The Most Darling Saint

"You might make me a better man." "And you might make me a monster."

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Looks like we’re both going to the same concert because of course we are.

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I hope you’re driving and you speed up a little when you think about me in a desperate attempt to regain some control in a life that is not your own.

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I got my divorce papers in the first week of mercury retrograde, it would actually be hilarious if he tried to come back to me at the end. Like really just throw me for a loop.

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You’ve got all of these big strong muscles but you’re still so weak.

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I hope that knife hurt. I hope you try to pull it out and you bleed everywhere. I hope the serrated edges tear your heart out.

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Somehow I have to be okay with the fact he’ll never regret what he did.

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Hilarious that a man said to me “you married someone in two months and you think me asking you to be exclusive after a week is fast?” Like yeah king have you considered that was the love of my life and you are just some man I don’t know? 🤪

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One month ago he left me and I still fiddle with the ring on my finger that I don’t wear anymore.

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One month ago he left me and I still fiddle with my ring on my finger that I don’t wear anymore.

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Crying to people I just met about my divorce is very divorce coded. I was showing pictures of my wedding to my friends last night and it hit me really hard.

I will have another wedding. I will fall in love again. I will move past this.

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Me realizing a 5’8” man who barely graduated college is in fact not my soul mate 🙅🏻‍♀️

I was too nice to tell him he was my 3rd choice lmao I should’ve humbled him.

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I got to look him in the eyes today and all I saw was cowardice. He’s just a scared little boy. It makes me sad that the fire I saw was really just smoke and mirrors. This is a blessing in disguise, even if I wish things were different.

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What’s so crazy is he thought that I’m a worse person than I actually am and I can’t stop thinking that he was a better person than he actually was.

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I emailed him and poured my heart out and I can’t bear to check and read his response (if he responded) bcs I just know it’s going to be something so stupid and illogical and hurtful. I need to remember who he really is, not the man I thought I knew.

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Update- even worse he didn’t respond lmao

[mydarlingsaint]

I emailed him and poured my heart out and I can’t bear to check and read his response (if he responded) bcs I just know it’s going to be something so stupid and illogical and hurtful. I need to remember who he really is, not the man I thought I knew.

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I keep waiting for him to become a better man… reach out, say sorry, do SOMETHING. Unfortunately he’s a coward and I don’t think he knows how to be better.

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I wonder what the fuck he says when people ask him what happened. I swear to god if it’s “she was always blaming me” I will fucking blow a gasket. I literally said the words “I am not blaming you I’m just telling you how I feel” so many fucking times. I’m mad rn because this isn’t fair I didn’t get a fucking say in this.