khaosNdestruction

TRIGGER WARNING A lot of my stuff is about suicide and wanting to die. I have BPD and my life's struggles have kept me fighting for my life. I've been in multiple domestic violence relationships two of which and possibly a third were with Narcissistic men. I struggle with who I am as well as felling worthless, unwanted and unloved.

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Strengthen Your Energy from Brighid Murphy on Vimeo.

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My #VIPColoringPage from the #PaintColOrApp https://www.instagram.com/p/B_51lRqn0Ca/?igshid=bpwzv2xod1k5

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This is how I started my day. With the #Batiq coloring app #PicOfTheDay... How wonderful to be reminded(!) I'm still plugged into this world, smh https://www.instagram.com/p/B_zaHdkHHs7/?igshid=f53lm5a1rqvo

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@photo_lab_app #photolab I love my Tazzie! Even though his a tad bit camera shy. I would be lost in this f'd up world without my pets. Tazzie is one of three. I also have his twin brother(who was hiding when I took this photo) and a 5 mo old Red Healer/Border Collie mix who is currently in trouble for tearing up my house only to destroy the backyard when she was put outside for her previous crime, lol. https://www.instagram.com/p/B_u0UJdnMzA/?igshid=1m4shfida2gan

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My first pic for today and she's beautiful I love her #PurpleHair! Thank you #PaintColorApp. This reminds me, I need to do my hair again it's lookin kinda faded & blah... https://www.instagram.com/p/B_unARnHyex/?igshid=1xessu55ykq1r

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#HappyColor #PicOfTheDay is just too cute. https://www.instagram.com/p/B_jSodnHiDZ/?igshid=10f6ok6pf879p

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Beautiful pic from the #PaintColorApp https://www.instagram.com/p/B_SvLjznwrA/?igshid=1o2auic2tvlzr

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#HappyColor #PicOfTheDay for Tuesday April 21, 2020. https://www.instagram.com/p/B_QdurRnHfz/?igshid=tyjii389gmj6

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Too cute Love this pic in the #rarecatagory in the #HappyColorApp https://www.instagram.com/p/B-_EJWknIBi/?igshid=es7drwwiur6i

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Yes, I am, lmao... #ColorPaintingApp https://www.instagram.com/p/B-ip6ndnJOC/?igshid=1u508j3tutytp

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#childloss #MyAngelDaughter #SuicideStoleMyDaughter https://www.instagram.com/p/B-eQps3njAj/?igshid=ehxyaf8z4t15

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I am ♌ #Leo ♌ a Lioness! I am loyal to a fault and I will love & protect my #Pride (those I call/consider family) to the death! #LeoProud https://www.instagram.com/p/B-Tl68YnZ2d/?igshid=1jhszbbojh8u3

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Love this #nativeamericangirl pic. Another #GreatPic in the #ColorPaintingApp. https://www.instagram.com/p/B-QjWu5n06t/?igshid=vhz06x1ce3s1

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Thank you #EnjoyColorByNumber for such a cute pic. Good night all! https://www.instagram.com/p/B90vVDogKC3/?igshid=r5z7yfnaito4

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Forgive me for sharing yet again another #ButterflyPic. As most of you know, I absolutely love #Butterflies because of my #AngelDaughter, #KrystalDawn, who died at 12 yrs old by #suicide in 2002. I share a lot (probably too many) images and pics I've colored that have #butterflies due to the symbolic meaning of #Butterflies and #LovedOnesWhoHaveCrossedOver, in her memory and as a constant reminder that she's always with me. https://www.instagram.com/p/B9xMSUxAnRw/?igshid=ewe9jf9jz981

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#ColoringDiorama https://www.instagram.com/p/B9w6h0tgf5-/?igshid=x0etsh36wxtd

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Trying out a new #ColoringApp, #ColorDiorama. It gives me my own little world to add color too. Which is really cool since in the #RealWorld I don't seem to fit, I #Clash with everything I come into contact with. This is three pics in one named #ChipmunksLoveCarrots. I haven't totally fallen in love with it yet but it's okay. https://www.instagram.com/p/B9sNbyUAsZc/?igshid=i376cu2od7ki