A Place To Leave My Thoughts

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Depression sucks!

Literally I think I'm the dumbest person, and that I'm not good enough... Yet i get the highest marks in my science classes and I still feel the same way.... What is wrong with me...

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Literally they are both smart and good looking

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One of those nights...

all I think about is boys, boys, boys....

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Why do I even miss you? And why are you on my mind?

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OMFG... Okay so today I saw a really cute boy whilst walking my dog. This wasn't the first time I saw him... I've actually seen him quite frequently during the school year but we never actually spoke. Just deep eye contact... Today he was also walking his dog, and his dog jumped on me AND I HAD THE OPPORTUNITY to start a conversation but my dumb ass self walked away... ):

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You know what?

I'm extremely proud of myself. I don't want to sound arrogant or self-absorbed, but I accomplished so many things I never thought I would. First of all, I conquered my biggest fear. Surgery. A freaking major ass surgery that I was scared to death for. Secondly, I got into the college program I never even dreamed of getting into. Health Sciences. I used to be a dumb shit who failed math constantly, but look at me now! And lastly, I am actually sticking to my goal - working out EVERY SINGLE DAY, and eating healthy foods to obtain the dream body I want. All the hard work, pain, and sweat that I devoted to my studies are definitely paying off. Although I may not have the best social life because of all the studying, at least the dream job that I hope to obtain will be there waiting for me with open arms. Some of my friends even joke around that I'm a nerd BUT I DONT CARE because I know that all this hard work will be nothing but good for me. I am feeling extremely motivated and unstoppable. I feel like I can achieve anything I want, if i believe in myself and work really hard. I look forward to see what the future holds for me, and all the new adventures I will endure.

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Craving so hard for junk food but I can't because I need to lose weight...

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Ughhh....

No matter how hard I try or how much time I spend studying, it certainly hasn't been paying off. I'm one of the hardest workers in class, yet I achieve nothing...