虚無さん

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"This nothingness is kind of, sort of, not good at all."

Kind of a vent/ramble blog for our plurality as a whole? Yeah. Sort of. This is not an RP blog.

Nihil [⛓️] She/They

Yuki [❄️] She/Her - Trauma holder

OWN [🩹] They/Them - Protector

Victoria [🚬] She/Her

Miku (25-ji) [🐇] She/They - Caretaker

⚠️ We're affected by our kinshifts (we're also fictionkin), so we prefer those names to refer to ourselves at the moment, despite using different names when outside a strong kinshift.

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if I told you I just had to talk with another of us that wasn't identified before, I don't even know what her job here is, but she looks older and seems to be mentally older too

she wants to be referred to as Victoria if we have to acknowledge her at all, but she made it clear she doesn't have much interest in using socials

she also smokes, she glared at me when I referred to her as 'grumpy 40s years old woman'

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the youtube mix this morning is very Halseypilled, I hope Yuki's happy

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if we stop to think about it, our Yuki's a bit like Daycord Mafuyu

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well, greetings to Miku, ig

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wait, does that mean our Miku's kind of literally just a caretaker for regulating emotions for the rest or

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I think the funny part is that she may have been the one that made sure Yuki and OWN were fine these past days, because OWN got protective of Yuki, but they've also been specially pissed and at the risk of lashing out and I guess she handled them well???

I've been fronting these days for the most part aside of Yuki co-fronting with me for some, I know OWN also did because of the day they went on a shopping spree and got super talkative on the dash, but now that I'm at peace and trying to communicate, that happens

maybe this is also one of the reasons of why OWN goes kinda missing at times, they may just like spending time with Miku far from here

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I think we have a Niigo Miku fictive but she's so extremely silent and...shy? that I doubt she would front at all

can that happen?

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getting topped by someone who whimpers and moans and bites and digs their claws into you and fucks you desperately like they're in heat

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on that hand, Yuki's always better with writing more outgoing characters, huh?

Charlie from HH was also her fault

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sometimes I legit forget we had a time in which we RPed Canari and made a good bunch of art of her

went to ask headmates only for Yuki to speak from the bg with a high pitched 'meeeeee! it was my fault!' like, yeah, makes sense

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did you know that bunnies don't have heat cycles?

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good thing I'm here instead tho, because Nihil wanted to cut herself instead

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I have no patience tonight, we're kind of a fucking mess

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that one was my fault-

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the stress + Yuki co-hosting with me is making me be super horny while fronting and now I know how Yuki feels, like this is not normal and our body hurts

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Yuki's main coping mechanism to stressing stuff is sex because it's the escapade to feel something good

I feel her, but also, I'm suffering

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the stress + Yuki co-hosting with me is making me be super horny while fronting and now I know how Yuki feels, like this is not normal and our body hurts