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Midnight Rambles #12

who decided that money was a thing? why the heck does paper run our lives? some of it is not even paper!  some of it is imaginary points on the internet.

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Midnight Rambles #11

does anyone else wanna just melt into the floor? like just lay there and melt all wizard of Oz style? just me? cool cool

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Midnight Rambles #10

did you know that you can eat watermelon rinds? my hole life people told me it'd make me sick and found out other cultures make it for dinner.  I followed a Indian curry recipe and it turned out great! i also saw someone eat the middle of a sunflower before but I still don't know if they are edible or that person had a weird flex. bout to research and find out. 

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Midnight Rambles #9

They say fight your demons but who else is gonna sit with me while I stare off into space thinking about how small I really am? 

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Midnight Rambles #8

other peoples anger scares me to the point that I feel cold and numb. some people call this shock, others just call me quiet. I'm not allowed to get angry, I do not allow myself to experience my own anger because i don't want to be seen as crazy, hormonal, childish, unreasonable. I do not want to be see as the uncontrollable, angry, dangerous person, so i force patience. i am seen as the grumpy person, as the quiet one, the overly nice one.  it has been so long that i  do not know the difference between patience and compliance. disassociation is my only  comfort. don't yell at me, near me, around me. especially if I'm not the cause of your anger.

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Midnight Rambles #7

cleaning can be therapeutic, a good representation of the reflection of your mental health. functional room, functional brain.  however, I find that getting messy and dirty and ugly are just as useful as cleaning. 

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Midnight Rambles #6

To get pulp orange juice they add the pulp in after the juice. To get chunky peanut butter do they add the chunks in after they make the creamy butter or is it already in?

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Midnight Rambles #5

procrastination is the pastime of the anxious, the perfectionist, the depressed, people who have disordered eating, and any person of neurodivergent status. we have mastered the art of war, it is a skill that is used each time we battle ourselves. it is the strategy of avoidance, of trying to protect ourselves. its a slow and lethal comfort. I'm tired of being comfortable. 

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Midnight Rambles #4

people like to test death, and or just to test basic bodily responses and needs. 

human: needs water to live 

also human: drinks anything but water

human: needs sleep and to relax 

also human: watches scary movies at night knowing it will keep them up

I am human and I am guilty of said actions. 

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Midnight Rambles #3

cups and bowls. magnificent creations, cherish them.  

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Midnight Rambles #2

why is it that I am always one thought away from an existential crises? I was fine till I thought how the internet is real but not real. like its real just not tangible. i can interact with it but what makes a thing real or not?  

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Midnight Rambles #1

we are connected to the world in ways we will never understand. The echoes of the past will be heard by those who the future has yet to provide. listen even if you don`t understand.