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Elijah. I have read 1 Kings 19:1-12. Elijah was afraid. He ran. He had several experiences of God's magnificent power and yet he felt afraid. God sent an angel to feed him. '"Get up and eat." He looked around, and there by his head was some bread baked over hot coals, and a jar of water."(v.5b-6a).' Then in v.11-12, God showed him that He was now communicating in a still small voice, not in flashy miracles.
ODB 01/20/17: If you're discouraged because God hasn't shown up in a blaze of glory, perhaps He's revealing Himself with His quiet presence. (God is in the small things as well as the great.)
Today, I woke up late. I was exhaused the past 2 days because of my LET Application. The whole application process was dreadful, I had to stay in Manila just to finish it all.
01/19 (day before the deadline): I woke up at 5am and arrived in Mcdo Katipunan at 8:45am to meet my friend. Rode a train (LRT) and walked to PRC Central office. Waited in line (looooong line) just to find out at the gate that I cannot apply inside because I online registered in the regional site and only those people with appointments can process their application. We were then instructed to go to internet shops to check if we can still set an appointment. Well, that was passed 10am already and there were no available slots left. I decided to go to Robinson's Galleria to process my application. My friend had to go back to work at 1pm in Quezon City so I had to go to Galleria alone. It was my first time to ride a bus from Morayta to Galleria and to make it an even more better experience, the bus hit a van. Accident! We had to wait for another bus. The first Taytay bus was full, so is the second. Thank God for the 3rd. Yay! So, I arrived Galleria. To my not-so-surprised-face, there was a looooooong line. That was a few minutes passed 11am. We had to wait. Wait. Wait. A person from PRC collected our pictures with our full names para daw maprint na nila. Then nacut-off na so some were given numbers for the following day. Wait. Wait. Wait again. We waited. I figured that would happen kaya I brough a book. That aftenoon, some guards and galleria staff gave us seats. It should have made the situation better. But you know, at first, it did not. NAGKAGULOOOO! Grabe! You cannot blame us for seating on the floors. We were there for hours already. Tapos yung iba were asking other people to save their spot because they had to buy some food. We were hungry and exhausted. Kasi iba pala sa mga 'yun, mas madami pang pinuntahan. They also went to Robinson's Manila pero nacut-off na doon so ang bagsak ay sa Galleria. Going back, nagkagulo nga. Some people are claiming they were there first bla bla bla. I remember people saying, "Ganyan ba mga nakatapos ng 4 years? Ganyan ba mga ituturo ninyo sa mga magiging estudyante ninyo?!" I just shut my mouth and did not bother to join them. That happned twice that day. Thank God, natapos 'yun because kuya from PRC told us, "Matatapos po kayong lahat."
Pero, hindi kami natapos lahat. Passed 6pm, nandoon pa rin kami. Offline na daw. We had to go back the next morning for the payment and to get our Notice of Admission (NOA). Hindi ako umuwi ng province para makadating ako agad sa Galleria kinabukasan. 10am ang opening noon. Kung uuwi pa ako ng province, hindi ko matatapos agad. So I contacted my friends who are working in Ortigas and nakitulog ako sa kanila. I bough a t-shirt, undies, deodorant, and toothbrush para doon. Again, what an experience! :)
January 20, 2017. 11am. TAPOS NA AKO! Yay! FInally. It is official. I'm taking the MARCH 2017 LET. There are more people in Galleria, though. And I believe, more in PRC Central Office because I heard they opened 500 new slots for the applicants. It is only through God's grace and favor na natapos ko ito. Grabe talaga. If nangyari ang sinabi ng school ko na January 20 ko pa makukuha ang TOR ko, wala na. Baka magLET September na ako. But that did not happen. I am here for a purpose. It is His will kaya magleLET ako this coming March.
There's fear kanina. Pero now, I'm more than confident na magiging smooth ang review ko. I just got my Specialization Reviewer today. Yes, hindi ko tinapos ang blog na 'to kaagad. I had to leave and get it sa review center na pinagorderan ko ng book. Yay!
My prayer kaninang umaga is i-guide ako ni God sa mga aaralin ko. Social Studies ang specialization ko and honestly, I did not expect that pero dahil business related ang course ko, automatic 'yun. Before ako nagCPE (Certification in Professional Education), I told myself na I got to love Social Studies first before ko siya ituro. And throughout my one year journey sa aking certification, my appreciation for the subject increased and yes, I can say, I like the subject already. I love teaching it to students. The only difference now is, sa teaching demonstrations namin, we were given time to prepare and study the topics. Sa LET though, we need to know as much information talaga na makukuha namin kasi we don't know yet kung ano ang lilitaw sa exams. May TOS (Table of Specifications) pero napakalawak nun. Sa totoo lang, kaninang nagppray ako, hindi ko alam kung saan ako magsisimula. Pero voila! Available na pala today ang reviewer and I'm glad kasi ngayong binobrowse ko siya, I felt, ito na 'yun! Answered prayer na!
My plan now sa review ko is to read more about the topics discussed in the reviewers. I started that last week with Professional Education and I felt more confident talaga. Indeed, God is leading me to the right books and to the right websites and to the right sources. Sa initial review ko sa Professional Ed. (though hindi ko natatapos lahat ng topics; 2 of 4 pa lang), the results were actually great. From 58.82% to 91.18% in the two topics under P.E. (Assessment of Learning and Facilitating learning, and Child and Adolescent Development). I believe my 25% grade in my specialization (without studying and review) will improve dramatically as well. Tiwala lang. Maraming prayers at maraming aral. :)
I can because I have God and He will guide me through all of this. FOCUS LANG SA GOAL!!! :)
Elijah ran and yet God provided food. Elijah was afraid, and yet God still revealed Himself to him. If you're discouraged because God hasn't shown up in a blaze of glory, perhaps He's revealing Himself with His quiet presence. God is in the small things as well as the great. I had a wow journey just to get myself a NOA from PRC. He's been there. I know. I felt it. Yes, sa mga panahon ngayon, hindi na natin naririnig ang voice ni God out loud. Pero sa mga bagay bagay, if we'll just open our eyes, He's there. He's always been. May takot minsan pero hindi ka pa rin Niya papabayaan. Kapag dumadating ang takot, mas magdepende lang kay God. Sigurado, kakalma ka. He will reveal Himself to you. He did, to me. Kaya mas masaya ang pag-aaral dahil alam ko na He's here with me. I'm not alone in this. I'm not alone.