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New song with the boyfrand. “Left My Baby In The Car”.

Album Title: Exes

Song List

January

2. He Says, She Swears

3. Away

4. The Wedding Song

5. The Devil In You

6. Laying Lines

7. Cut

8. Weed

9. Volatile Times

10. Mimosa Memories

11. Loveless Lover

12. Sad Girl

13. July

14. Swimming Pool

...to be continued.

#singer songwriter #musician #acoustic #local music #self produced #breakup #exes

You'll Ruin Me.

Cherry lips on my spine. You're forever in me. You'll forever ruin me.

Dancing on cheap wine. In the shape of your moonlight. You'll get me every time.

You bring your guns, I'll bring my low blows. This talk is cheap. But so are we.

This round and round is getting too old. You're so heavy handed. You can't admit that.

You're like a burning in my brain. You fascinate me. I hate you wholly.

You think you're too good for the mundane. But you're oh so dead inside. You might as well give in.

Touchness on my skin. I wish that I could meet you again. I wouldn't take that chance.

In the middle of my favourite place. Now it's nothing more to me.

Than a place I used to be.

You'll ruin me...

#poetry #song #singer songwriter #original song

Here we go again.

Em top E two fingers G top E one finger

Am Em G top E one finger

capo first fret

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There's a lump in my throat. It's right behind every breath.

I feel the tears fill my eyes. But I swore to myself, I wouldn't cry.

And there's a hole somewhere deep in me, I can't fill it, But I feel it all the same.

And I can't help thinking maybe there's some meaning in all this pain.

I'm tired of late nights. Sitting alone. Filling my glass just to feel numb.

I'm tired of talking and trying to make sense. Looking for a reason to blame for my sins. Here we go again.

I'm tired of waking up from my dreams. And feeling unhappy that I'm still the same me.

I wanna be different, or somebody else. Maybe I can change who I am and leave this hell.

But it feels useless, it's always the same. Cut my hair and go by a new name.

Move to a city where I feel so small. Try to blend in, pretend that I know it all.

How to be happy. And not so afraid. It's easier that trying to change.

So maybe I'll just stay up, sitting alone, keep filling my glass so I won't feel at all.

I'm tired of trying to make any sense. I don't have a reason for my sins.

So here we go again....

Chapter 2

Learning who are you are when you're not with someone else can be tricky. On one hand you're still you. You always have been. But on the other, people change. And the relationship changed you. In some good ways...and in a lot of bad ways. Maybe you're responsible for that. Maybe not. Either way, you've got to relearn who you are. My advice, take it slow. Get back into a hobby you used to like. Try a new hobby. Try everything. You're different now. Life is different now.

You may not like the same things. You may not even like you. Like I said you're different now. So if you don't like you, now is you're chance to change that. Focus on that.

This period is all about change. A change in scenery and routine. Go to new places. Wake up earlier, or later. Be different. Anything to break the habits of the life before. That's what I'm calling it. The life before. The before you. The you before you left.

Everyday in chance to be whoever you want. So make that count. This isn't meant to be a motivational story. This is just how it is. Get used to it.

#relationhips #how to be single #what to do after a breakup #single now #relearning yourself

Chapter 1

Pack your shit and leave.

Simple as that. At least, in theory.

But, once the adrenaline fades, and reality sets in, packing your shit and leaving doesn't seem so simple.

Step 1: Take a good look around you. A mental note of everything you've collected over the years. Every piece of scrap paper. Little knick knacks, collecting dust on crooked shelves. This is your life. This is what it's become. Remember that.

Step 2: Let it go. All of it. Even the expensive things. Everything is replaceable. Everyone thinks humans need stuff. We don't need stuff. The filler. It's just filler. Lose the stuff. It makes the packing your shit part a whole lot easier.

Step 3: Make a plan. Not a big one. Not one of those 5 year bullshit plans. The world may end tomorrow. No, make a plan. Today, then tomorrow, then the next day and then the next. Make a plan and stick to it. It's just you and the plan now. Get used to that.

Step 4: And this is the most important. DO. NOT. GO. BACK. Don't do it. Make up your mind add stick to it. If you wanted to leave, you felt that way for a reason. Keep ahold tight on that thought. Because it may be all you have in the coming weeks.

Relationships are hard. You'll hear that phrase most from older married couples who never had the balls to leave their partner. If you're unhappy, leave. Now, some things are worth fighting for. I once got mad at an ex for letting his friend park in my spot. To be fair, we had two guest parking spots and I'm creature of habit. And I did end up getting back together with them. But, maybe it wasn't just about the spot. Maybe it was about respect and boundaries. Or maybe I'm just petty. But, not everything is a fine line that can easily be crossed. Some things are big lines. Big bold lines, in red. And those, they don't ever get crossed. Those you should avoid. Keep that in mind. It will be helpful later.

#relationships #breakup #breakups #toxic relationship #how to leave someone #how to break up #letting go #accepting #the end of an era

I wanna say that I wish you never left.

But instead I only wish you the best.

I just need some fucking space.

Lock up temptation. It's too hard to stay away. I cant even say its name.

You dont see it. You never have. You never will. But it's not your fault. And I don't blame you. I bet everything looks different through corner eye glances.

Are you bored like me?

Or just bored with me?

'Cause I cannot seem to get your attention.

You think I want everything.

I really only want one thing.

But it's something you cannot seem to give me.

And maybe I feel so small, 'cause I want it all.

I waited.

It finally happened.

And all I could do was shake.

What do I do now?

What happens next?

Your move...

who you trying to talk to

What do you mean?

Ugh. I'm bored.

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