Still with the same person as last post. Although this has been my most, if not the only, serious relationship, it also leaves a lot for my imagination. Like could I find someone else that could love me more, would treasure me more, be more all in, love me for all that I am? Then I ask if I do the same or is he someone to just check a checklist with? Conflicted. I gave up having kids for him. I've been resenting him sometimes, because maybe if I never pushed for anything, I would've found someone else. But I guess that's a big maybe because I have no way to know. I could leave and find out for sure, but isn't it also too late? I'll be fifty and a lone at this point.














