up. I always have been and probably always will be, but please just say you still love me please I’ll do anything.” He sobbed as he spoke signifying he’d actually let you in and see the real him. The misfortuned boy who had real emotions and love harder than ever

[murderedinsantacarla]

I grabbed his face with my bleeding arms. “No! Its my fault. I only wanted to see you jealous because its kinda hot. I didn’t mean for you to blow up at me. Its my fault.” Tears streamed down my soft face.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul pulled you into him as he stood up and began cleaning your arms.

“I shouldn’t have said anything! I fucked up like always. I didn’t like it but I shouldn’t have said anything but pulled you to me. I love you. Way too much to let you walk out of my life.” He whispered as he’d finally broken seeing the love of his life run away from him so many times made him know he was a monster and didn’t deserve love at all. He shook the thought from his head.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I heard his thoughts. “I don’t care how many times you hurt me, i always love you and nothing can ever change that. You’re mine. No one else’s. I don’t wanna see you with anyone else. It would kill me.” Looks away still holding his face.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Baby girl I’ll always be yours, I’d never do that to you if never see anyone else in the same way as I view you my love. Now please let’s not hurt each other yeah?” He replied lowering his lips to yours as his arms found their way to your waist pulling you closer

[murderedinsantacarla]

I nodded. “Alright.” I was still kinda shaky as I kissed him back.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul pulled away and nuzzling his head into your neck

[murderedinsantacarla]

I smiled a bit relaxing. “Let me go get changed. But I think I’m going to stay here for a while just til things settle.” I kissed his cheek then went to my walk in closet

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul looked started but agreed. “Do you want me to stay with you??”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I just want some time to myself you know? I love you I do I just need to space myself away from everyone at the moment.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul swore he felt a pang of hurt but knew that if you needed space he’d give it to you.

“I know you love me and I reapers your choice, however if you do need me you know I’ll be at the boardwalk annoying Max Love.” He spoke before kissing you the last time and walking to your apartment door. “I love you darling.”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I love you too babe.” I smiled a bit before turning and finding a rock oufit to wear.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I felt !y phone buzz. I picked it up and clicked the image. I looked down at the image them at Paul then back at the picture.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“What’s wrong baby?”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“You kissed Star.” I hissed shoving the phone at him.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Whoa whoa that is not me. The person has curly hair! It’s Marko. How could it possibly be me when I’ve been with you?!”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Because it has your face, your clothes, wavy hair?”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Babe that was ages ago. Before you came into my life it was just a stupid kiss I swear.”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I’ll be back.” I left the room and went into another room.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Babe you have believe me please! It didn’t mean anything to me- she doesn’t mean anything to me!” He begged

[murderedinsantacarla]

I threw a rock at the window. “Not according to star.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Oh please she’s probably fucking Michael as we speak! She doesn’t mean anything to me at all alright! Only you matter to me your the only one I care for and I’m not going to let some stupid witch get I the way of that!” Paul spoke.

“Star fancied me years ago. We kissed yeah but nothing else happened. It was years ago babe seriously!”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I’m going to bed.” I muttered walking past him. “Star and I have been friends for awhile.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“She’s just using you. She’s trying to make you think we’re the bad guys. And yes in some aspects we are but at least we admit it! They’re trying to kill us again don’t you see! Star doesn’t have any friends she’s even admitted it that she ain’t capable of having any!” Paul muttered angrily. “All i want is for us to be happy and people keep fucking that up!”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I can’t trust anyone anymore.” I muttered angrily.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

That one hit Paul like a tin of bricks. “Whatever. I’ve explained and stressed my side of the story and you haven’t even tried to listen.” Paul mutter walking away whispering something along the lines of: ‘I wish you’d just listen and understand for once instead of jumping to conclusions.’

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I heard that!!” I yelled.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“You were meant to why’d you think I said it, and you said you wanted space we’ll have it! I’m leaving so you get that time happy?!” He yelled back. ‘David I’m gunna kill Starr!’ ‘Why?’ ‘She’s trying ruin my life.’ ‘Fair enough go for it.’

The boys knew you’d heard it.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I went to the bathroom and slammed the door shut and turned on the shower. I got in took a shower and got out. I put on white skinny jeans with a black studded belt. A white crop top and a black mesh shirt. My belly button showed which was pierced. I had on spiked bracelets. My wavy hair put into a ponytail. My make up dark, and my knee length studded combat boots with chains. I walked out of the house and took the boardwalk.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul was pissed, the boys could tell, but in hat money when you arrived t was like the ending of the grease movie. Only Paul’s jaw dropped. Starr Reyes wrapping herself round him only to be pushed off. He minded you. ‘See what i mean I’ve only been out of your sight an hour and she’s all over me when your the one I want. Not her!’

[murderedinsantacarla]

Star huffed. “Fine. I’ll find Michael.” With that, she left. I walked over to a table with booze. I flashed the guy to get some free booze. I smirked and took the Jack and walked off drinking it.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul followed you.

“So now that we’re on a break you go flashing guys?! You saw what happened and you saw how I reacted and yet you choose to act like I don’t exist?! Find me when you grow up! I actually fucking love you but I really really don’t see the point in fighting anymore! You win! Whatever your game was and is! I’m not arguing anymore. I’ll see you around kid.” Paul had finally broke, you’d won the game. The game of winning his heart. You’d done it but you happened to have broken it. And he didn’t know what to do. He followed you like a lost puppy smitten with the very thought of you. He still felt that way, but maybe you where right maybe you two needed some time apart. He walked back over to the bikes and rode home he didn’t feed that night at all.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I couldn’t feel my heart anymore after he said that. I wasn’t playing games. I only wanted a free beer. I went to my apartment grabbed my stuff, left a note on my counter and left. I hopped on my bike and left town. Tears streamed my face. I loved him. UT he just didn’t see it. I drove for three hours and stopped to fill up with gas.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul went to find you to apologise for what he had said, only to find the note. His heart missed a beat, it didn’t matter that his heart would never beat again he just wanted you back so he followed your scent and waited at your bike.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I pulled my money out and paid the lady the money and headed out. I still had on my hot outfit. I stopped dead in my tracks seeing Paul.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul looked up. “Babe…. I’m so sorry I swear, I just don’t know what going on anymore! All I seem to want is to be with you please don’t leave…” He begged

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Why? All you do is hurt me. Say mean things then apologize for them.” I said grouchily.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“I’ve never been in love before so I’m scared! And I’m sorry. I just want to know what it feels like to feel love. And with you I feel like I can be myself. And I’m trying so hard to not fuck shit up but that’s all I seem capable of…” Paul tried reasoning knowing that you’d probably never forgive him and take off on your bike never for him to see you again…

‘I’m such a fuck up its untrue…’ He mentally groaned.

“If you seriously want me gone and want to be able to do everything you’ve ever dreamed of. Tell me now and I’ll go. This is your choice not anyone else’s it’ll hurt don’t get me wrong but I’ll get over it as long as your happy. Because that’s all I want for you. I want you to have the best in life and I’m probably not that. In fact I know I’m not that. But anyway back to the point it’s your choice.” He spoke. Solemnly and sombrely. But he knew it was best for you to go… Like you said all he did was hurt you and he didn’t want that for you.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I couldn’t look at him. “Your right. Maybe we should. Anyways, I have to go. I’m going to see my dying sister.” I wanted to cry so bad. I stood there before everything went black and I passed out.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul caught you before reaching for a flask he always carries with him. He but it to your lips before letting the blood slide down your throat. It woke you up and as Paul helped you stand he hugged you for the last time.

“Keep the ring as memory of the guys and I. See you around, wish your sister well from us yeah??” Paul’s voice cracked and broke as tears filled his eyes he kissed your forehead before walking back to his bike. He turned and looked for the last time. He waved at you before driving back to Santa Carla

[murderedinsantacarla]

“No!” I said but he was already out of sight. I started to cry. I got on my bike. Wanting to drive to my sister but I needed Paul the most. I stayed at a hotel for a few weeks. I went back to Santa Carla to find that Paul had moved on like he said. I hid in my apartment crying. I had all the lights off.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul hadn’t moved on the girl you had spotted him with was flirting but he couldn’t do the same. He saw you and he saw you run back to your bike so he followed you.

“I thought you said you’d be going to see your sister?” He spoke as tears welled in his eyes yet again seeing you like that. He so wanted to kiss you and take everything that had hurt you away but you were no longer his and he had to face that.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I didn’t wanna go. She died anyways.” When I spoke, my voice filled with sadness.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“I’m sorry.” Paul suddenly said as he brought you into a hug.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I buried my face into his neck. “I miss you. So much.” I sobbed

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul kissed your forehead whispering “I miss you too.” He ran his fingers through your hair.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I want you back but your with that girl.“ Tears streamed my face.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul chuckled. “She was flirting but I couldn’t bring myself to do it. I’m still single. And you can have me back if that’s what you really want.” He spoke quietly wiping he tears away from your eyes.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I don’t want you. I need you. You helped me through everything. You were there when no one else was.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul sighed happily.

“What about we take it slow and don’t rush anything? That way nobody gets hurt and that we make sure this is what we all want yeah?” Paul offered

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Yeah. Where are the boys anyways? ”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Probably back at the cave taunting some newbie to town again.” Paul chuckled

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Oh. Well let me get changed and we can go to the boardwalk.” *goes to my closet and grabs a black shirt tight dress and a pair of leather boots and changes into them. I came out in the black shirt dress and boots.*

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul’s mouth dropped open.

“Either you’re testing my ability to not jump you and go at it like a rabbit with you or you want me to show you off.” He woke jokingly as he wrapped an arm around you pulling you closer to him.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Whatever you want to do. I’m all your.” I ran my hand over his chest and along his neck.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul suddenly pressed his lips to yours as he kissed you roughly

[murderedinsantacarla]

I kissed back just as rough.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul’s arms wrapped around your waist and pulled you closer moaning as he did so.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I buried my face into his neck moaning.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul tilted his neck slightly. “Mmh. I thought you wanted to go the boardwalk or aren’t you bothered right now??” Paul moaned out.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I rather do this first.” Moaned wet through my panties.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul smiled lightly picking you up and laying you down on the bed

[murderedinsantacarla]

I looked up at him smiling.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul smiled slightly before reattaching your lips roughly

[murderedinsantacarla]

I kissed him back roughly pulling off his shirt

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul pulled away smirking before teaching his lips to your neck

[murderedinsantacarla]

I moaned a little.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul continued to pleasure you in whatever you had wanted that night.

[murderedinsantacarla]

After a few hours, I had fallen asleep. Unaware that the cancer was spreading. I didn’t tell Paul that I had cancer. I woke up and half of my hair had fallen out.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul had woken up and seen your hair falling out. It was like Marko all over again. “Why haven’t you told me this…” Paul whispered calling for the guys who quickly arrived. Marko brought over a flask of fluid. “Drink this it will help.” Marko spoke.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I couldn’t. I couldn’t put you through this.” Tears ran. I took the drink and drunk some. “What’s the point?”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“The drink had something in it that kills the cell causing the cancer and prevents you ever getting cancer again…” Marko spoke before leaving you and Paul alone to talk.

“I could’ve helped. That’s why I could’ve helped you sooner.” He spoke

[murderedinsantacarla]

“It’ll take forever for my hair to grow back. I look hideous.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul laughed. “Actually it’s grown back and you don’t look hideous you look beautiful.”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Thanks.” I smiled.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“No need to thank me love.” He spoke

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Let’s go to the boardwalk.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul grabbed your hand and walked with you to the boardwalk

[murderedinsantacarla]

I saw the boys sitting by the fire next to a railing. I saw Marko but quickly stopped. “Um, I’m going to ride some rides.” I said a little fast figeting with my feet and hands.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul stopped you. “No your not. We have some things we have to tell you alright?”

[murderedinsantacarla]

I nodded looking away. “Okay.” Walks to the other boys with Paul.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“The cancer you had, was the one Marko had when Paul met him.” David spoke.

“Yeah, and I see how awkward it’s made you but I don’t wanna see my best friend with his mate..” Marko spoke smiling and pulling you into a hug.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I know. It’s not that awkward. My sister died with the same thing. I have to go. I need to go meet up with a friend of mine.” I pulled away from Paul. “I’ll be safe. I’ll be back in a few hours.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“You know how to get a hold of us don’t you? Just mind link us if anything goes wrong.” Paul spoke as the others nodded

[murderedinsantacarla]

I nodded. I walked off heading for the rides to meet up with a gang of guys and girls. We walked off laughing.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul looked at you smiling only slightly. “It’s Christmas Eve guys what are we gunna do?”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“We could feed. Then get gifts.” Marko suggested. my friends and I were out by the beach. I smiled at them. We started getting drunk. We got drunk. I was so drunk I didn’t realize I was kissing one of my friends.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul saw everything unfold and shook his head. ‘What the fuck..’ You heard Paul speak to the others through is thoughts

[murderedinsantacarla]

Unaware that my drink had been spiked, I was drunk and hullcinating. I tripped over a rock and one guy caught me. “Easy cupcake. Don’t wanna ruin that pretty body of yours.” The Guy I had made out with said.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul had seen what had gone on and walked up to the guys socked him one in the jaw and picked you up and took you home with the guys.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I giggled and laughed slurring my words drunk off my ass.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul shook his head… Then put you in the corner of the cave

[murderedinsantacarla]

After hours of non stop talking, I finally passed out.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul made laddie keep an eye on you which ended in laddie falling asleep a so he watched over you for a while

[murderedinsantacarla]

When I woke up the an hour later, my head was pounding like a mofo. I groaned rolling over onto my side to sit up. “The fuck happened?” I mumbled

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Oh nothing other than having your drink spiked, kissing some dude your friends with them passing out drunk.” Paul noted passing you an Advil and some water.

[murderedinsantacarla]

*takes it and swallows it* “That kiss didn’t mean anything Paul. He’s just a friend is all. No need to be fucking jealous.” I mumbled.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“I’m not I saw it all unfold and helped you when I thought you’d probably had enough. The only way to make me jealous is taking my weed and not letting me have any, going to see a band I like live and not asking me to come with you, oh and being provocative toward someone who isn’t me.” Paul chuckled

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Don’t be a damn dick head.” I hissed with clenched fists. “I needed time with friends and I didn’t take your weed. I had my own.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“I’m not saying anything like that, all I’m saying is if you do those things I’ll be jealous. I never said don’t hang with your friends or your stash situation….” Paul muttered looking down clearly disheartened before standing up and walking away from you into a corner as he hugged a pillow close.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I walked out of the cave needing air going to the beach. I got out my shorts and tank top and had my music playing. I sat in my bikini in the water. I put the music down and dove into the water swimming far out.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul watched you leave then excused himself to go for a ride, he didn’t follow you. He went to the old lighthouse. He watched peacefully at how the ocean moved.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I stood on the freezing water for a little bit looking up at the moo light. A tear escaped my eyes but I wiped them away.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul sensed your upsetting but didn’t move. All he tried doing was making a joke out of what happened. He was trying not be seriously upset by the events. But he felt he wasn’t good enough for you. He thought about leaving town for a while to get a break. But he clearly didn’t have the guts to leave so as he looked down towards the water he caught you gaze he weakly smiled, a broken smile for a broken heart. He walked back to his bike going towards the cave.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I looked away again going back underwater wanting to stay there forever. I shivered from the cold. I sat on the sand next to a fire I built. I held the towel around me. I had eyes closed.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Dwayne sensed you had a fight with Paul so he went to get you as Paul had lost it he was screaming and crying. He picked you up and carried you back to the cave

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Put me down dammit!!! Let me freeze to death!!” I yelled tears running down my face.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Look. Your immortal. And your mate is going crazy right now. Whatever happened we don’t care. Just help him please. He’s like my younger brother. Don’t let him do this to himself he’s blaming himself for everything.” Dwayne pleaded

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Dwayne. I need to tell you something don’t tell Paul not yet anyways. I’m…pregnant I don’t know how it’s possible but I felt a kick a few days ago.” I said hoping Paul wouldn’t hear.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul had already heard and had run to his private room to cry about how he was a monster……

“Congratulations now go tell Paul that yeah? He calmed down as soon as he sensed you.” Dwayne hugged you before pushing you off toward the room where Paul’s sobs could be heard

[murderedinsantacarla]

I walked into Paul’s room pulling him close. I grabbed his hand putting it on my belly. “Paul.” I said softly as I felt another kick.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul whimpered. “y-yes?” He looked up still scared of hurting you

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Do you feel it?” I asked smiling softly looking at him.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Y-yeah I do” Paul smiled lightly

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I’m sorry. For everything. Nothings your fault. I promise. We love you.” I smiled kissing his cheek.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul whimpered pulling you closer. “Lilly’s old enough to be Dwaynes mate now…” He whispered kissing your lips lightly

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Yes I know she is.” I kissed his lips back.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Just at that moment Dwayne and Lilly’s laughs rang out. Paul pulled away and smiled. “Maybe we should get some rest babe”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“No. I don’t need sleep. I already slept. You need sleep. I’ve put you through hell late. Now sleep love.” I ordered smiling and rubbing his head.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Please don’t leave me thought please??” He whispered pulling you closer but not too tightly.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I won’t I’ll be here when you wake up.” I smiled.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Thank you baby.” He whispered.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I smiled watching him sleep. I laid there looking around his room. He had a lot of rock posters and music cds piled everywhere.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

After a few hours Paul began waking up

[murderedinsantacarla]

I had my head laid near his neck sleeping.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul smiled and wrapped his arms around your waist.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I slept soundly. Nightmares got worse as n I slept. I twitched a few times. I turned on my side.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul woke you up shaking you

[murderedinsantacarla]

I opened my eyes. “Hmm?”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Are you okay babe?” He whispered.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I nodded. “Yeah. I’m okay.” *sits up* “are you okay?”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“A little bit yeah, thank you for putting up with me.” He whispered into your hair

[murderedinsantacarla]

“That’s why I’m here.“I smildd then frowned suddenly yelping in pain clutching my belly.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Baby are you okay???” Paul asked before minding Max. ‘Max get here now!’ ‘Why?!’ ‘My mate is in pain so don’t you dare ever ask that question again got it old man?!’ Paul growled.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I cried out again laying on my back. I cried out words that didn’t make sense. My skin started glowing.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Max hurriedly ran to you and gave you a vile of blood. It didn’t stop the glowing but you began making sense again. Max knew you where in labour.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I cried out again louder. Blood coming out some. I cried unclear words.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul began worrying further. “Max…” “Paul just calm down” Then the sounds of a baby’s cry enters the room as you pass out and Max gives you more blood

[murderedinsantacarla]

The little boy cried. I was out cold sweating like a pig. His blood wasn’t enough for me.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul made a cut in his hand before making you swallow his blood as you began regaining consciousness

[murderedinsantacarla]

I opened my eyes still weak as hell. I went to move my body and yelped loudly getting still again. My body was glowing again. I began throwing up blood.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Max injected a syrum into your blood preventing any more throwing up. The glowing had every one on edge

[murderedinsantacarla]

I started to relax but the glowing didn’t stop. My eyes were closed. I was really still.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Max began telling Paul to kiss you as hard as he could.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I felt Paul's lips on mine but I was still completely still.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Marko! What's your favorite songs and bands? I wanna listen to them!

“I have quite a few but queen is the main one. And u can’t choose a favourite song that’s just evil making me choose.” Marko answered

[murderedinsantacarla]

*giggles* “Is your hair naturally curly or is it a perm? *sits on his lap making Paul jealous*

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“It’s naturally curly…” Marko answered automatically rejecting what you were doing and stood up.

[murderedinsantacarla]

*pouts and yawns* “Sleep deprived!!” I moaned falling over. “Haven’t slept in three days!”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul looked over jealous and annoyed as he walked to your shared room to sleep.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I went outside of the cave spinning around. I yawned again. I stopped when I saw Michael staring at me along with Sam and Alan. I tried to run but a stake was held at my back.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul and the boys came outside and basically butchered the hunters leaving the other two to run off

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Yeah! And stay away!!” I yelled walking over to a rock and sitting on looking down at my hands. I had a lot on my mind. I sighed. “I’m going for a swim.” I said and ran for the water now in my blue bikini.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul scoffed. “Yeah sure just flirt with my best bud then go for a swim. I totally get it your not into me any more.” He walked back into the cave knowing you’d heard.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I wasnt flirting!!! I was being cute!!“I yelled now in tears. I turned and got dressed and ran to my old apartment. Going inside and hiding in the bathroom with the lights off. I cried softly.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul knew he’d hurt you but, trying to be cute and make him jealous with his best friend had done more than tick him off.

He got on his bike and had followed you before knocking on the bathroom door. “Baby I didn’t mean it. I was just pissed off at Marko de even answering your question and letting you get that close to him. Please lemme in darling, we can cuddle if you’d like.” He begged at the door.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I didn’t answer. I was too busy cutting my wrists deeply as sobs escaped my lips. “No leave me alone!” I sobbed.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul ripped the door of its hinges and took the blade away. “This is the last thing I wanted to see! My fiancée hurting because of me. Look I know I’m a fuck up. I always have been and probably always will be, but please just say you still love me please I’ll do anything.” He sobbed as he spoke signifying he’d actually let you in and see the real him. The misfortuned boy who had real emotions and love harder than ever

[murderedinsantacarla]

I grabbed his face with my bleeding arms. “No! Its my fault. I only wanted to see you jealous because its kinda hot. I didn’t mean for you to blow up at me. Its my fault.” Tears streamed down my soft face.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul pulled you into him as he stood up and began cleaning your arms.

“I shouldn’t have said anything! I fucked up like always. I didn’t like it but I shouldn’t have said anything but pulled you to me. I love you. Way too much to let you walk out of my life.” He whispered as he’d finally broken seeing the love of his life run away from him so many times made him know he was a monster and didn’t deserve love at all. He shook the thought from his head.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I heard his thoughts. “I don’t care how many times you hurt me, i always love you and nothing can ever change that. You’re mine. No one else’s. I don’t wanna see you with anyone else. It would kill me.” Looks away still holding his face.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Baby girl I’ll always be yours, I’d never do that to you if never see anyone else in the same way as I view you my love. Now please let’s not hurt each other yeah?” He replied lowering his lips to yours as his arms found their way to your waist pulling you closer

[murderedinsantacarla]

I nodded. “Alright.” I was still kinda shaky as I kissed him back.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul pulled away and nuzzling his head into your neck

[murderedinsantacarla]

I smiled a bit relaxing. “Let me go get changed. But I think I’m going to stay here for a while just til things settle.” I kissed his cheek then went to my walk in closet

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul looked started but agreed. “Do you want me to stay with you??”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I just want some time to myself you know? I love you I do I just need to space myself away from everyone at the moment.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul swore he felt a pang of hurt but knew that if you needed space he’d give it to you.

“I know you love me and I reapers your choice, however if you do need me you know I’ll be at the boardwalk annoying Max Love.” He spoke before kissing you the last time and walking to your apartment door. “I love you darling.”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I love you too babe.” I smiled a bit before turning and finding a rock oufit to wear.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I felt !y phone buzz. I picked it up and clicked the image. I looked down at the image them at Paul then back at the picture.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“What’s wrong baby?”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“You kissed Star.” I hissed shoving the phone at him.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Whoa whoa that is not me. The person has curly hair! It’s Marko. How could it possibly be me when I’ve been with you?!”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Because it has your face, your clothes, wavy hair?”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Babe that was ages ago. Before you came into my life it was just a stupid kiss I swear.”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I’ll be back.” I left the room and went into another room.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Babe you have believe me please! It didn’t mean anything to me- she doesn’t mean anything to me!” He begged

[murderedinsantacarla]

I threw a rock at the window. “Not according to star.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Oh please she’s probably fucking Michael as we speak! She doesn’t mean anything to me at all alright! Only you matter to me your the only one I care for and I’m not going to let some stupid witch get I the way of that!” Paul spoke.

“Star fancied me years ago. We kissed yeah but nothing else happened. It was years ago babe seriously!”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I’m going to bed.” I muttered walking past him. “Star and I have been friends for awhile.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“She’s just using you. She’s trying to make you think we’re the bad guys. And yes in some aspects we are but at least we admit it! They’re trying to kill us again don’t you see! Star doesn’t have any friends she’s even admitted it that she ain’t capable of having any!” Paul muttered angrily. “All i want is for us to be happy and people keep fucking that up!”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I can’t trust anyone anymore.” I muttered angrily.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

That one hit Paul like a tin of bricks. “Whatever. I’ve explained and stressed my side of the story and you haven’t even tried to listen.” Paul mutter walking away whispering something along the lines of: ‘I wish you’d just listen and understand for once instead of jumping to conclusions.’

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I heard that!!” I yelled.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“You were meant to why’d you think I said it, and you said you wanted space we’ll have it! I’m leaving so you get that time happy?!” He yelled back. ‘David I’m gunna kill Starr!’ ‘Why?’ ‘She’s trying ruin my life.’ ‘Fair enough go for it.’

The boys knew you’d heard it.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I went to the bathroom and slammed the door shut and turned on the shower. I got in took a shower and got out. I put on white skinny jeans with a black studded belt. A white crop top and a black mesh shirt. My belly button showed which was pierced. I had on spiked bracelets. My wavy hair put into a ponytail. My make up dark, and my knee length studded combat boots with chains. I walked out of the house and took the boardwalk.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul was pissed, the boys could tell, but in hat money when you arrived t was like the ending of the grease movie. Only Paul’s jaw dropped. Starr Reyes wrapping herself round him only to be pushed off. He minded you. ‘See what i mean I’ve only been out of your sight an hour and she’s all over me when your the one I want. Not her!’

[murderedinsantacarla]

Star huffed. “Fine. I’ll find Michael.” With that, she left. I walked over to a table with booze. I flashed the guy to get some free booze. I smirked and took the Jack and walked off drinking it.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul followed you.

“So now that we’re on a break you go flashing guys?! You saw what happened and you saw how I reacted and yet you choose to act like I don’t exist?! Find me when you grow up! I actually fucking love you but I really really don’t see the point in fighting anymore! You win! Whatever your game was and is! I’m not arguing anymore. I’ll see you around kid.” Paul had finally broke, you’d won the game. The game of winning his heart. You’d done it but you happened to have broken it. And he didn’t know what to do. He followed you like a lost puppy smitten with the very thought of you. He still felt that way, but maybe you where right maybe you two needed some time apart. He walked back over to the bikes and rode home he didn’t feed that night at all.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I couldn’t feel my heart anymore after he said that. I wasn’t playing games. I only wanted a free beer. I went to my apartment grabbed my stuff, left a note on my counter and left. I hopped on my bike and left town. Tears streamed my face. I loved him. UT he just didn’t see it. I drove for three hours and stopped to fill up with gas.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul went to find you to apologise for what he had said, only to find the note. His heart missed a beat, it didn’t matter that his heart would never beat again he just wanted you back so he followed your scent and waited at your bike.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I pulled my money out and paid the lady the money and headed out. I still had on my hot outfit. I stopped dead in my tracks seeing Paul.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul looked up. “Babe…. I’m so sorry I swear, I just don’t know what going on anymore! All I seem to want is to be with you please don’t leave…” He begged

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Why? All you do is hurt me. Say mean things then apologize for them.” I said grouchily.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“I’ve never been in love before so I’m scared! And I’m sorry. I just want to know what it feels like to feel love. And with you I feel like I can be myself. And I’m trying so hard to not fuck shit up but that’s all I seem capable of…” Paul tried reasoning knowing that you’d probably never forgive him and take off on your bike never for him to see you again…

‘I’m such a fuck up its untrue…’ He mentally groaned.

“If you seriously want me gone and want to be able to do everything you’ve ever dreamed of. Tell me now and I’ll go. This is your choice not anyone else’s it’ll hurt don’t get me wrong but I’ll get over it as long as your happy. Because that’s all I want for you. I want you to have the best in life and I’m probably not that. In fact I know I’m not that. But anyway back to the point it’s your choice.” He spoke. Solemnly and sombrely. But he knew it was best for you to go… Like you said all he did was hurt you and he didn’t want that for you.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I couldn’t look at him. “Your right. Maybe we should. Anyways, I have to go. I’m going to see my dying sister.” I wanted to cry so bad. I stood there before everything went black and I passed out.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul caught you before reaching for a flask he always carries with him. He but it to your lips before letting the blood slide down your throat. It woke you up and as Paul helped you stand he hugged you for the last time.

“Keep the ring as memory of the guys and I. See you around, wish your sister well from us yeah??” Paul’s voice cracked and broke as tears filled his eyes he kissed your forehead before walking back to his bike. He turned and looked for the last time. He waved at you before driving back to Santa Carla

[murderedinsantacarla]

“No!” I said but he was already out of sight. I started to cry. I got on my bike. Wanting to drive to my sister but I needed Paul the most. I stayed at a hotel for a few weeks. I went back to Santa Carla to find that Paul had moved on like he said. I hid in my apartment crying. I had all the lights off.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul hadn’t moved on the girl you had spotted him with was flirting but he couldn’t do the same. He saw you and he saw you run back to your bike so he followed you.

“I thought you said you’d be going to see your sister?” He spoke as tears welled in his eyes yet again seeing you like that. He so wanted to kiss you and take everything that had hurt you away but you were no longer his and he had to face that.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I didn’t wanna go. She died anyways.” When I spoke, my voice filled with sadness.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“I’m sorry.” Paul suddenly said as he brought you into a hug.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I buried my face into his neck. “I miss you. So much.” I sobbed

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul kissed your forehead whispering “I miss you too.” He ran his fingers through your hair.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I want you back but your with that girl.“ Tears streamed my face.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul chuckled. “She was flirting but I couldn’t bring myself to do it. I’m still single. And you can have me back if that’s what you really want.” He spoke quietly wiping he tears away from your eyes.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I don’t want you. I need you. You helped me through everything. You were there when no one else was.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul sighed happily.

“What about we take it slow and don’t rush anything? That way nobody gets hurt and that we make sure this is what we all want yeah?” Paul offered

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Yeah. Where are the boys anyways? ”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Probably back at the cave taunting some newbie to town again.” Paul chuckled

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Oh. Well let me get changed and we can go to the boardwalk.” *goes to my closet and grabs a black shirt tight dress and a pair of leather boots and changes into them. I came out in the black shirt dress and boots.*

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul’s mouth dropped open.

“Either you’re testing my ability to not jump you and go at it like a rabbit with you or you want me to show you off.” He woke jokingly as he wrapped an arm around you pulling you closer to him.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Whatever you want to do. I’m all your.” I ran my hand over his chest and along his neck.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul suddenly pressed his lips to yours as he kissed you roughly

[murderedinsantacarla]

I kissed back just as rough.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul’s arms wrapped around your waist and pulled you closer moaning as he did so.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I buried my face into his neck moaning.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul tilted his neck slightly. “Mmh. I thought you wanted to go the boardwalk or aren’t you bothered right now??” Paul moaned out.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I rather do this first.” Moaned wet through my panties.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul smiled lightly picking you up and laying you down on the bed

[murderedinsantacarla]

I looked up at him smiling.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul smiled slightly before reattaching your lips roughly

[murderedinsantacarla]

I kissed him back roughly pulling off his shirt

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul pulled away smirking before teaching his lips to your neck

[murderedinsantacarla]

I moaned a little.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul continued to pleasure you in whatever you had wanted that night.

[murderedinsantacarla]

After a few hours, I had fallen asleep. Unaware that the cancer was spreading. I didn’t tell Paul that I had cancer. I woke up and half of my hair had fallen out.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul had woken up and seen your hair falling out. It was like Marko all over again. “Why haven’t you told me this…” Paul whispered calling for the guys who quickly arrived. Marko brought over a flask of fluid. “Drink this it will help.” Marko spoke.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I couldn’t. I couldn’t put you through this.” Tears ran. I took the drink and drunk some. “What’s the point?”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“The drink had something in it that kills the cell causing the cancer and prevents you ever getting cancer again…” Marko spoke before leaving you and Paul alone to talk.

“I could’ve helped. That’s why I could’ve helped you sooner.” He spoke

[murderedinsantacarla]

“It’ll take forever for my hair to grow back. I look hideous.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul laughed. “Actually it’s grown back and you don’t look hideous you look beautiful.”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Thanks.” I smiled.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“No need to thank me love.” He spoke

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Let’s go to the boardwalk.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul grabbed your hand and walked with you to the boardwalk

[murderedinsantacarla]

I saw the boys sitting by the fire next to a railing. I saw Marko but quickly stopped. “Um, I’m going to ride some rides.” I said a little fast figeting with my feet and hands.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul stopped you. “No your not. We have some things we have to tell you alright?”

[murderedinsantacarla]

I nodded looking away. “Okay.” Walks to the other boys with Paul.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“The cancer you had, was the one Marko had when Paul met him.” David spoke.

“Yeah, and I see how awkward it’s made you but I don’t wanna see my best friend with his mate..” Marko spoke smiling and pulling you into a hug.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I know. It’s not that awkward. My sister died with the same thing. I have to go. I need to go meet up with a friend of mine.” I pulled away from Paul. “I’ll be safe. I’ll be back in a few hours.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“You know how to get a hold of us don’t you? Just mind link us if anything goes wrong.” Paul spoke as the others nodded

[murderedinsantacarla]

I nodded. I walked off heading for the rides to meet up with a gang of guys and girls. We walked off laughing.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul looked at you smiling only slightly. “It’s Christmas Eve guys what are we gunna do?”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“We could feed. Then get gifts.” Marko suggested. my friends and I were out by the beach. I smiled at them. We started getting drunk. We got drunk. I was so drunk I didn’t realize I was kissing one of my friends.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul saw everything unfold and shook his head. ‘What the fuck..’ You heard Paul speak to the others through is thoughts

[murderedinsantacarla]

Unaware that my drink had been spiked, I was drunk and hullcinating. I tripped over a rock and one guy caught me. “Easy cupcake. Don’t wanna ruin that pretty body of yours.” The Guy I had made out with said.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul had seen what had gone on and walked up to the guys socked him one in the jaw and picked you up and took you home with the guys.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I giggled and laughed slurring my words drunk off my ass.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul shook his head… Then put you in the corner of the cave

[murderedinsantacarla]

After hours of non stop talking, I finally passed out.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul made laddie keep an eye on you which ended in laddie falling asleep a so he watched over you for a while

[murderedinsantacarla]

When I woke up the an hour later, my head was pounding like a mofo. I groaned rolling over onto my side to sit up. “The fuck happened?” I mumbled

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Oh nothing other than having your drink spiked, kissing some dude your friends with them passing out drunk.” Paul noted passing you an Advil and some water.

[murderedinsantacarla]

*takes it and swallows it* “That kiss didn’t mean anything Paul. He’s just a friend is all. No need to be fucking jealous.” I mumbled.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“I’m not I saw it all unfold and helped you when I thought you’d probably had enough. The only way to make me jealous is taking my weed and not letting me have any, going to see a band I like live and not asking me to come with you, oh and being provocative toward someone who isn’t me.” Paul chuckled

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Don’t be a damn dick head.” I hissed with clenched fists. “I needed time with friends and I didn’t take your weed. I had my own.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“I’m not saying anything like that, all I’m saying is if you do those things I’ll be jealous. I never said don’t hang with your friends or your stash situation….” Paul muttered looking down clearly disheartened before standing up and walking away from you into a corner as he hugged a pillow close.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I walked out of the cave needing air going to the beach. I got out my shorts and tank top and had my music playing. I sat in my bikini in the water. I put the music down and dove into the water swimming far out.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul watched you leave then excused himself to go for a ride, he didn’t follow you. He went to the old lighthouse. He watched peacefully at how the ocean moved.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I stood on the freezing water for a little bit looking up at the moo light. A tear escaped my eyes but I wiped them away.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul sensed your upsetting but didn’t move. All he tried doing was making a joke out of what happened. He was trying not be seriously upset by the events. But he felt he wasn’t good enough for you. He thought about leaving town for a while to get a break. But he clearly didn’t have the guts to leave so as he looked down towards the water he caught you gaze he weakly smiled, a broken smile for a broken heart. He walked back to his bike going towards the cave.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I looked away again going back underwater wanting to stay there forever. I shivered from the cold. I sat on the sand next to a fire I built. I held the towel around me. I had eyes closed.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Dwayne sensed you had a fight with Paul so he went to get you as Paul had lost it he was screaming and crying. He picked you up and carried you back to the cave

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Put me down dammit!!! Let me freeze to death!!” I yelled tears running down my face.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Look. Your immortal. And your mate is going crazy right now. Whatever happened we don’t care. Just help him please. He’s like my younger brother. Don’t let him do this to himself he’s blaming himself for everything.” Dwayne pleaded

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Dwayne. I need to tell you something don’t tell Paul not yet anyways. I’m…pregnant I don’t know how it’s possible but I felt a kick a few days ago.” I said hoping Paul wouldn’t hear.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul had already heard and had run to his private room to cry about how he was a monster……

“Congratulations now go tell Paul that yeah? He calmed down as soon as he sensed you.” Dwayne hugged you before pushing you off toward the room where Paul’s sobs could be heard

[murderedinsantacarla]

I walked into Paul’s room pulling him close. I grabbed his hand putting it on my belly. “Paul.” I said softly as I felt another kick.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul whimpered. “y-yes?” He looked up still scared of hurting you

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Do you feel it?” I asked smiling softly looking at him.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Y-yeah I do” Paul smiled lightly

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I’m sorry. For everything. Nothings your fault. I promise. We love you.” I smiled kissing his cheek.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul whimpered pulling you closer. “Lilly’s old enough to be Dwaynes mate now…” He whispered kissing your lips lightly

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Yes I know she is.” I kissed his lips back.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Just at that moment Dwayne and Lilly’s laughs rang out. Paul pulled away and smiled. “Maybe we should get some rest babe”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“No. I don’t need sleep. I already slept. You need sleep. I’ve put you through hell late. Now sleep love.” I ordered smiling and rubbing his head.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Please don’t leave me thought please??” He whispered pulling you closer but not too tightly.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I won’t I’ll be here when you wake up.” I smiled.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Thank you baby.” He whispered.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I smiled watching him sleep. I laid there looking around his room. He had a lot of rock posters and music cds piled everywhere.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

After a few hours Paul began waking up

[murderedinsantacarla]

I had my head laid near his neck sleeping.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul smiled and wrapped his arms around your waist.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I slept soundly. Nightmares got worse as n I slept. I twitched a few times. I turned on my side.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul woke you up shaking you

[murderedinsantacarla]

I opened my eyes. “Hmm?”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Are you okay babe?” He whispered.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I nodded. “Yeah. I’m okay.” *sits up* “are you okay?”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“A little bit yeah, thank you for putting up with me.” He whispered into your hair

[murderedinsantacarla]

“That’s why I’m here.“I smildd then frowned suddenly yelping in pain clutching my belly.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Baby are you okay???” Paul asked before minding Max. ‘Max get here now!’ ‘Why?!’ ‘My mate is in pain so don’t you dare ever ask that question again got it old man?!’ Paul growled.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I cried out again laying on my back. I cried out words that didn’t make sense. My skin started glowing.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Max hurriedly ran to you and gave you a vile of blood. It didn’t stop the glowing but you began making sense again. Max knew you where in labour.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I cried out again louder. Blood coming out some. I cried unclear words.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul began worrying further. “Max…” “Paul just calm down” Then the sounds of a baby’s cry enters the room as you pass out and Max gives you more blood

[murderedinsantacarla]

The little boy cried. I was out cold sweating like a pig. His blood wasn’t enough for me.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul made a cut in his hand before making you swallow his blood as you began regaining consciousness

[murderedinsantacarla]

I opened my eyes still weak as hell. I went to move my body and yelped loudly getting still again. My body was glowing again. I began throwing up blood.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Max injected a syrum into your blood preventing any more throwing up. The glowing had every one on edge

[murderedinsantacarla]

I started to relax but the glowing didn't stop. My eyes were closed. I was really still.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Marko! What's your favorite songs and bands? I wanna listen to them!

“I have quite a few but queen is the main one. And u can’t choose a favourite song that’s just evil making me choose.” Marko answered

[murderedinsantacarla]

*giggles* “Is your hair naturally curly or is it a perm? *sits on his lap making Paul jealous*

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“It’s naturally curly…” Marko answered automatically rejecting what you were doing and stood up.

[murderedinsantacarla]

*pouts and yawns* “Sleep deprived!!” I moaned falling over. “Haven’t slept in three days!”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul looked over jealous and annoyed as he walked to your shared room to sleep.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I went outside of the cave spinning around. I yawned again. I stopped when I saw Michael staring at me along with Sam and Alan. I tried to run but a stake was held at my back.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul and the boys came outside and basically butchered the hunters leaving the other two to run off

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Yeah! And stay away!!” I yelled walking over to a rock and sitting on looking down at my hands. I had a lot on my mind. I sighed. “I’m going for a swim.” I said and ran for the water now in my blue bikini.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul scoffed. “Yeah sure just flirt with my best bud then go for a swim. I totally get it your not into me any more.” He walked back into the cave knowing you’d heard.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I wasnt flirting!!! I was being cute!!“I yelled now in tears. I turned and got dressed and ran to my old apartment. Going inside and hiding in the bathroom with the lights off. I cried softly.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul knew he’d hurt you but, trying to be cute and make him jealous with his best friend had done more than tick him off.

He got on his bike and had followed you before knocking on the bathroom door. “Baby I didn’t mean it. I was just pissed off at Marko de even answering your question and letting you get that close to him. Please lemme in darling, we can cuddle if you’d like.” He begged at the door.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I didn’t answer. I was too busy cutting my wrists deeply as sobs escaped my lips. “No leave me alone!” I sobbed.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul ripped the door of its hinges and took the blade away. “This is the last thing I wanted to see! My fiancée hurting because of me. Look I know I’m a fuck up. I always have been and probably always will be, but please just say you still love me please I’ll do anything.” He sobbed as he spoke signifying he’d actually let you in and see the real him. The misfortuned boy who had real emotions and love harder than ever

[murderedinsantacarla]

I grabbed his face with my bleeding arms. “No! Its my fault. I only wanted to see you jealous because its kinda hot. I didn’t mean for you to blow up at me. Its my fault.” Tears streamed down my soft face.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul pulled you into him as he stood up and began cleaning your arms.

“I shouldn’t have said anything! I fucked up like always. I didn’t like it but I shouldn’t have said anything but pulled you to me. I love you. Way too much to let you walk out of my life.” He whispered as he’d finally broken seeing the love of his life run away from him so many times made him know he was a monster and didn’t deserve love at all. He shook the thought from his head.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I heard his thoughts. “I don’t care how many times you hurt me, i always love you and nothing can ever change that. You’re mine. No one else’s. I don’t wanna see you with anyone else. It would kill me.” Looks away still holding his face.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Baby girl I’ll always be yours, I’d never do that to you if never see anyone else in the same way as I view you my love. Now please let’s not hurt each other yeah?” He replied lowering his lips to yours as his arms found their way to your waist pulling you closer

[murderedinsantacarla]

I nodded. “Alright.” I was still kinda shaky as I kissed him back.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul pulled away and nuzzling his head into your neck

[murderedinsantacarla]

I smiled a bit relaxing. “Let me go get changed. But I think I’m going to stay here for a while just til things settle.” I kissed his cheek then went to my walk in closet

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul looked started but agreed. “Do you want me to stay with you??”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I just want some time to myself you know? I love you I do I just need to space myself away from everyone at the moment.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul swore he felt a pang of hurt but knew that if you needed space he’d give it to you.

“I know you love me and I reapers your choice, however if you do need me you know I’ll be at the boardwalk annoying Max Love.” He spoke before kissing you the last time and walking to your apartment door. “I love you darling.”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I love you too babe.” I smiled a bit before turning and finding a rock oufit to wear.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I felt !y phone buzz. I picked it up and clicked the image. I looked down at the image them at Paul then back at the picture.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“What’s wrong baby?”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“You kissed Star.” I hissed shoving the phone at him.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Whoa whoa that is not me. The person has curly hair! It’s Marko. How could it possibly be me when I’ve been with you?!”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Because it has your face, your clothes, wavy hair?”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Babe that was ages ago. Before you came into my life it was just a stupid kiss I swear.”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I’ll be back.” I left the room and went into another room.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Babe you have believe me please! It didn’t mean anything to me- she doesn’t mean anything to me!” He begged

[murderedinsantacarla]

I threw a rock at the window. “Not according to star.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Oh please she’s probably fucking Michael as we speak! She doesn’t mean anything to me at all alright! Only you matter to me your the only one I care for and I’m not going to let some stupid witch get I the way of that!” Paul spoke.

“Star fancied me years ago. We kissed yeah but nothing else happened. It was years ago babe seriously!”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I’m going to bed.” I muttered walking past him. “Star and I have been friends for awhile.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“She’s just using you. She’s trying to make you think we’re the bad guys. And yes in some aspects we are but at least we admit it! They’re trying to kill us again don’t you see! Star doesn’t have any friends she’s even admitted it that she ain’t capable of having any!” Paul muttered angrily. “All i want is for us to be happy and people keep fucking that up!”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I can’t trust anyone anymore.” I muttered angrily.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

That one hit Paul like a tin of bricks. “Whatever. I’ve explained and stressed my side of the story and you haven’t even tried to listen.” Paul mutter walking away whispering something along the lines of: ‘I wish you’d just listen and understand for once instead of jumping to conclusions.’

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I heard that!!” I yelled.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“You were meant to why’d you think I said it, and you said you wanted space we’ll have it! I’m leaving so you get that time happy?!” He yelled back. ‘David I’m gunna kill Starr!’ ‘Why?’ ‘She’s trying ruin my life.’ ‘Fair enough go for it.’

The boys knew you’d heard it.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I went to the bathroom and slammed the door shut and turned on the shower. I got in took a shower and got out. I put on white skinny jeans with a black studded belt. A white crop top and a black mesh shirt. My belly button showed which was pierced. I had on spiked bracelets. My wavy hair put into a ponytail. My make up dark, and my knee length studded combat boots with chains. I walked out of the house and took the boardwalk.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul was pissed, the boys could tell, but in hat money when you arrived t was like the ending of the grease movie. Only Paul’s jaw dropped. Starr Reyes wrapping herself round him only to be pushed off. He minded you. ‘See what i mean I’ve only been out of your sight an hour and she’s all over me when your the one I want. Not her!’

[murderedinsantacarla]

Star huffed. “Fine. I’ll find Michael.” With that, she left. I walked over to a table with booze. I flashed the guy to get some free booze. I smirked and took the Jack and walked off drinking it.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul followed you.

“So now that we’re on a break you go flashing guys?! You saw what happened and you saw how I reacted and yet you choose to act like I don’t exist?! Find me when you grow up! I actually fucking love you but I really really don’t see the point in fighting anymore! You win! Whatever your game was and is! I’m not arguing anymore. I’ll see you around kid.” Paul had finally broke, you’d won the game. The game of winning his heart. You’d done it but you happened to have broken it. And he didn’t know what to do. He followed you like a lost puppy smitten with the very thought of you. He still felt that way, but maybe you where right maybe you two needed some time apart. He walked back over to the bikes and rode home he didn’t feed that night at all.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I couldn’t feel my heart anymore after he said that. I wasn’t playing games. I only wanted a free beer. I went to my apartment grabbed my stuff, left a note on my counter and left. I hopped on my bike and left town. Tears streamed my face. I loved him. UT he just didn’t see it. I drove for three hours and stopped to fill up with gas.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul went to find you to apologise for what he had said, only to find the note. His heart missed a beat, it didn’t matter that his heart would never beat again he just wanted you back so he followed your scent and waited at your bike.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I pulled my money out and paid the lady the money and headed out. I still had on my hot outfit. I stopped dead in my tracks seeing Paul.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul looked up. “Babe…. I’m so sorry I swear, I just don’t know what going on anymore! All I seem to want is to be with you please don’t leave…” He begged

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Why? All you do is hurt me. Say mean things then apologize for them.” I said grouchily.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“I’ve never been in love before so I’m scared! And I’m sorry. I just want to know what it feels like to feel love. And with you I feel like I can be myself. And I’m trying so hard to not fuck shit up but that’s all I seem capable of…” Paul tried reasoning knowing that you’d probably never forgive him and take off on your bike never for him to see you again…

‘I’m such a fuck up its untrue…’ He mentally groaned.

“If you seriously want me gone and want to be able to do everything you’ve ever dreamed of. Tell me now and I’ll go. This is your choice not anyone else’s it’ll hurt don’t get me wrong but I’ll get over it as long as your happy. Because that’s all I want for you. I want you to have the best in life and I’m probably not that. In fact I know I’m not that. But anyway back to the point it’s your choice.” He spoke. Solemnly and sombrely. But he knew it was best for you to go… Like you said all he did was hurt you and he didn’t want that for you.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I couldn’t look at him. “Your right. Maybe we should. Anyways, I have to go. I’m going to see my dying sister.” I wanted to cry so bad. I stood there before everything went black and I passed out.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul caught you before reaching for a flask he always carries with him. He but it to your lips before letting the blood slide down your throat. It woke you up and as Paul helped you stand he hugged you for the last time.

“Keep the ring as memory of the guys and I. See you around, wish your sister well from us yeah??” Paul’s voice cracked and broke as tears filled his eyes he kissed your forehead before walking back to his bike. He turned and looked for the last time. He waved at you before driving back to Santa Carla

[murderedinsantacarla]

“No!” I said but he was already out of sight. I started to cry. I got on my bike. Wanting to drive to my sister but I needed Paul the most. I stayed at a hotel for a few weeks. I went back to Santa Carla to find that Paul had moved on like he said. I hid in my apartment crying. I had all the lights off.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul hadn’t moved on the girl you had spotted him with was flirting but he couldn’t do the same. He saw you and he saw you run back to your bike so he followed you.

“I thought you said you’d be going to see your sister?” He spoke as tears welled in his eyes yet again seeing you like that. He so wanted to kiss you and take everything that had hurt you away but you were no longer his and he had to face that.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I didn’t wanna go. She died anyways.” When I spoke, my voice filled with sadness.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“I’m sorry.” Paul suddenly said as he brought you into a hug.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I buried my face into his neck. “I miss you. So much.” I sobbed

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul kissed your forehead whispering “I miss you too.” He ran his fingers through your hair.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I want you back but your with that girl.“ Tears streamed my face.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul chuckled. “She was flirting but I couldn’t bring myself to do it. I’m still single. And you can have me back if that’s what you really want.” He spoke quietly wiping he tears away from your eyes.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I don’t want you. I need you. You helped me through everything. You were there when no one else was.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul sighed happily.

“What about we take it slow and don’t rush anything? That way nobody gets hurt and that we make sure this is what we all want yeah?” Paul offered

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Yeah. Where are the boys anyways? ”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Probably back at the cave taunting some newbie to town again.” Paul chuckled

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Oh. Well let me get changed and we can go to the boardwalk.” *goes to my closet and grabs a black shirt tight dress and a pair of leather boots and changes into them. I came out in the black shirt dress and boots.*

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul’s mouth dropped open.

“Either you’re testing my ability to not jump you and go at it like a rabbit with you or you want me to show you off.” He woke jokingly as he wrapped an arm around you pulling you closer to him.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Whatever you want to do. I’m all your.” I ran my hand over his chest and along his neck.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul suddenly pressed his lips to yours as he kissed you roughly

[murderedinsantacarla]

I kissed back just as rough.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul’s arms wrapped around your waist and pulled you closer moaning as he did so.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I buried my face into his neck moaning.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul tilted his neck slightly. “Mmh. I thought you wanted to go the boardwalk or aren’t you bothered right now??” Paul moaned out.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I rather do this first.” Moaned wet through my panties.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul smiled lightly picking you up and laying you down on the bed

[murderedinsantacarla]

I looked up at him smiling.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul smiled slightly before reattaching your lips roughly

[murderedinsantacarla]

I kissed him back roughly pulling off his shirt

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul pulled away smirking before teaching his lips to your neck

[murderedinsantacarla]

I moaned a little.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul continued to pleasure you in whatever you had wanted that night.

[murderedinsantacarla]

After a few hours, I had fallen asleep. Unaware that the cancer was spreading. I didn’t tell Paul that I had cancer. I woke up and half of my hair had fallen out.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul had woken up and seen your hair falling out. It was like Marko all over again. “Why haven’t you told me this…” Paul whispered calling for the guys who quickly arrived. Marko brought over a flask of fluid. “Drink this it will help.” Marko spoke.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I couldn’t. I couldn’t put you through this.” Tears ran. I took the drink and drunk some. “What’s the point?”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“The drink had something in it that kills the cell causing the cancer and prevents you ever getting cancer again…” Marko spoke before leaving you and Paul alone to talk.

“I could’ve helped. That’s why I could’ve helped you sooner.” He spoke

[murderedinsantacarla]

“It’ll take forever for my hair to grow back. I look hideous.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul laughed. “Actually it’s grown back and you don’t look hideous you look beautiful.”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Thanks.” I smiled.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“No need to thank me love.” He spoke

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Let’s go to the boardwalk.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul grabbed your hand and walked with you to the boardwalk

[murderedinsantacarla]

I saw the boys sitting by the fire next to a railing. I saw Marko but quickly stopped. “Um, I’m going to ride some rides.” I said a little fast figeting with my feet and hands.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul stopped you. “No your not. We have some things we have to tell you alright?”

[murderedinsantacarla]

I nodded looking away. “Okay.” Walks to the other boys with Paul.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“The cancer you had, was the one Marko had when Paul met him.” David spoke.

“Yeah, and I see how awkward it’s made you but I don’t wanna see my best friend with his mate..” Marko spoke smiling and pulling you into a hug.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I know. It’s not that awkward. My sister died with the same thing. I have to go. I need to go meet up with a friend of mine.” I pulled away from Paul. “I’ll be safe. I’ll be back in a few hours.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“You know how to get a hold of us don’t you? Just mind link us if anything goes wrong.” Paul spoke as the others nodded

[murderedinsantacarla]

I nodded. I walked off heading for the rides to meet up with a gang of guys and girls. We walked off laughing.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul looked at you smiling only slightly. “It’s Christmas Eve guys what are we gunna do?”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“We could feed. Then get gifts.” Marko suggested. my friends and I were out by the beach. I smiled at them. We started getting drunk. We got drunk. I was so drunk I didn’t realize I was kissing one of my friends.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul saw everything unfold and shook his head. ‘What the fuck..’ You heard Paul speak to the others through is thoughts

[murderedinsantacarla]

Unaware that my drink had been spiked, I was drunk and hullcinating. I tripped over a rock and one guy caught me. “Easy cupcake. Don’t wanna ruin that pretty body of yours.” The Guy I had made out with said.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul had seen what had gone on and walked up to the guys socked him one in the jaw and picked you up and took you home with the guys.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I giggled and laughed slurring my words drunk off my ass.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul shook his head… Then put you in the corner of the cave

[murderedinsantacarla]

After hours of non stop talking, I finally passed out.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul made laddie keep an eye on you which ended in laddie falling asleep a so he watched over you for a while

[murderedinsantacarla]

When I woke up the an hour later, my head was pounding like a mofo. I groaned rolling over onto my side to sit up. “The fuck happened?” I mumbled

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Oh nothing other than having your drink spiked, kissing some dude your friends with them passing out drunk.” Paul noted passing you an Advil and some water.

[murderedinsantacarla]

*takes it and swallows it* “That kiss didn’t mean anything Paul. He’s just a friend is all. No need to be fucking jealous.” I mumbled.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“I’m not I saw it all unfold and helped you when I thought you’d probably had enough. The only way to make me jealous is taking my weed and not letting me have any, going to see a band I like live and not asking me to come with you, oh and being provocative toward someone who isn’t me.” Paul chuckled

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Don’t be a damn dick head.” I hissed with clenched fists. “I needed time with friends and I didn’t take your weed. I had my own.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“I’m not saying anything like that, all I’m saying is if you do those things I’ll be jealous. I never said don’t hang with your friends or your stash situation….” Paul muttered looking down clearly disheartened before standing up and walking away from you into a corner as he hugged a pillow close.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I walked out of the cave needing air going to the beach. I got out my shorts and tank top and had my music playing. I sat in my bikini in the water. I put the music down and dove into the water swimming far out.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul watched you leave then excused himself to go for a ride, he didn’t follow you. He went to the old lighthouse. He watched peacefully at how the ocean moved.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I stood on the freezing water for a little bit looking up at the moo light. A tear escaped my eyes but I wiped them away.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul sensed your upsetting but didn’t move. All he tried doing was making a joke out of what happened. He was trying not be seriously upset by the events. But he felt he wasn’t good enough for you. He thought about leaving town for a while to get a break. But he clearly didn’t have the guts to leave so as he looked down towards the water he caught you gaze he weakly smiled, a broken smile for a broken heart. He walked back to his bike going towards the cave.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I looked away again going back underwater wanting to stay there forever. I shivered from the cold. I sat on the sand next to a fire I built. I held the towel around me. I had eyes closed.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Dwayne sensed you had a fight with Paul so he went to get you as Paul had lost it he was screaming and crying. He picked you up and carried you back to the cave

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Put me down dammit!!! Let me freeze to death!!” I yelled tears running down my face.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Look. Your immortal. And your mate is going crazy right now. Whatever happened we don’t care. Just help him please. He’s like my younger brother. Don’t let him do this to himself he’s blaming himself for everything.” Dwayne pleaded

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Dwayne. I need to tell you something don’t tell Paul not yet anyways. I’m…pregnant I don’t know how it’s possible but I felt a kick a few days ago.” I said hoping Paul wouldn’t hear.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul had already heard and had run to his private room to cry about how he was a monster……

“Congratulations now go tell Paul that yeah? He calmed down as soon as he sensed you.” Dwayne hugged you before pushing you off toward the room where Paul’s sobs could be heard

[murderedinsantacarla]

I walked into Paul’s room pulling him close. I grabbed his hand putting it on my belly. “Paul.” I said softly as I felt another kick.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul whimpered. “y-yes?” He looked up still scared of hurting you

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Do you feel it?” I asked smiling softly looking at him.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Y-yeah I do” Paul smiled lightly

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I’m sorry. For everything. Nothings your fault. I promise. We love you.” I smiled kissing his cheek.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul whimpered pulling you closer. “Lilly’s old enough to be Dwaynes mate now…” He whispered kissing your lips lightly

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Yes I know she is.” I kissed his lips back.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Just at that moment Dwayne and Lilly’s laughs rang out. Paul pulled away and smiled. “Maybe we should get some rest babe”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“No. I don’t need sleep. I already slept. You need sleep. I’ve put you through hell late. Now sleep love.” I ordered smiling and rubbing his head.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Please don’t leave me thought please??” He whispered pulling you closer but not too tightly.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I won’t I’ll be here when you wake up.” I smiled.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Thank you baby.” He whispered.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I smiled watching him sleep. I laid there looking around his room. He had a lot of rock posters and music cds piled everywhere.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

After a few hours Paul began waking up

[murderedinsantacarla]

I had my head laid near his neck sleeping.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul smiled and wrapped his arms around your waist.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I slept soundly. Nightmares got worse as n I slept. I twitched a few times. I turned on my side.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul woke you up shaking you

[murderedinsantacarla]

I opened my eyes. “Hmm?”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Are you okay babe?” He whispered.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I nodded. “Yeah. I’m okay.” *sits up* “are you okay?”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“A little bit yeah, thank you for putting up with me.” He whispered into your hair

[murderedinsantacarla]

“That’s why I’m here.“I smildd then frowned suddenly yelping in pain clutching my belly.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Baby are you okay???” Paul asked before minding Max. ‘Max get here now!’ ‘Why?!’ ‘My mate is in pain so don’t you dare ever ask that question again got it old man?!’ Paul growled.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I cried out again laying on my back. I cried out words that didn’t make sense. My skin started glowing.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Max hurriedly ran to you and gave you a vile of blood. It didn’t stop the glowing but you began making sense again. Max knew you where in labour.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I cried out again louder. Blood coming out some. I cried unclear words.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul began worrying further. “Max…” “Paul just calm down” Then the sounds of a baby’s cry enters the room as you pass out and Max gives you more blood

[murderedinsantacarla]

The little boy cried. I was out cold sweating like a pig. His blood wasn’t enough for me.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul made a cut in his hand before making you swallow his blood as you began regaining consciousness

[murderedinsantacarla]

I opened my eyes still weak as hell. I went to move my body and yelped loudly getting still again. My body was glowing again. I began throwing up blood.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Marko! What's your favorite songs and bands? I wanna listen to them!

“I have quite a few but queen is the main one. And u can’t choose a favourite song that’s just evil making me choose.” Marko answered

[murderedinsantacarla]

*giggles* “Is your hair naturally curly or is it a perm? *sits on his lap making Paul jealous*

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“It’s naturally curly…” Marko answered automatically rejecting what you were doing and stood up.

[murderedinsantacarla]

*pouts and yawns* “Sleep deprived!!” I moaned falling over. “Haven’t slept in three days!”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul looked over jealous and annoyed as he walked to your shared room to sleep.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I went outside of the cave spinning around. I yawned again. I stopped when I saw Michael staring at me along with Sam and Alan. I tried to run but a stake was held at my back.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul and the boys came outside and basically butchered the hunters leaving the other two to run off

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Yeah! And stay away!!” I yelled walking over to a rock and sitting on looking down at my hands. I had a lot on my mind. I sighed. “I’m going for a swim.” I said and ran for the water now in my blue bikini.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul scoffed. “Yeah sure just flirt with my best bud then go for a swim. I totally get it your not into me any more.” He walked back into the cave knowing you’d heard.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I wasnt flirting!!! I was being cute!!“I yelled now in tears. I turned and got dressed and ran to my old apartment. Going inside and hiding in the bathroom with the lights off. I cried softly.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul knew he’d hurt you but, trying to be cute and make him jealous with his best friend had done more than tick him off.

He got on his bike and had followed you before knocking on the bathroom door. “Baby I didn’t mean it. I was just pissed off at Marko de even answering your question and letting you get that close to him. Please lemme in darling, we can cuddle if you’d like.” He begged at the door.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I didn’t answer. I was too busy cutting my wrists deeply as sobs escaped my lips. “No leave me alone!” I sobbed.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul ripped the door of its hinges and took the blade away. “This is the last thing I wanted to see! My fiancée hurting because of me. Look I know I’m a fuck up. I always have been and probably always will be, but please just say you still love me please I’ll do anything.” He sobbed as he spoke signifying he’d actually let you in and see the real him. The misfortuned boy who had real emotions and love harder than ever

[murderedinsantacarla]

I grabbed his face with my bleeding arms. “No! Its my fault. I only wanted to see you jealous because its kinda hot. I didn’t mean for you to blow up at me. Its my fault.” Tears streamed down my soft face.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul pulled you into him as he stood up and began cleaning your arms.

“I shouldn’t have said anything! I fucked up like always. I didn’t like it but I shouldn’t have said anything but pulled you to me. I love you. Way too much to let you walk out of my life.” He whispered as he’d finally broken seeing the love of his life run away from him so many times made him know he was a monster and didn’t deserve love at all. He shook the thought from his head.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I heard his thoughts. “I don’t care how many times you hurt me, i always love you and nothing can ever change that. You’re mine. No one else’s. I don’t wanna see you with anyone else. It would kill me.” Looks away still holding his face.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Baby girl I’ll always be yours, I’d never do that to you if never see anyone else in the same way as I view you my love. Now please let’s not hurt each other yeah?” He replied lowering his lips to yours as his arms found their way to your waist pulling you closer

[murderedinsantacarla]

I nodded. “Alright.” I was still kinda shaky as I kissed him back.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul pulled away and nuzzling his head into your neck

[murderedinsantacarla]

I smiled a bit relaxing. “Let me go get changed. But I think I’m going to stay here for a while just til things settle.” I kissed his cheek then went to my walk in closet

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul looked started but agreed. “Do you want me to stay with you??”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I just want some time to myself you know? I love you I do I just need to space myself away from everyone at the moment.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul swore he felt a pang of hurt but knew that if you needed space he’d give it to you.

“I know you love me and I reapers your choice, however if you do need me you know I’ll be at the boardwalk annoying Max Love.” He spoke before kissing you the last time and walking to your apartment door. “I love you darling.”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I love you too babe.” I smiled a bit before turning and finding a rock oufit to wear.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I felt !y phone buzz. I picked it up and clicked the image. I looked down at the image them at Paul then back at the picture.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“What’s wrong baby?”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“You kissed Star.” I hissed shoving the phone at him.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Whoa whoa that is not me. The person has curly hair! It’s Marko. How could it possibly be me when I’ve been with you?!”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Because it has your face, your clothes, wavy hair?”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Babe that was ages ago. Before you came into my life it was just a stupid kiss I swear.”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I’ll be back.” I left the room and went into another room.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Babe you have believe me please! It didn’t mean anything to me- she doesn’t mean anything to me!” He begged

[murderedinsantacarla]

I threw a rock at the window. “Not according to star.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Oh please she’s probably fucking Michael as we speak! She doesn’t mean anything to me at all alright! Only you matter to me your the only one I care for and I’m not going to let some stupid witch get I the way of that!” Paul spoke.

“Star fancied me years ago. We kissed yeah but nothing else happened. It was years ago babe seriously!”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I’m going to bed.” I muttered walking past him. “Star and I have been friends for awhile.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“She’s just using you. She’s trying to make you think we’re the bad guys. And yes in some aspects we are but at least we admit it! They’re trying to kill us again don’t you see! Star doesn’t have any friends she’s even admitted it that she ain’t capable of having any!” Paul muttered angrily. “All i want is for us to be happy and people keep fucking that up!”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I can’t trust anyone anymore.” I muttered angrily.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

That one hit Paul like a tin of bricks. “Whatever. I’ve explained and stressed my side of the story and you haven’t even tried to listen.” Paul mutter walking away whispering something along the lines of: ‘I wish you’d just listen and understand for once instead of jumping to conclusions.’

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I heard that!!” I yelled.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“You were meant to why’d you think I said it, and you said you wanted space we’ll have it! I’m leaving so you get that time happy?!” He yelled back. ‘David I’m gunna kill Starr!’ ‘Why?’ ‘She’s trying ruin my life.’ ‘Fair enough go for it.’

The boys knew you’d heard it.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I went to the bathroom and slammed the door shut and turned on the shower. I got in took a shower and got out. I put on white skinny jeans with a black studded belt. A white crop top and a black mesh shirt. My belly button showed which was pierced. I had on spiked bracelets. My wavy hair put into a ponytail. My make up dark, and my knee length studded combat boots with chains. I walked out of the house and took the boardwalk.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul was pissed, the boys could tell, but in hat money when you arrived t was like the ending of the grease movie. Only Paul’s jaw dropped. Starr Reyes wrapping herself round him only to be pushed off. He minded you. ‘See what i mean I’ve only been out of your sight an hour and she’s all over me when your the one I want. Not her!’

[murderedinsantacarla]

Star huffed. “Fine. I’ll find Michael.” With that, she left. I walked over to a table with booze. I flashed the guy to get some free booze. I smirked and took the Jack and walked off drinking it.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul followed you.

“So now that we’re on a break you go flashing guys?! You saw what happened and you saw how I reacted and yet you choose to act like I don’t exist?! Find me when you grow up! I actually fucking love you but I really really don’t see the point in fighting anymore! You win! Whatever your game was and is! I’m not arguing anymore. I’ll see you around kid.” Paul had finally broke, you’d won the game. The game of winning his heart. You’d done it but you happened to have broken it. And he didn’t know what to do. He followed you like a lost puppy smitten with the very thought of you. He still felt that way, but maybe you where right maybe you two needed some time apart. He walked back over to the bikes and rode home he didn’t feed that night at all.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I couldn’t feel my heart anymore after he said that. I wasn’t playing games. I only wanted a free beer. I went to my apartment grabbed my stuff, left a note on my counter and left. I hopped on my bike and left town. Tears streamed my face. I loved him. UT he just didn’t see it. I drove for three hours and stopped to fill up with gas.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul went to find you to apologise for what he had said, only to find the note. His heart missed a beat, it didn’t matter that his heart would never beat again he just wanted you back so he followed your scent and waited at your bike.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I pulled my money out and paid the lady the money and headed out. I still had on my hot outfit. I stopped dead in my tracks seeing Paul.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul looked up. “Babe…. I’m so sorry I swear, I just don’t know what going on anymore! All I seem to want is to be with you please don’t leave…” He begged

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Why? All you do is hurt me. Say mean things then apologize for them.” I said grouchily.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“I’ve never been in love before so I’m scared! And I’m sorry. I just want to know what it feels like to feel love. And with you I feel like I can be myself. And I’m trying so hard to not fuck shit up but that’s all I seem capable of…” Paul tried reasoning knowing that you’d probably never forgive him and take off on your bike never for him to see you again…

‘I’m such a fuck up its untrue…’ He mentally groaned.

“If you seriously want me gone and want to be able to do everything you’ve ever dreamed of. Tell me now and I’ll go. This is your choice not anyone else’s it’ll hurt don’t get me wrong but I’ll get over it as long as your happy. Because that’s all I want for you. I want you to have the best in life and I’m probably not that. In fact I know I’m not that. But anyway back to the point it’s your choice.” He spoke. Solemnly and sombrely. But he knew it was best for you to go… Like you said all he did was hurt you and he didn’t want that for you.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I couldn’t look at him. “Your right. Maybe we should. Anyways, I have to go. I’m going to see my dying sister.” I wanted to cry so bad. I stood there before everything went black and I passed out.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul caught you before reaching for a flask he always carries with him. He but it to your lips before letting the blood slide down your throat. It woke you up and as Paul helped you stand he hugged you for the last time.

“Keep the ring as memory of the guys and I. See you around, wish your sister well from us yeah??” Paul’s voice cracked and broke as tears filled his eyes he kissed your forehead before walking back to his bike. He turned and looked for the last time. He waved at you before driving back to Santa Carla

[murderedinsantacarla]

“No!” I said but he was already out of sight. I started to cry. I got on my bike. Wanting to drive to my sister but I needed Paul the most. I stayed at a hotel for a few weeks. I went back to Santa Carla to find that Paul had moved on like he said. I hid in my apartment crying. I had all the lights off.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul hadn’t moved on the girl you had spotted him with was flirting but he couldn’t do the same. He saw you and he saw you run back to your bike so he followed you.

“I thought you said you’d be going to see your sister?” He spoke as tears welled in his eyes yet again seeing you like that. He so wanted to kiss you and take everything that had hurt you away but you were no longer his and he had to face that.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I didn’t wanna go. She died anyways.” When I spoke, my voice filled with sadness.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“I’m sorry.” Paul suddenly said as he brought you into a hug.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I buried my face into his neck. “I miss you. So much.” I sobbed

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul kissed your forehead whispering “I miss you too.” He ran his fingers through your hair.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I want you back but your with that girl.“ Tears streamed my face.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul chuckled. “She was flirting but I couldn’t bring myself to do it. I’m still single. And you can have me back if that’s what you really want.” He spoke quietly wiping he tears away from your eyes.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I don’t want you. I need you. You helped me through everything. You were there when no one else was.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul sighed happily.

“What about we take it slow and don’t rush anything? That way nobody gets hurt and that we make sure this is what we all want yeah?” Paul offered

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Yeah. Where are the boys anyways? ”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Probably back at the cave taunting some newbie to town again.” Paul chuckled

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Oh. Well let me get changed and we can go to the boardwalk.” *goes to my closet and grabs a black shirt tight dress and a pair of leather boots and changes into them. I came out in the black shirt dress and boots.*

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul’s mouth dropped open.

“Either you’re testing my ability to not jump you and go at it like a rabbit with you or you want me to show you off.” He woke jokingly as he wrapped an arm around you pulling you closer to him.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Whatever you want to do. I’m all your.” I ran my hand over his chest and along his neck.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul suddenly pressed his lips to yours as he kissed you roughly

[murderedinsantacarla]

I kissed back just as rough.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul’s arms wrapped around your waist and pulled you closer moaning as he did so.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I buried my face into his neck moaning.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul tilted his neck slightly. “Mmh. I thought you wanted to go the boardwalk or aren’t you bothered right now??” Paul moaned out.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I rather do this first.” Moaned wet through my panties.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul smiled lightly picking you up and laying you down on the bed

[murderedinsantacarla]

I looked up at him smiling.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul smiled slightly before reattaching your lips roughly

[murderedinsantacarla]

I kissed him back roughly pulling off his shirt

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul pulled away smirking before teaching his lips to your neck

[murderedinsantacarla]

I moaned a little.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul continued to pleasure you in whatever you had wanted that night.

[murderedinsantacarla]

After a few hours, I had fallen asleep. Unaware that the cancer was spreading. I didn’t tell Paul that I had cancer. I woke up and half of my hair had fallen out.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul had woken up and seen your hair falling out. It was like Marko all over again. “Why haven’t you told me this…” Paul whispered calling for the guys who quickly arrived. Marko brought over a flask of fluid. “Drink this it will help.” Marko spoke.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I couldn’t. I couldn’t put you through this.” Tears ran. I took the drink and drunk some. “What’s the point?”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“The drink had something in it that kills the cell causing the cancer and prevents you ever getting cancer again…” Marko spoke before leaving you and Paul alone to talk.

“I could’ve helped. That’s why I could’ve helped you sooner.” He spoke

[murderedinsantacarla]

“It’ll take forever for my hair to grow back. I look hideous.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul laughed. “Actually it’s grown back and you don’t look hideous you look beautiful.”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Thanks.” I smiled.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“No need to thank me love.” He spoke

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Let’s go to the boardwalk.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul grabbed your hand and walked with you to the boardwalk

[murderedinsantacarla]

I saw the boys sitting by the fire next to a railing. I saw Marko but quickly stopped. “Um, I’m going to ride some rides.” I said a little fast figeting with my feet and hands.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul stopped you. “No your not. We have some things we have to tell you alright?”

[murderedinsantacarla]

I nodded looking away. “Okay.” Walks to the other boys with Paul.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“The cancer you had, was the one Marko had when Paul met him.” David spoke.

“Yeah, and I see how awkward it’s made you but I don’t wanna see my best friend with his mate..” Marko spoke smiling and pulling you into a hug.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I know. It’s not that awkward. My sister died with the same thing. I have to go. I need to go meet up with a friend of mine.” I pulled away from Paul. “I’ll be safe. I’ll be back in a few hours.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“You know how to get a hold of us don’t you? Just mind link us if anything goes wrong.” Paul spoke as the others nodded

[murderedinsantacarla]

I nodded. I walked off heading for the rides to meet up with a gang of guys and girls. We walked off laughing.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul looked at you smiling only slightly. “It’s Christmas Eve guys what are we gunna do?”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“We could feed. Then get gifts.” Marko suggested. my friends and I were out by the beach. I smiled at them. We started getting drunk. We got drunk. I was so drunk I didn’t realize I was kissing one of my friends.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul saw everything unfold and shook his head. ‘What the fuck..’ You heard Paul speak to the others through is thoughts

[murderedinsantacarla]

Unaware that my drink had been spiked, I was drunk and hullcinating. I tripped over a rock and one guy caught me. “Easy cupcake. Don’t wanna ruin that pretty body of yours.” The Guy I had made out with said.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul had seen what had gone on and walked up to the guys socked him one in the jaw and picked you up and took you home with the guys.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I giggled and laughed slurring my words drunk off my ass.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul shook his head… Then put you in the corner of the cave

[murderedinsantacarla]

After hours of non stop talking, I finally passed out.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul made laddie keep an eye on you which ended in laddie falling asleep a so he watched over you for a while

[murderedinsantacarla]

When I woke up the an hour later, my head was pounding like a mofo. I groaned rolling over onto my side to sit up. “The fuck happened?” I mumbled

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Oh nothing other than having your drink spiked, kissing some dude your friends with them passing out drunk.” Paul noted passing you an Advil and some water.

[murderedinsantacarla]

*takes it and swallows it* “That kiss didn’t mean anything Paul. He’s just a friend is all. No need to be fucking jealous.” I mumbled.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“I’m not I saw it all unfold and helped you when I thought you’d probably had enough. The only way to make me jealous is taking my weed and not letting me have any, going to see a band I like live and not asking me to come with you, oh and being provocative toward someone who isn’t me.” Paul chuckled

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Don’t be a damn dick head.” I hissed with clenched fists. “I needed time with friends and I didn’t take your weed. I had my own.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“I’m not saying anything like that, all I’m saying is if you do those things I’ll be jealous. I never said don’t hang with your friends or your stash situation….” Paul muttered looking down clearly disheartened before standing up and walking away from you into a corner as he hugged a pillow close.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I walked out of the cave needing air going to the beach. I got out my shorts and tank top and had my music playing. I sat in my bikini in the water. I put the music down and dove into the water swimming far out.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul watched you leave then excused himself to go for a ride, he didn’t follow you. He went to the old lighthouse. He watched peacefully at how the ocean moved.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I stood on the freezing water for a little bit looking up at the moo light. A tear escaped my eyes but I wiped them away.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul sensed your upsetting but didn’t move. All he tried doing was making a joke out of what happened. He was trying not be seriously upset by the events. But he felt he wasn’t good enough for you. He thought about leaving town for a while to get a break. But he clearly didn’t have the guts to leave so as he looked down towards the water he caught you gaze he weakly smiled, a broken smile for a broken heart. He walked back to his bike going towards the cave.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I looked away again going back underwater wanting to stay there forever. I shivered from the cold. I sat on the sand next to a fire I built. I held the towel around me. I had eyes closed.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Dwayne sensed you had a fight with Paul so he went to get you as Paul had lost it he was screaming and crying. He picked you up and carried you back to the cave

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Put me down dammit!!! Let me freeze to death!!” I yelled tears running down my face.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Look. Your immortal. And your mate is going crazy right now. Whatever happened we don’t care. Just help him please. He’s like my younger brother. Don’t let him do this to himself he’s blaming himself for everything.” Dwayne pleaded

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Dwayne. I need to tell you something don’t tell Paul not yet anyways. I’m…pregnant I don’t know how it’s possible but I felt a kick a few days ago.” I said hoping Paul wouldn’t hear.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul had already heard and had run to his private room to cry about how he was a monster……

“Congratulations now go tell Paul that yeah? He calmed down as soon as he sensed you.” Dwayne hugged you before pushing you off toward the room where Paul’s sobs could be heard

[murderedinsantacarla]

I walked into Paul’s room pulling him close. I grabbed his hand putting it on my belly. “Paul.” I said softly as I felt another kick.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul whimpered. “y-yes?” He looked up still scared of hurting you

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Do you feel it?” I asked smiling softly looking at him.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Y-yeah I do” Paul smiled lightly

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I’m sorry. For everything. Nothings your fault. I promise. We love you.” I smiled kissing his cheek.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul whimpered pulling you closer. “Lilly’s old enough to be Dwaynes mate now…” He whispered kissing your lips lightly

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Yes I know she is.” I kissed his lips back.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Just at that moment Dwayne and Lilly’s laughs rang out. Paul pulled away and smiled. “Maybe we should get some rest babe”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“No. I don’t need sleep. I already slept. You need sleep. I’ve put you through hell late. Now sleep love.” I ordered smiling and rubbing his head.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Please don’t leave me thought please??” He whispered pulling you closer but not too tightly.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I won’t I’ll be here when you wake up.” I smiled.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Thank you baby.” He whispered.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I smiled watching him sleep. I laid there looking around his room. He had a lot of rock posters and music cds piled everywhere.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

After a few hours Paul began waking up

[murderedinsantacarla]

I had my head laid near his neck sleeping.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul smiled and wrapped his arms around your waist.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I slept soundly. Nightmares got worse as n I slept. I twitched a few times. I turned on my side.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul woke you up shaking you

[murderedinsantacarla]

I opened my eyes. “Hmm?”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Are you okay babe?” He whispered.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I nodded. “Yeah. I’m okay.” *sits up* “are you okay?”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“A little bit yeah, thank you for putting up with me.” He whispered into your hair

[murderedinsantacarla]

“That’s why I’m here.“I smildd then frowned suddenly yelping in pain clutching my belly.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Baby are you okay???” Paul asked before minding Max. ‘Max get here now!’ ‘Why?!’ ‘My mate is in pain so don’t you dare ever ask that question again got it old man?!’ Paul growled.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I cried out again laying on my back. I cried out words that didn’t make sense. My skin started glowing.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Max hurriedly ran to you and gave you a vile of blood. It didn’t stop the glowing but you began making sense again. Max knew you where in labour.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I cried out again louder. Blood coming out some. I cried unclear words.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul began worrying further. “Max…” “Paul just calm down” Then the sounds of a baby’s cry enters the room as you pass out and Max gives you more blood

[murderedinsantacarla]

The little boy cried. I was out cold sweating like a pig. His blood wasn't enough for me.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Marko! What's your favorite songs and bands? I wanna listen to them!

“I have quite a few but queen is the main one. And u can’t choose a favourite song that’s just evil making me choose.” Marko answered

[murderedinsantacarla]

*giggles* “Is your hair naturally curly or is it a perm? *sits on his lap making Paul jealous*

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“It’s naturally curly…” Marko answered automatically rejecting what you were doing and stood up.

[murderedinsantacarla]

*pouts and yawns* “Sleep deprived!!” I moaned falling over. “Haven’t slept in three days!”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul looked over jealous and annoyed as he walked to your shared room to sleep.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I went outside of the cave spinning around. I yawned again. I stopped when I saw Michael staring at me along with Sam and Alan. I tried to run but a stake was held at my back.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul and the boys came outside and basically butchered the hunters leaving the other two to run off

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Yeah! And stay away!!” I yelled walking over to a rock and sitting on looking down at my hands. I had a lot on my mind. I sighed. “I’m going for a swim.” I said and ran for the water now in my blue bikini.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul scoffed. “Yeah sure just flirt with my best bud then go for a swim. I totally get it your not into me any more.” He walked back into the cave knowing you’d heard.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I wasnt flirting!!! I was being cute!!“I yelled now in tears. I turned and got dressed and ran to my old apartment. Going inside and hiding in the bathroom with the lights off. I cried softly.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul knew he’d hurt you but, trying to be cute and make him jealous with his best friend had done more than tick him off.

He got on his bike and had followed you before knocking on the bathroom door. “Baby I didn’t mean it. I was just pissed off at Marko de even answering your question and letting you get that close to him. Please lemme in darling, we can cuddle if you’d like.” He begged at the door.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I didn’t answer. I was too busy cutting my wrists deeply as sobs escaped my lips. “No leave me alone!” I sobbed.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul ripped the door of its hinges and took the blade away. “This is the last thing I wanted to see! My fiancée hurting because of me. Look I know I’m a fuck up. I always have been and probably always will be, but please just say you still love me please I’ll do anything.” He sobbed as he spoke signifying he’d actually let you in and see the real him. The misfortuned boy who had real emotions and love harder than ever

[murderedinsantacarla]

I grabbed his face with my bleeding arms. “No! Its my fault. I only wanted to see you jealous because its kinda hot. I didn’t mean for you to blow up at me. Its my fault.” Tears streamed down my soft face.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul pulled you into him as he stood up and began cleaning your arms.

“I shouldn’t have said anything! I fucked up like always. I didn’t like it but I shouldn’t have said anything but pulled you to me. I love you. Way too much to let you walk out of my life.” He whispered as he’d finally broken seeing the love of his life run away from him so many times made him know he was a monster and didn’t deserve love at all. He shook the thought from his head.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I heard his thoughts. “I don’t care how many times you hurt me, i always love you and nothing can ever change that. You’re mine. No one else’s. I don’t wanna see you with anyone else. It would kill me.” Looks away still holding his face.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Baby girl I’ll always be yours, I’d never do that to you if never see anyone else in the same way as I view you my love. Now please let’s not hurt each other yeah?” He replied lowering his lips to yours as his arms found their way to your waist pulling you closer

[murderedinsantacarla]

I nodded. “Alright.” I was still kinda shaky as I kissed him back.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul pulled away and nuzzling his head into your neck

[murderedinsantacarla]

I smiled a bit relaxing. “Let me go get changed. But I think I’m going to stay here for a while just til things settle.” I kissed his cheek then went to my walk in closet

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul looked started but agreed. “Do you want me to stay with you??”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I just want some time to myself you know? I love you I do I just need to space myself away from everyone at the moment.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul swore he felt a pang of hurt but knew that if you needed space he’d give it to you.

“I know you love me and I reapers your choice, however if you do need me you know I’ll be at the boardwalk annoying Max Love.” He spoke before kissing you the last time and walking to your apartment door. “I love you darling.”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I love you too babe.” I smiled a bit before turning and finding a rock oufit to wear.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I felt !y phone buzz. I picked it up and clicked the image. I looked down at the image them at Paul then back at the picture.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“What’s wrong baby?”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“You kissed Star.” I hissed shoving the phone at him.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Whoa whoa that is not me. The person has curly hair! It’s Marko. How could it possibly be me when I’ve been with you?!”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Because it has your face, your clothes, wavy hair?”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Babe that was ages ago. Before you came into my life it was just a stupid kiss I swear.”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I’ll be back.” I left the room and went into another room.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Babe you have believe me please! It didn’t mean anything to me- she doesn’t mean anything to me!” He begged

[murderedinsantacarla]

I threw a rock at the window. “Not according to star.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Oh please she’s probably fucking Michael as we speak! She doesn’t mean anything to me at all alright! Only you matter to me your the only one I care for and I’m not going to let some stupid witch get I the way of that!” Paul spoke.

“Star fancied me years ago. We kissed yeah but nothing else happened. It was years ago babe seriously!”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I’m going to bed.” I muttered walking past him. “Star and I have been friends for awhile.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“She’s just using you. She’s trying to make you think we’re the bad guys. And yes in some aspects we are but at least we admit it! They’re trying to kill us again don’t you see! Star doesn’t have any friends she’s even admitted it that she ain’t capable of having any!” Paul muttered angrily. “All i want is for us to be happy and people keep fucking that up!”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I can’t trust anyone anymore.” I muttered angrily.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

That one hit Paul like a tin of bricks. “Whatever. I’ve explained and stressed my side of the story and you haven’t even tried to listen.” Paul mutter walking away whispering something along the lines of: ‘I wish you’d just listen and understand for once instead of jumping to conclusions.’

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I heard that!!” I yelled.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“You were meant to why’d you think I said it, and you said you wanted space we’ll have it! I’m leaving so you get that time happy?!” He yelled back. ‘David I’m gunna kill Starr!’ ‘Why?’ ‘She’s trying ruin my life.’ ‘Fair enough go for it.’

The boys knew you’d heard it.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I went to the bathroom and slammed the door shut and turned on the shower. I got in took a shower and got out. I put on white skinny jeans with a black studded belt. A white crop top and a black mesh shirt. My belly button showed which was pierced. I had on spiked bracelets. My wavy hair put into a ponytail. My make up dark, and my knee length studded combat boots with chains. I walked out of the house and took the boardwalk.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul was pissed, the boys could tell, but in hat money when you arrived t was like the ending of the grease movie. Only Paul’s jaw dropped. Starr Reyes wrapping herself round him only to be pushed off. He minded you. ‘See what i mean I’ve only been out of your sight an hour and she’s all over me when your the one I want. Not her!’

[murderedinsantacarla]

Star huffed. “Fine. I’ll find Michael.” With that, she left. I walked over to a table with booze. I flashed the guy to get some free booze. I smirked and took the Jack and walked off drinking it.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul followed you.

“So now that we’re on a break you go flashing guys?! You saw what happened and you saw how I reacted and yet you choose to act like I don’t exist?! Find me when you grow up! I actually fucking love you but I really really don’t see the point in fighting anymore! You win! Whatever your game was and is! I’m not arguing anymore. I’ll see you around kid.” Paul had finally broke, you’d won the game. The game of winning his heart. You’d done it but you happened to have broken it. And he didn’t know what to do. He followed you like a lost puppy smitten with the very thought of you. He still felt that way, but maybe you where right maybe you two needed some time apart. He walked back over to the bikes and rode home he didn’t feed that night at all.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I couldn’t feel my heart anymore after he said that. I wasn’t playing games. I only wanted a free beer. I went to my apartment grabbed my stuff, left a note on my counter and left. I hopped on my bike and left town. Tears streamed my face. I loved him. UT he just didn’t see it. I drove for three hours and stopped to fill up with gas.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul went to find you to apologise for what he had said, only to find the note. His heart missed a beat, it didn’t matter that his heart would never beat again he just wanted you back so he followed your scent and waited at your bike.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I pulled my money out and paid the lady the money and headed out. I still had on my hot outfit. I stopped dead in my tracks seeing Paul.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul looked up. “Babe…. I’m so sorry I swear, I just don’t know what going on anymore! All I seem to want is to be with you please don’t leave…” He begged

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Why? All you do is hurt me. Say mean things then apologize for them.” I said grouchily.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“I’ve never been in love before so I’m scared! And I’m sorry. I just want to know what it feels like to feel love. And with you I feel like I can be myself. And I’m trying so hard to not fuck shit up but that’s all I seem capable of…” Paul tried reasoning knowing that you’d probably never forgive him and take off on your bike never for him to see you again…

‘I’m such a fuck up its untrue…’ He mentally groaned.

“If you seriously want me gone and want to be able to do everything you’ve ever dreamed of. Tell me now and I’ll go. This is your choice not anyone else’s it’ll hurt don’t get me wrong but I’ll get over it as long as your happy. Because that’s all I want for you. I want you to have the best in life and I’m probably not that. In fact I know I’m not that. But anyway back to the point it’s your choice.” He spoke. Solemnly and sombrely. But he knew it was best for you to go… Like you said all he did was hurt you and he didn’t want that for you.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I couldn’t look at him. “Your right. Maybe we should. Anyways, I have to go. I’m going to see my dying sister.” I wanted to cry so bad. I stood there before everything went black and I passed out.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul caught you before reaching for a flask he always carries with him. He but it to your lips before letting the blood slide down your throat. It woke you up and as Paul helped you stand he hugged you for the last time.

“Keep the ring as memory of the guys and I. See you around, wish your sister well from us yeah??” Paul’s voice cracked and broke as tears filled his eyes he kissed your forehead before walking back to his bike. He turned and looked for the last time. He waved at you before driving back to Santa Carla

[murderedinsantacarla]

“No!” I said but he was already out of sight. I started to cry. I got on my bike. Wanting to drive to my sister but I needed Paul the most. I stayed at a hotel for a few weeks. I went back to Santa Carla to find that Paul had moved on like he said. I hid in my apartment crying. I had all the lights off.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul hadn’t moved on the girl you had spotted him with was flirting but he couldn’t do the same. He saw you and he saw you run back to your bike so he followed you.

“I thought you said you’d be going to see your sister?” He spoke as tears welled in his eyes yet again seeing you like that. He so wanted to kiss you and take everything that had hurt you away but you were no longer his and he had to face that.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I didn’t wanna go. She died anyways.” When I spoke, my voice filled with sadness.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“I’m sorry.” Paul suddenly said as he brought you into a hug.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I buried my face into his neck. “I miss you. So much.” I sobbed

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul kissed your forehead whispering “I miss you too.” He ran his fingers through your hair.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I want you back but your with that girl.“ Tears streamed my face.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul chuckled. “She was flirting but I couldn’t bring myself to do it. I’m still single. And you can have me back if that’s what you really want.” He spoke quietly wiping he tears away from your eyes.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I don’t want you. I need you. You helped me through everything. You were there when no one else was.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul sighed happily.

“What about we take it slow and don’t rush anything? That way nobody gets hurt and that we make sure this is what we all want yeah?” Paul offered

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Yeah. Where are the boys anyways? ”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Probably back at the cave taunting some newbie to town again.” Paul chuckled

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Oh. Well let me get changed and we can go to the boardwalk.” *goes to my closet and grabs a black shirt tight dress and a pair of leather boots and changes into them. I came out in the black shirt dress and boots.*

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul’s mouth dropped open.

“Either you’re testing my ability to not jump you and go at it like a rabbit with you or you want me to show you off.” He woke jokingly as he wrapped an arm around you pulling you closer to him.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Whatever you want to do. I’m all your.” I ran my hand over his chest and along his neck.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul suddenly pressed his lips to yours as he kissed you roughly

[murderedinsantacarla]

I kissed back just as rough.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul’s arms wrapped around your waist and pulled you closer moaning as he did so.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I buried my face into his neck moaning.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul tilted his neck slightly. “Mmh. I thought you wanted to go the boardwalk or aren’t you bothered right now??” Paul moaned out.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I rather do this first.” Moaned wet through my panties.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul smiled lightly picking you up and laying you down on the bed

[murderedinsantacarla]

I looked up at him smiling.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul smiled slightly before reattaching your lips roughly

[murderedinsantacarla]

I kissed him back roughly pulling off his shirt

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul pulled away smirking before teaching his lips to your neck

[murderedinsantacarla]

I moaned a little.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul continued to pleasure you in whatever you had wanted that night.

[murderedinsantacarla]

After a few hours, I had fallen asleep. Unaware that the cancer was spreading. I didn’t tell Paul that I had cancer. I woke up and half of my hair had fallen out.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul had woken up and seen your hair falling out. It was like Marko all over again. “Why haven’t you told me this…” Paul whispered calling for the guys who quickly arrived. Marko brought over a flask of fluid. “Drink this it will help.” Marko spoke.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I couldn’t. I couldn’t put you through this.” Tears ran. I took the drink and drunk some. “What’s the point?”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“The drink had something in it that kills the cell causing the cancer and prevents you ever getting cancer again…” Marko spoke before leaving you and Paul alone to talk.

“I could’ve helped. That’s why I could’ve helped you sooner.” He spoke

[murderedinsantacarla]

“It’ll take forever for my hair to grow back. I look hideous.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul laughed. “Actually it’s grown back and you don’t look hideous you look beautiful.”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Thanks.” I smiled.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“No need to thank me love.” He spoke

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Let’s go to the boardwalk.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul grabbed your hand and walked with you to the boardwalk

[murderedinsantacarla]

I saw the boys sitting by the fire next to a railing. I saw Marko but quickly stopped. “Um, I’m going to ride some rides.” I said a little fast figeting with my feet and hands.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul stopped you. “No your not. We have some things we have to tell you alright?”

[murderedinsantacarla]

I nodded looking away. “Okay.” Walks to the other boys with Paul.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“The cancer you had, was the one Marko had when Paul met him.” David spoke.

“Yeah, and I see how awkward it’s made you but I don’t wanna see my best friend with his mate..” Marko spoke smiling and pulling you into a hug.

[murderedinsantacarla]

“I know. It’s not that awkward. My sister died with the same thing. I have to go. I need to go meet up with a friend of mine.” I pulled away from Paul. “I’ll be safe. I’ll be back in a few hours.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“You know how to get a hold of us don’t you? Just mind link us if anything goes wrong.” Paul spoke as the others nodded

[murderedinsantacarla]

I nodded. I walked off heading for the rides to meet up with a gang of guys and girls. We walked off laughing.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul looked at you smiling only slightly. “It’s Christmas Eve guys what are we gunna do?”

[murderedinsantacarla]

“We could feed. Then get gifts.” Marko suggested. my friends and I were out by the beach. I smiled at them. We started getting drunk. We got drunk. I was so drunk I didn’t realize I was kissing one of my friends.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul saw everything unfold and shook his head. ‘What the fuck..’ You heard Paul speak to the others through is thoughts

[murderedinsantacarla]

Unaware that my drink had been spiked, I was drunk and hullcinating. I tripped over a rock and one guy caught me. “Easy cupcake. Don’t wanna ruin that pretty body of yours.” The Guy I had made out with said.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul had seen what had gone on and walked up to the guys socked him one in the jaw and picked you up and took you home with the guys.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I giggled and laughed slurring my words drunk off my ass.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul shook his head… Then put you in the corner of the cave

[murderedinsantacarla]

After hours of non stop talking, I finally passed out.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul made laddie keep an eye on you which ended in laddie falling asleep a so he watched over you for a while

[murderedinsantacarla]

When I woke up the an hour later, my head was pounding like a mofo. I groaned rolling over onto my side to sit up. “The fuck happened?” I mumbled

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“Oh nothing other than having your drink spiked, kissing some dude your friends with them passing out drunk.” Paul noted passing you an Advil and some water.

[murderedinsantacarla]

*takes it and swallows it* “That kiss didn’t mean anything Paul. He’s just a friend is all. No need to be fucking jealous.” I mumbled.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“I’m not I saw it all unfold and helped you when I thought you’d probably had enough. The only way to make me jealous is taking my weed and not letting me have any, going to see a band I like live and not asking me to come with you, oh and being provocative toward someone who isn’t me.” Paul chuckled

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Don’t be a damn dick head.” I hissed with clenched fists. “I needed time with friends and I didn’t take your weed. I had my own.”

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

“I’m not saying anything like that, all I’m saying is if you do those things I’ll be jealous. I never said don’t hang with your friends or your stash situation….” Paul muttered looking down clearly disheartened before standing up and walking away from you into a corner as he hugged a pillow close.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I walked out of the cave needing air going to the beach. I got out my shorts and tank top and had my music playing. I sat in my bikini in the water. I put the music down and dove into the water swimming far out.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul watched you leave then excused himself to go for a ride, he didn’t follow you. He went to the old lighthouse. He watched peacefully at how the ocean moved.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I stood on the freezing water for a little bit looking up at the moo light. A tear escaped my eyes but I wiped them away.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Paul sensed your upsetting but didn’t move. All he tried doing was making a joke out of what happened. He was trying not be seriously upset by the events. But he felt he wasn’t good enough for you. He thought about leaving town for a while to get a break. But he clearly didn’t have the guts to leave so as he looked down towards the water he caught you gaze he weakly smiled, a broken smile for a broken heart. He walked back to his bike going towards the cave.

[murderedinsantacarla]

I looked away again going back underwater wanting to stay there forever. I shivered from the cold. I sat on the sand next to a fire I built. I held the towel around me. I had eyes closed.

[rosebuds-and-tiger-lillies]

Dwayne sensed you had a fight with Paul so he went to get you as Paul had lost it he was screaming and crying. He picked you up and carried you back to the cave

[murderedinsantacarla]

“Put me down dammit!!! Let me freeze to death!!” I yelled tears running down my face.

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“Look. Your immortal. And your mate is going crazy right now. Whatever happened we don’t care. Just help him please. He’s like my younger brother. Don’t let him do this to himself he’s blaming himself for everything.” Dwayne pleaded

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“Dwayne. I need to tell you something don’t tell Paul not yet anyways. I’m…pregnant I don’t know how it’s possible but I felt a kick a few days ago.” I said hoping Paul wouldn’t hear.

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Paul had already heard and had run to his private room to cry about how he was a monster……

“Congratulations now go tell Paul that yeah? He calmed down as soon as he sensed you.” Dwayne hugged you before pushing you off toward the room where Paul’s sobs could be heard

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I walked into Paul’s room pulling him close. I grabbed his hand putting it on my belly. “Paul.” I said softly as I felt another kick.

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Paul whimpered. “y-yes?” He looked up still scared of hurting you

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“Do you feel it?” I asked smiling softly looking at him.

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“Y-yeah I do” Paul smiled lightly

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“I’m sorry. For everything. Nothings your fault. I promise. We love you.” I smiled kissing his cheek.

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Paul whimpered pulling you closer. “Lilly’s old enough to be Dwaynes mate now…” He whispered kissing your lips lightly

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“Yes I know she is.” I kissed his lips back.

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Just at that moment Dwayne and Lilly’s laughs rang out. Paul pulled away and smiled. “Maybe we should get some rest babe”

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“No. I don’t need sleep. I already slept. You need sleep. I’ve put you through hell late. Now sleep love.” I ordered smiling and rubbing his head.

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“Please don’t leave me thought please??” He whispered pulling you closer but not too tightly.

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“I won’t I’ll be here when you wake up.” I smiled.

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“Thank you baby.” He whispered.

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I smiled watching him sleep. I laid there looking around his room. He had a lot of rock posters and music cds piled everywhere.

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After a few hours Paul began waking up

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I had my head laid near his neck sleeping.

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Paul smiled and wrapped his arms around your waist.

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I slept soundly. Nightmares got worse as n I slept. I twitched a few times. I turned on my side.

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Paul woke you up shaking you

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I opened my eyes. “Hmm?”

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“Are you okay babe?” He whispered.

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I nodded. “Yeah. I’m okay.” *sits up* “are you okay?”

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“A little bit yeah, thank you for putting up with me.” He whispered into your hair

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“That’s why I’m here.“I smildd then frowned suddenly yelping in pain clutching my belly.

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“Baby are you okay???” Paul asked before minding Max. ‘Max get here now!’ ‘Why?!’ ‘My mate is in pain so don’t you dare ever ask that question again got it old man?!’ Paul growled.

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I cried out again laying on my back. I cried out words that didn’t make sense. My skin started glowing.

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Max hurriedly ran to you and gave you a vile of blood. It didn’t stop the glowing but you began making sense again. Max knew you where in labour.

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I cried out again louder. Blood coming out some. I cried unclear words.

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