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[letsbelonelytogetherr]

— Margaret Atwood, The Blind Assassin

[mournfulroses]

Simone de Beauvoir, from a diary entry featured in Diary of a Philosophy Student

[mymanicmind]

Emotions as the weather. Ever-Changing, Mercurial. Emotions as a rollercoaster. Going up: hearts are pounding. Two riders, one rollercoaster, a shared experience: a joint ascent. The Drop: exhilarating, chests expanding , blood pumping , adrenaline rushing. One trembles in fears and the other screams in exhalation. Same physical sensations , same urges, diverging experiences. So, reality … it’s all in your head ? If I flip the switch from terror to tranquility to thrill to triumph, does the ride transform? Or will I mistake it for that ride down there ?Around and around and around again spins the merry-go-round , up and down, a dance of subtleties- in movement, a soothing sensation of seeming control. But is it truly invigorating? Pretty Paradoxes.

Maybe all it takes is a flip of a switch , rollercoaster running backwards, a reversed incline, downward spiral climbing back , not falling. See, it isn’t that bad after all? Remember to smile at the dip , 3…2….1 the lights flash, pose for the camera, after all , it’s just a ride , they call it the amusement park not abusement park for a reason.

Every dip, every climb,

A mirror of the mind.

Life as a rollercoaster,

Not to conquer the ride, but to be carried by it,

Not to hold on too tight , but to let go.

To fall together — and call it … flying 🪽 ✨🎢 🎟️ 🎪 🎭

[mymanicmind]

22:44 thank you god , thank you angels

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520… 05/20 5月20号

五二零

我爱你

520节日 快乐 😊

[mymanicmind]

一

“I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead;

I lift my eyes and all is born again. ”

二

Do you know what a poem is, Esther?'

No, what?' I would say.

A piece of dust.'

Then, just as he was smiling and starting to look proud, I would say, 'So are the cadavers you cut up. So are the people you think you're curing. They're dust as dust as dust. I reckon a good poem lasts a whole lot longer than a hundred of those people put together.'

And of course Buddy wouldn't have any answer to that, because what I said was true. People were made of nothing so much as dust, and I couldn't see that doctoring all that dust was a bit better than writing poems people would remember and repeat to themselves when they were unhappy or sick or couldn't sleep.

三

Everything people did seemed so silly, because they only died in the end.

Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar.

Silly Little quotes , to end a silly, simple, little day.

[quotefeeling]

“Self-care is how you take your power back.”

— Unknown

[thoughtkick]

“Apologize to your body. Maybe that is where the healing begins.”

— Nayyirah Waheed

[mymanicmind]

I’m being hAunted.

Keep building , one block at a time. Hard to build this thing when so many pieces are missing … hasn’t stopped me yet. Can’t stop won’t stop.

Forever the Lego Master. Master of All Trades. No Jacks No Spades, simply an AcE.

[mymanicmind]

Friendship is the silent symphony where souls dance together.

[mymanicmind]

U can’t keep a bad bitch down they say. U cant entangle and trap a lion in a cage I say. Step on a lion’s tail and expect it not to roar and jump is a very challenging and quite cruel test , but lion’s aren’t known as the kings/queens of the jungle for no reason. Capable of anything…. Asserting dominance and peace and order in the jungle by simply lounging quietly underneath the sun’s beams atop of their kingdom. Their presence felt far and wide beyond sight. Calling out for all animals to drop what they’re doing and be on call and attentive with one simple, mighty roar. 🦁leaders by nature, rulers by birth.

Lion’s may be powerful and intimidating for other animals in the kingdom, but at the core they’re shapeshifters, sweet feline kitties simply enjoying prowling about their day , action in in-action. A majestic, regal , wonderful creature of the jungle. For all the lion wanted from the Wizard was a little courage. With that, he was complete, with all the beautiful qualities needed to flourish , already cemented deep inside of him.

Was courage a tangible object he received? No, simply a ritualistic act of bestowing some faith. Have a little faith. Four simple , powerfully striking words, that ignited that final match within the Lion 🦁 for all the world to feel and see ….

[surqrised]

“There comes a time when you have to stop crossing oceans for people who wouldn’t even jump puddles for you.”

— Unknown

[mymanicmind]

If you shut up the truth and bury it under the ground, it will but grow, and gather to itself such explosive power that the day it bursts through it will blow up everything in its way. ~ Emile Zola

[mymanicmind]

I never knew smitten was a verb.

She smites the shadows with her light saber. How cool 😎

[mymanicmind]

People need to try stop burning me, for it’s redundant, for I AM FIRE. 🔥

You can’t burn fire with fire , it simply adds to my fire. I’ll consume your flickering flame and become one with it. Thank you for your attempt to burn me as your flame is now mine , your desire to burn me has made me stronger and brighter.

FIRE: The more flames 🔥 I devour, the more radiant I GLOW.

AIR: Your attempt to end me with air- you’re giving me oxygen. Sweet air, one of the three elements fire needs to burn. Making me burn hotter and brighter, making me grow larger , making my combustion cleaner.

WATER: Your attempt to finish my fire with water - you’re cooling my temperature , allowing me to act more level-headed , with precision and caution. Your water turns my fire into steam. Your water doesn’t extinguish me , ending me eternally - it allows me to undergo metamorphosis - I shift into ash and rise into smoke, elevating higher and higher , drifting far and beyond, out of reach.

EARTH: Your attempt to smother and boulder my fire with Earth- with one interaction I consume you, I burn you, your material matter stands no chance against my burning flame. 🔥 and if you do seemingly - with enough force- try and dispel my fire with earth, again you are cooling me , transforming me , insulating me, humoring me ! Aha !

So, please save yourself the energy - for when a fire starts to burn …. 🔥 and one that’s been burning 🥵 through eternities - it sees threats differently - it sees it as challenge, as strength and conditioning - it sees it as another chance to execute it’s mighty , fiery, force.

A Dragon’s fiery mythical flame , an unstoppable force, soaring high into the skies and throughout time.

A lion’s fiery ROAR 🦁 , evoking a fierce, regal blaze. Symbolic of courage ignited, noble wrath, solar power , a creative force to be reckoned with.

Come at me , August 8 Leo Lioness, Millennial GOLDEN DRAGON 🦁 🐉

My gold giving me strong will and ambition, gold metal clarity combining with my dragon visionary mind giving me sharp intellect.

Yes, I can be proud and intense, perhaps stubborn at times, it’s written in my stars, in my signs - but have you ever viewed differently ? As a deep, deep, passion - a passionate fire burning deep from within, too strong to conceal, too radiant it blinds , and dispels.