life is dumb

I'm ready to be all done, now.

[must-be-nargles]

I'm the fucking worst. Over and over I just let people drift in and out of my life. People who care and want to make a genuine connection with me, spend time with me, be friends.

I just don't have the fucking energy to keep up with any of it and it's infuriating. Bye Bridgette. Bye Danielle. Bye Leo. Bye Korinna. Bye Georgia. Bye Linda. Bye all. Im sorry for making you care and then fucking fading into nothing because I don't have the mental capacity every other human seems to have for making and keeping friends. For doing anything at all outside of work.

Even today I was supposed to see my sisters. I love my family. And STILL. I couldn't make myself go.

I fucking hate everything. I hate existing.

[must-be-nargles]

How do I go about starting a cult as massive and deluded as fucking QAnon? Asking for a friend.

[must-be-nargles]

Okay, you know how sometimes you're having a conversation with someone and accidentally dissociate midway..

Do you ever do that when talking to yourself and come back midsentence and have absolutely no idea what you were talking about? Is this a thing? Do other people experience this?

Genuinely curious.

[andremichaux]

New Girl (2011 - 2018) ⏤ 2.16, Table 34

[almadelsur]

Jake Johnson (+ alllll his characters) is criminally underrated and it’s making me so mAD

Likeeee cmonnnn 🤤

[silvaris]

Autumn Woods, gif by assassin1513

[explorearound]

RED FOREST

by realityDream

[morganathewitch]

Leaves and moss~

[silvaris]

Color explosion by Martin Podt

[must-be-nargles]

I want to live here.

[silvaris]

autumn tower, photo by  chervona_vorona_photography

[vimbry-moved]

nearly 30 years I've lived and I'll constantly be surprised by the moon when it's night. I just caught it really large and yellow through the trees and went "good god is that the moon"

[ballwizard]

every time i eat one of these fucking things my soul goes away and i become a mafia boss smoking a fat fucking cigar pondering the next sap on my hit list

[must-be-nargles]

My dog is gone and I feel like I wander the world aimlessly with no purpose now. 😔 i miss her so much.

[must-be-nargles]

I wonder how many women were sentenced to death today.

[must-be-nargles]

I miss smoking cigarettes.

[fluffygif]

An Iridescent Python with polka dots.

[must-be-nargles]

A while back I watched what I think was a JennaJulien Podcast and in it they were talking about NPC people and I think about that a lot.

I think I am an NPC person. I do the same things every day. I don't think about much or do much to separate myself from other people. I'm just passively living and the only time I ever do anything different is when playable characters interact with me and I have some sidequests I can be taken on.