Muriela @murielafay - Tumblr Blog

Only think that holds me to not cut my wrist is I don’t know how would I explain scars to family. I probably don’t want to kill myself. I just need feel somethink. I want hurt myself...

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I hate it when you know you’re fat, but then you see a picture of yourself and it’s like

oh

I’m that fat

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Reblog if you’re any three of these:

Between 16-20

Have an ED

LGBT

An anorexic male

Wear too much black

Have a GW below 120

Like k-pop

Have to lose 40+ lbs

Aren’t racist

50kcal

two weeks to feel it

four weeks to see it

eight weeks to hear it

keep it up

2018 ending. Finaly

Today, day before Christmas I celebrate them with my boyfriend. Right now instead preparing dinner I’m sitting here and trying not to cry.

This was shitty year. My both cat passed away (from old age). And I’m depressed and don’t care about anything. Due this reason I failed one exam so I moved the last subject to next year. So I’m not going to school right now.

I’m pathetic.

I gained about 15kg this year.

I hate myself more than ever.

I’m disgusting.

I want to die.

2019 goals: starve myself to death.

Marry Christmas to you all.

#ana #thin #mia #proana #anamia #promia #thinspo #skinny #weightloss #thinspiration #depressive #depression #christmas

skinnykookies

#ana #thin #mia #proana #anamia #promia #thinspo #skinny #weightloss #thinspiration

Hi guys, any recommendation for a good app (IOS) for full body measurent tracking?

I use MyNetDiary for weight and it also have hips, belly and neck but I need more! (Legs, arms... you know full body)

You can answer me here in comments or just send me message.

By darlings and be save

#ana #thin #mia #proana #anamia #promia #thinspo #skinny #weightloss #thinspiration #thighgap #thigh gap #loose weight #diet

How many hours per day spend looking at thinspo is considered as too much?

#ana #thin #mia #proana #anamia #promia #thinspo #skinny #weightloss #thinspiration #thigh gap

progress-to-thin

#ana #thin #mia #proana #anamia #promia #thinspo #skinny #weightloss #thinspiration

Omg I’m impressed how 1,4kg looks in cm.

#thin #thinspo #thinspiration #proana #promia #anamia #skinny #weightloss #thighgap #diary #ana #mia

What takes me so long?!

I’m finaly back! And I’m sure about it.

Today is fourth day of me restricting food. I eat daily about 300 - 500 kcal. Do I hate myself about it? Yes. Will I stop? Maybe, but it will be hard because my cooking skills are pretty impresive. Yes of all possible skills i can cook and bake even better. If you asking me why I’m cooking anyway if I don’t want to eat it, my boyfrend needs to eat...

Every morning I take “diet pill” it should fill you and reduce appetite. One more in the afternoon if I need. Also I take caffine pill every morning. And before sleep is time for laxatives. I take only two how you supposed. (Can’t do more, I don’t live alone). It helps me be totaly empty every morning, and who would want to eat when you are clean and blank. I really like this, I couldn’t eat much laxatives till this year (I was on birth control pill) but now I have IUD...

Also I drink 3l of water per day.

My first goal is be back on weight which starts with 6... I’m such a pig, I would never belive I could get over 70.... it is awful... I’m awful. Hope I will hit this first target till end of this week. And I need to be on my “normal weight” till end of this month.

What really motivate me this time? I saw picture of me from 4 years ago. Good thinspo in Tumblr and “the food will be here even when you get thinner. It won’t run.” “You will forget how it taste and then you will regret it for another days”. I also planning to go to London and I just can’t have fat pictures from WB studios...