unconditional.

--no height, no gloss, no pretense--

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Dead.

In 2017. This is the world. There are no originals. Only copies.

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I remember telling someone one time in an attempt to make a point "MY 3 YEAR OLD NIECE CAN SAY I LOVE YOU BUT SHE DOESN'T KNOW WHAT IT MEANS!" But I was wrong, you show me a love that is indescribable and I know that when you tell me that you love me. You do. I see myself in you in more ways than I ever thought imaginable from a kid that's not mine! You are the smartest, sweetest, silliest 10 year old I know! I look at this picture hanging above my computer everyday and it makes me smile! I can't believe you are 10 already!! Happy Birthday baby! #auntiesbaby #xeniyaelise #oldestof3 #bigsister #minime #kiddiva

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"I changed who I was for you"- Miranda

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Damage

The damage that cheating causes you-- its irreparable. It's truly damaging to your core. I can't watch things about cheating without starting to get that wet feeling in the back of my throat. You know the one? That all nauseating feeling that consumes you right before you're about to vomit. I used to be an avid watcher of the reality show "Mary Mary". On the last season I watched, Tina Campbell was going through a rather public cheating fiasco with her husband. I couldn't watch a single episode without breaking down because I know that feeling all too well! I know how it feels to find out that while you have been trying to make it for the both of you, your partner is finding their release elsewhere. I know how it feels for everyone to have the answer to HOW you're supposed to "just move on" As though you haven't invested time into the situation. I just watched The Intern. As minimal a cheating scene as it was, it did something to me. My boyfriend asked me what was wrong because he noticed the look on my face. I don't think men ever realize just how much cheating really ruins a person. Idk- do men actually give a shit if they are cheated on? Does it effect them even a portion of the way that it effects us?

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What is Winning?

In a relationship… what is winning? What’s the concept? What is the competition? Far too often in arguments I’ve heard people say “alright, you win!”… but what have I won? Have I won you shutting up just because you think it’s what I want? I’d rather have the argument. Is it you telling me that I won just so I’ll leave you alone? I don’t want to win- I want you to FUCKING UNDERSTAND. I don't want to win like this. I'd rather "win" because we figured out a way to "adult" our way through our issues. I'd rather "win" because we made it through all the bullshit. Not because you threw in the towel.

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Crutches

Today I realized that I am an enabler. I'm able to constantly point out situations and instances where someone has hurt me but I fail to take responsibility for how I have ALLOWED that hurt. How I saw the signs of that hurt coming long before the actual pain yet I still did nothing. Like an innocent bystander in my own life I've allowed people to do fuck boy things to me. Today I made a vow to take back that power.

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Loyalty

What role does loyalty play in love?

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I hate you, I love you I hate that I love you don't want to but I can't put nobody else above you... I hate you, I love you I hate that I want you, you want her you need her, and I'll never be her

Gnash

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All along I've watched you watch her like she's the only girl you've ever seen. You don't care you never did-- you don't give a damn about me

Gnash

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Dating

For a few months now I’ve been playing with the idea of making my blog about dating.... 

The who’s its and what’s its. What is dating in 2016? 

So I started asking questions of my peers. What is your idea of the perfect date? What is love even? The answers all varied drastically but one thing was clear in every response.... We all just want to be loved at the end of the day. So what do you think?

Would you read it?

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Right Hand. #flashbackfriday

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Happy Friday! 😍😘

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Because we decided to try to be more healthy. Lettuce wraps.