Blood Tears

She was born to be alone and, after her death, she lives in the hope that someone will welcome her..

[my-lavernne]

When we have all gone, to the silence of eternity... To first be forgotten, and lost in, the records of the earth Could I still miss you, then, in the time and space after life When no one is searching anymore, and where we are nowhere to be found...

We didn't spend our life together and I will miss you forever...

The choice was mine, To long for a time, that will never come Though we leave the world apart, I, still went peacefully, quietly, with you, still, firmly... in my heart.

I will wait forever. I wait...

[my-lavernne]

[my-lavernne]

Someone I loved once gave me a box full of darkness It took me years to understand that this too, was a gift It took me years to realize you teared my heart through fordable mires But I wasn’t made for shallow waters, my heart is an ocean… And I think that’s where I am right now: Floating, drifting away Too weak to continue swimming, yet not weak enough to give up and sink Leastwise I know now, that salty waters might cure everything Shedding tears… …or to walk into the sea…

[my-lavernne]

These deep shadows of my heart, crushing pain It follows in voices, the rooms, the garden Leaving me to bleed the truth of it all Who ever is sentenced to love Will bow down as a servant of sorrow...

[my-lavernne]

Could I be your light, when you are afraid? Could I be the reason when you're asking why? I could be a mistress for your lonely nights. I would give you wings.

[my-lavernne]

I am bewildered by this cruel fate - Clouding my judgement. Sowing the seeds of life in soil of ruin... The winds feel silent and kissed Death's wings. It's colder than before, still the winter's passed And springtime haste fully took all it came for. Often I stare at the clouds drifting by, imagining you there - Like formations of a dream adrift from me. The moments are gone but you remain, If we had wings we would leave the seasons behind - Escaping this quiet shroud always haunting us. We sleep now in the ashes blowing in the wind. There is no greater sorrow than to recall happiness in times of misery And there you are alone like me; The mountain I must climb; The lush garden I fail to nurture... And when I have nothing to say, I'll let this slip away. I wonder who we are now what we're supposed to do Each day only shadows comfort me and you... Each day we let it pass and then we die... As dust fall from heavens fire.

[my-lavernne]

[my-lavernne]

September begun with a goodbye to my heart The pictures you put in my head brought tears behind my icy hands... Come closer; Breathe my name and nothing more We are mere whisperings of a heartfelt elegy... So when I scream for you, do not answer me When I beg you to hold me, just walk away...

[my-lavernne]

The sorrow of my soul, earthbound and cold The tide will never turn.. I've been dead for years, drowned in all my tears.. Have you forsaken me?

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art by Maggie Vandewalle

[my-lavernne]

The dawn, a promise of beauty, but in dusk our rose will die.. I’m forgetting how to face the sadness of your eyes..