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@mycptsdstory
Hi, this is me. I'm called Rose.
Me without makeup.
No idea why i wanted to show you all my face. Since I've been more open on my socials and my family only stalks me on Facebook... no idea why. Yes, it's bizarre.
Sorry I bullied people on here. No, you don't have to forgive me. Forgiveness is a choice and I stand by that.
I'd thought i show my face.
Merry Christmas everyone 💜
I've always been terrifed that my brat of a sister Laura would cheat on my boyfriends because she's the type of person to do that. Especially if my family picked someone for me that my family approved of.
I'm just glad I've dated someone overseas and my man thinks that Laura is ugly af. He even told her on video call (this was when I was talking to my family and living with my cunt of a mother, Lynette).
I've always been terrifed that my brat of a sister Laura would cheat on my boyfriends because she's the type of person to do that. Especially if my family picked someone for me that my family approved of.
I'm just glad I've dated someone overseas and my man thinks that Laura is ugly af. He even told her on video call (this was when I was talking to my family and living with my cunt of a mother, Lynette).
So true!
Absolutely true.
Also from a comment on the original video "Also disrespectful to the people that supported you through it".
everything i say is a desperate attempt to not be misunderstood 🤞
Found on Twitter. Absolutely true.
It's surprising how many times my family, especially my cunt of a mother Lynette tried to get me sectioned and put me in a psych ward.
I've had many evaluations, but Lynette could never get me sectioned. I asked all the right answers and in Lynette's words "she needs to be controlled. I can't control her". Why the NHS never got the police involved during this time, is beyond me.
My brat of a sister Laura, the golden child, wanted me to be sectioned too. But that didn't work.
I was never dELuSiOnAL. But Lynette made sure everyone around me thought i was DeLuSiOnAL and it nearly worked. If i hadn't posted memes and mocking everyone lol.
I guess me being stubborn does work lol.
I never felt pretty or beautiful in my life. I never felt attractive either.
When my own family called me ugly, called me the "the ugly one" and compared to me to my golden child sister Laura, saying how she's more beautiful, she's more pretty, she's more smart.
Everyone around me would say "why can't you have a lighter hair colour than laura. Why can't you be more like Laura, why can't you be funny like Laura, why can't you look more like Laura". Everything was about my brat of a sister, fucking Laura.
Yes I was jealous, deeply. I'm NOT gonna sugar coat that.
It fucked me up.
It wasn't until i started to cut her out of my life, Laura hung out with Ian's side (Ian is my cunt of a father) more than Lynette (my cunt of a mother), then I can finally be me.
I never want to be apart of her life again. If anyone compares me to her, I now ask them why. Most of the time, they don't have an answer.
My sister Laura was paraded like she could walk on water and I was everyone's second best.
I got fed up.
I don't want her in my life and anyone compares me to her, they're not in my life either.
When i was in my teens me, Lynette (my cunt of a mother) and Laura (my brat of a sister) had an opportunity to go on a cruise ship. It started in London and went around the EU. I can't remember where it went, this was nearly 20 years ago lol.
I think it was gonna be a 2 week trip as well.
But that never happened because at the travel agents, Lynette had a 5 year old tantrum. Why you may ask? She couldn't smoke in her room, in the dinning room and could only smoke in the designated areas of the ship.
This was the first time i saw Laura get visibly upset with Lynette. In the travel agents, Laura and Lynette had a huge argument. All because my fucking mother couldn't smoke on the ship.
It was the last time that Laura went on holiday with us. I was jealous because Laura could do what she wanted, while I was forced to be with Lynette and go wherever SHE went. I HATED IT.
Maybe it was a good thing that I never on a cruise ship. Being with Lynette and there's no space to escape from her, fucking yikes. No thank you!!
When i cut off my friend Jennifer because my mother Lynette, wanted to lie to the social services saying that Jennifer has been abused by her family... all to get a bonus. (Long story). It was basically cut her off, or else Lynette would take Jennifer away from her family. (Again, long story).
After when i cut off Jennifer, Lynette would always tell me, she would meet Jennifer's mum Andrea for coffee. Lynette would tell me "I'm meeting Andrea, behave and don't be delusional while I'm gone". So I would sit in my room and watch anime for a few hours.
One day they stopped meeting up, it was around the same time the police investigation started in 2012. Kinda odd, if you ask me.
I've always wondered if Lynette was telling me the truth. Lynette lied about everything and she would never do coffee meet ups, not even with her own friends. She would always say "i don't have enough money". So why was Andrea any different?
Lynette never told me the full truth. So I never got to know her as a person. Even tho, she's my so-called mother. She would lie about the tiniest thing and maniplates everyone into believing that lie.
Me and Jennifer did become friends years later, but I had to cut her out of my life in late 2022.
So when we were friends, I've always wanted to ask Andrea about the meet up with Lynette. But before I could ask, she hung up and blocked me. And no, I never got to ask, the only thing I said to her was "can I ask you a question". It wasn't even about Jennifer, it was about her and Lynette meeting up for coffee. But that never came to be.
I've always wondered if and i mean IF Lynette and Andrea did meet up for coffee.
I wish that family had better communication.
I'm just thinking outloud.
Jennifer got super weird around me, the same time I escaped my family.
Did Lynette harassed Jennifer's family when I left everything behind? Did Lynette contacted Jennifer's family and Lynette became violent towards them when she couldn't find me?
I hope they knew that i left Lynette for my own safety. Honestly, if it wasn't for the police, social services and the women's aid, i would be dead.
I hope Jennifer's family didn't blame me for Lynette's actions.
I left because I had to and I despise that I had to defend that.
Did Jennifer and her family knew i left Lynette and cut contact with everyone? Did they knew i was in a refuge/homeless shelter escaping domestic violence?
When i left, many people told me how Lynette tried to hunt me down because she couldn't find me. I had to "stabilise" her, when it's not my job to begin with. Lynette is an unstable woman, to put it politely. It's not my job to control her. I hate how everyone thinks that's my job to do. I'm her daughter, not her fucking care giver for christ sake.
My ex said how Lynette became violent when Lynette couldn't find me and attacked his own mum. She and her husband had to call the police. Not on btw. He said my mother is insane crazy and yeah, I believe him.
Many people told me the same thing on how Lynette went violent when she couldn't find me.
I wonder if Lynette attacked Jennifer's mum Andrea and that's why I could only talk to Jennifer through her mum. Punishing me in some way because of Lynette? That's what it feels like. I hate it.
Just a thought. I'm trying to piece the timeline.
When i cut off my friend Jennifer because my mother Lynette, wanted to lie to the social services saying that Jennifer has been abused by her family... all to get a bonus. (Long story). It was basically cut her off, or else Lynette would take Jennifer away from her family. (Again, long story).
After when i cut off Jennifer, Lynette would always tell me, she would meet Jennifer's mum Andrea for coffee. Lynette would tell me "I'm meeting Andrea, behave and don't be delusional while I'm gone". So I would sit in my room and watch anime for a few hours.
One day they stopped meeting up, it was around the same time the police investigation started in 2012. Kinda odd, if you ask me.
I've always wondered if Lynette was telling me the truth. Lynette lied about everything and she would never do coffee meet ups, not even with her own friends. She would always say "i don't have enough money". So why was Andrea any different?
Lynette never told me the full truth. So I never got to know her as a person. Even tho, she's my so-called mother. She would lie about the tiniest thing and maniplates everyone into believing that lie.
Me and Jennifer did become friends years later, but I had to cut her out of my life in late 2022.
So when we were friends, I've always wanted to ask Andrea about the meet up with Lynette. But before I could ask, she hung up and blocked me. And no, I never got to ask, the only thing I said to her was "can I ask you a question". It wasn't even about Jennifer, it was about her and Lynette meeting up for coffee. But that never came to be.
I've always wondered if and i mean IF Lynette and Andrea did meet up for coffee.
I wish that family had better communication.
I don't get my family, I just don't get them.
Why the fuck did they tell me this song, Tal Bachman - She's So High... is not real, I'm dreaming it, I'm making it up and I'm being dELuSiOnAL.
Like wtf.
Yes this song doesn't exist and I'm being DELuSiOnAL (sarcasm).
The three people are Lynette (my cunt of a mother), Laura (my brat of a sister) and my grandma Lilian. All told me this song is made up and I'm dreaming it.
Wtf. I hate them. I hate how they are so secretive with every little single fucking thing in my god damn life.
I don't get it.
I HATE how my family and family friends blamed me for my grandma Lilian having cancer.
They told me "it's your fault your grandma is sick. You should have never called the police. Look at your poor grandma who's ill, you made her that way because you reported your family. How dare you make your own grandma sick. You're the reason why she's sick and ill. She misses you terribly, if you go back, you can heal her. It's all your fault that your grandma is dying".
Not my fault.
Don't blame me for something that I didn't do.
Trauma may change what intimacy looks like, but it doesn't make closeness, trust, laughter, affection, or love impossible.
Healing doesn't have to mean getting the old you back. Sometimes healing means building something new instead.
When anyone tells me "you shouldn't have gotten the police involved, it could ruin their lives".
Good. Maybe they shouldn't have done something criminal then. It's not my fault they hurt me and others.
(I get this from other survivors of abuse too, not just people are complicit and enablers to the abuse.)
