So Much More Fucked Up Than You Could Ever Be

CHIEF MOTIVATIONAL NINJA, WIDGET DISCIPLE, IMMERSION SENSEI. #HASHTAG.

[mymerrick-blog]

Doesn't mean that it's any easier to let go.

[deadbyinside-2]

[remanence-of-love]

love them with every broken piece…

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How can someone who hasn't felt this possibly understand.

[softlysaygoodbye]

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Tired of being involved with someone that only can feel annoyed or upset.

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I did, and the loss of him is so heartbreaking. I miss every single thing about him! Even the things that annoyed me, I'd give anything to be annoyed again.

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There's a social media group I belong to. Someone had brought up finding their spouse after their suicide and asked what has helped all of us deal with the ones we loved and our emotions and memories about their suicides. It is so heartbreaking to see so many people respond so quickly with their stories of loss. It crushes me to know that there are so many of us out there. I just don't know if I will ever fully recover. I don't know how any of us recover.

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Thinking of you today and every day. I know I should be happy. I know that's what you wanted for me. I just can't shake the ghost of you. #teamRAD

[mymerrick-blog]

I miss you more than you'll ever know.

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[schwierigephase]

“Don’t wait too long. Life takes unexpected turns, and we don’t always have the time we think we have.”

— Sylvain Reynard, Gabriel’s Rapture (via vollkommen-allein)

[fierysuggestion]

just because it still makes you cry doesn’t mean you aren’t moving on

[syntacked]

“We all grew up and did things we said we’d never do.”

— A 12 word autobiography (via syntacked)

[mymerrick-blog]

Next time you want to talk shit about me, just remember you will do this too.

[wordsbysimi-deactivated20210705]

“the saddest part about falling out of love with you was that I remember how much I loved you. I remember every single breathless, heart stopping, joy filled moment with you, and you ruined it. I wish I could remember you fondly but you broke me so many times that I can’t remember how to.”

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[mymerrick-blog]

I've been dreaming about you lately. A lot. Everytime something or someone is bad or painful in my dreams it turns into you. It feels like every bad painful thing in my life came from you. You should have just killed me.

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Forevermore

I don't know why I keep expecting that you'll change. You have always been selfish and self centered. I had hopes that you would grow out of it, grow up, evolve into a better person. But you continue to surround yourself with the lowest of the low. To immerse yourself into the dregs of society. You love the misery and it loves your company. You claim to shatter the glass ceiling to break free of oppression. But by loving the lies and the liars you keep yourself in shackles. Chaining yourself to the weights that keep you drowning. You break my heart with your actions. I break my heart by not being able to stop caring about what you're doing. It's a twisted cycle. I hope one of us puts a stop to it before it's far too late. I fear, however, those events have already been set into motion. You'll have lovely things to say once I'm gone.