Mwehplog

Dutch, 23 years old.

[hopeaftertrauma]

[chronicsymptomsyndrome]

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Things I Didn't Know Were Symptoms of C-PTSD

Getting overwhelmed in crowds

Getting upset or angry at a loud alarm

Ordinary nightmares (that have nothing to do with the circumstances, just stupid nightmares much more often than the average person)

Getting sharp pains in your back/neck/collarbones that make it hard to breathe (due to hypervigilance/constant high anxiety)

Learning that "high anxiety" does not mean "generalized anxiety" like other people have with panic attacks and not feeling that they can accomplish thing. PTSD anxiety just means this frenetic energy that makes you want to talk/think/do things (even as an introvert) to avoid stopping.

Feeling constantly bored like you have to chase after something, even if you're just at home: I spend hours on tumblr, pinterest, watching tv, reading books, making art, never just laying there alone...because if you stop...the darkness is there

Thinking up stories before bed. This is a symptom of high anxiety because you're trying to calm down and fall asleep in a "safe world" where people are looking out for you and caring for you.

Trouble falling asleep (which is distinct from insomnia) because turning off electronics etc. doesn't help since your heartrate/fight or flight response is engaged

Periods of racing heart (mine has gotten to 120bpm for five hours) that make you feel like you're waiting for something to happen

Exaggerated startle response. When I was a kid I used to hide behind corners to surprise my sisters. Two years ago my friend hid under my desk to scare me. I literally screamed, fell out of the chair, and started crying. She was laughing because she thought the joke went well, and then got concerned because I kept crying.

Purposefully *tanking" a bad day with sad music/tv/movies/books because it "was already ruined anyway"

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[ninelivesastrology-deactivated2]

If the brain suppresses trauma to protect itself, how does the average person differentiate between suppression and recovery? Do you know what your brain is doing?

People in recovery for addiction will tell you it's a lifelong process. Even with eating disorders, that's a lifelong process. People do not think of trauma as a chronic illness simply because it is mental. It's the, "It's all in your head" belief.

PTSD needs to be further separated from C-PTSD because it's not just one event. I'd even argue that people who were deployed and seen combat have complex trauma because of the timeframe of the deployment That is so different from a car accident that only happened once. I've seen so many people bring up childhood trauma in regards to C-PTSD and what no one emphasizes is that the childhood trauma, if any, is the beginning.

Complex trauma can be really thematic in the sense that someone is retraumatized by an event that is similar, if not nearly identical to the one that started it all. This means that survivors of complex trauma need trauma specialists and that's if they have access to them. That's if they ever find out what's wrong with them.

Complex trauma is chronic trauma.

[akindplace]

Liz Fosslien

[toxic-night-mare]

[cptsd85-deactivated20241023]

[toxic-night-mare]

Credit to mindful.brains

[softgritspoonie]

I assure you the trauma is not all in your head. it's also in your heart, your nerves, and your stomach. It is in your trembling hands, your uneven breathing, your vision is suddenly gets blurry. It's not just your head that went through the thing. every cell in your body was there

[toxic-night-mare]

[avoidantrecovery]

i'm not religious or anything, but 👀😭

via socialbybri

[serana666-deactivated20250217]

Ooo this hit hard today

[complicatedconstellation-blog]

[rainywhispersblog-deactivated20]

[safe-haven-safe-place]

[fireangel]

[zechery-deactivated20220114]

Send me to Mars with party supplies before next august 5th

[thebaconsandwichofregret]

No guys you don’t understand.

The soil testing equipment on Curiosity makes a buzzing noise and the pitch of the noise changes depending on what part of an experiment Curiosity is performing, this is the way Curiosity sings to itself.

So some of the finest minds currently alive decided to take incredibly expensive important scientific equipment and mess with it until they worked out how to move in just the right way to sing Happy Birthday, then someone made a cake on Curiosity’s birthday and took it into Mission control so that a room full of brilliant scientists and engineers could throw a birthday party for a non-autonomous robot 225 million kilometres away and listen to it sing the first ever song sung on Mars*, which was Happy Birthday.

This isn’t a sad story, this a happy story about the ridiculousness of humans and the way we love things. We built a little robot and called it Curiosity and flung it into the star to go and explore places we can’t get to because it’s name is in our nature and then just because we could, we taught it how to sing.

That’s not sad, that’s awesome.

*this is different from the first song ever played on mars (Reach For The Stars by Will.I.Am) which happened the year before, singing is different from playing

[shadows-ember]

This is humanity

[siawrites]

Happy Birthday, Curiousity.

[labelleizzy]

Happy birthday, Curiosity.

[sorrymama-imadirectioner]

yeah... ok Niall ok

[ca-createart]