Something happens to you when you learn that not everyone is good. Something happens to you when you realize you're not good enough. In her mind, it was an innocent flirtation. She wanted to see how far he'd go. He was, after all, her best friend's brother. Not to mention, he had a girlfriend for more than 2 years. He offered her math tutoring, although she knew he wasn't too bright. He was smart enough to pass, but not smart enough to teach. She agreed anyway, tugging harder and harder at the invisible string, wanting to see how far it could go. They reached his apartment on the beach. She sat down with her things as he plopped down on the couch and played a film. He looked over at her as if to say, What are you doing? She slid next to him, curious to see what he would choose. After the film, they seemed to be close to getting to actual studying, until he offered to show her what the view was like from outside. They stepped out onto the beautiful, clear beach, and looked up to the sky. She hadn't seen such clear stars in her life, always living in a city. He reached for her cheek and leaned in for a kiss. She allowed herself this. It was warm and inviting, but safe. They went back up to the apartment and he kissed her again, this time tugging at her top. She pulled away and said No. He kissed her again briefly trying to touch her differently, but again, she said No. He pulled away, upset. Angry. "Do you think a kiss is enough for me? Maybe at your age it is, but not at mine." He picked up his and her things and led her down the stairs to his car. She had never felt so ashamed of herself in her life. So embarrassed. He made her feel like a child. Like saying No was immature, was naive. On the way to her apartment, they kept quiet. He broke the silence saying she couldn't tell his sister. But she could never. Who has the heart to tell their best friend their brother is a monster? She was later known as the girl who couldn't say No.
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